Laughing at Chang'an

Li Shen looked at Geng Yan who was sitting by the bed.

Geng Yan was wearing a silk nightgown, and his arms and calves exposed from the soft fabric showed an unhealthy paleness, a thin layer of skin seemed to stick to the bone, and even the blue blood vessels underneath were faintly visible.He was leaning against the head of the bed, with an unconcealable weakness on his face, the once dazzling blond hair now only had a short layer of stubble left, which looked uneven due to lack of care.Honestly, it's ugly.

Before the brain reacted, the foot had already stepped out by itself. Li Shen walked up to Geng Yan, raised his arm, and just before touching the other party, he suddenly woke up and forcibly retracted his outstretched hand.

Li Shen stood silently on the spot, looked down at Geng Yan who was sitting in front of him, after a while, closed his eyes tiredly, and took a deep breath.

"I don't want to see you because seeing you reminds me of Yang Xingxing, Lin Guo, and Haitang... It is my betrayal to them that you can still sit here alive."

He finally stretched out his hand and touched Geng Yan's face.

"When you are ready, just leave. I will arrange for someone to send you out of the city. You can continue to go back to be your emperor. Even if you don't have a cultivation base, this is not difficult for you... I will guard Chang'an, the next battle If we meet each other, there will be no sympathy to talk about, so it is best not to see each other again in the rest of our lives."

After speaking, Li Shen put down his hands, turned around and left, walking quickly and neatly, without a trace of nostalgia.He knows what he is doing better than anyone else, this is the craziest thing he has ever done in his life, and he is going to use this kind of madness to draw the final stop for all this.

Whether you love it or hate it, it all ends here, and it's written off.

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The lieutenant was very annoyed at being hinted by Geng Yan without realizing it, so he installed three alarms with different trigger modes at the door of Geng Yan's room that day, to ensure that once someone came out of the room, it would buzz loudly. Resounded throughout the house.Naturally, he didn't know what he was doing as Li Shen. After meeting Geng Yan, Li Shen left Li's residence and never came back.

Compared to the adjutant jumping up and down, Geng Yan was very quiet after returning to the room.

On his desk were newspapers brought back from outside. The Chang'an media, which has always been known for their boldness, did not hesitate to use the most vicious speculation to describe a series of events that happened in the recent period.In the so-called truth they deduced, Li Shen was described as a deep-minded usurper, and Geng Yan was the unlucky blind man, but in the end, these newspapers unanimously praised the success of the usurper Li Shen, it's almost dumbfounding to watch.

Li Shen, who holds Geng Army and Glory in his hand, deserves to be No.1 in Chang'an today.He and Geng Yan climbed up the Chang'an Peak that he had promised, one after the other, each standing on his own to see the scenery of the world.

Geng Yan leaned quietly on the chair, thinking about what Li Shen said.Li Shen said that he would send him away, let him go, and regain his own power and position.Geng Yan asked himself that he couldn't do such a thing, and he never even thought about letting the other party go.

He was a little confused.

He loves Li Shen, so he tries his best to keep him by his side, but the way Li Shen loves him is to let him go.Even though they are facing different situations, they are all love, so why are they so different?

Isn't the feeling of wanting to have something because of love, isn't it the same?

Of course, Geng Yan didn't fail to understand.

It took him ten years to brand his mark on Li Shen's heart, and in the end this feeling was rewarded, a very surprising reward—his life, and a chance to start over.

Unlike when he was reborn, this time he didn't start from scratch. The capital he had accumulated and the pawns he had laid secretly were still there. He can do the same for himself, he will regain the throne, even if the attack on Middle-earth fails this time, as long as the empire is not damaged at all, then he will definitely make a comeback in his lifetime.

...and then meet Li Shen again on the battlefield.

In the last life, Geng Yan sat alone in the empty palace, listening to the deafening gunfire outside, and drank the poisonous wine in despair.When he was reborn at the age of 20, he looked at his young self in the mirror, and he still clearly remembers the feeling of ecstasy and surprise.

However, at this moment, facing the same opportunity to start over, he was not surprised, and even felt a little tired.He quietly thought about his future arrangements, his next plan, and what he had to do next... For his unfulfilled ambition, he had to seize this hard-won opportunity and let go of those useless feelings in his heart.

This is the path he chose, and he can only continue on it. No, it should be said that this is the only path that belongs to him.

