fly slowly

【fourteen】

Chu Xiao's eyelids twitched violently. He ran fast in the dark night, and the cold air he breathed in made his chest ache. He never wanted to speculate on people's hearts with the worst assumptions, but what he had experienced, Everything he has seen is engraved in his bones like a brand.

The world is too complicated, he doesn't want to understand it, but he is forced to remember it deeply.

Panting heavily, he stopped at the entrance of the alley. The billboards at the entrance of the street were crumbling, and the pale orange street lamps fainted a small spot of light. After searching for a long time, he finally pulled out the shivering mat behind the telephone pole.

"Now you know you're afraid?"

Chu Xiao didn't put on a good face, dragged her to the intersection and took a taxi, stuffed her into the car to pay the fare, and asked the driver to take her home properly. Xi Liang looked forward to it with tears streaming down the window Looking at him intently, he hesitated to speak.

Chu Xiao waved his hands irritably, moved his lips twice and said, "Go back."

Pinching the bridge of his nose, Chu Xiao pursed his lower lip, and walked back into the alley, as expected, several long and short figures appeared, whistling once in a while.

There were rustling footsteps behind him, Chu Xiao turned around slowly with a froze face, under the dim light was a group of strangers, Chu Xiao wanted to escape in an instant, wanted to run away desperately.

What he feared the most in his life was to face a group of strange people, a group of strange men, alone in such a chaotic night.Fear is like the fishy smell of the frozen deep sea, which can't be held back and keeps penetrating to the ground.

Chu Xiao was blocked by them in the alley, and he was pushed towards the edge of darkness step by step. The man at the head took a deep breath of cigarette, squinted at Chu Xiao, and casually spit out a cloud of choking white smoke at him. , there was a cloud of chaotic mist in front of Chu Xiao's eyes, but his eyes were still clear.

Chu Xiao lowered his head and took out all the money in his pocket in a straightforward manner. He blocked the mobile phone card in advance and simply handed over the mobile phone.

"That's all, no more."

The man smiled and said, "No hurry." He took two steps forward, a bunch of keys on his waist dangling, and asked Chu Xiao again, "I heard that studies are good? Do you have money for college?"

Chu Xiao couldn't figure out what this man was up to, he hadn't dealt with this kind of person a few times, he was familiar with all the men in this area, they were just regulars at home, he didn't care about it.

Chu Xiao didn't talk to him, and the man didn't feel embarrassed, and he didn't bother to cover up and asked directly: "Your mother is no longer in business, and you are also having a hard time, but this is something that you can do at least, right? Do you want to try it?" , the price is easy to say."

Chu Xiao raised his head suddenly, his eyes were dark and bottomless, he clenched his fists tightly, his knuckles turned white.

"What do you mean?"

The man clamped Chu Xiao's chin with his hands, and said in a gentle voice, "You are rarer than your mother, and you are very handsome."

Chu Xiao opened his fingers one by one, and said angrily, "I'm a fucking man, don't you always be blind!"

"It doesn't matter." The man leaned over to Chu Xiao's ear and whispered, full of jokes: "It's not like you haven't been played with before, you could stand it before, why can't you now?"

Then wild and indulgent laughter suddenly sounded in the alley, as well as a chuckle and mockery of unknown meaning.

Chu Xiao suddenly felt his head thumping, all the insults in his life seemed to be gradually tainted with desolate coldness, surging into his body, and there was a dream in his memory, which was an endless repetition, just repeating, non-stop Walking down the long and dark corridor, in the dark and narrow space, repeating like this always makes people worry that they will come to the end in the next second and fall into an even darker abyss.

At that moment, the sky collapsed, the evil spirits rushed to his face, Abi Hell, and his body was smashed to pieces.

At that moment, only the sea of ​​bitterness and despair remained.

Chu Xiao grabbed the man's collar suddenly, his eyes were red, and he clenched his fists tightly, as if he had exhausted all the strength of his life, even he could hear the bones creaking, he wanted to crush the salivating and insulting smile, To crush that head, I want the cruelty of blood splashing everywhere, and I want the most intense blood.

"You have the guts to say it again, believe it or not, I will kill you, I will kill you!"

The man felt a sudden sharp pain and dizziness in front of his eyes. The minions behind him hurried forward to control the crazy Chu Xiao. The man shook his head vigorously, stretched out his hand and slammed Chu Xiao's hair against the wall, The bloodstain was shocking for a moment, like dragging tears.

"There is a way to heaven, if you don't go, you're tired of working, right? Well, I'll make it happen today—"

You haven't said a word yet, but it stopped abruptly, and there were winding dark red traces slowly sliding across the temples, and the man fell straight instantly, behind him was a young man who was so calm and terrifying, like a calm lion , the outline is blurred, the monaural diamond in the left ear flickers faintly, and there is a sharp stone in the hand, with blood stains remaining.

Chu Xiao's eyes were covered with blood, and he shouted hoarsely, "Run—"

In the extreme chaos, Lin Moyi pulled Chu Xiao out of the darkness and sin. The teenagers ran among the lights and fireworks all over the sky, and the stars were silently shining. At this moment, life was safe.

Chu Xiao's body suddenly softened, and then suddenly stabilized. The two of them stopped. There was no one at night, no sound, only the sound of panting heavily. Lin Yimo turned around and looked at Chu Xiao, whom he seemed to have never seen before.

