Network distribution writer and CV master

In the same night, the little writer who turned off the computer couldn't sleep. He tossed and turned, struggling over how serious Gu Feng was to him.

Although I feel that Gu Feng Da Da treats himself somewhat differently, but does Da Da Da really like himself?Why does it feel like everything is a dream?So unreal.

Could it be that Gu Fengda just wants to find someone to play couple games with?Want to create a unique surprise for someone, and it doesn't matter if that person is me or not?

Besides, Gu Fengda has never said that he likes me, and has never taken the initiative to make an appointment with himself to play together.Is everything just my illusion, my self-indulgence?

The little writer suddenly remembered a dream he had before.There is a person in the dream who is gentle in every way.

In the dream, in the rain, the man propped up a world for himself with his clothes and generous chest, and the two of them looked at each other and rushed towards a destination together with a smile.People around me came and went in a hurry, the car gradually faded in the field of vision, and the roar also disappeared.The world gradually quieted down, as if there were only the two of them left.That kind of heartfelt joy is now firmly engraved in his heart.Every time I think of it, my heart thumps and I am excited.The restless heart is telling about its restlessness, the wind with a slight earthy smell is dense in the mind, and the staring eyes are a little wet because of the spring rain, and water can faintly seep out.

Suddenly, the wind stopped, the rain stopped, and he left.

Unexpectedly, in the chilly spring, he was actually left standing there alone in a daze.

Perhaps, this is the short-lived mystery.

The little writer immersed in this artistic conception could not regain his senses for a long time. Suddenly, he sat up with the quilt and turned on the desk lamp he bought specially.Dim lights flooded the entire room in an instant, adding a touch of warmth to the extremely cold room without the air conditioner in March.The little writer seemed to finally have something to rely on in his heart, Wei Wei calmed down and lay back.The little writer, who was frightened by his wild thoughts and whose hands and feet were cold, lay quietly, waiting for the thick cotton quilt to slowly warm his limbs.

In the dim room, through the translucent curtains, the little writer looked out of the window not far away.Although the scene outside the building was illuminated by dim street lamps, it still made people feel cold when looking at it.The white curtains were drawn down naturally and randomly, and they were not purposely drawn. There was a small area that was not covered, and the drizzle kept falling, falling on the hearts of the rain watchers at this moment. Worries can't go away for a long time.

What do you really know about this man?All I know is that he has a nice voice and looks very handsome.

Acting has its own principles, and will not easily break the rules because of someone, but will gently persuade and comfort frustrated strangers.He is more tactful in dealing with people, but he will not become popular or flatter because of the power of others.Therefore, he has many friends in all directions.

Furthermore, he will not neglect others because they have no money and no fans, so he does not have that "sense of distance from a great god". New people can easily get acquainted and become new friends as long as the three views are generally consistent.

I know he likes kittens and dogs, but in order to be responsible for them, he has to consider his irregular schedule.He was afraid that he would not be able to feed them and accompany them every day, so he could only give up his inner desire.

I know that every time he sang the wrong lyrics, he would laugh all by himself, and then blame the public screen, saying that the girls interfered with him.As soon as the girls retorted, he immediately became serious and transformed into a temperament anchor in a second, so that the girls could no longer molested him.Sometimes, when he is in a good mood, he will make a routine, which makes the girls stunned.

He once shared his view of love in an interview, saying that he would find someone he likes to be with him forever, be absolutely loyal to him, and never leave.They can cook a meal together and make their own favorite dishes.They can raise a dog together and take it out to the park in their spare time.They can raise some succulents and other green plants together, and move them out when the sun comes out, and they can also lazily bask in the sun on the double deck chairs together.

What else?

Besides that, what else do I know about him?

Through his live broadcast on YY, I can deduce that he and I are both in N City.Through his Weibo, I can understand his understanding of the world.But these are just my conjectures about him. How can I convince myself that my understanding is objective and not a subjective fantasy?How to convince myself that what I fell in love with is the real him, not a fictional image created through the Internet?

In fact, the young writer first got to know Gu Fengda, that is, Gu Feng, not because of his voice.

In the first year of freshman year, Tutu’s mother remarried. His stepfather couldn’t say that he didn’t like him, nor could he say that he hated him. He just didn’t want to spend money to raise “other men’s children”. Some "spare cash".As a result, he was very short on living expenses.Mother Tutu has no financial power, and she can't even speak, so she can't change the mind of her stepfather, Uncle Wang.Being tightly controlled, she even felt that she had no position to criticize his behavior.Apart from doing more odd jobs in private, and occasionally sending him some money when Uncle Wang didn't find out, there was no way to give him any timely support.