He can't be confused, can't regret, and can't have the slightest... shaken.

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The Bright Empire has a new emperor, and Chang'an City has a new mercenary president.The guild went through the necessary procedures as quickly as possible, and Li Shen was elected unanimously. This result surprised many people, including Li Shen himself.However, this is not a major event worth mentioning. Under the urging of the Datang General Chamber of Commerce and in accordance with the wartime regulations, Li Shen was awarded the post of General Marshal of the Datang Army and Horses, and began to form an army under his command to meet the attack of the Guangming Empire. .

The flying armor troop led by Fire Phoenix King Ziyun became the first Datang Weiguo Army, together with the flying armor squads drawn from various companies, formed a total of 800 flying armor troops. Five hundred logistical support airships, named the First Army of the Great Tang Dynasty, led by Wang Ziyun, officially entered the battlefield, and won the first battle by annihilating 3000 conventional airships of the enemy.This highly mobile legion and the Imperial Air Force launched a fierce competition for the air supremacy of the Middle Earth. At the same time, the second Guards Legion in Chang'an also took shape. The elite gunners are the main force, and the 500-member legion is divided into six [-]-man brigades, roaming around the battlefield, destroying the enemy's supply lines, creating panic behind the battlefield, and coordinating with Wang Ziyun's flying armored corps to continuously attack the Imperial Air Force. Intermittent harassment.

However, the confrontation on the frontal battlefield is still that the Chinese and earth sides are retreating steadily. After destroying the landing point of Yan Poyuan's airship, the imperial army adopted an attitude of only besieging and not attacking Chang'an City. The advancing speed of the front.Penglai City, located in the northeast of Chang'an, sent out urgent calls for help. As the financial center of Zhongtu and even Fanglu, the Penglai Chamber of Commerce's position in the Datang General Chamber of Commerce is beyond doubt. The wealth of numbers will fall into the hands of the Empire.

The imperial army has invested more than 20 troops on the northern front. To fight against it, Chang'an has to send at least 10 troops. But once such a large number of troops are withdrawn, the defense of Chang'an City will be empty. Give the empire a chance.Faced with twenty or thirty times of questioning from the Datang General Chamber of Commerce a day, Li Shen never responded.

On June 26, [-] in the Tang Dynasty, the Blood Empire declared war on the Bright Empire, and the Blood Queen personally led an army of [-] to go south to the middle land to assist Chang'an City in facing the Northern Attack of the Bright Empire.

The world was shocked.

On the side of Chang'an City, Xuetu, on behalf of the Blood Empire, announced that in order to deepen the alliance with Chang'an City, the Blood Queen Liselint will marry the current guild president Li Shen, and invite everyone to witness their marriage in the near future. wedding.

The Tang General Chamber of Commerce immediately sent a grand congratulatory message, and promised to always regard the blood empire as a close ally, and then the mercenary guild also sent a congratulatory message, saying that this is an important commemorative significance for the harmonious coexistence of human beings and non-human races first step.Even the Elven King's Court in the South China Sea heard the news and sent congratulations to Li Shen, who is the honorary prince, and said that they would send envoys to Chang'an to attend Li Shen's wedding.

After the wedding was announced, for a while, it seemed like the whole world was celebrating.

Geng Yan, who was still in Li's residence, also heard about this matter from the mouth of the adjutant.Li Shen didn't reveal his plan to the adjutant or anyone, so the adjutant is still full of vigilance towards Geng Yan, but no matter how vigilant he is, Geng Yan will still have a way to get the news from the outside world, even openly in front of him. Before leading people into and out of Li's mansion, the adjutant didn't get any response to Li Shen's complaints, and he didn't dare to be rough on Geng Yan.

So when he heard the news of the wedding, he immediately ran to Geng Yan, full of resentment for waiting to see a good show, and said quietly: "Do you know? Our father is getting married, but it's a pity not with You are with the blood queen."

Geng Yan, who was sitting on the bed to adjust his breath and nourish his energy, opened his eyes in silence, and looked at the adjutant expressionlessly.Glanced by those ice-blue eyes, the adjutant's lines that were ready to be used to ridicule the opponent subconsciously stuck in his throat. As the saying goes, the tiger's prestige is still there when he is sick, even if he doesn't have the shocking cultivation, Geng Yan has been in the top position for a long time His aura is not something ordinary people can bear.

