Shu Ke's Notes

Sitting on the side of the road, Chen Ziran thought about what happened just now, and felt that it was really a good show. Maybe his cousin Cheng Shuke would never forget his birthday party in his life!

Thinking of that stupid cousin's pale face with fright when he said that the book was not his, Chen Ziran laughed viciously.

In the end, Chen Ziran did not say that the book belonged to Cheng Shuke. Instead, when his parents showed eager eyes and hoped that he would say "this book is just borrowed by others to read casually", he smiled arrogantly and said: "This This book is not mine, but it is my man's." Such words.

Not to mention Cheng Shuke's incomprehension in Chen Ziran's actions, even he himself didn't know why he blocked the knife for this cousin who didn't have much friendship on weekdays.

Maybe it was because seeing that stupid cousin almost made me cry?

Maybe it's because I've been in too deep and too painful, so I compare my heart to my heart?

Or maybe, she just wanted to annoy her parents?

Sitting under the lamppost by the side of the road, watching the constant flow of traffic in front of him, he instantly felt isolated by the city.

Suddenly I thought of the hypocritical words written in the excerpt of the female deskmate: If you like someone, you will be humbled into the dust, and then flowers will bloom from the dust.Thinking of the person in my heart day and night, as strong as Chen Ziran, I also have the urge to cry a little bit.

He habitually fumbled in his pockets, trying to light a cigarette, but found that he had already promised the man to quit smoking, and threw away all the cigarettes and lighters.

For a moment, he was furious and said cursingly: "Fuck!" He also kicked the lamp post a few times.

Cars sped by, but they couldn't wait for the familiar figure.Chen Ziran's heart sank lower and lower, and finally when he gave up waiting, stood up and turned to leave, a familiar Audi stopped beside him.

Just like the low voice when we first met: "Get in the car."

Chen Ziran is a very typical delinquent boy. He smokes, drinks, fights, and once molested a female classmate in the same class. The teacher is devastated by him, and his parents wish they could not have such a child.But Chen Ziran always knew in his heart: he is like this now, just because there is nothing in this world that interests him.

So Cui Chengyu appeared, which made Chen Ziran feel that he was destined for him by the heavens.He exhausted all methods, and finally got the chance for the two to meet formally, although the police station was not such a romantic occasion.

Chen Ziran successfully moved into Cui Chengyu's home on the first day he met him.He feels thrilled, exhilarated, sweet and even thrilled.

When you like someone, every time you know more about him, your love for him will increase.This is especially true for Chen Ziran.

Stepping into his simple and clean room, looking at the expensive clothes neatly hung in his closet, and the books in the bookcase that he may not be able to understand in his life, Chen Ziran felt ashamed for a moment .

When Cui Chengyu showed him around the whole room, he didn't know how the steps under his feet went out, he just felt like a monster who had wandered into the urban forest by mistake, and he was incompatible with this environment and this kind of him.

"Actually, you are very good-looking, but..." Cui Chengyu smiled at the young man who was staring blankly at him, and did not continue.

Does he despise himself?Is it?

So I changed myself for him, dyed my hair back to black, threw away the punk clothes and earrings, trimmed my nails short, and wore sportswear or white shirts like my classmates at work...

But why even so, that person still looked at him like this... Like looking at a child who hasn't grown up?

Cui Chengyu's home is in City X, where he has his parents and god-sister, but because of his career, he spends most of his time in City B, so he has to fly back and forth between City X and City B frequently.

Chen Ziran was determined that Cui Chengyu would not urge him to leave, so he stayed at his house every month when he returned to X City.

The parents have long since given up on disciplining this son who has been disobedient since he was a child. Seeing that he is so sloppy without dressing up these days is already a good idea, and they don't expect to come back to live every night.So when my son said "live in a classmate's house", no classmate even bothered to ask.

So the two seemed to have reached some kind of agreement, whenever Cui Chengyu was in X City, they lived together for a short period of time.But Chen Ziran knew in his heart that in the eyes of the other party, he was just a very interesting little boy, and he didn't have any other thoughts.

But even so, when Chen Ziran received the news that Cui Chengyu was going back to City X on this day, he packed his luggage and rushed to the other party's house in ecstasy.

But when he opened the door with the key and stood in the entrance hall, he heard ambiguous panting sounds from the bedroom, Chen Ziran's mind went blank instantly, his whole body felt cold, and he fell into the ice cellar.

"Ah...ah...Chengyu...Chengyu...slow down..."

It was another man's voice.

His ears were filled with adult scenes that were not suitable for children, such as groaning and gasping. Chen Ziran stood at the door with his luggage in a daze, not knowing how to react at this time.

Should he secretly be happy that Cui Chengyu really likes men, maybe he will have a chance?

Or are you fantasizing about the sexy appearance and expression of Choi Seung-woo at this time, and feeling hot all over?

However, the fact is that there is nothing but heartache and nothing to say.

If he was Cui Chengyu's boyfriend, he could justifiably rush into the bedroom and slap that man in the face; if he was Cui Chengyu's younger brother, he could just walk into the living room and do whatever he wanted.But Chen Ziran is nothing, just a stranger who happened to be taken in by the other party for pity on him.

He could only leave silently, close the door and leave.

The two have only known each other for only three months, and they have spoken only a handful of words. Chen Ziran feels more and more like a perverted voyeur described in a noir movie, greedily longing for every detail of each other's life.

But after this encounter, Chen Ziran no longer knew how to rely on the other party cheekily, begging the other party to pay attention to him even a little bit.

Although Chen Ziran used to be a gangster who did things wrong and went in and out of various bars and other places freely, but when he walked into this bar called "doomsday", he still felt the difference very quickly.

Chen Ziran found this on the Internet, a famous gay bar in W City.

Chen Ziran was dressed in clean student attire, jeans and a white shirt, and a khaki casual jacket. The face that usually looked rebellious now looked extraordinarily delicate and pleasant.

Like a little lamb strayed into a pack of wolves, a young man who struck up a conversation soon surrounded him.

The young man looks good. He looks about 25 or [-] years old, with a pair of charming peach blossom eyes.He wobbled a glass of orange juice in his hand, and said kindly that children should not drink alcohol.

"I'm not here to drink orange juice." Chen Ziran sneered in his heart.

"Oh? Then you are here..." The young man looked at the delicious lamb in front of him and asked with great interest.

"I'm here to clear up the confusion." Chen Ziran said straight to the point.

"Confusion? What confusion?" The young man asked after taking a sip of the wine in his glass.

"I want... to get someone." Chen Ziran thought for a while and said.

"I think, I can help you." The young man smiled confidently.

"What... do you have?" Chen Ziran raised his head and looked into the young man's eyes.

The young man smiled and touched his face. "Tonight... come with me."

Chen Ziran lowered his head to think for a moment, then raised his head firmly to look at him: "Okay."

The author has something to say:

Chen Ziran fell in love with Cui Chengyu at first sight.

Can it be said that seeing Chengyu missed his life?