turn into a breeze

I don't know if it's my bad luck or the man has a crow's mouth.

Before arriving at the station, the pouring rain fell.

Carrying my suitcase and running on the uneven muddy roads in the village, I was already in a mess when I arrived at the station.

There were only five employees in the empty station, three shirtless men were drinking and eating there, and two young girls were sitting in a room beside them watching TV dramas.

Seeing me coming in, they all turned their heads to look at me in surprise.

"Has the shuttle left yet?"

I asked while wiping the dripping water from my head, my whole body was in a state of embarrassment, it was already May, and it became so cold after it rained, I couldn't help hugging my arms to stop my trembling body.

"The car won't drive today."

"what?"

I stood there in a daze, looking at the many wine bottles on the messy table.

"It's raining so hard, and no one is in the car, so I can't drive if I don't drive."

The shirtless man waved at me while drinking, as if he didn't want to talk to me at all. The two young women in the room looked at me curiously, and then turned their attention back to the TV.

The TV is showing episodes that I haven’t watched, maybe because I’m getting older, and now people who turn on the TV are people I don’t know, so they all look boring.

I still want to reason with the people in front of me, but they obviously don't want to talk to me anymore, they are drinking and chatting on their own, the cold wind blows in from the door, I just feel that my teeth are starting to chatter.

No one paid attention to me, and I didn't know how to leave. The sky was completely dark, and the rain poured down outside the window. The mountains in the distance turned into a huge black shadow in the rain, as if some monster would appear from the mountains .

I was in a daze when suddenly a dazzling light appeared outside the house. I squinted my eyes and looked at the source of the light. I was overjoyed when I found that it was the headlights of the car. I wondered if it was the conscience of the shuttle that decided to operate.

After the lights went out, I was startled by the people rushing in in the rain.

"I knew you hadn't left yet, so the car would definitely not be able to leave in this heavy rain."

The man looked at me, took off his coat and put it on me, then lifted my suitcase.

"Hey……"

"Let's go back today, and I'll take you to the town tomorrow."

Don't let me say more, the man ran out with the suitcase, standing here is not a solution, so I had to run out with him.

Sit in the tattered pickup truck, the man threw a towel over, I picked up the towel and carefully brought it up to my nose and sniffed it.

"Don't worry, this is new and has no peculiar smell."

As if aware of my movements, the man was talking aside, I blushed and felt embarrassed immediately, and quickly wiped the rainwater off my face and head with a towel.

"Thank you." I lowered my head and said in a low voice, because I have always treated him very badly. Although I won't say it out loud, he must have felt my dislike and disgust, and he was able to help me in this way, which made me very happy. shame.

"Nothing, nothing."

The man shook his head, showed a nice smile, and started the car.

The car was shuttling in the heavy rain. I was a little worried because I couldn't drive, and at the same time I admired him for being able to see the route clearly in such a dark and rainy place.

"Sorry, I haven't asked your name yet."

The air that was too quiet was a bit embarrassing, so I spoke up.

"Ah, you can just call me Xiaohuang, that's what everyone in the village calls me."

"Well, my name is Ye Tang."

"I know, I know, my mother has been telling me that Xiaotang is obedient and polite. In the city, he is a person who makes a lot of money and does great things, unlike us in a broken place."

I frowned when I called Xiao Huang, but I didn’t correct him. Then his words made me feel extremely uneasy. I came to such a rural place to hide from the editor when I published the manuscript.

"Xiaotang must not be used to this place, there is nothing."

"I lived here when I was a child, and there is nothing I am not used to. Compared with the city, this place is quite good."

After replying politely and without being rude, he heard a meaningful "hmm".

"Do you work in the village?"

I looked at the truck, and it seemed to be transporting something. There was a large stack of receipts in front of me, and I was wearing a yellow coat that also looked like work clothes.

"Well, my home is a lumber factory, so I'll help deliver the goods."

"This work is tiring."

"It's a very easy job. I only run once or twice every once in a while. There are workers to do the handling. To put it bluntly, I'm just a driver. It's more tiring for you to work in the city."

"It's okay."

I smiled, the topic reached a stalemate, the rain was crackling on the glass, and lightning could still be seen across the sky.

Not long after, I returned to my ancestral house, and the surrounding houses had faint light from the windows, only my house was dark, and there seemed to be some kind of monster hidden in the dilapidated gate, waiting for me to open it.

Xiaohuang handed me a huge black old-fashioned umbrella, and then he ran towards the gate with my suitcase in spite of the heavy rain. Standing under the eaves of the gate, I saw him shaking the water on his body. Seeing this scene, I Can't help but smile, it seems like a giant dog is shaking off the water droplets on its body.

When we entered the room, he and I were soaked, and the room was very cold. There was only an old-fashioned white woven lamp in the living room, which emitted a cold and cold light. After a long time, people felt a little dizzy.

Looking at the sky and the undiminished rain outside, and looking at his and I's drowned figures, I sighed softly.

"Go to the second floor."

My room when I was a child was on the second floor. Although I don’t know if it is still there, I don’t want to stay on the first floor which is empty and looks a bit desolate and scary.

The wooden stairs made a creaking sound, one of the lights in the corridor on the second floor was broken, and the remaining one was lingering and emitting a dim light. I used my mobile phone to illuminate the road and came to the room where I lived when I was a child with my childhood memories. forward.

Opening the door, childhood memories flooded my mind instantly.

The room has not changed at all. There is a sunflower bedside lamp on the bedside of the single bed against the wall. On the desk next to it are pictures I drew when I was a child. The location of the toy box on top of the wardrobe has not changed.

"Wow!"

Xiao Huang suddenly screamed beside me, and I returned to reality and looked at him with a puzzled face, not knowing why he was frightened and embarrassed.

I saw him pointing to my eyes, and I raised my hand, only to realize that tears flowed from my eyes at some point.

"Sorry for making you laugh."

I quickly wiped away my tears, but luckily the light was dim, so I believe I must have flushed all over my face.

The light in the room was broken, so I just walked over and turned on the red mushroom table lamp that matched with the bedside lamp. Fortunately, it was still usable, and the yellow light instantly filled the whole room, making it look warm and soft.

"Is this the house you lived in when you were a child?"

Xiao Huang put the suitcase aside and looked around my room.

I nodded and touched the framed children's paintings on the desk.

Before seeing these things, my childhood memories have completely disappeared. I have always felt that my memory began when I was ten years old. The days before I was ten years old in the country made me feel ashamed. I never mentioned it in front of any of my friends.

When I first arrived in the city, I was bullied by my classmates for a long time.

Although it is not the kind of direct beating and insulting, but I can clearly feel the politeness and alienation from the people around me. Obviously everyone gathers to chat, and when I join, they will disperse, even on weekends. He doesn't ask me out to play, the topics of conversation, and the games he plays are all different.

Perhaps it is because of this that my personality has become too quiet. My parents are very happy with my change. They think that compared to the past when I ran every day and saw no one, I always read and study quietly at home. A sign of growing up.

After growing up, I also gradually integrated into the group, playing the games everyone played, eating the snacks everyone ate, and reading the books everyone read, but for some reason, I always felt that I was still out of place in my heart, maybe It's that inferiority complex that always makes me feel like I'm from the country and barely able to keep up with other people.

Until now, the deep sense of inferiority and the pride of city people have gathered in my heart, making me grow into such a paranoid and disgusting adult.