Pure Love General Administration Scum Transformation Center

The moment the thought quietly arises, he has already reacted.

--Who else?

There will be no one.

Lu Jiu suddenly got up and stepped to the door.

After Chu's mother passed away, this was the first time he heard Chu Ge cry.

At that time, Chu Ge was restless and lost his mind. After the doctor told the painful result, it seemed that all his emotions and tears were taken away.

Only a soulless shell remains, dying.

Lu Jiu felt sore and advised him to cry if he wanted to, but Chu Ge opened his eyes wide.His eyes were bloodshot, and he stared blankly at him, but refused to cry.

At that time, Lu Jiu thought that he was strong enough, and thought that he would get out of this shadow sooner, but later she realized that it was her big mistake.

Obviously sad to the extreme.

Desperate, numb, unable to even cry.

Lu Jiu pushed open the door.

There was no cover for the sobs.

In the dark shadows, the shadow on the bed was trembling constantly, as if caught in his own emotions, not noticing the movement from the outside world at all.

Lu Jiu walked over, and the closer he got, the clearer the sobbing sound, which was mixed with infinite fear and pain, made people's hearts tighten when they heard it.

He strode forward and patted Chu Ge's cheek lightly, his face was cold with his tentacles.

Tears flowed down my face.

"Wake up, don't cry..."

Under the bedside lamp, the eyes were tightly closed, and the lips moved slightly, making vague and broken syllables.

His whole body was convulsed, his hands and feet twitched unconsciously, like a drowning person who fell into the vortex of a storm, or like a person trapped in a nightmare and unable to get out.

Lu Jiu patted his cheek, but it had no effect. As a last resort, he finally pinched the tiger's jaw hard.

The stimulation of severe pain finally taught people to wake up.

The eyes that greet us are ignorant, dazed and dazed.

Chu Ge was dreaming again.

In fact, he rarely dreamed about the past, because it was already blurred.Most of the time, his dreams are grotesque and uninhibited.

Yet there are occasional moments that are not so grotesque.

He dreamed of a little child, of a thunderstorm night with roaring thunder and lightning, of a stiff and icy body...

There are countless pictures, countless fragments.

The thin and small child grew up and became a teenager, but his arm was still so thin that it would snap if he pinched it.

He came to a completely strange environment from a remote and difficult place, just like an ugly duckling in the country falling into a group of beautiful swans, he was out of place with the surroundings from the inside to the outside.

There was a rustling sound, and it was the nib of the pen sliding on the paper. He got a very high score in the test, but no one believed that he could do it.

Yelling, uproar, shouting...

It seemed that someone was walking towards him aggressively.

Dream fragments.

Those grotesque pictures turned into a phantom, broke into countless pieces and flew into the water like white paper. The color and ink on it were completely wet by the water, and they were rendered in one place, making them unrecognizable.

And turned into another moment.

The memory freezes at that scene again.

In the summer afternoon, the sun was scorching, a serious but loving father, a gentle, beautiful and tolerant mother.

Both husband and wife sat aside, listening to his whimsical talk, never wanting to study again.

He agreed with a smile, sighed and touched his head, met his angry eyes, and said leisurely:

"... Mom and Dad will always be away one day, and they can't continue to accompany you on the walk. At that time, you will be left alone, so what should you do?"

He began to panic, he began to fear, he began to fear.

Depressed emotions intertwined in his heart, he whispered: "Mom and Dad will live a long life."

There was a low sigh.

"Okay, they will live a long life."

But the people who promised him with a smile, one by one, have all passed away.

He couldn't stop crying, woke up from the dream, and still couldn't stop crying.

The cheeks were touched carefully, and the tears were gently wiped away. The body that greeted him was so warm that he put his head in Lu Jiu's arms.

Lu Jiu patted him on the back, afraid that he would cry out.

Chu Ge choked up and said, "I'm having a nightmare..."

Lu Jiu whispered: "What did you dream about that made you cry so hard?"

Sobbing and almost unable to stop, the pictures and fragments are intertwined.

After a while, Chu Ge finally said: "I dreamed about things from my childhood, many things from the past...but there are so many things, I can't remember them all."

"I dreamed that my parents were by my side. Promise me that I will live a good life."

"They promised me a long life...why did they lie to me?"

Birth, old age, sickness and death, life cannot be violated.Welcome and send, what can I do.

But why is it so cruel?

Lu Jiu's heart felt as if he had been stabbed and soaked in salt water. It was extremely difficult for him to speak: "I'm sorry, it's my fault, Chu Ge..."

The man in his arms raised his head, his eyes still hazy with tears, as if he didn't understand what he was talking about.

