Cherish love

When I was very young, I watched Westward Journey, but I couldn't understand the love in it.That classic line was just memorized like a follower.It was not until many years later that I personally realized the meaning of this line.Now I don't want to say this to you, but just want to say to you 'I'm sorry, I love you. 'But you can't hear it anymore.And my apology, my regret, and my love for you, there is no way to tell you.Looking at you at the end of your life, you smiled and said to me with your last strength: "You are finally free, and no one controls you like this now, and you don't need to see me anymore. I will never be by your side again. Appeared. You must live happily, I..."

I also thought that without you by my side in the future, I could live my own life and not have to live in your shadow.You can do whatever you want.But why, why does my heart hurt so much?Looking at your slowly closing eyes, listening to your unfinished words, why do I feel that the world is collapsing?What can I do without you?

When did our relationship start?Since we first met, right?

"Yangyang, let's go out for dinner tonight, you should dress better." At noon on the weekend, my mother knocked on the door of my room and said to me.

I glanced at my mother suspiciously, seeing her smiling face and the corners of her mouth raised, I couldn't help asking: "Going out to eat? With whom?"

Recently, my mother has been very happy. I probably know what happened. After all, I have also started the second year of junior high school. I understand some things. After all, my father has passed away for so many years. Over the years, my mother has carried our family alone. , It was very hard work, and the smile on my face became less and less.Now seeing my mother with a happy smile on her face every day, I am actually very happy.But there are still some knots in my heart. After all, my mother and I have only lived together these years, and an irrelevant man suddenly appeared, and I always feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.

Hearing my question, my mother was a little shy and said to me cautiously: "That's right, that's the Uncle Si you saw last time. And Uncle Si's son, you and Uncle Si's son It's about the same age, so it should be compatible. Yangyang, if you..."

"Oh, I see. When will I go out?" I interrupted my mother's words, and I said casually.I think my mother is still a little worried that I can't accept it.

"05:30, Uncle Si came to pick us up." Hearing my answer, my mother breathed a sigh of relief.

"Oh."

Seeing that I was not talking, my mother went out.I don't know yet that the 'devil king' who will haunt me all his life is about to appear in my life.

......

"It's been a long time." Mom looked at the man waiting by the side of the road with a happy smile on her face.

"We just arrived too." The man also smiled.After talking to my mother, he turned his head and said to me: "Yangyang, right, get in the car."

I thought to myself, are all adults so hypocritical?Obviously we just called and said we were downstairs, so we just came down.Why are you talking nonsense like this?You obviously saw me last time, but you still need to confirm, why?

Ignoring these so-called adults, I nodded towards that man, opened the rear door by myself, and was about to sit in it when I saw the man sitting in the back staring at me.I was taken aback, why are there people behind me?Suddenly I remembered what my mother said to me in the afternoon, that man had a son who was about my age.

"Hello." Out of politeness, I still greeted the people in the car.

"kindness."

"?" Just like that, anyway, I also said hello to you, don't you know how to reply me?What are you pulling?

"Hehe, Yangyang, this is my son, his name is Si Yue. You are about the same age, and you will definitely become good friends." Uncle Si just got in the car, and when he saw us in the back row, he probably knew what his son was like. Yes, seeing that Si Yue didn't say anything, he said it to me.

"Yes, Yangyang, you have to get along well with Si Yue." My mother also said to me.

What is this all about?Why are you telling me everything?Tell that kid too?

Forget it, for the sake of my mother's happiness, I'll bear it. It's not a big deal if a man can bend and stretch. Maybe that Si Yue is naturally introverted and doesn't get along with others?

"Well, hello, Si Yue, right? My name is Ouyang, nice to meet you." Pooh, after I finished speaking, I even despised myself, what kind of introduction is this?Make it like a blind date.

"and then?"

"?" This kid finally opened his mouth, but what are they talking about?Didn't you say we are about the same age?How can there be a generation gap?Why can't I understand what he said?Who will explain to me?