In order to meet the basic needs of life, during the summer vacation when others stay in air-conditioned rooms, he can only choose to rush to tutoring under the scorching sun, sweating profusely.Be a person who races against time and fate.

Once, when he was walking towards the school gate in a hurry, passing the teaching building, he suddenly saw people in front of him watching the bulletin board on the wall, and from time to time he gave a few praises.When he approached, the crowd just dispersed.He looked at the bulletin board, and it was a commendation for the seniors who had made great achievements in the past five years.Among the people in black suits, the little writer saw Gu Feng at a glance, who was Gu Fengda's group.Not because his picture is at the top, or because he is particularly handsome, but because he has the most prize money. The 10 project reward was a huge sum of money for Tutu who was in a difficult situation at the time. He didn't know how much he envied this person named Gu Feng.At that time, he sighed more than once why he did not study economics, although he knew that he had no talent for this.But yes, somewhat reconciled.

Later, relying on my own hard work, I finally graduated smoothly, and then rented a house with my manuscript fee, and settled down in N City as a matter of course.If you don’t want to cook, you can go out to a restaurant. If it’s raining, you can stay in your own small room. You don’t have to do anything. You can lie down however you want. You don’t need to look at your stepfather livid or other things like staying at home. Ugly face.

Gradually, I have my own time, have my own hobbies, like a voice, like his gentleness, like the sense of security he brings.

Later, I don’t know why, that person became friends with me, playing games with me from time to time, chatting with myself about the problems I encountered at work recently, the interesting things that happened in my life recently, I would want to talk to myself video.When I saw his face in the video, Tutu hadn't recalled the past in the depths of his memory. Later, after reading his name a few more times and connecting it with the memory in his mind, he felt the ingenious arrangement of fate.

Everything in the world, going round and round, will always come back.

Gu Feng's indistinct attitude made him feel very happy, but he was always uneasy, but who could he tell his inner struggle?

Because of that incident, I didn't make any friends at all in my four years of college. (In college, Tutu didn’t participate in group activities most of the time because of living expenses. He didn’t go to any fellowships or organized spring outings. He doesn’t like wasting his hard-earned living expenses, and others don’t like people who don’t fit in. Naturally , he was isolated. Therefore, when a boy accused himself of stealing his mobile phone, most people stayed out of the matter, and the remaining few people also stood in the boy's camp. They did not know the specifics of the matter, but published "I think it's him too", "Who isn't he?" "I can't believe it" and other remarks. Although in the end others found out that the boy would still use the cell phone that was said to have been "stolen and disappeared" from time to time ", but no one apologized to him, they just pretended not to see him when they passed by.

Do you want to call Feifeifei?She is just a friend of mine in the two-dimensional virtual world, and regardless of whether you can trust her not to spread it outside, even if people can believe it, how can you make them worry about their own affairs in the middle of the night.However, the reality is that apart from her, I can't find anyone I can trust.

Call mother?Telling her that she likes a man and wants to be with him, will it cause her more troubles?Moreover, if Uncle Wang finds out... there will be a new disturbance.Mother's life is already difficult, and she should not bear more because of herself.As a child, if she can't live a good life, she can only reduce her worries for herself as much as possible.

Ask your own book fans?Forget it, book fans only pay attention to themselves because they like the stories they write, and they shouldn't worry book fans about their own affairs.If the readers choose to leave me because of this incident, then I will really have nothing at that time.Is it so easy to leave the new life I have had so hard?

Thinking wildly, thinking wildly, the body that stretched to the extreme finally adjusted automatically, and the eyelids blinked slowly again and again, forcing the little writer to fall into a deep sleep.

It will soon be daylight, and the next day has come.

The author has something to say:

small theater

A certain author: "Great Gufeng, why didn't you tell Tutu that you liked him?"

A certain Tutu: "Don't blame him, I am too insecure." After speaking, he lowered his head and lowered his eyelids slightly, covering his eyes with eyelashes, trying to hide the sadness in his heart.

A big man (holding Tutu in his arms), grabbed his arms with both hands, stared into his eyes, and asked sincerely, "Did you see it? My inner thoughts."

A certain rabbit looked at him, feeling relieved, his eyes slightly bent, and he nodded shyly with a smile.

I will introduce the lonely wind part later~~~April is relatively busy, so take your time~~~ In short, it won’t be a trap.