Shu Ke's Notes

Many people witnessed the "homosexuality" incident that day, and most of them took it as excitement and gave up and didn't take it seriously.But for Cheng Shuke, it was at the most sensitive period in his heart that he poured a basin of cold water on him. The solemn oath was not only a clarification to himself, but also a statement that he would plan to be with Liu Shao from now on. Clear boundaries.

Cheng Shuke thought that in the 16 years before he knew Liu Shao, he had always been cautious about the word love, let alone falling in love, and had never even held hands, but now he has fallen into an ambiguous relationship with Liu Shao Can't extricate themselves from it.Since when did you start feeling for Liu Shao, whom you hated so much at the beginning, and slowly give your heart to him?

Cheng Shuke began to reflect on whether he was too sloppy and frivolous to be in this situation today - to be the object of ridicule behind everyone's back, and to become a topic of conversation after dinner?

During the time when he came to Liu's house, Cheng Shuke almost searched through Liu Ying's private collection of Tanmei novels.The story in the novel is too beautiful, two men, just being together as a matter of course, can ignore it for the sake of love, but how can the reality be so beautiful?The wild discussions and ridicules on the Internet seem to be nothing different from ordinary people, or even irrelevant, but in the real world, "homosexuality" is still a taboo topic that cannot be touched.The sixteen or seventeen-year-old classmates who should be open-minded in the class are like this, let alone the rigorous previous generation?If he is really with Liu Shao, how should he treat his parents and Liu Shao's parents?

But...if it is really necessary to break, how should we face Liu Shao?

Thinking of all the bitterness and sweetness in the past, Shuke's heart wrenched again, and tears came out of his eyes.

Cheng Shuke's heart was disturbed, and at this moment he felt pain that he had never experienced before.

Now that Cheng Shuke has made up his mind, he keeps a distance from Liu Shao at all times, he no longer engages in "little tricks" with Liu Shao during class time, he doesn't go to lunch with Liu Shao, and he rarely talks to Liu Shao even after returning home at night , Only in front of the Liu family would he pretend to be normal, a bit of a usual look, but Liu Shao has always insisted on homework lectures and daily tutoring, and Cheng Shuke did not refuse.

The two of them lived together peacefully for a few days, and the state at this moment was the normal mode of getting along that these two should have.

During the period, Liu Shao also tried to communicate a few times, but in the end it was all hot faces and cold asses, and Shuke did what he wanted, and didn't listen at all.Liu Shao gave up after trying a few times. He didn't believe that Cheng Shuke would really want to break up with him, and thought that since it was a knot in his heart, he had to figure it out on his own.Thinking in this way, Liu Shao put all his thoughts into the upcoming first quality prediction.

On this day, Cheng Shuke was still the same as the previous few days. He didn't wait for Liu Shao after school at noon, and walked towards the door alone, but was pulled by the arm by the person behind him.He looked back and met Liu Shao's persistent gaze: "It's been a long time since we had lunch together, let's go together today."

Liu Shao was already like this, and Cheng Shuke couldn't say anything more, so he nodded in agreement.

The two finished their meals, but they sat face to face but were speechless.

The cafeteria is noisy and really not a good place for conversation.Liu Shao looked around and forcibly held back what he wanted to say.

The two have never had a meal in such silence since they met. Even if it wasn't for the ambiguous period when they stuck together and talked non-stop, when they first met each other and looked at each other unfavorably, they would still be making small noises instead of being silent.

Lin Zihan was still sitting with a group of chattering girls, chatting excitedly, sometimes sniggering, and sometimes glanced in their direction, the topic of discussion was obvious.

Liu Shao obviously noticed it, and glanced in that direction lightly.Lin Zihan finally calmed down a bit when he met the cold and angry gaze.

The meal was tasteless, and the two quickly finished eating and returned to the classroom.The classroom was empty and extremely quiet.

The two sat on their seats. Shu Ke wanted to take out his English book to review, but someone grabbed his hand.

Liu Shao broke the silence first: "Shu Ke, let's talk."

Cheng Shuke had expected this moment a long time ago, and returned calmly: "Well, it's time to talk. Today, I want to sort out our relationship."

"What's the point? Isn't the relationship between us very clear?" Liu Shao frowned slightly after hearing what he said.

"No, we haven't been clear since the first day we met, that's not right. I think we should just be ordinary friends in the future." Cheng Shuke had no expression on his face, as if he was talking about an unimportant matter.

"The first day we met?" Liu Shao laughed a few times, "Do you still remember the first day we met?" Seeing Shu Ke's ignorant expression, he simply said : "We met when we were young. I have never dared to say it, for fear that you will not remember, but you really still don't remember."

Cheng Shuke's lines prepared in his heart were at a loss by the sudden change of the plot, and he said angrily: "I don't care what you say, whether you know each other or not, we can't go on like this anymore." Cheng Shuke took a deep breath In a calm tone, he stated his plan: "I've made up my mind, I'll find the teacher in charge to change my seat when I go down today, and then...apply to live on campus."

When Liu Shao heard this, the anger accumulated for several days burst out: "What on earth do you want? There must be a limit to making trouble, okay?"

Cheng Shuke's anger was also provoked, thinking that my attitude these days is not obvious enough!He yelled at Liu Shao angrily: "I'm not making trouble!"

"Isn't it troublesome? What is that? Let's end like this!"

After hearing this, Cheng Shuke whispered, "Is there anything that can't be finished...it never started."

Liu Shao never imagined that Cheng Shuke was such a wolf-hearted person that he would say such a thing.His lips were trembling, trying to suppress his anger, and said, "Cheng Shuke, why don't you raise your head? You raise your head and talk to me!"

After Cheng Shuke heard this, he suddenly raised his head, and those eyes already filled with tears met Liu Shao's.

Liu Shao's heart suddenly softened, and he said in a low voice: "Shu Ke, tell me, are you afraid? Don't be afraid, look...I'm not afraid...Can you also not be afraid..."

Liu Shao's voice trembled slightly, which made Shu Ke feel distressed: "Liu Shao, listen to me, it's wrong for us to do this..."

Cheng Shuke's voice was interrupted by Liu Shao: "What's wrong, what's wrong with us? Why is it wrong that we don't owe anyone!" Liu Shao received it again as if thinking of something: "You mean that morning? I know who did it! I know!... Are you blaming me for not helping you?"

"It's not that I'm against you, I'm just afraid that she will bear a grudge and trouble you in the future. But I can guarantee that I have warned her, and she will not mess around in the future." Liu Shao turned Shu Ke's face and looked squinting his eyes: "I promise!"

Cheng Shuke lowered his head, but still held back his heart and said: "It has nothing to do with this matter, don't you understand? This matter is just a fuse!" Cheng Shuke decided to understand it, and said in a low voice: "You have thought about it Do Uncle Liu and Aunt Li feel it?"

Liu Shao quickly answered, "My parents will support me, I believe they will understand me!"

"But what about others? What do you want others to think?"

"I don't care what other people think!"

"But I care! I care about what other people think! My family is not so enlightened like yours. If my parents know that their only son is a homosexual who was poked in the spine, they will kick me out of the house!"

After hearing this, Liu Shao said cautiously: "...they don't want you, I want you, my family wants you."

"That's your house, not mine." Cheng Shuke simply said something that made him give up: "Liu Shao, do you think that in my heart, you are more important than my parents?"

Liu Shao was silent, he had no way to justify, let alone fight for it.He clearly understands that in his heart, he is just someone he has known for more than two months, so how can he compete with his family.

At this moment, Liu Shao felt a deep sense of powerlessness.

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