Shu Ke's Notes

Liu Shao's eyes could not be rejected, and Cheng Shuke subconsciously nodded slightly.

He was fascinated by the memories of the past, and after a while, he slowly opened his mouth: "I was the one who was furious back then, I think I clearly planned our future so well, why do you insist on not hitting the south wall and not turning back? I don't understand , What is the meaning of your so-called dream."

Cheng Shuke's eyes darkened slightly, dreaming... Do I still have the ability to chase the dream I once had?The news that the report failed to win the award caused a slight ripple in Shu Ke's heart to be ruthlessly suppressed.Deviated too far from the pre-set track, he could only numbly choose to follow the steps and humbly pray that life would be a little better for him.

"You have your own ideals, there's nothing wrong with that. I didn't respect your decision, and I was wrong when I hurt you. I formally apologize to you, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." Liu Shao looked directly into Shu Ke's eyes, Both of them had regret and helplessness in their eyes.

"It's okay. Actually, I don't blame you for a long time. I figured it out. Even if I took the exam back then, I might not be able to pass it." Shu Ke laughed at himself and scratched the back of his head embarrassingly. "No, I'm sure I won't pass the exam. The culture class is nearly [-] points short."

"It was my fault. If I had been with you and worked hard with you, maybe..." Liu Shao was interrupted by Shu Ke hastily before he finished speaking: "Don't talk about this, it's all over!" Shu Ke sighed With a sigh of relief, he turned his head and looked at him: "What's the use of talking about it now? Let's talk about you, didn't you always want to go to Wuhan University, why did you go abroad again?"

"After you left, I didn't have a good life at all. I didn't have any interest in studying or doing anything! I think every day, why did you leave me, why did you break up with me for a trivial matter?! I Always thinking, always thinking about what to do to get you back..." Liu Shao couldn't help frowning when thinking of those days of restlessness and irritability.

Seeing him like this, Shu Ke couldn't help comforting him and said, "You know, even if we didn't quarrel, I still have to go back to the original school to take the college entrance examination."

"No! You don't understand!" Liu Shao suddenly raised his head and stared at Shu Ke's eyes, his sharp but sad eyes looked like a wounded lion: "In fact, I had planned that incident a long time ago. I didn't plan to let you go to Beijing to take some kind of ghost test... I was afraid that you would be angry, so I forced you to swear that no matter what I did, you would never leave me."

Liu Shao's hand slowly touched Shu Ke's face, and his brows became more and more wrinkled: "You promised, you clearly promised me at the time! But you broke your promise, and you left me in the end, just like when you were a child... ...I'm afraid you'll never love me as much as I love you."

Shu Ke looked at Liu Shao's mournful and injured eyes, and felt a little unbelievable. This person in front of him is really unreasonable!If he really loves me as much as he said, wouldn't he even give me a little bit of tolerance and consideration?Could it be that in his eyes, the sacred and beautiful word love only represents the terrible desire to possess and control?If it's this kind of love, don't forget it.

"Of course, I failed the college entrance examination, so I applied for a foreign university." Liu Shao's tone was calmer than before, no longer so intense, but slowly narrating his past. "Everything is brand new there, they don't know me, I don't know them, I want to change the environment, change the environment to start again, I want to forget you... I think, after forgetting you, maybe I won't So sad. Just like what you said when we separated, maybe one day, we can meet again, and at that time, we can still talk like ordinary friends."

Through his eloquent narration, Shu Ke seemed to be able to travel through time and space, and saw with his own eyes that Liu Shao who was dejected in a foreign country at that time, he was so emaciated and devastated.

Liu Shao's superficially calm tone was mixed with imperceptible pain: "But I can't do it, I can't forget you, I still miss you! I can't help but miss you crazily!" He laughed twice as if crying : "But I can't see you yet, I can't even breathe the air in the same sky with you... Until then, I didn't know that I was wrong, I was so wrong, I started to repent, I thought so, would it be There will be a day when you will be magnanimous to forgive me."

Shu Ke's eye circles gradually turned red, he suppressed the tears that were about to fall and said in a crying voice: "Don't say it, don't say it anymore, I don't hold grudges against you, why did you say such things to me..."

"Yes, you didn't hold grudges against me." Liu Shao's voice suddenly became low, and his powerful right hand pinched Shu Ke's chin, forcing him to raise his head and look directly into his eyes: "But you have changed your mind, Shu Ke."

Such eyes made people shudder, as if they were in an ice cellar for an instant, Cheng Shuke shivered with cold all over his body.

"I plucked up the courage to contact you and apologize, but I didn't have your phone number, so I contacted Zou Kai." Liu Shao stared straight at Shu Ke's eyes as if trying to see through the other's heart, but the corner of his mouth raised a twitch With a smile that was not a smile, he said slowly: "Guess... what did he tell me?"

