My rival confessed to me

At noon, Starbucks was crowded with many people, and there were basically no vacancies. The mother and daughter went out to find a more private coffee shop with few people to sit down.

"any drinks?"

Mother Shen glanced at the colorful menu, handed it back, and said, "Order, I can drink anything."

"Then have a cup of milk tea and an iced Americano."

Mother Shen looked at her daughter.

The 28-year-old Shen Hui has already shed the youthfulness of her school days. With light makeup on, she painted dark red lips and thick black eyebrows. Sitting there calm and majestic, Shen's mother was a little dazed, thinking I'm sorry for when did the girl who was wearing a school uniform and sitting at the desk reading a book seriously become like this.

"I know you don't want to get married, but you can't stay married forever, a woman... I know you don't like to hear what I say, but I'm a person who has experienced it after all. You still have to listen to some experiences. You don't feel married now. You are very chic, because you are still young, in good health, and have energy, but what if you are old? When you are 80 or [-] years old, you will still be alone, and your father and I will also go. What will you do then? manage?"

She didn't ask Zhao Xinmiao's question straight to the point, but rather tactfully, she brought up the topic of marriage, hoping that Shen Hui could understand her hints, and also hoped that the mother-daughter relationship that had been very stiff all these years could be settled to a certain extent. degree of relief.

I have to say that the relationship between Zhu Yun and her daughter Jiang Yue is really enviable to Shen's mother. Once upon a time, she also fantasized about giving birth to a daughter like Jiang Yue, dressing her up as a Barbie doll every day, and combing her delicately. head, the little girl will be in her arms, acting like a baby with sweet and glutinous words...

However, she raised her daughter to look like Shen Hui.

It's not that Shen Hui is not good, it's just that she is always a bit short of what she imagined.

"Do you think you are living happily?" Shen Hui asked suddenly.

"What is happiness or not? Life isn't just like that. Let's just live it. Your dad and I have stumbled and stumbled over the years. Although there are conflicts, we will still support each other when we grow old. No one will leave. No one..."

Shen Hui chuckled, "You're willing to make do with it, but I don't want to make do with it, and I don't think life can be made to live with, I know that if you make do with this, you will make do with that, obviously There is [-]% of life in front of you, don’t fight for it, live [-]% of your life and tell yourself that it’s fine, I’m not you, I can’t do it.”

"What can't be done, whoever lives now is not living at the end of the day, every family has difficult scriptures, you don't always live in your own ideal world, painting, people's eyes should be placed in reality ..."

"Put it in reality, if you are a teacher like you who can't make much money all year round, and then marry a husband who cheats every day, the money you earn will not only support yourself, a family of three, but also four elderly people?"

Mother Shen's face turned pale.

"How dare you... how dare you talk to me like that!"

Shen Hui never understood why her mother didn't get a divorce.

If it is for the sake of the children, she is almost 29 and [-], and she is completely able to accept the breakdown of her parents' marriage without worrying about any harm. Even if the two divorce, she will not forget her responsibility to support her. The big deal is It's just giving the money that was given together separately, which is what she is actually doing now anyway.

If it is for love, when she was at home, Shen's father and Shen's mother either quarreled or had a cold war. They were in the same room, and they talked less often than she did. As far as she knew, the two now He didn't even sleep in the same room anymore. When he was young, he could still hear Shen's mother accusing Shen's father, but now he seems to be completely disappointed, and he rarely even hears unilateral swearing...

As for the others... Shen Hui really couldn't figure out why Shen's mother should continue to stay in this house.

"You don't understand, you don't understand, I'm for this family, you don't understand me...I sacrificed so much, your father...he did a lot of excessive things, I can bear it, I can't divorce, We've been married for so many years..."

Shen's mother said incoherently, Shen Hui interrupted her directly, "Yes, I really don't understand you, do you really think that my dad will take care of you when you get old? To be honest, do you believe it or not?" If you had a stroke today, what my dad thinks is definitely not how to poop and urinate for you, turn over and wipe your back, but immediately make an appointment with his little lover to go on a trip?"

"What do you mean by sacrificing so much? Who made you sacrifice? Where is the value of your sacrifice reflected? Can someone say something to you? You have done so much, and my aunt and the others still look down on you! Mom, tell me Let me explain to you clearly, you are actually one-sidedly moved by yourself, thinking that you have paid a lot, but in fact it is all because you have been patient, and others don't think you have done many good things in the true sense!"

