time has waited for me

Jing Xian felt that Ai Qingying was extremely clingy.

When sleeping, he insisted on hugging him, and insisted on sleeping on his shoulder.

It's true that Jing Xian is not fat, or even thin, but his height is there, at least he weighs more than 100 kilograms. After sleeping on it overnight, can his shoulders not be numb?He was kind, but Ai Qingying refused to agree, so Jing Xian had no choice but to sleep in his arms.

In fact, Jing Xian didn't reject it, he felt that someone was willing to sleep in his arms, and it was quite comfortable.

Just worried that the other party was uncomfortable, he waited until the sound of long breathing sounded behind him, guessing that he was falling asleep, so he gently moved his head away.Unexpectedly, as soon as he moved away, Ai Qingying asked in a daze: "What's wrong..."

As he said that, he wrapped his hands around again, tightly.

"It's nothing..." Jing Xian continued helplessly and had to be hugged by him.

In the middle of the night, Jing Xian woke up once, and he quickly moved away again. This time, his movements were light and light, and Ai Qingying fell into a deep sleep. He thought, this should be all right.

However, a few minutes later, Ai Qingying, who was behind her, quickly moved over, hugged him into her arms again, and rubbed her chin into his shoulder, so tightly that she did not move again.

Taking advantage of the moonlight, Jing Xian looked back at him.

Good-looking people are good-looking when they are asleep.

Ai Qingying who was asleep still looked like a child, Jing Xian couldn't help but feel pity in his heart, and suddenly thought of the time when he committed suicide.Since he didn't like that boy that much, what would be the real reason for committing suicide?Listening to his voice, it seems that parents always quarrel?

Jing Xian sighed secretly, just in response to that sentence, everyone has difficulties.

The more cheerful a person is, the deeper the wound in his heart will be hidden.

He moved, and Ai Qingying pouted dissatisfiedly in her sleep.

Jing Xian turned over, fell asleep facing him, kissed him pitifully on the mouth, and buried herself in Ai Qingying's arms.

Let's work together.

In the morning, Ai Qingying insisted on sending Jing Xian to work, and she argued plausibly that this was his duty to be taken care of.

If he didn't agree, he kept acting coquettishly, Jing Xian was so annoyed that he had to agree.

Jing Xian originally planned to live in Songjiang, but now he feels that he should go back to sleep at his home in the city!The two should keep a proper distance!

After making this decision, when I was about to get off work in the afternoon, I began to hesitate again.

After all, he actually misses the little yellow duck who can only act like a baby, and wants to see him all the time, and the little yellow duck feels very comfortable in his arms.

After hesitating until he got off work, he still hadn't made a decision. Colleague Lin and Colleague Xu were going to the shopping mall. They went on the same road with Jing Xian, and asked Jing Xian if he could give them a ride. Jing Xian agreed, and the three of them went out together. Ai Qingying was seen at the door.

As soon as Ai Qingying saw Jing Xian's car driving out, she immediately laughed.

Jing Xian stepped on the brake unconsciously, looked at Ai Qingying outside the car, a little dazed.

"Oh!!" The two colleagues were excited, their eyes glowed, and they stared at Ai Qingying on the side of the road, "The handsome guy changed his hairstyle!"

Yes, he changed his hairstyle. It was exactly what Jing Xian said before. He curled his hair slightly and dyed it brown chestnut. He wore the beige coat that Jing Xian bought for him, with light pink and light blue stripes. The long scarf is wrapped around the neck, standing on a winter night, it looks extremely soft and warm.

Jing Xian recalled in a daze when he was in high school, when he was the most confused, most afraid, and the only time he had hoped for love.In the winter night after school, how I wished that there would be such a boy waiting for me at the school gate.

In a daze, Jing Xian really thought that time and space could be disordered.

Ai Qingying had already come, opened the door to get into the car, and smiled at him: "I'll pick you up!" Before Jing Xian could react, he turned around and greeted his colleagues very naturally, "Hi, we meet again!"

"Hello, hello, hello!" The two colleagues were very excited, and they took the initiative to explain, "I originally planned to ask Jing Xian to take us to the mall, but now we don't bother."

