Ye Can

In the next period of time, Ye Can decided to accept Dr. Yang's treatment well, and try not to disturb Lin Zixi's life until his memory recovered.

How could a Ye Can who has no memory be Ye Can who fell in love with Lin Zixi?But Ye Can who has recovered his memory, must it be the Ye Can who once accompanied Lin Zixi?

Questions like these swirled back and forth in Ye Can's mind, making her anxious.She knew where the medicine to save her heart was, but the current Ye Can could not overcome so many internal resistances to get her.In order to alleviate this anxiety, Ye Can had no choice but to increase the frequency of looking for Dr. Yang.

Since the addition of a patient like Ye Can, Dr. Yang felt that his private time was taken up by the other party.Although Ye Can's consultation fee was very generous, Dr. Yang still couldn't resist her "enthusiasm".She tactfully suggested that the other party can "revisit the old place" and "replay the old things" in order to restore the memory faster.

After all, just relying on hypnosis to unearth the subconscious mind, it is very difficult to restore all the memories.

This afternoon, Ye Can was kicked out of the consulting room by the other party again.With a dejected face, she came to the bathroom, splashed water on her face, raised her head and looked at herself in the mirror through the hazy water mist.

The person in the mirror was wearing a casual white shirt, a red patterned scarf, and a gauze skirt of the same style as the scarf, looking very bookish.

Ye Can frowned, staring at himself in the mirror, seeing the coquettish aura in his brows, raised his finger and pointed at himself in the mirror and said in a firm tone: "You are Ye Can? Then who am I?"

Ye Can stared at the other party for a long time, but he didn't get an answer he wanted for a long time.The person in the mirror is not like what is said in the book, he will jump up and say to her: "Of course I am also Ye Can! It is another you!"

This kind of absurd thing did not happen, Ye Can lowered his head and sighed softly: "Why is there no such miracle?"

Why does her life have to be so dramatic?It was as illusory as if played by fate.

If there is such a thing as fate, she must have suffered such revenge because she has done too many evil things.

Ye Can walked out of the bathroom with her head drooping. When she came to the door dejectedly, she bumped into a lady unexpectedly.

The two collide, and the woman takes a step back.A familiar scent wafted to the tip of her nose, Ye Can looked up while saying sorry, and saw Lin Zixi at this moment.

Their eyes met, and the two met unexpectedly.

Lin Zixi bit her lip and said in disbelief, "Ye Can?"

Ye Can's eyes sparkled, she nodded and said, "It's me, long time no see, Lin Zixi."

Lin Zixi noticed that her address had changed, looked at her in a daze and said, "What are you talking about? Why are you here? What are you doing here?"

The door of the bathroom is not a good place to talk. Ye took a step forward, walked to Lin Zixi and explained to her: "I have been suffering from insomnia recently, so I have to see a doctor. This is not a place to talk, you go in first , I'll wait for you here, if you have time we can chat?"

Lin Zixi grasped the handbag tightly, with complicated eyes: "You..."

Ye Can pushed her back and said, "Go, go, I'm right here, I won't go far."

This meeting was something neither of them expected.Ye Can stood at the door, looking at Lin Zixi's back disappearing in front of his eyes, feeling inexplicably happy.

Just being happy, Ye Can suddenly realized one thing: Why did Lin Zixi appear in the same hospital with her?

Soon, Ye Can's question was answered.

The two came out of the hospital, took Ye Can's car, and sat down at a nearby coffee shop.At this time, Lin Zixi explained to Ye Can: "I...have severe insomnia, so I will visit the hospital regularly for consultation."

Ye Can looked at the medicine stuffed in Lin Zixi's bag, feeling very complicated.Compared with Lin Zixi, she didn't know who was more like a plaything of fate.

He had obviously forgotten his amnesiac lover, but he remembered it by accident.When he knew the definite news of the other party's death, he was suspicious and doubted the existence of the other party.In such repeated torment, all psychological defenses were defeated time and time again by sadness.

Ye Can only felt distressed for a while.

She slumped on the sofa, breathing in vain like a fish that had been cut open.It took a while for Ye Can to suppress the pain, looked at Lin Zixi and asked, "What about now? Is it much better now?"

Lin Zixi fiddled with the black coffee in front of him, and smiled slowly: "It's much better, it's much better already."

She even raised her eyes, glanced at Ye Can, and carefully asked, "May I ask why you need psychological counseling?"

For a moment, Ye Can even wanted to tell the whole story.But looking at Lin Zixi's state, Ye Can thought of the memory that he might not be able to recover, so he could only endure these words.

Don't give uncertain hope, because uncertainty will cause more serious secondary damage to Lin Zixi like this.

