between friendship and love

The man must have come, for there were snowflakes on his head and shoulders.He was wearing a scarf and gloves, and the tip of his nose was a little red. Because of his height, he always looked good in anything he wore.

Yang Lin found him as soon as he came in.He didn't know if it was because he was close to him since he was a child, or for some other reason, although Qi Tian's presence was very weak, but he was always the first to see him in the crowd.

Before the name was called out, he had already seen his panicked expression and doubts in his heart, but when he saw Aunt Wu and the woman next to him, everything became clear.

Right, it's a blind date.

It was as if a big hole had been torn open in his chest, and all the wind, snow, and frost had poured into it. There was no time for pain, and he only felt numb for a moment.

Colleagues couldn't respond to greetings, and they couldn't smile on their faces anymore. They could only see the man in their eyes. Looking at the eyes he deliberately avoided, the heart-piercing pain finally came.

Yang Lin didn't know why he continued to walk towards him, his footsteps were heavy, and every step seemed to exhaust all his strength.He suddenly thought of the obedient appearance of the man in the past few days, the warm relationship between the two, and the sweet kiss.

Did he think it was love, but he was just accommodating?

Yes, he had already said that as long as Xiao Lin wanted to do anything, he could accept anything, whether it was what he liked or what he didn't want.

Ha, it turns out that the two have never changed.

Qi Tian had never seen Yang Lin like this.Even with his deadpan face, he knew he was angry, very, very angry.

Clenching his fingers tightly, he really didn't know how to deal with it, even the people at the next table noticed the strangeness between them.While swallowing, Aunt Wu looked up to see Yang Lin, and exclaimed happily, "Oh, it's Xiao Lin? You're back? You're so handsome."

She got up and took his arm, and said with a smile, "Did you bring your girlfriend back during the Chinese New Year? You're not young anymore, it's time to find one, how about I introduce one for you? Look at Xiaotian, he's younger than you It's been five days, and now I'm actively going on blind dates..."

She babbled a lot, and Qi Tian was so frightened that he just wanted to hold her back, so he mustered up his courage before he spoke, "Aunt Wu, Xiaolin still has friends here."

Aunt Wu looked at the handsome men and beautiful women at the next table, and finally stopped talking. She sat down and added, "If you want to find a girlfriend, you can find me anytime. My Aunt Wu promises to find you a handsome wife."

Yang Lin let out a "hmm", stopped looking at Qi Tian, ​​walked to the next table and took a seat.Qi Tian lowered his head and listened to the laughter at the next table, feeling like he was sitting on pins and needles for a moment, his whole body was full of uneasiness.Fortunately, they were all full, the woman just wanted to leave, Qi Tian didn't know how to persuade her to stay, let alone asked for her contact information.He stayed for a while, then walked slowly to the cashier to pay the bill.

When they passed by their table, several people were toasting and drinking.Qi Tian hesitated for a moment, but still decided not to speak, he walked out slowly, and suddenly a hand grabbed his arm.Qi Tian raised his head and saw Yang Lin's calm face.

He said, "It's snowing heavily, I'll drive you."

Qi Tian stood there blankly, Yang Lin asked a friend for the car key, "You guys drink first, I'll be back in a while."

The man didn't let go of his hand, and kept pulling him forward.Qi Tian tried his best to walk faster, so that his limping leg was not so obvious.Walking outside, Yang Lin took him to a black car, unlocked the door and pushed him into the passenger seat.

Start the car, reverse the car, turn a corner, and walk a very long distance, which can be reached in only 5 minutes by car.Qi Tian twisted his fingers nervously, and his voice trembled when he spoke, "Didn't you go to the company today?"

"A few colleagues wanted to come to pay New Year's greetings, so I waited for them. As a result, my parents went out early in the morning. I was lazy to make food, so I made an appointment with them in this restaurant."

The man's tone was calm and unwavering, as if it was the same as usual, and there was no sign of anger.

Only Qi Tian knew that he was angry, he suddenly missed the gentle and lingering tone of the man in his ear yesterday, this difference made him want to cry, his eye circles turned red uncontrollably.

If... If it can stop a man from being angry, he can do whatever he wants.

Soon they arrived at the downstairs of their house, the man didn't intend to get out of the car, and Qi Tian didn't dare to move.The twisted fingers turned white, but felt no pain.The atmosphere was too oppressive, he was afraid, afraid of losing, and also afraid of facing it.

I don't know how long it took before the man opened his mouth, his tone was low and hoarse, "As long as it's a woman...anyone will do?"

"Xiaolin..."

"Would you rather be with that kind of woman than me?"

There was no anger in his tone, only deep pain.Qi Tian had the illusion that he seemed to be crying.His heart was heavy like a big stone, Qi Tian wanted to explain, but he couldn't.

The fact is that there is no way to explain it.

"In the past few days, I thought I got it. Is gender the original sin?" He buried his head on the steering wheel, his body trembled for a moment, and suddenly laughed again, "I can't change my gender, right? Because I can't have children ...you still can't accept me...why do you want me to hug you?"

He knew the reason, he knew it many years ago, what he should have accepted tomorrow, and now he began to realize Qi Tian's determination.

"In order not to leave myself alone, so let me do whatever I want? Ha, I'm really sorry."

"Xiaolin..."

"I understand." He wiped his face, and when he raised his head to face him, the smile on his face became sunny and bright again, "Xiaotian, I will send you here, and I will go back to accompany them. "

Qi Tian's eyes were red, he pursed his lips and did not speak.

"Don't worry, we are still friends, I will call you often." He pressed down his palm, touched the top of his head, and grinned with white teeth.

His mood was not relaxed because of his smile, the tears in his eyes finally fell, he tried to wipe them off with his sleeve, his voice choked up, "I'm sorry, Xiao Lin, I'm sorry..."

Yang Lin turned the car around and saw Qi Tian was still standing there with his head down from the rearview mirror, he must be still crying.

Feeling sad for a while, I tried my best to step on the accelerator and leave him.

The distance is getting farther and farther, and the hole in my heart is getting bigger and bigger.He finally resigned to his fate. There are really things in the world that he can't do with his best efforts.He was like the monkey looking at the moon in the water, always thinking that he would be able to pick it up and make the treasure into his bosom.After trying, failing, and falling painfully, I realized that everything was in vain.

Ha, in fact, he is still lucky.As long as you go against your will, you can hug him and kiss him, and do all kinds of things you want to do. That person will not refuse, but will try to cater to him, and even pretend to be very happy.

It's just that no matter what, I can't pass my own psychological level.

If you don't love, even if you try your best to restrain yourself, you will get nothing in the end, right?The heart will not be happy for such a charity-like feeling.

Maybe, it's still too late to rein in the precipice, right?You should also be able to let go and pursue your true happiness.

He tried to comfort himself, but deep down he knew that this was just comfort.If he could let go, he would have already let go.

But now, it is time to let go.