Jing Xian regained his senses slightly, and quickly called them to stop, but Ai Qingying had already smiled and said, "It's okay, we'll take you there."

It's "We Oh"!

The two of them looked at each other and smiled knowingly "hehe".

Jing Xian sent them to the shopping mall and was about to drive away when Ai Qingying rushed over and hugged him tightly: "I miss you so much!"

"...We just met this morning."

"I don't care, I don't care, I miss you."

Jing Xian wanted to scold him a few words, but he hugged him tightly, he was already familiar with the smell on Ai Qingying's body, after all, he didn't have the heart to scold him, but did what he wanted to do just now, he rubbed Rubbing Ai Qingying's curly hair.

He was a late boy.

"The hair is still a bit short. Teacher Tony said it's not easy to perm, but you asked me to perm, so I permed it. The result seems to be pretty good?"

Jing Xian laughed out loud, touched it again, and said softly, "It's beautiful."

Ai Qingying raised her head again and kissed him hard on the cheek.

Jing Xian was sullen: "Are you a puppy!"

"I'm an annoying puppy, I'm a greedy pig, I'm a woodpecker that keeps pecking, and I'm still Jing Xian's best and favorite little yellow duck!"

"Shameless, who likes you!"

"Hey!" Ai Qingying smiled very cutely.

After all, Jing Xian hugged him again before driving away with him.

Now, he doesn't have to hesitate anymore, someone has already made a decision for him.

Ai Qingying had a performance in the evening, so the two of them had dinner and went straight to the bar.Ai Qingying was with his teammates, Jing Xian went upstairs to work on the computer, halfway through his work, while Jing Xian was drinking water, looking at the current situation, he couldn't help being funny.

I really didn't expect such a day to come.

However, it seems to be not bad?

After finishing his work, he should be busy, at around nine o'clock, Jing Xian went downstairs to listen to music.

Ai Qingying didn't sing on it anymore, she must have something else to do, Jing Xian didn't look for it either, she found a seat in the corner and sat down comfortably drinking iced tea alone, listening to other singers sing.

For a period of time after that, it was always like this, and the two of them didn't say anything specifically, and reached a consensus without knowing it.

When there were performances, Jing Xian accompanied him, and most of the time he was upstairs reading or working.After the performance, we will go back to our home in the city together.

When there is no performance, I go back to Songjiang early after get off work, almost never order takeout, let Ai Qingying cook his "crazy" meal, Jing Xian eats a little more every time, a month later, Jing Xian has not changed for many years I gained a catty over my weight. Of course, this is already around the time of the Chinese New Year.

Years ago, one day, Jing Xian was tired from watching the computer, so he came down to listen to music, and sat in the corner with his eyes closed to rest, while Ai Qingying and his teammates were rehearsing on the third floor.

The sound of tables and chairs moving suddenly sounded in his ears, Jing Xian immediately opened his eyes, he was afraid of meeting Yun Yuanshan by chance.

Fortunately, at the end of the semester, Yun Yuanshan was busy with exams, so he didn't have much time to come here recently.

He opened his eyes and saw that it wasn't Yun Yuanshan, but that pretty little boy, Ai Qingying's ex-boyfriend who was only three days old.

The little boy was no longer as aggressive as before, but sat on the opposite side of Jing Xian a little lonely, looking very pitiful.

Jing Xian didn't speak, and continued to close his eyes to meditate. The little boy actually sat quietly for about half an hour before he got up and left.

A few times later, as long as Ai Qingying was not around, Jing Xian would meet him intermittently, and he would not speak as usual, just sitting across from Jing Xian.

When the Chinese New Year was approaching, finally, the little boy took the initiative to talk to Jing Xian, and his attitude was not bad, calling Jing Xian "brother".

Jing Xian looked at him, his tears suddenly came down, Jing Xian had a headache, how much this child likes to cry.

The little boy picked up the paper on the table and wiped his tears, and said while wiping, "Brother, is Cyan really taken care of by you?"

