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His name is Zhinan, he has a good personality, he doesn't talk much, he looks good, his family background is first-class, he is a perfect boyfriend.

I don't know how to describe our relationship, our purpose is to get married, but I don't want to get married.I know that I always love Suman, but we should have no chance. After that day, we are really just colleagues.I think many homosexuals are not lost to feelings, but to this society.You can endure other people's eyes, others' discrimination, others' accusations, and others' scolding, but you can bear your family's incomprehension of you, you can bear the tears of your parents who have raised you for more than 20 years, please don't With the same sex, even if you can bear these tears, can you bear the threat of their death or life, their sighs one after another, their rapidly aging bodies, their graying hair?It's really sad, we obviously have lovers, but we can't be with them, we obviously hate the bodies of the opposite sex, but we have to reluctantly accept them.In this way, I became a little woman who was a man at heart but was very cared for by Zhinan.

Every time we go out, Zhinan always rushes to help me carry things. No matter how many packages are around us, whether they are heavy or not, he never lets me touch them.Every time we are together, he always tries his best to cater to my preferences, so that I never know if he has any hobbies or not.There are too many details, I can't tell, and I can't remember that clearly. He is really a good choice for marriage. Every time I date him, my mind is full of bits and pieces with Suman. We are together. Time, her tenderness to me, her patience to me, and her trust in me. . .

Many times I would think, what would it be like if what I was doing with Zhinan was doing with Suman.So many times I want to cry, Suman, do you know that I love you, if we have a chance to be together, you say, when will it be?

Time flies, I have been with Zhinan for 3 months, I can say that I am gradually getting used to the feeling of being with Zhinan.Going to the coffee shop with Zhinan to drink Suman's favorite latte, I seem to be used to the feeling of giving my heart to one person and my body to another.Zhinan should be okay, he knows that I don't want to get married, so he carefully shirked the marriage to me when he met with my family many times.I looked into his eyes in a daze. I couldn't get used to the feeling of being taken care of. I thought I should be with someone like Suman after all.We are all women, but we are willing to take care of another person. We are not used to being taken care of. We all have our own world.

Maybe it's really been a long time, and I seem to be inseparable from Zhinan. I often think of him, look forward to the warmth of his embrace, and look forward to going out with him.So one morning, I got up and got ready to go to work. When I took off my pajamas and was about to change, I suddenly figured out that there is no possibility for me and Suman anymore. No matter how much love I have in my heart, it is meaningless Yes, I am ready to accept my fate.Very sad and helpless, but I understand that there is no point in fighting.

My work is still going on, and it is still a small company with no future, but I am still very happy in what I do. After all, a simple life is still what I want.No matter what, I am not a delicate woman like Suman, nor am I a woman with pursuit like Suman. . .Alas, why is she in my mind again.

After what happened that day, I never contacted Yichu and Pikachu again. They should not bother to contact me. After all, the people who love me so obviously were rejected by me. Just colleagues.Who can let go of such deep feelings, what kind of person is worth cherishing?As for Suman, I don't understand why she didn't resign and leave. She is still a senior under me. Is she happy? No way. She was divorced and then broke up in love. Who will accompany her now?

Xuesang was not happy at school at all, she said she hated the intrigue in school, she said she didn't like the self-study that she had to go to every morning and evening, she said she hated those self-righteous pretenders.How can I tell you Xuesang, this is the rule of this world, you can't leave, you can only accept, if you can't accept, you can only be eliminated.

Xuesang didn't like reading anymore, and the bustling city soon taught her how to become depraved, but I didn't know these things.Every time I ask her what's the problem, she says everything is fine.It happened one weekend and she came to my place and I took her back to my house after a long day out partying.

She went to take a shower in the evening, and I was busy with the unfinished work in front of the computer. Xuesang came to me while wiping her wet hair and said, "Sister, we have an assignment for advertising creativity. There is something about introducing paper media." Yes, do you have any templates here?"

I said, "This is when you express yourself, there's no point in asking me for templates.

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She talked vaguely for a long time, and I finally found out that this child doesn't understand anything at all. I don't believe that such a child who has the desire to learn has suddenly become like this. I asked her a few questions, and she won't, We don't even know what the basic software we commonly use is.

I can't express how I felt at that time, I just wanted to beat her to relieve the anger in my heart, I don't know when a wire that Suman left here played the biggest role at this time, I found the right length, Cut off, looking at the child on the sofa whose face was pale with fright, he gave an order: "Turn around, lie down here!"

The girl didn't respond, my silence was too depressing for the room.Finally, after a long time, the girl stood up slowly, turned around and lay down on the sofa.I didn't give her any time to buffer, to adapt to this scene, and directly hit her behind with a whip. I think this is the fastest way. It is simple and practical to make her understand why she is here and why she endures it. With such pain, can I say that scenes about Suman come to mind at this moment?The reason why she used to be violent to me back then was because of her own violent nature or because she cared about me and loved me, maybe it wasn't love, maybe it was just a feeling, this person would not leave, even if she was beaten I will not leave, and it is precisely because of this that Suman shows no mercy to me time and time again. . .Is it like this?So what made me bear Suman's heavy responsibility again and again but refused to leave?Blank.

The small sobbing brought me back to reality. Looking at the girl lying on the sofa, I raised my hand and gave her another whip. She cried even louder. I wondered if she was putting on a show? , When Suman hit me before, I didn't seem to cry so badly.Immediately after another whip, Xuesang clenched her fist. After another whip, Xuesang begged for mercy. She said she didn't mean to study hard, she said sister, don't hit me, it hurts too much, looking at Xuesang I suddenly wanted to laugh at Sang's appearance, and I couldn't hold it back. I burst out laughing. Why didn't Suman laugh when he hit me before?I asked her, if she didn't study well, why would she still get points? Was it intentional?

Xuesang told me every detail of her one-month stay at school.After listening to Xuesang's complaints and seeing her crying with grievance, I feel very irritable. Her problems are nothing in my eyes. Compared with the sleazy dogs in the society, what are those things? Why are they so indulgent? What about yourself?She said that the president of the student union is too aggressive, which is actually normal, but he is just pretending to be aggressive in front of the freshmen and sophomores, and the juniors will ignore him at all.She said that the bursary selection in the school is not fair at all, which is also normal. This kind of thing can only be relatively fair, and fairness has never been absolute.She said that the fees in the school are very dark, which is also normal. If the fees are not dark, then where will the extra money earned by the tutors come from?

Xuesang, no matter what problems you encounter, what unfairness, being discriminated against, being hurt, these are a very small part of your life, you must always remember what you are going to college for, what you want , Is it just that you know a lot of people in school, they all respect you but your grades are a mess?If you want to go to something like the student union, you can go and see it. If you feel that you have stayed enough and feel unhappy, you can leave. Simple things don’t need to be so complicated.I admit that the student union interview was full of shady scenes, but capable people can do well in everything. Don’t think that if you don’t go to the student union, you will have no future. In fact, this society has much more room for development than the school. You can learn more from the society than the student union, and you can also find reasons to make up for your disappointment with the ivory tower from other aspects, it’s really nothing.At my age, when I should get married, Xuesang, do you think these things are important to me?I was also a member of the student union back then, and was honored to be promoted to minister later, but I finally chose to quit because my work became busy at that time. Can I say that I am the deputy store manager of the supermarket opposite the school?As long as I work two days every weekend, I can get a salary of 2000 yuan.But in the student union, everything is unpaid labor.

Xuesang, you remember, only by being with people who have results can you become a person with results.The school's field of vision is too narrow, so don't stick to it.