Shen's mother was silent. She was going to question her daughter, but now she lowered her head, looking like a child who did something wrong.

Shen Hui also didn't speak for a while.

She loves and hates her mother.

Hate her control over herself, hate her control over herself, hate her for suppressing her temper for so many years.

But it is undeniable that she loves her again.

Shen's father is a primary school teacher, and his salary is far lower than that of Shen's mother, who is a middle school teacher. Besides, Shen's mother does not stop making up lessons all year round. I was either used in their small family, or used to support the four elderly people.

Shen Hui still remembers that she wears new clothes every season, but she remembers Shen's mother, a coat can be worn for several years, and students who have graduated from university will point to her in surprise when they come to see her. The clothes said nostalgicly, saying that when Mr. Li was teaching us, he seemed to be wearing this coat.

It is undeniable that Shen's mother devoted all her feelings and energy to this family.

But Shen Hui didn't think what she did was right.

She invested so much emotion and energy that she was like a crazy gambler, putting all her chips on a gamble. Never admitting failure until the last moment.

What she gave was so heavy that it made the whole family feel depressed.

"Every penny I earned was not spent on myself. It was all given to you father and daughter. When you were studying, I paid for everything you wore for food and traveling. Qian, I also bought your dad's clothes for him, and all the money he earned was used to buy cigarettes and play with women, did I do something wrong?" Shen's mother looked a little dazed.

"Mom, I admit that over the years, you have indeed paid a lot for me and our family, but sometimes..." Shen Hui knew that what she was about to say was cruel, but she still had to say, "One It is not necessarily right to pay ambiguously."

"Do you know why I didn't listen to you and came to S city to go to university, and why I had to buy a house here instead of going back to B city?"

City S is actually an inclusive and exclusive city.

Leaving aside the staggeringly high housing prices, it is actually not easy for outsiders to truly integrate into this city, especially Shen Hui is still an unaccompanied single person who cannot find any assistance in this city .

"You always feel that I am rebellious and disobedient, so you secretly changed your choice and came to S City to go to university, but seriously, we have lived together for so many years, have you really understood me? "

"I'm your mother, why don't I know you!" Mother Shen retorted, and then heard Shen Hui ask, "Then do you know which dish is my favorite? What kind of shoes is my favorite? Who is your favorite celebrity? What is your favorite book? Who is your favorite person..."

Shen's mother opened her mouth and said: "I don't know, your favorite food is sweet and sour pork ribs, and you like to wear sneakers the most. Celebrities... I remember you like the one with short hair, that's Li Hechun. It's like cutting hair like someone else's hair, book..."

Before she finished speaking, Shen Hui shook her head slightly.

Mother Shen's tone suddenly softened, "...Isn't it?"

"I like to eat sweet and sour pork ribs because you don't like to put oil and salt in your cooking. Basically, it has no taste. Pork and duck have a strong fishy smell. As for chicken, you like to cook boiled chicken, but you don't like to eat chicken. Oil, only sweet and sour pork ribs are relatively normal dishes, in fact, since I came to S City, the taste has always been salty and spicy, and the sister from Sichuan in my dormitory is very fond of it."

“I like to wear sneakers because you think I have big feet and always buy me a size smaller. Except for sneakers, other shoes squeeze my feet and it’s inconvenient to walk. I usually go to school for running and jumping, and other shoes can’t walk for two hours. It hurts so bad to walk..."

"As for the stars, do you still remember the poster I put on the wall, which was actually brought by your student during tutoring? Because you have not allowed me to follow stars, I secretly played a tape of JAY on the repeater , after you found out, you smashed the repeater for me, and then blamed me for wasting 200 yuan."

As Shen Hui said, her nose felt sore for no reason.

When she recalled the things she thought she had let go of, she realized that the wound had never healed, it was just a scab, hidden under other scars, and she thought she was healed.

Shen Hui didn't talk about many things, Shen's mother forgot.

She wanted to refute something, but she opened her mouth, but nothing came out.

She wanted to apologize, but felt hot on her face, and she couldn't say the three words I'm sorry.

Shen Hui never expected her always strong mother to apologize to herself.

She just looked at her with a little helplessness and said: "Look, you said you love me, is this the way you love me? Do you think it's rebellious for me to leave S city? Is it me who is rebellious, or is your desire to control too strong?" ?”

"I just don't want to be a clay doll and be pinched into the shape you want by you."