——What's wrong with Lu Jiu?

However, Chu Ge didn't say anything, but Lu Jiu couldn't help thinking.

What happened that day became extremely clear, flowing through my mind like a movie.

He remembered Chu Ge's slightly disturbed expression, remembered Chu Ge's saying that his right eyelid was twitching, remembered that Chu Ge suppressed his anxiety for the time being and joked with him, remembered Chu Ge's heart-piercing wail...

vividly.

"I shouldn't have dragged you outside. I should have gone back with you earlier. If it had been earlier, maybe Aunt Chu would..."

A lump in the throat and a sore nose.

But was interrupted.

Chu Ge's voice was very soft: "It's not your fault."

Lu Jiu shook his head: "Yes, actually, I have noticed that Auntie Chu is not in good health, it's just me..."

——But I don’t have the courage to do what I want to do.

He thought that the arrangements he had made were enough, that he had already helped, and was deceived by the appearance, thinking that everything was gradually getting better.

So Chu Ge didn't say anything, so he didn't mention it either.

But forget that human life is as thin as paper.

As long as you touch it lightly, it will be broken, completely, and it will not stick back.

"You can blame me. It's all my problem. Aunt Chu has already left. You will live on in the future. Don't think about it anymore, okay?"

He blamed himself for all the faults, and blamed himself with guilt.

However, the dead have passed away, and what is more worrying is the people who are still living in this world.

The sobbing finally stopped, Chu Ge raised his head, his eyes were still a little dazed in the red eye sockets.

——So where is Lu Jiu's fault?

Chu Ge shook his head lightly, as if talking in his sleep: "It's not your fault, it's because I didn't notice, her body is like this."

"I think of a lot of things from the past, there is no way, it's just like this..."

"It's been a pleasure to see her for so long."

Chu Ge was having nightmares, endless nightmares, all night and all night, being dragged into the nightmare and whirlpool.

He dreamed of things from his childhood, dreamed of himself as a teenager, and then his memory was fragmented, and he couldn't remember it anymore.

There was a scene that kept repeating, and frame by frame was frozen in the halo. Chu's father and mother promised him with a smile that he would live a long life.

Then it turned into a cramped space, a room of ambiguity, and a cold body.

Lu Jiu didn't know that he was having a nightmare until he heard sobbing that night.

Chu Ge didn't want him to accompany him, and Lu Jiu couldn't help it, so he could only delay his bedtime.

Then, he heard that sob again.

He ran over, patted Chu Ge's cheek, wiped Heng Si's tears, and woke him up expertly.

Chu Ge was not sleepy, leaning against him, he whispered softly, talking about interesting things; Chu Ge gradually became sleepy, nestled in his arms, he patted and patted spine.

When leaning against him, gradually, the sleep became more stable.

Lu Jiu gave up his previous practice of letting Chu Ge go and not interfering, and decided to drag him out of the shadow that enveloped him.

If Chu Ge is unwilling, then he will block that shadow.

He forbids Chu Ge to spend a lot of time on sleep like before, and forbids him to refuse people's approach on the grounds of sadness and pain.

Lu Jiu grabbed him, dragged him, dragged him, pressed him, pressed him, and had to sit at the table with her.

Whether it's games, reading, activities, or explanations...

All in all, to occupy his full time.

Lu Jiu had experienced it before, and he couldn't understand such feelings very well. People can't be idle, and it's easy to think wildly when they are idle, especially Chu Ge's temperament, which was so withdrawn in the past.

Chu Ge once promised to be a counselor and a tutor for him, so he must continue to be a tutor.

Lu Jiu was very glad that he had found such a reason, so that he could pester Chu Ge openly and find something for Chu Ge to do.

He was afraid that Chu Ge would fall in love with the scene, so he forced Chu Ge to move to a house on the third floor of the school's family building. Because of repeated nightmares every night, he even slept in the same room.

Only by leaning on him, those nightmares will gradually disappear, Chu Ge acquiesced.

The two were originally at the same table, but now they live together, the venue of the activity almost completely overlaps, and they are inseparable.

Chu Ge seemed to be getting better, but others couldn't see it, but Lu Jiu knew that he was still a little silent compared to before.

Lu Jiu had seen him smile with raised eyebrows, but now, those smiles have all faded away.

One night, Lu Jiu calmly talked about his own experience. His mother Lu died in a foreign country, and he was alone and unaccompanied.In an extremely flat tone, he said that he had discovered a shocking secret.Father is not father, mother is not mother, he was picked up after being thrown away.

"At least your uncles and aunts love you very much, unlike me, who are just abandoned."