between friendship and love

The weather is getting colder and colder, time passes by like running water, and before you know it, it's mid-December.

New fiery lanterns are hung on the streets, and it seems that some can't wait to welcome the new year.Qi Tian was having a hard time during this time. He and Yang Lin had less and less conversations. He used to be able to talk a few words at dinner, but in the past month, Yang Lin seldom had dinner at home. Come back, and occasionally stay out overnight.

Qi Tian was in a disturbed mood and wanted to ask him why, but he didn't have the position to ask, friends wouldn't care so much.

He started to suffer from insomnia, which was not serious at first, and he struggled to fall asleep until three or four o'clock in the morning. Later, he couldn't fall asleep all night, and only slept for an hour or two in the afternoon.But even when he fell asleep, he still had nightmares. After waking up, he couldn't remember what he had dreamed of. Only the residual fear made him feel uncomfortable.

The contact with Zhao Wen was also intermittent, and he found that he couldn't concentrate at all to face the girl.It's better when chatting on WeChat. If you don't reply to the other party, you can think that he didn't see it.Zhao Wen noticed something was wrong with him when they met, Qi Tian was in a trance, almost didn't listen to what he said, and asked him anything with a blank face.

Zhao Wen was worried about him and couldn't help persuading him, "Xiaotian, are you under a lot of pressure? How about we go to the hospital?"

Qi Tian shook his head to find an excuse, "It's just that I haven't had a good rest recently, sorry."

Zhao Wen was still worried, "But you have lost a lot of weight, and your face is also pale. Are you really all right?"

"It's okay, I just haven't had a good rest."

Seeing that the girl could not persuade him, she also had no way to persist.After we separated, it was very difficult to make an appointment with Qitian again. At first, Qitian made excuses to say he was busy, but then he didn't reply much at all.He stayed in the study almost all day, and only went out to buy a few packs of noodles every once in a while.Yang Lin seldom eats at home, so he just makes plain noodles for a casual meal, eats when he's hungry, and doesn't care when he's too hungry.

He could tell that Yang Lin was deliberately avoiding him, and he knew why he avoided him.He asked himself those questions countless times, but he was still not sure of the answers.The inability to fall asleep all night seemed to have drained his energy, and he could only recover some when he saw the man's face.So no matter how late Yang Lin comes back, he must sit on the sofa and wait for him. Sometimes if he can't wait, he just sits on the sofa overnight.

He didn't care about novels anymore, facing the computer screen, he couldn't type the words he wanted to type with his fingers on the keyboard, as if everything in front of him had many shadows, shaking in a mess, making him unable to distinguish Pure reality and illusion.

The editor knocked on his Q a few times, and even called him. He deleted the Q with a deadpan face, hung up the phone, and when the ringtone rang again, he simply turned off the phone.

He knew he must be sick.

He had to go to the hospital when he was sick, but he didn't want to go at all. He knew where the symptoms of his illness were, but he didn't have the courage to break it.He didn't understand why he was so entangled. He thought of his parents arguing when he was a child, and his mother called his father a lunatic, and asked him: "You don't even know what you want, so why lock me up with a lunatic like you for the rest of your life?"

He couldn't understand at that time, his father was obviously normal, why did his mother call him a lunatic?Later, when Dad drank and gambled, he looked a little crazy.

He doesn't think about things that he can't understand, but there are things that he can't understand everywhere. How does he feel about Yang Lin?He couldn't figure it out, did he love Yang Lin?he can't figure it out...

Yang Lin had a drink outside, and it was past one o'clock in the morning when he came back.The light was still on in the house, so he took a sigh of relief before taking out the key to open the door.Qi Tian was still sitting on the sofa with the TV turned on in front of him.

Qi Tian saw him and stood up, "Are you back?"

Yang Lin began to change his shoes, without looking at him, "Well, are you still sleeping?"

"Go to sleep." Qi Tian turned off the TV, looked at the man with some nostalgia, and then walked towards the study.

I said a word today, and the effect of the medicine seems to last until tomorrow.Qi Tian really wanted to have a good sleep, but he knew that he still couldn't fall asleep tonight.The legs almost ran towards the man against the will of the brain, but was subdued by the brain again.He hardly knew whether to be disappointed or to be thankful, as there seemed to be darkness in front of him.

The day before Christmas, Zhao Wen asked him out, Qi Tian thought about it, and agreed.That night, he drank most of the bottle of baijiu he bought secretly, and finally slept for a few hours.

Zhao Wen saw that he was in good spirits, and although he had lost some weight, he was still very happy.The girl walked through the park with him very interestedly, and then sat down on a bench.

Zhao Wen pondered for a long time, but still asked: "Xiaotian, tonight... are you going to my place?"

The girl spoke too directly, Qi Tian couldn't pretend not to understand.He thought for a while before asking, "Xiaowen, can I kiss you?"

The girl's face turned red, and she hesitated for a while before nodding, "Kiss." She faced him and closed her eyes.

Zhao Wen's facial features are very good-looking. In fact, with her conditions, she can find a better boy, but for some reason, she just fell in love with Qi Tian.Qi Tian looked at her cherry pink lips, after all, he didn't kiss her, but just touched her smooth forehead.

Zhao Wen opened her eyes in a daze, and looked at him puzzled.

Qi Tian's eyebrows were curved, and he seemed a little happy, "Xiaowen, I'm sorry."

"what happened?"

"I can't accept you, I'm sorry. Xiaowen, it's my fault. I have other people in my heart, but I didn't dare to face it up to now." Qi Tian was really guilty. If he wanted to marry a girl, He believed that Zhao Wen was definitely the best person he could meet.

But it wasn't until the moment he kissed him that he realized that Yang Lin was the only one with his innate desire.No kissing, no touching, just seeing that person makes your heart beat wildly.In the past, he didn't understand that kind of love. He thought it was because he cherished Yang Lin too much as a friend and didn't want to lose him so he lost control. Only now did he finally understand his own feelings.

Zhao Wen smiled, "It's okay." The girl showed a little distress, "Actually, I had a vague feeling that you didn't like me before, but I ignored it."

"I'm really sorry."

"It's okay, I will find a better one in the future, and I will tell you then."

"Ok."

Smiling and saying goodbye, the big rock in my heart finally fell to the ground.Qi Tian raised his head and found for the first time that the winter sun is so warm.

He went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, and when he returned home, he used his life's cooking skills and cooked a sumptuous dinner.

Yang Lin came back from get off work normally, which made him feel relieved.He raised a smile and greeted him, and found that the man didn't seem very happy, and his brows and eyes were a little gloomy.He asked with concern: "What's the matter? Is the work not going well?"

The man shook his head, and when he saw the dishes on the table, his expression was a little strange, "You're so interested in cooking so many delicious things today?"

Qi Tian nodded, "Well, there is something good I want to share with you." Qi Tian couldn't help but get excited when he thought that he would be able to settle down with the man immediately.He went to serve the meal, and even opened a bottle of red wine, pouring half a glass for both of them.

After they were seated, the two clinked glasses, and both ate their dishes absent-mindedly.Qi Tian felt that the timing was just right, he swallowed his saliva and was about to speak, the man opened his mouth first: "Xiao Tian, ​​I also have a good thing to share with you."

Qi Tian looked at him expectantly.

A smile appeared on the corner of Yang Lin's lips, looked into his eyes, and said slowly: "I made a boyfriend."