Shu Ke's Notes

The scheduled rhythm was completely disrupted, Cheng Shuke only felt confused and helpless.His heart was flustered and helpless, his face was as pale as paper...

For a long time, "coming out" has been like a powerful bomb in his heart. No matter what, once it is detonated, it will always bring a series of huge disasters.There are only two things he can do: one is to bury the bomb deeply in his heart, be on guard carefully, and wrap his heart layer by layer into the fortified barrier, but the ticking sound of the timer in the bomb is doomed every day. It harassed his already restless heart; the second is like a blast in architecture, it was meticulously calculated, and every detail was kept to minimize the loss. With a bang, the building fell down. Given time, there will always be a day when it will be rebuilt ...

But it's just that man's calculation is not as good as heaven's calculation, and this bomb detonated suddenly when he was unprepared!He was defeated by himself, and his mother was also covered with bruises. This contest, which was doomed once he embarked on this path, ended in a loss for both sides.

Facing his mother's hysterical scolding, Cheng Shuke felt chills all over his body.The "home" that made him feel warm seemed to be shattered in an instant, and he fled in a hurry like a monster who couldn't see the light...

The hysterical voice of the mother behind him has become hoarse, but the lethality has not diminished at all. Words such as "abnormal", "shameless", and "animal" are like sharp steel nails, nailing him firmly to the sinful place. on the torture rack.

escape!escape!escape!Instinctively, only this word remained in Cheng Shuke's mind.He ran forward aimlessly, finally exhausted, and then squatted down against the wall in the alley by the roadside.Burying his head deeply in his arms, he was at a loss, confused, doubtful, and then overwhelming grievances enveloped his heart...

It's just falling in love with someone, there are crying and laughing, love and hate, how is it different from those ordinary couples and couples?Could it be that only heterosexual unions are justifiable and supreme laws, while same-sex love contradicts the laws of nature and disregards ethics?I just want to be with the person I love, I just want to strive for my own happiness, I obviously don't hinder other people... I just want to live my little life quietly... But why, even My own mother didn't understand me, and even said such vicious words to hurt me!

Shu Ke was so wronged that his nose turned red.He argued in a low voice in his heart:

In fact, I just did something that I can't control - falling in love with him, that's all.Could it be that it is so unbearable, even a heinous crime!

They have walked all the way, how difficult and how lucky they are today, Shu Ke naturally knows it all too well.After four years, how can we talk to others about those sweetnesses, distresses, sufferings, and joys?As long as he imagined the possibility of being separated from Liu Shao, Shu Ke's heart ached like a knife, and tears finally burst out of his eyes, and slowly flowed down his cheeks...

Liu Shao's side was also like ants on a hot pan.Even a well-informed person would not be able to control the scene just now, let alone Liu Shao in his early twenties?Seeing that Cheng's mother had already lost control, she couldn't stop yelling; Shu Ke had also collapsed, and left without looking back at the door. Liu Shao was both worried and afraid: he was worried that Cheng's mother would get angry again when she was excited, and he was even more afraid of Shu Ke. Regardless of the dangers encountered when running out.

But Liu Shao knew that the more this kind of scene happened, the more he had to keep calm.He suppressed the urge to rush out the door to chase Shu Ke, and bent down to help Cheng Mu, who had collapsed in front of the door frame in anger, but the other party didn't appreciate it, and kept a stern face without speaking or moving his body.

After all, the other party is an elder, so Liu Shao didn't dare to force her, so he just sighed and said, "Auntie, I know you are very angry now, and you won't listen to me no matter what I explain, but having said that, don't be angry Did you damage your body? Sit down and have a rest first, and drink some water."

Cheng's mother still had an expression of not wanting to communicate, but she finally stood up slowly, thinking of her status as an elder.Maybe she was really dizzy with anger, her feet were floating, she staggered and nearly fell, Liu Shao hurried to help, but Cheng's mother blocked it with her hand, she stood firm, walked forward to the front of the sofa and sat down solemnly. Down, as if the hysterical person just now was another person.Its serious, strong personality can be seen.