Jing Xian didn't speak, he said sadly: "The first time I met Cyan was when I was a sophomore in high school. My classmates and I sneaked here because I heard that the songs here are good..." He told Jing Xian a A lot of things from the past, it turned out that he didn't like boys at first, and it was because of Cyan that he turned, "I was so happy when I chased him, but I was scared after a few days. He is so good and so dazzling, how could it be possible?" Where does it belong to me? I am also afraid that he will find out that I am not that good, and I am afraid that he will dump me, so I broke up with him......"

Jing Xian listened to the young man's thoughts, and would not feel sorry for them, but felt that this little boy was not a bad boy in essence.Even though he is young, and because of his good looks, his family conditions seem to be good, so he should be a child who has been pampered since he was a child.

He cried and continued: "Later, you also know... In fact, I can bear that he doesn't like me, and I can even accept that he hates me. It doesn't matter if he is with others, but how can he be like this... He changed the direction of my life. He was my dream since I was 16 years old. I dared to pursue him only after graduating from high school. Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ……”

Jing Xian felt sorry for him at this time.

But it's just a little bit, it's impossible for him to give up his little yellow duck to anyone.

His little yellow duck is his.

Although the little yellow duck is really not such a person, the little yellow duck is easy to raise, he can wear whatever clothes he buys, and eats his leftovers. What he doesn't like to eat is all the little yellow duck eats.

The so-called "nurturing relationship" between the two of them is just a joke, Jing Xian himself knows that there is no such kind of nurturing, but he is willing to live in such a daze, and he doesn't want to think too clearly, it is a blessing to be dazed.

Of course he wouldn't explain it to the little boy.

But Jing Xian still handed him a few tissues: "Life is like this, every pain will bring you to grow up, when you grow up, look back at these, you will thank them."

"Ohh Ohh ohh…………"

"You are a very good boy. You should be more confident in the future. You will have a very bright future."

"Thank you, brother." The little boy looked up at him, crying and apologizing, "I'm sorry, I was still drawing on your car before, you are a good person, I did something wrong, I'm sorry, I said you're welcome before If not, I'm too bad."

Jing Xian couldn't help laughing, he had actually forgotten about it, and he passed the tissue paper to the little boy: "Don't cry, I forgot about it long ago."

"Brother, you are really kind, you are a good person!"

Jing Xian was about to speak, when behind him, Ai Qingying came hurriedly, frowning and asked the little boy, "Why are you here?"

The little boy looked up at Ai Qingying, got up, and said goodbye to Jing Xian: "Brother, I'll go first, thank you." After speaking, he bowed to Jing Xian, turned and ran away.

"..." Ai Qingying felt baffled, and asked Jing Xian again, "Did he say anything to you?"

"It's nothing." Jing Xian didn't intend to tell the little boy's thoughts, it was trust if he was told, but he wanted to ask about Ai Qingying's suicide.

Fortunately, Ai Qingying didn't think it was a big deal, so she reached out her hand to him: "Let's go! We can go home!" Jing Xian got up, didn't hold his hand, and kept thinking about how to say this, Ai Qingying was already very happy Talking to him about the Chinese New Year, "Our bar will not be closed during the Chinese New Year, our band will be resting, and there will be other resident singers singing during the Chinese New Year. We plan to have a dinner tomorrow, including all the bar staff!"

Jing Xian nodded. In a place like a bar, it is true that there are very few real rests during the Chinese New Year.

"Are you coming together?"

"I won't go, there are too many people."

Ai Qingying didn't force him, the two got into the car, Ai Qingying drove back to Songjiang together, Jing Xian was already on vacation.

Ai Qingying asked him: "Where did you spend the New Year?"

Jing Xian couldn't help sighing. In the past, during the Chinese New Year, one year at grandparents' house and one year at grandma's house, it took turns.This year happened to be at my grandmother's house. A few days ago, my parents told him that he was still abroad during the Chinese New Year and would not come back for the Chinese New Year.Bai Fan is also very busy recently, and seems to have to travel abroad during the Chinese New Year.

He is alone and should go to his grandmother's house, but he is embarrassed.

He didn't know what to do, so he asked Ai Qingying, "What about you?"

"Maybe I have to have a meal with my parents separately."

Jing Xian thought for a while, and asked tentatively, "Are your parents divorced?"