The pale as paper face was covered with coquettish and dazzling red, the blood was still flowing, silently, dripping down to the neck, staining the collar, his eyes were hollow and fragile, as thin as brittle glass.

Lin Yimo stepped forward to cover his wound with his hands, and warm bright red kept leaking from between his fingers.Touching the wound, Chu Xiao frowned in pain, but regained consciousness in an instant.He knocked off Lin Yimo's hand, from talking to himself to hysteria.

"What to do, someone knows, why after so long, someone will know... No, I'm going back to kill them, I must kill them!" Lin Yimo hugged him tightly from behind, gritted his teeth Choking up and crying, Chu Xiao kept thinking, "I'm going to kill them, and I'm going to kill those dogs, they're not human! Perverted! Disgusting!"

Chu Xiao kept frantic, and suddenly bent down and retched heavily, but the vomit was acid water.

Lin Yimo panicked at seeing Chu Xiao's strong and sincere hatred for wanting to die together: "Don't think about it anymore, please don't think about it anymore, okay, don't be afraid, I will be with you, I will always be with you, don't I'm afraid, shall we go to the hospital?" Lin Yimo didn't know what else to do besides hugging him tightly and giving him support.

Chu Xiao clutched Lin Moyi's skirt tightly, trembling all over, "Don't go to the hospital, I won't go, don't go, I beg you, please!"

Chu Xiao always remembered that the place filled with white was another nightmare of his own.

After Chu Xiao was finally powerless and fell asleep in Lin Moyi's arms weakly, he had a dream, a dream about whiteness and chaos.

"Hey, did you hear that, the beautiful little boy who was just sent here, do you know what happened to him, you won't believe it..."

"what happened?"

There was that unexplained chuckle again, followed by an inaudible whisper.

"Really... how disgusting!"

When I opened my eyes, I saw white walls, white sheets, white sunlight, and strange figures constantly shaking. They were just strangers to me, but why did they all look at me with the same eyes? It was a contemptuous and disgusting look at myself, like a sharp knife, cutting open my own flesh and blood one by one, and I couldn't do anything except hold on to the bed sheet tightly and endure this lingering pain .

It's really painful, I really can't live anymore.

【fifteen】

When Chu Xiaoyou woke up, he found himself lying on the gray-white big bed. There was a faint smell of tobacco mixed with sweat in the air. He propped himself up and sat up, and saw a huge door behind the gray-white gauze curtains. Floor-to-ceiling windows, the whole room is filled with light off-white, monotonous and simple.

Stretching out his hand to touch the wound on his head, it had been carefully treated, Chu Xiao's mouth curled up, and he smiled with the relief of the rest of his life.

Gently got out of bed, Chu Xiao was walking around the room, but unintentionally attracted his attention by a family photo on the table, everyone in the photo was smiling brightly, Lin Yimo's young parents and the young Lin Yimo, And a woman with gentle eyebrows.

Chu Xiao stood there, unable to move any further, just staring at the family portrait, the light in his eyes shattered.

Lin Yimo pushed open the door, and what he saw was this scene. His young man stood there quietly, standing in the thin gray and white, like a quiet sculpture, which never had and will not have life. Lin Mo suddenly felt Shock, a kind of shock like a chill entering the body.

Chu Xiao turned his head, the light in his eyes was shattered innocently: "Lin Yimo, feeling like a family member, isn't it very happy?"

Lin Yimo looked at the family portrait, and smiled silently: "Well, I'm very happy." Then, he came over with the rice porridge, stirred it with a spoon, and lowered his head to blow the hot air.

"Come here to drink something to rest your stomach. They say that the porridge here is very delicious. Try it."

"I thought, you would say, you made it for me yourself."

Lin Yimo looked at Chu Xiao who had regained his vitality, and said embarrassedly: "I want to make it for you myself, am I afraid that you will find it hard to swallow..."

Chu Xiao reached out to take the porridge and drank it slowly. Lin Yimo sat down beside him awkwardly, showing great care.

Chu Xiao noticed something, paused, and continued to drink silently. After finishing drinking, he put the bowl gently on the table, and said indifferently, "Are you going to start pitying me too?"

The corners of his lips were pressed into a line, with a detached and indifferent expression, as if he was talking about other people's affairs: "I once thought about killing people, and I also thought about suicide."

"But I'm too cowardly, I can't kill others, I can't even kill myself, in fact, it's nothing to think about it, I shouldn't have been born, I'm a trash that no one wants, such a dirty person, no matter what I can live... ..."

Chu Xiaoyue's words became more intense, as if he was fearless, and he forcefully wanted to show Lin Yimo his battered appearance.

Lin Yimo couldn't say a word, but stepped forward to hug Chu Xiao, and gently stroked his back, as if comforting a baby.

Chu Xiao was caught off guard by his actions, he didn't use much effort but Chu Xiao couldn't push him away no matter what, Chu Xiao's eyes gradually became foggy, as if all the fear and sorrow had melted away.

Chu Xiao unconsciously wrapped his arms around his waist tightly, and his head rested quietly on Lin Yimo's right shoulder. Lin Yimo felt that he was suppressing sobbing and breathing loudly.

If you don't say anything, you will understand.

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