Geng Yan stared at the adjutant indifferently, touched his upper and lower lips, and burst out a word coldly.

"roll."

So the adjutant subconsciously got out, and he didn't react until he got out of the door, angrily turned around and yelled inside: "Why are you angry at me! It's not that I got married! If you have the guts, go to our father and get angry! If you have the guts, go!!!”

In the room, Geng Yan was silent, silently clenched his fists.

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Li Shen's wedding was scheduled for the end of the month, and the time was a bit rushed, but neither party paid much attention to the ceremony. He was asked to try on the dresses, so do you want him to help you walk around the stage?

But right now the couple who are about to get married are indeed very busy. The blood queen is leading troops to fight in the north, and Li Shen is tossing the third and most important main army in Chang'an.Originally, they planned to use the Geng Army and Huiguang's mercenaries as the main force, but unfortunately, both of them were in a period of weakness, and the combined elite troops they could produce were not comparable to the number of a single family in its heyday.So Li Shen can only ask for people from other mercenary regiments, which is quite troublesome. What he wants are the elites who are the lifeblood of each family, and it is impossible to rely on guarantees for food, and tough methods can't make it go too far Otherwise, it would be a real headache to arouse public anger.At times like this, Li Shen just thought about Lin Guo, if that guy who was full of bad puddles and never blinking was still around, he wouldn't need to worry about these shitty things.

Recently, he has been busy with a few gray hairs, and he has to deal with the battle reports from the front line, and he feels more and more that there are not enough people around him.Those newly promoted cadres in the Geng Army still have too little experience, and almost everything has to be decided by him in the end.The adjutant called the day before the wedding, and Li Shen remembered that he hadn't been home for a long time.

Probably because of Geng Yan, Li Shen doesn't really want to go back to that home now, even things like staying under the same roof with the other party can cause unnecessary pressure on him.From the time when Li Shen decided to save the other party, there were some things that he couldn't escape and had to face... no matter how much he didn't want to face it.

Facing his feelings for Geng Yan and his betrayal of Yang Huxing and others.

He even subconsciously hoped that Geng Yan could commit suicide so that he would not have to face all this, but this despicable thought did not make him feel relaxed, but made him more painful.So before he was completely driven crazy, Li Shen decided to let Geng Yan go.

After making this decision, he finally felt relaxed for a long time, and it seemed that a big rock had been removed from his heart, which no longer weighed him down.Although the guilt towards Yang Huxing and others still hurt his heart from time to time, Li Shen felt that he could bear such pain.Even if you have to live with such guilt all your life, it is infinitely easier than struggling between love and hatred for Geng Yan.

The adjutant's phone call was to tell Li Shen that his groom's dress had been delivered to his home, and Xue Tu's Bu Shi asked him to put it on anyway, and if there was something inappropriate, there was still time to change it, otherwise he would make a fool of himself at tomorrow's wedding , then there is really no help.Li Shen knew that the dress was cut according to his figure, and there was no question of whether it fit or not. As for the style, he really didn't care.After hanging up the adjutant's phone call, Li Shen continued to discuss Chang'an's city defense with Donggong's Lu Cang. The other party wanted to make some changes to the existing air defense system, such as adding the mechanical canopy that Donggong is famous for... Lu Cang The young boy showed unprecedented enthusiasm for covering the entire sky of Chang'an with a mechanical canopy. According to his idea, when people look up, the overwhelming black mechanical canopy will be so spectacular. It is the ultimate romance of men. ah.

Regarding this matter, Li Shen only has one question. The attack range of the mechanical canopy is the range it covers, and it is an indiscriminate attack within the range, so what is the use of clothing it?Is it used to destroy Chang'an?

Li Shen was busy until after ten o'clock in the evening, finally had time to take a breather, unbuttoned his collar, and lay back on the chair to rest.This is his temporary office in the Geng Army Guild Hall. The collapsed building of the Guild Hall is still being rebuilt, and due to the war, the reconstruction project has been suspended at present, so as not to be smashed to pieces in the attack before it is repaired.

Li Shen walked out of the office in his overcoat, and walked towards the parking lot along the quiet path under the street lights. Because of the formation of a legion, most of the mercenaries of the Geng Army had been transferred to the temporary barracks in the west of the city. So right now the entire Geng Army Guild Hall's living area looks a bit empty.He stopped under a street lamp, lowered his head and lit a cigarette, but heard a cat meowing from the grass by the roadside, and then a small figure that seemed familiar came out of the dark grass, squatted on the side of the road and raised his head. look at him.