Ai Qingying was very surprised, Jing Xian finally asked about his family, he was very happy, he thought this was getting closer!He didn't hide it at all, and said directly: "My parents have never been married!"

"..." Changing Jingxian was dumbfounded this time.

"Hahaha!" Ai Qingying couldn't help laughing at his frightened look, "Because of me, the two of them broke up. My mother doesn't want to have children or get married. My father really wants to marry my mother. I thought it would be all right to have a child, but in the end—" Ai Qingying shrugged, "The two of them collapsed, and the collapse is still not healed."

Ai Qingying said it easily, but Jing Xian listened in a thrilling way, what kind of miraculous parents are these!

No wonder his little yellow duck had such a life before!

Jing Xian felt very distressed, reached out and shook his hand, and said softly, "It's okay."

"Hmm! I've seen it for a long time, it's okay, I'm doing pretty well now? Brother Jing Xian is so good to me!!"

Jing Xian smiled, and didn't continue to ask, but he thought of the kid on WeChat from the name he just called. Speaking of which, it's been a long time since I contacted him.

Where did the kid go?

Thinking of this, Jing Xian immediately took out his mobile phone and sent a WeChat message to the child, wanting to treat him to dinner during the Chinese New Year holiday.

As soon as it was sent, Ai Qingying's cell phone rang. Of course, Jing Xian didn't expect this. He glanced at Ai Qingying and said kindly: "Your cell phone rang, is there something urgent? Do you need me to look at it for you?"

During this time, the two of them have always been honest and honest with each other. When there was an emergency, they both looked at each other's mobile phones. Ai Qingying's mobile phone often forgot to charge, and he often played with Jing Xian's mobile phone.

Jing Xian's mobile phone with only one page of app has now been tossed into four pages by Ai Qingying, and the extra three pages are all Ai Qingying's commonly used apps, and there are more and more postures.

Ai Qingying was covered in cold sweat, and the phone that rang was the phone of "children".

The only one who can send WeChat messages to children is Jing Xian.

He was so happy these days that he forgot about it!

Fortunately, he was driving, so he prevaricated, Jing Xian didn't mention it again, Ai Qingying wiped her sweat secretly, planning to find a chance to confess and forgive after the new year.

On New Year's Eve, Uncle came to see Jing Xian, and Jing Xian went to grandma's house to celebrate the New Year.

Uncles and aunts treated him very well. It seemed to be the same as before, but it was a bit embarrassing. Usually during Chinese New Year, although relatives would not urge marriage, they would joke around and ask him when he would bring his girlfriend home. I don't dare to mention that the other cousins ​​are all married, or have married abroad, or went to other places, and happened to not come back this year's New Year's Eve.

But it was too deliberate, which actually made Jing Xian even more tense.

Fortunately, there was Yun Yuanshan gagging in it, the atmosphere during the meal was barely okay, but when it came to work, everyone relaxed a bit.

Grandma was scared by him and was hospitalized last year. After she was discharged from the hospital, her body was not as good as before. The doctor said that she should lie down and recuperate.

Jing Xian was so ashamed that she didn't dare to visit her grandma, but her uncle persuaded her, "Duo Duo, go and see grandma, she's been thinking about you all the time."

Jing Xian bowed his head and didn't speak.

Uncle sighed: "Go, go quickly."

Of course, Jing Xian missed his grandma very much. He was brought up by his grandpa and grandma when he was a child, but he was very afraid that his grandma would be so angry that he would fall ill again when she saw him.

Uncle persuaded her for a while, but Jing Xian finally went to grandma's bedroom.

Grandma was lying on the bed, accompanied by my little aunt. Grandma kept looking at the door of the room, and when she saw him, tears immediately came down.

Jing Xian stood by the door, almost crying.

The little aunt got up and said with a smile: "Oh, Duoduo is about to cry, come in quickly, grandma has been waiting for you for a long time."

Saying that, the little aunt walked up to him, pushed him in, closed the door and went out, giving the place to the two of them.

Jing Xian dawdled to the side of the bed, bowed his head and whispered, "Grandma..."

