deep crush

Five days.

Tang Ye stared at the numbers on the calendar in a daze for a while, until Luo Qi called him twice in succession before recovering.

What are you thinking?

It's nothing.

After work, he made a dinner appointment, got out of the subway, and went shopping in the supermarket on purpose.

No.

After leaving the supermarket, he walked on the cold streets of S City full of thoughts.

This winter is surprisingly cold, and pedestrians on the street wrapped up their winter clothes to keep out the cold and hurried past.

A first snow fell all night one after another, decorating the bare branches and covering the rusty railings.The city was beautified into a fairy tale world, and naughty children held up balls of snowballs and smashed them out together with laughter.

Uncle Chen, who took people to shovel snow in the community, would always ask him when he saw him, when will Xiaoxia come back?Seeing this coming and going every day, and suddenly going out without saying hello, it's really worrying.

Li Liefeng made a phone call to tease him deliberately, this brother Xia must be avoiding you on purpose!Let you be angry with others, half a month with a donkey face drooping, okay, the popularity is gone, I will see who you show your face again.

In the corridor, outside the door, he stood for a while, until he was sure that there was no movement inside before giving up and entering his house.

Counting from the day he felt that the next door was surprisingly quiet, it has been five days now.

Without telling anyone, Xia Qian disappeared.

On the first day, I thought he was just going on a long trip and should be back soon.

The next day, I stood on the balcony and looked at the closed window next door, and the little wind chime that had lost its vitality was hanging there alone.

On the third day, Xia Qian's package was received, and the courier he knew happened to meet him when he went upstairs, and said that his mobile phone had been disconnected, so he asked him to sign for it.

On the fourth day, he went to No. [-] Middle School on purpose, looking for the legendary drink shop along the alleyway.Maybe he remembered the wrong place, went back and forth several times, but couldn't find one.Coming out of the alleyway, passing by Han's shop, I found that the door was closed.

On the fifth day, today, he put his face down and called that person again and again.

It keeps prompting to shut down.

At this point, he really panicked.

His mind was thinking wildly uncontrollably, and too much pornography on the Internet made him lose his mind.

Xia Qian, will something happen?

He knew that Xia Qian had an older sister in S City, but he never asked her name or contact information.He left a message to the little man in the game, but he never responded.

On the sixth day, the person next door still did not come back.

He hesitated whether to call the police, Li Liefeng said that he made too much fuss, maybe Brother Xia was going on a trip, and he just turned off the phone because he was in a bad mood so he didn't want to be disturbed.This kind of thing is quite common. If something really happened, would there be no movement from his sister?Call the police early!

It was only at this time that Tang Ye realized that he knew too little about Xia Qian, so little that he was helpless.

If he had greeted his sister, if he had left a contact information, he would not be so passive.

Really, just tourism?

Every day when commuting to and from get off work, he would habitually look up at the balcony next door, looking forward to the day when the closed window would open again, and a familiar figure would appear in the hut filled with sunlight.

It's time to come back, Xia Qian.

Carrying the vegetables into the community, Yuan Shuo ran into Aunt Lin downstairs head-on. Yuan Shuo wanted to nod to deal with it, but he was forced to chat when he didn't want to.

Didn't you see Xiaoxia came back a few days ago, why don't you see anyone!Your Aunt Wang is still talking about setting up a table at home to welcome Xiao Xia.Hey, what is he busy with all day?

Yuan Shuo dismissed his relatives as busy, and quickly went upstairs with vegetables.

Opening the door, he was relieved to see Xia Han arranging flowers and plants on the balcony.

Okay, still there.

The phone rang, and Xia Han looked over reflexively. Yuan Shuo put down the things in his hand, took out the phone, looked up and looked up, "It's my sister."

Xia Han took off his gloves and walked over, "You pick it up first."

After the call was connected, Yuan Shuo exchanged pleasantries with others and handed the phone to Xia Han.

"sister."

"What's the matter with you, if you lose your mobile phone, hurry up and buy another one! I'll call you if you don't have money. Hurry up and buy it. Is there anyone without a mobile phone these days?"

Xia Han smiled, "Well, if you have money, you can buy it in a few days. You and my brother-in-law will be fine!"

"Cut, it seems like you have been away for a long time. We are all well, don't worry, how is Yuan Shuo's illness?"

Xia Han lied, saying that the hospital had misdiagnosed Yuan Shuo, but Yuan Shuo was a little anemic and dizzy, and he stayed to take care of her for a few days, "It's fine...it may take a while...well, don't worry...sister , it's not as possible as you think... I know, okay, hang up."

He handed the phone back to Yuan Shuo, and Yuan Shuo's tense heart finally came to fruition.

Xia Han turned around and went to the balcony to continue working on flowers and plants. Yuan Shuo looked at his indifferent back, lowered his head, and sighed in frustration.

After three days of stalemate, nothing was achieved.

Xia Han no longer mentioned the matter of leaving, but he would not greet him like before. They were like ordinary friends living under the same roof, talking occasionally, but not heart-to-heart.