Li Shen bit his cigarette and blinked in surprise. After a while, he knelt down and waved at it.

Overlord, who had grown into a big cat, stared at a pair of amber pupils, shook the somewhat messy fur on his body, and hesitantly walked towards Li Shen.It walked up to Li Shen step by step, tentatively sniffed Li Shen's palm with its nose, then stuck out its tongue and licked his fingertips.

Li Shen touched its head with a smile, held it up with one hand, stood up and held it in his arms.Overlord lay docilely in his arms, lazily licking his paws, looking very comfortable.Although it was picked up by Geng Yan, and Geng Yan has been raising it all the time, but he only shows affection to Li Shen, so it is true that this cat follows its owner.

Holding the Overlord in his arms, Li Shen, who originally planned to go to Weiyang Palace, changed his mind temporarily, and drove back to Li's Mansion on Gubai Road.He carried the cat through the archway between the front yard and the back yard, raised his head, and saw Geng Yan standing by the veranda.

With a meow, the Overlord jumped out of Li Shen's arms, and ran towards his long-lost master for the first time.In the end, it wasn't Geng Yan's embrace that was waiting for it. Its owner squatted down and gently stroked its head, but no matter how gentle it was, it couldn't hide the disgust in the words: "Why is it so dirty?"

The next second, there were a few scarlet claw marks on the back of his hand. Overlord rushed into the courtyard next to him, and quickly disappeared into a dark corner, leaving only Geng Yan looking at the back of his hand, and Li Shen who was also speechless.

Geng Yan squatted on the ground, raised his head and asked Li Shen: "I heard you are getting married?"

The moonlight shone on his side face, making the complexion paler against it. Li Shen looked at Geng Yan's face, and the expression on it was the indifference and calmness he was familiar with.

For some reason, Li Shen was suddenly a little irritable.

He didn't answer Geng Yan's question, but instead asked, "When are you going to leave?"

"Soon." Geng Yan replied, standing up while leaning on the railing, his voice was still calm, "It won't affect your marriage."

Li Shen felt that there was nothing else to say. To Geng Yan, he didn't want to see Geng Yan get angry or get angry because of his marriage. He took a step forward and walked past Geng Yan.

The moment they passed each other, Li Shen smelled the moist rain coming from the wind, and the dark clouds flying by in the night sky quietly covered the twinkling stars and cast a thick darkness into the world.

The rain was dappled and falling.

Geng Yan firmly grasped Li Shen's wrist, holding it tightly in his palm.With his back to Li Shen, in the sudden rainstorm, he asked in an inaudible voice——

"If I don't leave, can you not marry her?"

Li Shen stood there, silent for a moment, and asked back, "Do you know what you're talking about?"

Geng Yan thought that he was indeed crazy to say such a thing.So he was quiet and tried his best to force himself to let go of his fingers.

Li Shen left.

Geng Yan's body shook, he was a little dizzy, and he stretched out his hand to support the pillar beside him.The cold raindrops hit the back of his hands, and the claw marks that had just been scratched by the Overlord were stinging and painful. The damp rain and wind came in through the cuffs of his clothes, as if a film had stuck to his skin, which was very uncomfortable.

The scenery in his sight became blurred, giving him the illusion that the world was spinning. Geng Yan lowered his head and endured the sudden dizziness, leaning on the railing, he squatted down little by little.

There was a buzzing in his head... He struggled to stand up with his hands on the ground, he didn't want to be seen by others. The embarrassment that filled his chest made him close his eyes in pain. He just told Li Shen that the only thing in his life A sentence of regret was like begging for mercy. In any case, he didn't want the other party to see himself like this.

The heavy rain hit the ground with a bang, and the roaring thunder echoed in the sky, stimulating Geng Yan's eardrums one after another.

A pair of arms came down from above, lifting him off the ground, and tightly hugging him into a familiar embrace.Li Shen picked up Geng Yan, kicked open the door next to him expressionlessly, walked into Geng Yan's room, and threw him on the bed.

Geng Yan stood up in astonishment, in his line of sight, Li Shen's figure turned back to the door, and as the door was slammed shut with a slam, the whole room was suddenly plunged into darkness.