Ye Can had no choice but to say half-truth, "I may have some problems with my mental state recently. My sister—that is, Ye Shen, gave birth to a girl not long ago. I think she may not need me very much. I have A feeling of nowhere to go."

To put it bluntly, the few children Ye Shen gave birth to had nothing to do with Ye Can.Her home has never been with Ye Shen, and the only person she wants to establish an intimate relationship with is Lin Zixi.

Lin Zixi was a little surprised, she raised her wrist, hooked the hair on her sideburns behind her ears, pondered for a while and said, "You mean, your sister neglected you after she had a child, which made you lonely? "

Ye Can lay on the table, propped his chin with one hand and replied lazily: "You can put it this way. You see, after having someone else, the person I feel closest to will feel abandoned and lonely? I feel that right now. ,very lonely……"

"I feel like the world is so big, and I'm the only one alone. It's like a spaceship floating in space, or like an isolated island standing in the deep sea, no one visits. I'm just exiled by the world."

"No one understands me, I don't have anything to do, I just feel lonely."

In the past three years, many times, many times, when Ye Can, who picked up the paintbrush, felt free and carefree under the starry sky, in the grassland, and in the wilderness, as long as he thought of the three words "Lin Zixi", One word, you will feel inexplicably depressed.

She felt lonely because she couldn't share everything with the one she wanted to share.

She felt lonely, and she couldn't find the partner she wanted, even in a crowded crowd.

More importantly, even if she paints all day long, she cannot say that she finds pleasure in painting.Because there are greater pleasures and desires that attract her, and she cannot have them, and this is the real reason why she cannot be happy.

Lin Zixi, who was sitting opposite her, was stunned for a moment.The Ye Can in front of her was very much like the person she met when she first met six years ago, and also very much like the king who sat alone in the firelight and couldn't fall asleep during those countless lingering nights.

Lin Zixi opened her lips, hesitated to speak several times, and asked after a while, "Friend... don't you have friends to accompany you?"

Ye Can put his chin on another hand, thought for a while and replied, "Strictly speaking, I have no friends."

Such an answer was completely expected by Lin Zixi.She paused, and asked tentatively: "What about painting? Didn't you say before that you have been painting and walking around? Haven't you thought about changing your mood?"

Ye Can frowned, and said, "There used to be, but now...you know, conflicts have a primary and a secondary one. My main conflict now is my most important person, who is far away from me, which makes me Feeling lonely, and not made up for by other secondary pleasures."

Ye Can leaned over, looked straight at Lin Zixi and asked, "Can you understand this feeling?"

Once upon a time, Lin Zixi suffered repeatedly in this kind of emotion.But she has friends, a job that she is interested in, and memories that support her through the long night, so she can survive step by step.

Facing Ye Can's question now, Lin Zixi nodded and replied, "Can... I can feel a little bit."

Ye Can breathed a sigh of relief, and said to himself: "The doctor thinks I should go out more and develop some new relationships or hobbies, but I can't arouse any interest right now."

"do you have any good advice?"

Facing Ye Can's distressed expression, Lin Zixi pondered for a while and said, "Participate in more social activities?"

Ye Can vetoed the proposal: "This is a very boring behavior. I don't think anyone can attract me."

Lin Zixi thought for a while, and pondered: "Enroll in more interest classes? Or lectures for fellow students?"

Ye Can was not very impressed with this: "If you mean some mutual aid clubs for patients, I actually participated, but the results were not satisfactory."

Lin Zixi continued: "Then...how about writing down or drawing what's on your mind? Usually, you'll feel better after you confide, won't you?"

Lin Zixi seemed to be really solving Ye Can's problems, with a very sincere expression on his face, and a little bit at a loss.Seeing her expression like this, Ye Can suddenly realized that she was not the only one who would feel relaxed in such a meeting.

Lin Zixi did not feel uncomfortable because of her, on the contrary, in their getting along, Lin Zixi showed an obvious joy and lightness.

Ye Can paused, looked into the other person's eyes and said, "It's like now, right?"

Lin Zixi was taken aback, and nodded vaguely: "Well, it can be said that way. If talking with me makes you feel comfortable, of course I'd be happy to be your listener."

Ye Can smiled, and looked at Lin Zixi with bright eyes: "Then now, you are my friend, right?"

Lin Zixi stared blankly at the light in her eyes, nodded after a while, and responded softly: "Yes. If you want, of course we are already friends."

Such an answer made Ye Can raise some inexplicable hopes.She breathed a sigh of relief, summoned up her courage and asked, "So, can I talk to you in the future like today?"

Lin Zixi showed a rare smile: "Of course." As if these words were not enough to express his feelings, Lin Zixi thought for a while and added: "I am extremely happy."