Laughing at Chang'an

People will choose to deceive themselves and others, mostly to protect themselves.

From the moment Li Shen realized that he was deceiving himself and others, he was truly sober.It's not that he didn't notice it, but because the truth was too ugly and even made him feel sick, he subconsciously chose to deceive himself.

——What he has for Geng Yan is not liking, let alone love, but naked animal desire.

Li Shen sat dryly in the study all night.

With a cold and cruel attitude, he opened his heart, pulled out the things that he couldn't face, and opened them up for a look.

First of all, jealousy.

His jealousy towards Geng Yan can be said to have a long history, from the time when the other party reaches a height beyond his reach, to the place where he can only look into the distance.

Second, doubt.

From the very beginning, he never trusted Geng Yan wholeheartedly, even if the other party never showed the slightest malice towards him.After Lin Guo joined the Geng Army, he secretly proposed to keep a distance from him on the surface, making the illusion of discord, and it was none other than Geng Yan to be wary of.Li Shenming knew this, but still agreed to Lin Guo's plan, and has maintained it until now.

After the rise of the Geng Army, Li Shen took the initiative to release power and become an independent party, which is also a manifestation of his distrust of Geng Yan.He cautiously stood within the safety line and did not give the other party any reason to betray him.

Next, fear.

He was afraid of Geng Yan's extraordinary interest in him and desire to control him, which made him feel anxious. The most important thing was that he found that he could not get rid of this control, nor did he have the strength to defeat Geng Yan... This is what made him feel anxious. The most frightening.

And then, loathing.

In fact, what he hates is not Geng Yan, but himself who was transformed into this appearance by Geng Yan.So he hated the existence of Geng Yan, and even hoped that the other party would cease to exist. This kind of thought had already taken root in his heart, and he chose to turn a blind eye.

Finally, the animal desire that evolved from all this.

Jealousy, suspicion, fear, and loathing, when they discovered Geng Yan's feelings for him, twisted and ugly desires were born.He fantasizes about Geng Yan's body, wishing to use this disgusting method to conquer and overwhelm the other party, to obtain a sense of victory from the other party that he has never had before, so as to vent the ugly emotions in his heart that he does not want to admit, and to gain satisfaction from it A sense of accomplishment... He wanted to use this method to defeat Geng Yan, to overcome the shadow that had been suppressing his head, and to fulfill his dormancy for so many years.

This is not difficult to understand, but it is difficult to accept, Li Shen sat behind the desk, thinking that I have become a pervert.

He laughed dumbfounded in the silent room.

In the face of this terrible animal desire, he chose to deceive himself and others in the name of love.However, this false excuse is vulnerable to Geng Yan's love.

What he wants is not Geng Yan's love, but Geng Yan's submission, to step the other party into the dust, to vent his beastly lust on the other party, the thrill of conquest, and the desire for revenge.

—and in the name of love.

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After the Shangyuan Banquet, various New Year celebrations are coming to an end, the festive atmosphere gradually fades away, and people return to their busy daily life.

On the surface, Li Shen's life hasn't changed much. He is busy with the Li family's affairs, meeting with all kinds of people, and occasionally going to Feng He for a drink while watching Rong Hu's training. He even took the time to take the initiative to visit In the Chang'an Arena, I talked to Li Mubai about their plans and arrangements for the Li family and Huiguang.

It is worth mentioning that he went to the Blood Slaughter Hall twice, and wanted to visit Baby Yang, but he was turned away because Hades personally ordered him.

Among the seemingly normal things, there are also some abnormal noises.

——Li Shen was in hiding from Geng Yan, so he even skipped two Geng Army regular meetings for this reason.

Before the third regular meeting, Lin Guo made a special trip to call him and asked him to be there.The reason why Geng Yan didn't call personally was because Li Shen didn't answer Geng Yan's calls at all.

But Li Shen still didn't go.

The anomaly between the two was too obvious, the adjutant asked, and Li Xifeng also came to ask, but Li Shen remained silent.Not long after the third regular meeting, Li Shen packed his luggage and went to Li's Befu in the Eastern Wasteland without saying a word.He left behind a letter of resignation, which was carefully delivered to Geng Yan's desk by the adjutant.

He said that he was not in good health and was no longer fit to go to the battlefield. The Li family had too many affairs, and he didn't have the energy to serve as a civil servant in the Geng Army, so he simply resigned.

Geng Yan didn't say anything at the time, and after reading the letter, he told the adjutant who was waiting for the result to go back first, and then it was as if this matter had never happened, and there was no result.

Geng Yan said internally that Li Shen was unwell, and he specially approved him to go to Donghuang for long-term recuperation.

Li Shen didn't respond to this statement. Time seemed to be back when Li Shen was recovering from his injuries in the South China Sea. However, many things had already happened, and everything was different after all.

Donghuang is the headquarters of the Li family, and it is much more convenient for Li Shen to move here to deal with things.In contrast, the adjutant had to travel to Middle-earth every three days. The industrial headquarters he operated were basically in Middle-earth, so he couldn't do without running.Li Shen saw that he was exhausted from running around, so he advised him to stay in Chang'an and not come here.