No matter how he pleases him, Xia Han's attitude is still indifferent, like a thick piece of ice, never warm.

Near noon, Xia Han walked out of the balcony. After squatting for a long time, her feet felt a little numb. Yuan Shuo stepped forward, "Let me pinch your feet for you."

Xia Han waved his hand, "No need."

After resting for a while, he went to the kitchen to prepare lunch, and Yuan Shuo followed him to help.

Yuan Shuo prepared several interesting topics, and Xia Han responded with a sentence or two while washing the dishes.

Two dishes and one soup, there is nothing amazing or gorgeous, just the plain and simple taste of life.

Yuan Shuo was a little anxious. He asked for a week's leave, which was about to expire, and their relationship never improved.

How could he really lock someone up for the rest of his life? What he wanted to lock was always that person's heart.

But found that it was as difficult as reaching the sky.

He carefully observed the expression on Xia Han's face, carefully looking for a suitable topic.

Life is like walking on thin ice, very tiring, very tiring.

"The newly released blockbuster has a good reputation. My colleagues have praised it many times in front of me. Let's go and see it together, shall we?"

Xia Han didn't look up, but responded lightly.

No matter what request he made, Xia Han would agree.Going to the supermarket together, watching a movie together, and even his planned New Year's trip, Xia Han agreed.

Just like a pair of lovers.

but----

He knew that everything was different.

Xia Han no longer smiled, even if the corners of her mouth were raised, it was just a slight perfunctory.

Xia Han no longer looked at him, even if his eyes met, there was no warmth at all.

Living together, but drifting away.

He didn't know what else to do to win back that person's heart and bring them back to the best time.

Coming out of the movie theater, Xia Han wrapped her scarf tightly, put her hands in her pockets, "Let's go!"

It is already the second snowfall this winter, and it has been a day of heavy snowfall. The road surface is piled up with thick snow, and there is a "creaking" sound when stepping on it.

Yuan Shuo walked and chatted about the plot of the movie that just ended, Xia Han listened silently without saying a word.

Yuan Shuo, who didn't get a response, stopped, and Xia Han, who didn't realize it, still walked forward step by step.

They opened a long distance, separated by a world.

Unable to get closer, no way, close.

His Xia Han, the Xia Han he was determined to love for the rest of his life, really left.

Back home, Xia Han boiled a pot of hot water and made two cups of tea.

"Drink some tea to drive away the cold."

A faint fragrance wafted through the small but cozy room, and the rising heat agitated people's emotions. He wanted to try again.

Get close to that person, embrace his body from behind, and bury him deeply in his breath.

That's right, this is his Xia Han, the Xia Han he loved with all his life.

Even though his appearance, personality, and intelligence had changed, his taste, which he was too familiar with, had never changed.

His Xia Han, his Xia Han, is still alive.

"So, does it make sense?"

Xia Han's voice was clear and cold, without any emotion.

"If you want me to stay, I won't go. One year, two years, five years, ten years, I can stay here with you. But, Yuan Shuo, I will never fall in love with you again."

After fleeing for two years, they are still standing still.If staying can solve the problem, he is willing to help Yuan Shuo get out of confusion and recognize the reality.

If Xia Han really wanted to leave, a ridiculous lock would not be able to lock him at all. Yuan Shuo understood this very well, but he was still terrified endlessly.

"Xia Han, I don't understand why we have to come to this point. I don't understand why you just can't give me another chance. Why, can't you fall in love with me again? Xia Han, we have been together for nine years, how can you really do that?" Let it go easily?"

Nine years, nine long years, even if you don't want to give up, you can only give up...

"You still can't give up? There are no nine years, all we really have are four years of college. That's the past we all want to go back to. At that time..."

At that time, Yuan Shuo loved him sincerely, without any impurities.

With a foot injury, he climbed up the steps of the ninth floor four times a day; stayed at his bedside with a high fever without rest; ran all over the streets and alleys of S city for a part of his guitar; Hour only to give him a hot bun wrapped in his arms.

How could he not fall in love with such Yuan Shuo, Yuan Shuo who gave everything for him.

It would be great if he was still Xia Han.

"Yuan Shuo, I'm sorry, I made an appointment for a lifetime, but I can only leave you behind, leaving you alone in the oath. Yuan Shuo, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

The Xia Han who was seven years ago left without even a word of apology.

Yuan Shuo's body couldn't help shaking, warm tears wet Xia Han's short hair.

The confession under the clear sky, the kiss in the snow, the promise on the top of the mountain, and the happiness in the small house all disappeared together with that accident.

Xia Han, whom he loves so much, will never come back.

"I'm sorry, Yuan Shuo, I will stay by your side until you can really come out, this is what I owe you."

Even if it took many years, he would still have to repay the debt.

For the person he failed, for the most genuine relationship they ever had.

I am sorry.

The author has something to say:

Make complaints about this new cover, it doesn't match the article!This is a warm and healing article, not a funny article! ! !

There is one more chapter, the scumbag retreats, and Tiantian is left.