Liu Shao also sat down on the sofa next to him, and continued: "Auntie, I know this matter is difficult for you to accept, but I swear, I am absolutely serious, and I will treat him well, just like you and uncle. I will also communicate with my parents. These days... I will take him to my house for a few days first, don't worry. "

After speaking, Liu Shao stood up and bowed to Cheng's mother apologetically, then ran to Shu Ke's room to pack their luggage quickly, dragged the box and chased them out quickly.

But at this time, where can I see Shu Ke's shadow after chasing him?He ran out in a hurry, and even left his mobile phone on the table. Liu Shao was not familiar with this place, so he couldn't contact him. Naturally, he didn't know where Shu Ke would go in such a hurry.When he thought that Shu Ke hadn't eaten breakfast, didn't even bring a penny with him, and just now had such a farce, and now he was hiding in a small corner and crying, his heart ached.But he had no choice but to drag two heavy suitcases and stand blankly at the gate of the community, looking around, hoping to have a moment of understanding with Shu Ke and let him know that he was waiting for him here.

Perhaps Liu Shao's prayer was really heard by God. His cell phone rang, and he hurriedly took it out to see that it was a call from a local stranger, so he hurriedly connected it.

Sure enough, a familiar but distinctly nasal voice came from the opposite side: "You... where are you now?"

"I'm at the gate of the community!" Liu Shao's voice was obviously eager.

"...You...Are you trying to persuade me to go back? I don't want to go back, and I don't want to admit my mistake...I, I don't want to talk to her now...I don't want to think about it...I, I'm in a mess right now..."

"No, no! Don't worry!" Hearing the other party's panicked voice, Liu Shao was so distressed that he wished he could fly to the other party's side in the next second.He hastily explained: "We are not going back, don't be afraid, I have roughly packed our luggage and took it out before I came out. You can go home with me, or we can go out to stay in a hotel first, I will accompany you I'm watching you, don't be afraid, huh?"

Under Liu Shao's comfort, Shu Ke's mood finally stabilized. "I... I'm near my elementary school now, quite close, you wait for me, I'll go back and find you now."

"Well, good. Which direction are you in? I'll walk towards you first?"

"Go left, go straight along the road, go two intersections...you will almost meet me."

"East or west?"

"I only know front, back, left, and right, I don't know east, west, north, south... Just face the road and go left... Okay, I won't tell you anymore, I borrowed someone else's phone, and they have to go It's work, hang up."

"Okay, okay, I'll be there soon, thank you very much...see you later." Liu Shao's expression relaxed a little, showing a long-lost soft smile.After hanging up the phone, he hurried over according to the route Shu Ke said. Although he was pulling a heavy suitcase, his steps were much lighter.

Fortunately, he didn't run very far. After a while, Liu Shao saw Shu Ke walking slowly at the intersection ahead.His whole body was wilted like a puppet that had been taken off its strings, his eyes and nose were red, obviously he had cried.

Liu Shao was pulling a suitcase, but couldn't wave at the other party, so he simply ran over with big strides.When approaching a person, regardless of the surprised gazes of passers-by, he embraced him in his arms.

"Cry if you want to cry, don't hold back." She said and gently stroked her lover's back.

But at this time, Shuke ran and ran, cried and cried, all emotions were exhausted, and there was not much strength left, but he was much calmer than before.At this moment, he nestled quietly in Liu Shao's arms without crying or making trouble, feeling extremely at ease.

After a while, Shu Ke said, "I'm fine." His voice was still low, but not crying. "I just don't know, what to do next."

"Let's take one step at a time, no matter how difficult it is, there is always hope, right?" Liu Shao kissed his hair.

"If, I mean if..." Shu Ke raised his head and looked into Liu Shao's eyes solemnly. "In the end, there is still, still no hope."

Liu Shao's body stiffened immediately, and his brows frowned immediately. The gentle eyes just now seemed like a bottomless cold pool: "As I said, this time, I will not let go. But if... If you go, then I will never, never come back."

Shocked by the other party's serious but decisive expression, Shu Ke lowered his head without daring to look directly.

Liu Shao couldn't hide his tiredness, and sighed deeply: "Let's go..."

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Ah... The lazy and stupid author hasn't updated for a long time...

TAT friends are very sorry...