The adjutant poured out two pussies of cat urine for him on the spot, and cried and said, "Master, you don't want me anymore."

Li Shen said no, it depends on how tired you are from running, besides, there is no shortage of people to take care of me here.

The adjutant cried, made trouble, and hanged himself three times. Li Shen followed him.

Speaking of which, Li Shen's living conditions in Donghuang were indeed improved by many levels compared to Chang'an. The Li family's other residence was built in the territory of Qin State, surrounded by mountains and rivers, and its scale was comparable to that of King Qin's other palace. With hundreds of servants, Li Shen lived the life of an emperor in it.

If he didn't find it boring to do nothing, in fact, the Li family's affairs could also be left alone, and just eat, drink, have fun and sleep all day long.After less than a month, Li Shen measured his weight and found that he had gained almost ten catties.

He had to consider whether he should add some outdoor sports.

The adjutant reported that because of his departure, there were a lot of rumors inside and outside the Geng Army, but Li Shen didn't care too much. Years, some things will be cleared up.In fact, he shouldn't have agreed to Geng Yan's invitation to join the Geng Army from the very beginning. As old man Yu said, he was not born to be a dog. After holding him, he let him go, but he happened to meet Geng Yan, a person who has a strong desire to control and can overwhelm him in everything.

Unwilling to let go, he insisted on holding him in the palm of his hand, squeezing him round and flat, and in the end forced him into a pervert.

If he can live for 80 or [-] years with healthy limbs, Li Shen may look for a solution and try to make everyone happy.But right now, he thinks it's better to forget it, that's all.

Stop tossing, just be a pervert.There is still a little tail left in life, why bother to find yourself unhappy.

Geng Yan?gone.Geng Army?do not care.Lee's?Just playing... Li Shen found that his mental age was showing signs of degeneration. The day before yesterday, he accompanied the five-year-old girl from the mansion's servant to play the thousand-grid puzzle all afternoon, and he still enjoyed it...

Li Shen, male, 29 years old, abnormal and happy.

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There is a kind of ignorance called I thought I could take off my pants, but the other party called the police.

The above lines of transcending the dimension wall are used to describe the mood of Geng Yan who was pushed away by Li Shen on the night of Shangyuan Festival.

Geng Yan has never been so confused in his life.

He was in a daze for two full days, until Li Shen skipped the regular meeting for the first time.Looking at the empty seats around him, it took him three seconds to suppress the unknown anger in his heart, and finished the whole meeting with a blank expression.

Then go back to pet the cat.

The Overlord who was used as someone's stand-in struggled desperately in his hands, and his shrill scream echoed throughout the office. Geng Yan grinned at it with his white teeth, and said sadly: "Call, scream! No one came to save you."

There must be reasons for Li Shen's sudden change of attitude. Geng Yan speculated on various possibilities, and then denied them one by one.If he didn't figure out the reason, he wouldn't be able to take the next step. Geng Yan grabbed the cat's ears and thought, doesn't that bastard have to keep me down all the time?

Please note that we have always been a calm and calm man inside and outside, the way we used the words of the inner activity just now.

This is the only most likely answer. Geng Yan was speechless in front of this answer, wishing to bring him back and do it on the spot... However, his damn rationality said, if he wanted to do that, why did he do it ten years earlier? up.

Ten years earlier, I fed my heart to the dogs...

Geng Yan, who was on the verge of being irritable, was invited by Master Zhang Puqiu to the research room. The other party took the golden crystal he brought back, the golden liquid he brought back, and a piece of high-purity source crystal, and showed him the relationship between the three. Fantastic chemistry.

The golden liquid was placed in the slot dug out by the source crystal, and when it touched the golden crystal, the source crystal was pulled up by the mechanical pliers under the gaze of the naked eye, and turned into a golden filament.Zhang Puqiu swept the filament back and forth with a thin metal rod made of top three, so the metal rod became one piece after another.

When the last section of the source crystal also turned into a golden thread, it gently floated down from the midair, turning into golden light particles little by little, before disappearing.

"The quality of the crystal and liquid has not changed." Zhang Puqiu explained, "It is they that have changed the shape of the source crystal, activated the source energy contained in it, and displayed it in another materialized form."

Geng Yan nodded, the golden silk thread reminded him of Li Shen's "golden body" back then, and Zhang Puqiu continued: "The source energy in the form of this thread can absorb source crystals to replenish itself, increasing the time to maintain the form. It is extremely destructive to any object other than the source crystal."

"It can be said to be the nemesis of any armor." Master Zhang concluded.

Geng Yan frowned: "What do you mean?"

"I have a new idea for the idea of ​​killing God." Zhang Puqiu said seriously, "I need these two things as the core of killing God."

Geng Yan didn't speak.

"I am sure to produce results within three months." Zhang Puqiu added.

Geng Yan retrieved these two things in order to save Li Shen, but Zhang Puqiu wanted to use them as the core of Killing God.In order to develop their own divine armor, the Geng Army consumed countless manpower and material resources, which is also an indispensable part of Geng Yan's plan.He knew Zhang Puqiu well, and the other party said that the results would be produced within three months, which was absolutely true.

But what about Li Shen?

Geng Yan, male, 36 years old, struggling and struggling.