Rebirth of the Lost Me

Waking up at night, unbearably uncomfortable, in the dream, his beloved Zhang Rin never cared about him, he had no friends, and was always lonely, even talking and laughing with his classmates, he could still see him in his dream I couldn't laugh myself to the bottom of my heart.In the dream, he hated himself.

If it was the first time he had such a dream, Yang Qing would not care about it, but it had happened many times. In the past five years, whenever he felt that he was the happiest, he would have such a dream. Tell about another completely different and strange life.But Yang Qing was sure that he had never experienced those things.

After waking up, it was still early, but Yang Qing didn't feel sleepy anymore, so he sat up, he wanted to call Zhang Rin, Zhang Rin would not be back until tomorrow, but he just missed him and wanted him to be by his side at this time.

The nights in winter are very long. When Yang Qing wanted to sleep, it was almost dawn again, so he got up to help Tan Shunli prepare breakfast, got up to serve the dogs, and got up to clean up. Rest on the sofa for a while.The dogs at home may be getting older, and they are much quieter than before, but they are still a bit annoying, even refusing to let Yang Qing sleep for a while, and just yelling wildly beside him.

Yang Qing felt that it was really annoying, so he went back to the room and closed the door, and sat on the hanging chair beside the bed. This hanging chair was not the previous one, Zhang Rin bought it again, because he saw that Yang Qing always liked to sit on it.This hanging chair is like a swing, and it is very big, with thick cushions on it, so it is very comfortable to sit on.

But no matter how comfortable it is, it doesn’t feel good to feel uncomfortable. Yang Qing remembered last night’s dream again. Last night’s dream had appeared before, and it wasn’t the plot of last night. However, he in the dream always had that personality. Let him think about it. Depressed character.In the dream, he acted as if he didn't care about anything, but he knew how much he wanted to be noticed by others in the dream. The eager desire to get rid of fear was just like his hope after his parents divorced.

I didn't think about it deliberately, but I always appeared by myself. Yang Qing tried to let his mind go, thinking about the time he and Zhang Rin had experienced, but apart from the beautiful heartbeats that depend on each other now, there is also the fear that another Yang Qing will come out Worry.

Zhang Rin arrived home near noon. He was wearing a big scarf and his hair had never been done like on TV. In real life, he was not as glamorous as before, so not many people recognized him.After he came back, the first thing he did was to shout to the house that he was back, but no one in the house responded, so he put down his things and walked into the room.

"Yang Qing! Are you asleep?"

Seeing that Yang Qing was falling asleep on the hanging chair without covering him with a quilt or anything, he went over and covered him with a blanket before going out to pack his things.It was almost noon, and there were a lot of dishes in the refrigerator, so Zhang Rin started to cook. He usually does these tasks at home, and he has already practiced his speed, and it was ready in a while.

Yang Qing was a little upset when he was woken up. He felt that he hadn’t slept so well for a long time. When he opened his eyes and saw Zhang Rin, what instantly appeared in his mind was the two people on his bed, who were moving violently. He didn’t see clearly at that time. Zhang Rin's face, but the leg in plaster, doesn't it explain his identity.Yang Qing didn't want to quarrel with Zhang Rin, and couldn't face him calmly as if nothing happened, so he turned his head away and didn't look at him.

"Still want to sleep? Is it because I was so excited about coming back that I couldn't sleep last night? Then I have to eat before going to bed! After dinner, let's lie down together for a while, let's go, eat first!"

Listening to Zhang Rin's voice, Yang Qing felt that his headache was about to explode. Even if he didn't look at Zhang Rin, he could still imagine Zhang Rin's expression at the moment, and his head hurt even more.

"Okay, if you don't want to go out, I'll bring it in for you!"

Surrounded by an unfamiliar environment, this made Yang Qing feel distressed and a little uneasy. He wondered if that Yang Qing had come out again?How many days did he miss?He went to find his mobile phone, and on the screen of the mobile phone was a photo of him and Zhang Rin, which made him feel ironic. He couldn't figure it out, how did Zhang Rin act as if nothing had happened?

2022.Five years have passed.The year he died in his previous life was next year.

Yang Qing felt annoyed looking at the photos on the phone screen, so he put the phone aside, and then looked around the room.The layout of the room was the same as their previous room, which reminded him of what he saw that day.

"It was almost noon when I came back, so I just made something to eat."

Zhang Rin came in with a dinner plate, with a bowl of rice, two vegetables, and a bowl of soup on it.Seeing Yang Qing got up, he walked towards him directly.

After five years, Zhang Rin's facial features have become more three-dimensional and handsome. When Yang Qing smiled at Yang Qing, Yang Qing almost forgot that incident. It was the first time he saw Zhang Rin having sex with someone else. If he knew, how many times the scene happened that day, and he didn't know why, he just cared so much, he thought, maybe it was because they were on his bed when they did that, which made him more sick.

Having been out of touch with the world for five years, Yang Qing was a little afraid to go out. He was afraid that what he would face would be an even more unfamiliar city, but he didn't want to stay under the same roof with Zhang Rin, at least let him sort out his mood.

"Yang Qing, do you really not want to eat? Also, why are you barefoot?"

Yang Qing felt so bored, he waved the food away, and when he saw Zhang Rin's astonished expression, he felt contradictory and couldn't bear it, after all, they lived together for so long.

The bedside table by the window is Yang Qing's habit of storing things, and he still keeps it now, so he can easily find the card and some cash, and hastily took his ID card, and went out.

Maybe it was because Yang Qing hadn't come out for so long that he even forgot that he also existed.The change was so fast that Zhang Rin didn't even realize it. When he realized it and chased him out, Yang Qingzao disappeared, but he couldn't rest assured that Yang Qing would be outside alone. After all, he hadn't been out for five years. He also moved, and maybe he couldn't find his way back after going out, so he immediately called the district management and asked him to help stop Yang Qing.

After Yang Qing came out, he just walked absent-mindedly. Could it be that people lose all five senses when they are extremely uncomfortable, otherwise how could he not feel the cold touch under his feet?Not far away, he suddenly fainted to the ground.