In the darkness, one hand clasped Geng Yan's neck, and pressed him face down on the mattress.The thin nightgown on his body was torn off, Geng Yan's eyes widened in shock, and then a hot kiss landed on his naked back.

He tried to turn his head in disbelief, but was pushed back even harder. In the silent room, Li Shen's voice was like a wild beast whose throat was strangled, hoarse and manic.

"You brought it on yourself."

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Li Shen was groping for the shoulder blades on Geng Yan's back in the dark. The hard bones had lost the once strong muscles that contained endless strength, and only a thin layer of skin remained. He lowered his head and kissed the body under his palms, After Geng Yan was shocked at the beginning, he became very quiet. Only when Li Shen's kiss fell, he could feel his occasional slight trembling.Maybe it's because of the darkness, when the eyes can't see, other senses become sharper, and even the sound of kisses falling becomes clear and audible.

Li Shen separated Geng Yan's legs and inserted his body in. He held Geng Yan's waist and hips, and pulled up the other's buttocks. This simple action made Geng Yan's body tense for an instant, and then A hot thing stuck to his buttocks and slipped slightly beside his back hole. He subconsciously dodged forward, but was pulled back by Li Shen forcefully. Although he was mentally prepared, when Li Shen's penis was hard When Shengsheng broke through the barrier and squeezed into the back acupoint, the severe pain of being torn apart still made Geng Yan's eyes suddenly black, and he tried his best to clenched his teeth and swallowed back the sound that came to his mouth.The fiery penis was wedged into the body inch by inch, and when the pain was extreme, Geng Yan suddenly wanted to laugh.

Why on earth did he have to endure these humiliations and tortures? Now he is no longer that hunter, but a weak prey that can only be slaughtered.The beast he hunted is riding on him right now, venting his anger and desire on him, and he seems to be grateful that the other party still has desires for him?

This is ridiculous.

Geng Yan lowered his head, biting the arm under the head with his teeth, and the raised waist weakly endured Li Shen's fierce impact. Moist blood gushed out from the torn acupuncture point, along the propped up The inner thighs slid down, soaking the bedding under her body drop by drop.He no longer possesses the ability to heal wounds with his cultivation base completely useless. The torn wounds in his body were mercilessly poked open again and again by the hard and hot meat pestle. , Geng Yan opened his eyes numbly, unable to think about anything, there was only a blank in his mind.

When this endless pain continued to the limit that his body could bear, he finally got his wish and passed out.

In the middle of the night, Geng Yan woke up from a coma. He was weakly lying on the bed. The pain from his lower body made him unable to control his body twitching. Sitting on the edge of the bed, smoking a cigarette in silence.

The room was filled with the smell of smoke, and he didn't know how long he had been sitting there.

Geng Yan turned his head and caught Li Shen's blurred outline with his eyes gradually adapted to the darkness. Even if he couldn't see clearly, the other person's appearance was already engraved in his mind.In his eyes, Li Shen hunched his shoulders, smoking one cigarette after another silently.

After an unknown amount of time, Li Shen suddenly said, "I'll get someone to look at your wounds... and then I'll send you away."

Of course he knew that Geng Yan had woken up, even the change of breathing could be clearly heard in this dark room, Li Shen dropped the cigarette butt in his hand and stood up, but Geng Yan grabbed his wrist again.

"Is there nothing...you want to tell me?"

Geng Yan's calm but suppressed voice echoed in the room. He tightly clasped Li Shen's wrist, knowing in his heart more than ever that once he let go of this hand, everything would really be over. These ten years, countless loves And hate, the feelings that have been entangled to this day...

Li Shen stood where he was, and opened Geng Yan's fingers one by one in silence.He held Geng Yan's hand, put it back on the bed, then bent down, and placed a light kiss on Geng Yan's cheek.

Gently brushing like a feather, like never before, no longer mixed with hatred and desire, a tender kiss full of love.

At this last moment, although he still couldn't say it, he used this kiss to confess his love to Geng Yan.

It was this fragile and tenacious love rooted in his heart that bound those ugly and cruel desires, blocked the hatred and anger in his heart, made him struggle at both ends of the balance, and made him choose to let go.

It's a confession and a farewell.It's 'I love you' and it's also 'Never See You'.

Li Shen straightened up and walked towards the door. Just before he opened the door, Geng Yan's voice sounded again.

"I'm not leaving."

His voice became a little hoarse due to the previous affair, but every word was bitten clearly, with a desperate and deep determination.