Grandma reached out to him, and he bent down and approached her. Grandma hugged him and cried intermittently: "Duo Duo, Duo Duo...why don't you come to see grandma...and don't answer uncle's phone..."

Jing Xian said in a low voice: "I dare not come to see you, I am afraid that you will be angry with me."

"If you don't come to see grandma, grandma will be angry..." Grandma's tears fell down his neck, and she hugged him and cried for a while. He sat by the bed, and grandma took his hand and asked sadly, "Can't like girls? My Duoduo is so nice...how can someone say that behind his back?"

Jing Xian also hopes that he can like girls, not because he is inferior to his own identity, but if that is the case, everyone will be relaxed.

"Duo Duo, please change it, okay?"

Jing Xian shook his head, also very sad: "I can't change it."

Grandma took his hand, looked at him and only cried, without speaking.

Before twelve o'clock at night, when grandma fell asleep, Jing Xian left.

The eldest uncle went downstairs to see him off and sent him to the car. The uncle said, "I know you don't feel comfortable staying here. What did your parents say?"

Jing Xian bowed his head and didn't speak.

The uncle sighed again: "Oh, I have been wanting to talk to you about this, but I was afraid that you would be uncomfortable, so I dragged it until now. Today is Chinese New Year, I shouldn't have told you these things, so let's talk about it after thinking about it. A lot, Your grandfather loved you the most when he was alive, because you were the only one who inherited him. Although he didn’t take on his mantle to do historical research after he grew up, he was engaged in this line of work anyway. When you were young, you were the only one who could bear to read ancient books with him. He went to the theater. The photo on the wall of grandma’s house is still taken when you were a child, he hugged you at the entrance of the theater.

Uncle also knows that in ancient culture, there has always been such a thing.Our family is not one of those ignorant ones, you say you like boys, it’s nothing, but, after all, you still want to marry a girl, hasn’t it always been like this since ancient times?Is this the truth?You said that now, you don't talk to your parents, you don't come to your uncle's house, you don't come to your grandma's house anymore.

When you grow up, which one is not the best?Why leave this up for others to say?This is what my grandma and we are most worried about. "

Jing Xian didn't know how to explain this truth to his elders.

The eldest uncle had almost finished speaking, and reached out to pat him on the shoulder: "Uncle doesn't say much more, you go home and have a rest early. After the Chinese New Year, this matter will be over, don't stop visiting grandma. How is it, huh? Your parents are coming back soon, when I come back, I will tell them that they dare not scold you!"

The eldest uncle is actually kind, he really thinks this is nothing.

Jing Xian knew that it was too difficult to explain clearly at once. He didn't want to spoil his elders' interest during the New Year's Eve, so after saying a few more words, he drove away, and his uncle drove him all the way to the gate of the community.

On the way Jing Xian drove home, it was even heavier.

Could it be that the reason why his parents didn't send him to the electric shock school, these days are relatively peaceful, and they didn't tell him about it carefully, was also because they had the same idea as his uncle?In fact, they all thought that this was a big deal, but it wasn't a big deal. They all thought that he had read too many ancient books and was "bad" by ancient culture?Do you think he will get married after all?

Jing Xian walked around the street a few times in boredom, but still didn't want to go home.

I have to say that people who like to be alone no matter how much they like to be alone, they still hope to be more lively when they encounter a festival like the Chinese New Year.

However, the little yellow duck and his parents went to eat separately, and Jing Xian realized that he was really lonely.

After thinking about it, he didn't go back to his home in the urban area, but drove to Songjiang instead.

At least there is another person's breath there.

During the Chinese New Year, Shanghai was empty, and it was very easy to drive. Jing Xian arrived soon. He drove the car into the yard, and the water wheel turned "woo-woo-woo-" as usual.After turning off the lights in front of the car, he suddenly felt that something was wrong. He immediately looked up and saw that the lights on the third floor were on!Although only a small light was on, it looked a little dark.

He hurriedly opened the car door and got out of the car. A figure flickered on the third floor, the balcony window was opened, and a familiar body leaned out, with an unbelievable voice: "Jing Xian?!"

Jing Xian couldn't help laughing.