woman in front of the mirror

No.17 Chapter Sweet Dreams

Mother watched Yi Han sitting in the living room with nothing to do, listening to English songs she could not understand; she remembered that she was about to clean up some live fish, so she took off the wedding ring on her finger and put it in Yi Han's mouth. Han Xin asked her to help her keep it for a while; she went to the kitchen by herself to deal with the live fish.

Yi Han connected the stereo in the living room to her mobile phone, and the song played on loop in the single was "Malena", sung by Hayley Westenra.

Kissed by sunrise

Eyes made for mine

Skin of moonglow

Breath made of wine

Give me water

Give me rainfall

For I can't wash away the thoughts of you around me

Andall Idreamisthatyourheartwouldbeatwithmine

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Yi Han recalled that time when Shi Hui took her to the hotel after coming out of the movie theater, and the orgasm Shi Hui brought her.

At that time, she felt that there were circles of bright halos in her mind. They were big and small, and small and small; there was a dazzling light spot in the center; the place where Shi Hui sent her all the way was That spot of light in the center; it takes a lot of strength to pass through those large and small apertures, Shi Hui keeps handing them over to her, and the more she stretches her hands to catch them, the more she needs her; finally, in an instant, She touched that point, she melted in, Shi Hui also let go, and became completely far away from her, infinitely far away.

She was afraid, afraid that her temporary need for Shi Hui after she reached climax would become Shi Hui's never need for her.

That feeling of not needing it is absolute and cannot be changed by manpower.

People are probably doomed to be alone.

She remembered her other dates with Shi Hui.

Shi Hui has her company first, then her family, and Yi Han.She took Yi Han to eat, go to the bar, buy clothes, have a beauty treatment, enjoy a massage; she stayed with her in the apartment room; she gave her small gifts from time to time, a book, a picture, a bottle of perfume, a Jewelry; she called and made an appointment with Yi Han in advance, she found Yi Han from various usually lively or sparsely populated places, took her into her car, and then they went to their date together destination.

She often gave Yi Han the feeling that they were two truant children.

Sometimes she treats Yi Han as a child, sometimes as a woman, and sometimes as a mirror.

She talked to the mirror to herself.Yi Han could only get a little understanding of her past from those words.She tried to ask her once, but she simply replied that she forgot.When she remembered, she didn't ask, and she would say a little bit occasionally.She acted as if she didn't need to exchange or understand, but she couldn't actually forget them.Or, she just didn't believe, didn't believe in people, and didn't believe in Yi Han.

Yi Han believed her.Yi Han believed that she doted on him, so she waited for her and waited for her.

Use love to exchange your waiting and waiting, Yi Han, do you want to change it?

Equivalence is not equivalent, exchange is not exchange, Yi Han, how do you start a business.

Yi Han heard the speaker in the living room singing:

Andall Idreamisthatyourheartwouldbeatwithmine

It's like the stars thatshine, mountainsweclimb

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She got up from the sofa and walked towards the stereo, trying to get closer and hear more clearly.

Mom came out of the kitchen, her hands were already clean, and she asked Yi Han for the ring she had given her before.Yi Han spread her hands in front of the two pairs of eyes of the two of them, and together they saw that the palms of her hands were empty.

Dad saw that Yi Han didn't think about tea, didn't want to eat, went to bed late, and woke up late every day, and felt that her allergies were too serious this time, and even her psychology was affected.He called Yi Han's cousin, Zhou Xingyu.He knows that Xingyu loves to travel. He went to Tibet once just after graduating from high school. He thought he was a well-informed person. He recently heard that he would come back, so he could just call him and chat with Yi Han. Maybe will be useful.

Xingyu didn't meet Yi Han often, but he always remembered that Yi Han was indeed there.He chose some walnut drinks and bought them as gifts for Yi Han.He would give Yi Han a walnut drink every year.

Yi Han once asked him why her gift was walnut dew every year.

He replied to her, drink more walnut juice to nourish the brain.

If it was Yi Han in his teenage years, he could close his eyes and tell her a series of reactions to his answer: a pair of round eyes squeezed into a pair of crescent moons, a small mouth squeezed together, and the upper and lower teeth meet each other in the cheeks Bite hard...

It's just that I don't know what Yi Han, whom I haven't seen for a long time, looks like now.

When he entered Yi Han's house, he didn't see Yi Han at first.He was told that Yi Han had insomnia last night and was now making up for sleep.He walked to the door of her bedroom and gently pushed open a door that was ajar.

He first put into his ears the notes that were flowing around her room.

Thick violin sound, low back and rising melody, a beautiful female voice sang in English without reservation:

Inthmoonlight

Youreyes missed mine

Caught the starglow

Left me behind

Give me water

Give me rainfall

For I can't wash away the thoughts of you around me

Andall Idreamisthatyourheartwouldbeatwithmine

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Xing Yu looked at Yi Han, who was resting with his eyes closed, and saw that her face was thinner than he remembered; the facial features were still the same, but because of the thin face and pale complexion, it seemed different now; the eyebrows were light Frowning slightly, a mark was squeezed between the eyebrows.

Now she is falling asleep with sad music on her pillow, immersed in a dream of love.

He was waiting for her to wake up by herself.

He saw her open her eyes towards him and woke up himself.

"what happened to you?"

"I'm afraid of being alone."

"What are you afraid of him?"

"I'm afraid that if she's not here, I won't eat well; if she doesn't come, I won't sleep well; if she's bored with me, I won't be able to express myself directly; if she chooses to leave, I'll be sad. I'm afraid of pain."

"Yi Han, you are so stupid. If the methods that can make you feel happy and relaxed are so important, you shouldn't let so many of them be in the hands of others. You should master them first. Now, your Painful situations that you have created yourself."

"Are you willing to correct yourself first and blame the other party less?"

"What was going through your heart before you were afraid of all this pain?"

"I want to make a kind agreement with her. I write it into the deepest part of my consciousness. Everything I do in the future, the long road I walk, no matter how many detours I take, if I can have a pair of eyes from Looking down from a high place, she will find that everything, all the time, is just to get from the starting point to the agreed point."

"I want to learn to love, really love each other."