Tsuruto Suyasu

How I wish I hadn't lived through these days.

I hope that when I wake up, it will still be the bar at the end of the alley at night, Bai Sheng drunkenly chatting with the people around me, and the confused manager is sorting out the unused wine utensils behind the bar.

I don't know how to describe this experience.At first it was a joke, but later it became an ordinary life. However, things in this world cannot be easily understood.I just thought, I probably don't blame him, let alone hate him.Such a meeting was originally just a fate that I mistakenly thought.And he, from the beginning to the end, just expressed his heart wholeheartedly.

At this moment, he was reclined on the sofa reading the report, with his feet on the low desk in front of him.The housekeeper was waiting by the side, and I was arranging the books in the bookcase as instructed.

"Su Chengan!" He raised his tone and called me again. "Put the book down and go for a cup of tea!"

The butler responded first: "I'll come, young master, young master Chengan..."

"Go!" He didn't even move his eyes.

I put down the book in my hand and walked up to take the teacup in front of him. As soon as my hand touched the handle of the cup, he lifted his foot and kicked the exquisite bone china cup to the ground.The cup fell apart in an instant, and it was even more shocking on the black tile floor.

"Pick it up." There was no wave in his words.

"Housekeeper, please take the broom and dustpan..."

"Pick it up with your hands." He moved away the report covering his face, and raised his right eyebrow slightly.

"Master..."

"I said pick it up with your hands." He casually threw the report on the ground and stood up. "Su Chengan, I fucked your ass, but are your ears still working?"

He stood in front of me with cold eyes.

I signaled the butler to back down, then bent down to pick up the broken china.As soon as I stretched out my hand, he stepped on the back of my hand in a daze the next second.The sharp edge of the tile pierced my palm, and I grunted, but still didn't dare to look up.

"Master!" The butler tried to pull him away.

"roll!"

"None of your business, you go." I still said that tone, without changing my face.

The butler saw that I insisted on insisting, and that Liang Qiuhe was really angry, so he sighed and walked out of the room.

The blood had already flowed down the arc of the tiles to the floor, he finally let go of his feet, I gritted my teeth and threw the tip of the tile that stuck into my palm into the garbage bag, and continued to pick up other tiles.Seeing this, he kicked the other tiles away, and I stretched out my hand to reach them, and his voice came slowly from above.

"Why are you not angry?"

Seeing that I didn't answer, he shouted again: "Su Chengan!"

"Why should I be angry?" I changed my posture again and continued to pick up those tiles.

"Enough!" He kicked over the trash can forcefully, and the piece covered with my blood was reflected in our eyes.

He knelt down, pulled my collar, and forced me to look at him. "Su Chengan, do you really have a heart?"

"I said I wouldn't let you go." His eyes were still cold, and he pulled the gauze from the medicine box to bandage my wound.

"You're all going to die here." His voice was full of curses.

Liang Qiuhe.

No heart, who is it?

I never expected to leave here one day, maybe, for me now, life in Liangqiu's house has become a kind of sickness.I'd rather stay here forever and dream dreams that will never come true.

This kind of life continued endlessly, until one day, I was called to deliver meals to the guests in the reception hall.

As soon as I opened the door, I saw the girl lying on the sofa, her hair was a little messy, and she was sleeping deeply.I parked the dining car in the corner and looked at her face. She looked exactly the same, and I smiled mockingly.She was the only one in his life.

While I was going to get the pastry, the girl woke up.When I opened the door again and entered, her face was frightened at first, and then she saw that it was me, so she glanced over cautiously.

"Are you awake?" I put the plate on the table.

"Let me out." She said firmly.

It turned out that she was kidnapped. "You know, he decides everything."

"Tell him to come see me." There was a hint of anger in her words.

I sighed, thought about the title, and said, "Young Director won't see you these two days."

"Then how long are you going to lock me up!"

I knew that Liang Qiuhe was unscrupulous, but I didn't expect it to be the same for her.When I think of the man who protected her that day, I must be very anxious.

I walked towards the door, and suddenly thought of my own affairs again, and I was a little absent-minded. "I don't know how long he's going to lock you up, and I don't know how long I'm going to stay here. Maybe he'll let us go if he's happy."

I lost my composure, and was about to close the door when I remembered that she was a girl, and turned around and said: "Don't worry, I will come here every day to bring you meals. If you are bored, you can talk to me."

At three or four in the afternoon, I was ordered to deliver fruit to her again.

I was peeling apples at the side, and seeing her eyes flickering, I guessed it was something curious, and sure enough, just as I was cutting up the fruit plate, she asked, "Su Chengan, is that your name?"

"Ah."

She rolled her eyes and asked again: "Why do you work here? Well... I mean, he treats you so badly, why don't you leave? "

If someone else had said this, I might have kept silent.But looking at her face that is like a mother with me, I can't bear that kind of resistance.I don't know why, but my mind is full of that person's good. "Ahe, he..." "Actually, it's pretty good, but now..." It's just that now, he's not good anymore.

I looked at her, and the sadness that had accumulated in my heart boiled more and more. "He just wanted his favorite doll so much that he couldn't see anything else."

She is very smart, from the very beginning, she knew that Liang Qiuhe was not good to me. "The doll you're talking about is me, right?"

"An'an." I smiled and called out abruptly, not knowing whether I was calling myself or her. "Cheng Lin'an. It sounds so nice." Her name, Cheng Lin'an, she is their An'an.

"Sometimes I wonder why there are so many similar things in this world. But even if they are similar, people who look at them should not be confused, right? They are not the same thing, they should belong to themselves."

"Why do you think so?" She seemed puzzled.

I know I took offense, but I couldn't help but want to touch her, touch that face. "Cheng Lin'an, don't you think you are looking in the mirror?"

She was startled by me and stared at me in a daze.

"Even the names are terribly similar. In fact, I should thank you."

"If I hadn't been your substitute, I wouldn't have had the chance to meet him."

She understood a little, and there was sadness in her eyes.I actually don't want to see her like this, I don't need other people's inexplicable sympathy.

"do you like him?"

"He likes you." I said with some resignation.

"Do you like him?" Her attitude was suddenly tough.

I was taken aback, "I like it." "I like it." These two words kept floating in front of my eyes.I blinked my eyes, trying to filter these two words out of my eyes, but I didn't expect tears to come out suddenly, I couldn't even control my mouth, and said, "How can I not like Ahe..."

I listened as if the voice was not my own.

She paused for a few seconds, then suddenly began to tell the story.

"Since I was very young, I have liked a person very much. But one day, he suddenly disappeared, and I doubted this and that. I wondered, would he hate me, would he I won't see me again. But I just waited and waited until I grew up before he came back, and then he still loves me, and I still love him. Although there are many things that have not been resolved, there is still I didn't think about it clearly, and we don't trust each other enough, but I believe we will go on like this."

There seemed to be light in her eyes.

"So, Su Chengan, go and change him, you have to believe in yourself, okay?"

"You..." I was really shocked.I really didn't expect such a small body to contain so much energy. "Can I give you a hug?"

"Huh?" She was obviously startled again.

"No, no, it's not what you think. I want to embrace another me in this world."

She readily agreed. "Of course." Another me in this world.Another Ann.

Her words still echo in my ears.

Do Liang Qiuhe and I really have a chance?