Shu Ke suddenly had a bad premonition, before he could speak, tears flowed down his face: "No, that's not the case..."

"He told me that you were in love with a beautiful little girl." Liu Shao laughed to himself. "It turns out that I am the only one who is sad and sad, and you have fallen in love with someone else a long time ago." He put his hand on his forehead and thought about something, and then immediately smiled and said, "Oh, by the way, you know that Zou Kai was How did you tell me?"

"Don't tell me I don't want to hear it!" Shu Ke covered his ears with tears streaming down his face, and stood up suddenly from the sofa, trying to escape from this place quickly, but was grabbed by Liu Shao behind him and held him tightly in his arms.

Warm breath sprayed on the ears from behind: "I still remember his exact words until now, he said, 'Shook already has a girlfriend, a girl from their school, they will get married, have children, and live a normal life Human life... Liu Shao, he finally got out of your haze, so just let him go, after all, no one is obliged to wait for you forever, and no one is obliged to always be sincere to his ex, whether it was two years ago, Still now, he has the right to choose his own life, doesn't he?" Shuke, tell me, is he right?"

"You finally got out of my 'gloom', you don't love me anymore, right?"

"No! No! It's not!" Shook suddenly lost control of Liu Shao with the strength he didn't know where he came from for a moment, turned around and looked straight into the other's eyes and shouted.

This sentence was blurted out almost without thinking, and it was only after the words came out that Shu Ke suddenly felt a chill behind his back: Why, why did he say such words suddenly... Could it be that he still loves this person in front of him from the beginning to the end? what?

Once such an idea appeared, it immediately rushed to my heart like a huge wave.The heart that had been numb for four years was awakened in an instant, like a bolt of lightning hitting a piece of burnt wood, and then miraculously, the dead tree came back to life.

Maybe, except for him, I really don't seem to have loved anyone anymore.

Zou Kai is such an excellent person, and he is always so gentle to himself. For this person, I remember that he was moved by him back then.But since he separated from Liu Shao, it has been four years, even if the other party's hints were too straightforward, he has never responded at all, because he knows that his heart can no longer stir up any ripples like before.

When I met Hu Xuan in my sophomore year, when that beautiful and lovely little girl smiled and handed out a movie ticket, and asked, "Senior, can I invite you to watch a movie?" Became boyfriend and girlfriend.During the more than a year of dating Hu Xuan, he tried hard to fulfill the duties of a good boyfriend, studied hard and worked hard to earn money to support his family as soon as possible, but he was still complained after being cheated that "I didn't take her to heart at all." ".

Maybe it's true as she said, I really didn't take her to heart.For Hu Xuan, he likes it, but no matter how much, there is really no more.The thrilling life-and-death love that those little girls long for, it is enough to taste it once, and I really can't afford the second time...

It's not that he has no conscience, it's not that he doesn't feel pain, it's just that he has become numb.In four years, he never dared to recall everything about that person, and carefully locked his memory. But at this moment, once the key is found, love and memory will sweep through his mind like a crazy tide ——

What university, what job, what other people's vision, future and ideals...all the obstacles that stand between us, tear them up and trample them to pieces!Because everything added together is not as good as being with this person in front of me for a long time.

"Yes! I still love you. I have always loved you. You are satisfied! Don't say any more nonsense sarcastic remarks to anger me!" Shu Ke couldn't remember how many years it had been since he yelled hysterically, like it was the last time Talk to the person in front of you.

"What are you in a daze for! What are you thinking! Give me a letter!" Uncle Shu Ke glared at the other party with his hands on his hips, and was kissed hard on his lips as soon as he finished speaking.

The lips and tongues were extremely entangled, teased, and lingering to death... The two of them lost themselves and devoted themselves. Liu Shao's palm gradually reached into the other's jacket, and Shu Ke's arm slowly climbed onto his shoulder.

This is a kiss four years late, with all kinds of tenderness and longing in it.

The cell phone rang inappropriately, and Shu Ke, who was breathless from being kissed, quickly found a chance to break free: "My, my roommate's, he urged me to go back."

After picking up the phone, Li Jia's voice on the other side was still heartless: "That Shu Ke, I'm going out to play today, I won't go back if it's too late, I'm staying at Zhang Yu's house."

Liu Shao was dissatisfied with the sudden phone call, and licked the other party's neck like a prank, Shu Ke tried not to change the tone of his voice: "Oh, yes, I know, I know."

"You are alone in the dormitory, remember to close the doors and windows... Why can't you hear me, the signal is not good? Hello? Hello?" Li Jia looked at her mobile phone in wonder.

The boy standing next to Li Jia gave him a blank look and said, "Don't feed me, hang up, he must be busy now, and I don't want to talk to you!"

Here, Cheng Shuke and Liu Shao, who were doing "business", were rolling hotly on the sofa, and soon the battlefield moved to the big bed in the bedroom.

It seems that tonight is destined to be a sleepless night...

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