He propped up the mattress and sat up, and said to Li Shen who was standing at the door——

"Li Shen, I love you."

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The adjutant who was picked up from the bed in the middle of the night hurried to find a doctor. Although Li Shen had already heard that he was treating Geng Yan's wound, as soon as Dan walked into Geng Yan's room, the smell of sandalwood mixed with blood was still called He couldn't help but widen his eyes, and what was even more outrageous was the pool of black and red blood on the mattress, which was simply shocking.

Geng Yan changed into a clean nightgown, and lay on the inside of the bed with his eyes closed. The doctor walked over with the medicine box, hesitatingly stretched out his hand to take off his nightgown, but was swung away halfway.Geng Yan opened his eyes tiredly, stared indifferently at the bewildered doctor standing beside the bed, and ordered: "Put down the medicine box, go out."

"Uh." Although the doctor was intimidated by his attitude, he couldn't help but said, "If the wound is too serious, you can't handle it yourself, and it will only get worse if it drags on..."

To this, Geng Yan's response was a rolling word.

The doctor and the adjutant had no choice but to get out of the room in despair, not because they were timid, but because Geng Yan's aura was too scary, the adjutant dared to bet 1 yuan, if they stayed inside, Geng Yan would probably kill someone.But this situation was indeed a bit embarrassing, the adjutant secretly drew a contempt for their father, just thinking about it, Li Shen, who also changed his clothes, came out of his own bedroom next door.

Li Shen looked at the doctor and the adjutant, frowned and said, "How is the situation?"

The adjutant and the doctor looked at each other, the former faltered: "Uh, that, he won't look at it..."

Li Shen nodded, telling them to follow, he opened the door of Geng Yan's room first and walked in.Standing at the door, he glanced at Geng Yan, who was half sitting on the bed and looking through the medicine box, then turned to the doctor and said, "Go and see his wound."

Geng Yan showed an expression of disbelief, then took out a scalpel from the medicine box, held it in his palm, frowned and looked at Li Shen.The doctor stopped between the two, and the small scalpel in Geng Yan's hand was a blatant threat, but Li Shen watched from behind, he was in a dilemma.

Li Shen looked away from Geng Yan, and said to the adjutant, "You call someone to hold him down."

The adjutant's jaw opened unconsciously, almost writing an 'O'. Li Shen gave him a glare before realizing it. He hurriedly supported it with his hands, and ran out faltering.There was no trace of blood on Geng Yan's face. When the adjutant came in with two guards, he finally let go of the knife in his hand, and said to Li Shen in a suppressed voice: "Tell them to go out."

Li Shen couldn't see any expression on his face, and said indifferently: "You obediently show the wound to the doctor, and I'll tell them to go out."

Geng Yan nodded slowly and stiffly.

Without waiting for Li Shen's order, the adjutant led the people away tactfully, and the doctor who was left in the room bravely walked to the bedside, asking Geng Yan to lift up his nightgown and lie down, revealing the location of the injury.Li Shen stood at the door of the room, watching the doctor treat the wound on Gengyan's posterior acupoint, the whole room was deadly silent except for the occasional sound of instruments colliding.

It was obviously not such a strenuous work, but after the treatment, the doctor still broke out in a profuse sweat, not hot, but cold sweat.He almost rushed out of the room carrying the medicine box as if fleeing, leaving Geng Yan lying on the bed to face Li Shen standing at the door alone.

Li Shen walked to the bed, picked up the motionless Geng Yan from the bed, went outside and ordered the adjutant to clean up the room, and then carried Geng Yan back to his bedroom.

He hugged Geng Yan in his arms, sat on the chair by the table, and carefully placed his hands under Geng Yan's buttocks to protect the other's wound.Geng Yan leaned his head on Li Shen's shoulder wearily, he didn't want to say anything anymore, Li Shen lowered his head and kissed his unconsciously frowned brows, and said calmly: "If you stay by my side, you won't be the emperor, It's not the Geng Yan I used to be, I will do more cruel things to you... because of you, I will become a bad person, trample on my principles and bottom line, and become no longer like a person."

"You can do to me what you want, anything..."

Geng Yan put his arms around Li Shen's neck, put his chin on Li Shen's shoulder, and said wearily and calmly, "Because this is my choice."

——He gave up the long and distant future and chose the short and within reach of the present.

Just because I don't want to let go of this person in my arms.