"They call you Yangyang? Are you called Ouyangyang?" Brother Big Cool said kindly when he saw Ouyang with a blank face.

"Well, my surname is Ou, and my first name is not Ouyang." Your sister, it turns out to be this, anyway, I'm used to it. When I introduced myself as Ouyang before, everyone waited for the next article. Who knew that my name was Ouyang Nothing below.

"Oh."

"?" Seeing Si Yue turned his face out of the car window after listening to his explanation, Ouyang felt that ten thousand horses were galloping past in his heart, who is this?Are you so unwilling to communicate with me?Do you think I am willing?

When Ouyang also turned his head and his heart was galloping, he didn't see Si Yue's face reflected in the car window on the other side. His face was slightly flushed, and those bright eyes were shining with a thousand feet of light. There was something in that light. Can't hide the excitement and anticipation in Tibet.

......

"Yangyang, hurry up, you see Xiaoyue has finished his breakfast, you just came downstairs, what do you look like. Don't be late for the first day of school." Seeing me walking slowly downstairs, my mother could not bear the pain. Can't help complaining aloud.

"Auntie, don't rush Yangyang, you came in a hurry." Si Yue at the dining table gracefully drank the last sip of milk in the glass, and said softly to his mother.

"Do you think that the younger you are, the more sensible you are? You are looking at you. You are already in high school, and you are still so ignorant. You have to learn more from the younger one...."

While listening to his mother's thoughts, he glared at Si Yue and started his breakfast routine.Since my mother and Uncle Si got married, Si Yue and I have started living under one roof.Then I also started the daily comparison with Si Yue, the kind of things about other people's children that I thought would never happen to me, and it happened in my life every day.

Originally, I was not outstanding in all aspects, and my grades in school were only moderate.But Si Yue is good at everything, grades, sports, and looks and family background are all set by the hero in the novel. After living together, compared with him, he is a star in the sky, and I am dust on the ground.

Uncle Si is a very gentle person, he never asks me and Si Yue to reach a certain level.Although my mother has to say a few words every day, she doesn't take any practical actions, what does she want me to do.On the contrary, the Great Demon King Si, after seeing my grades, changed his normal routine and acted as my tutor every day.Mother and Uncle Si were very happy to see us getting along so well.

Looking back at the beginning, Si Yue and I argued time and time again, but in the end it all ended in my failure. Why did this big devil keep his eyes on me?Isn't that kind of indifferent attitude when we first met?

I still remember Si Yue's expression when he saw my report card at that time...

"That's why you passed the exam?" Si Yue looked at my report card and looked at me in disbelief.

"Well, you did well in the exam? It's better than last time." When my mother heard Si Yue's words, she thought how bad I was in the exam?I took a look at my transcript.

"That's right, my grades are considered good in our class." With the support of my mother, I became more confident.I'm not afraid of your jokes, but I don't know why I'm a little afraid of Si Yue in my heart, maybe it's because he has the kind of bastard that everyone said about him.Si Yue was actually quite scary when he got angry.Even Uncle Si, who was a lawyer, didn't dare to speak of Si Yue.So, after my mother and Uncle Si got married, I felt that I had two more fathers, one of whom was still a tyrant.

"What's good, how can you get into a key high school with your grades."

"It's fine if I go to an ordinary high school. Why do I need to go to a key high school?" I know how much I have.

"No, I can't help it in junior high school, but you must go to the same school as me in high school."

"what?"

"That's it, I'll give you extra lessons from today on."

"?" What do you mean it's decided like that, do I agree?Shouldn't both of you agree to this kind of thing?I have no objection to you giving me extra lessons, but why should I go to the same high school as you?

"Well, Si Yue, I didn't want to go to a key high school, and my grades will not improve to the level of a key high school in this year. I have made up my mind and will go to the high school of our current school." Before me and I Those good buddies have agreed to go to the high school of our school together.

"It's not up to you, you have to go to the same high school as me, so that I can take care of you."

"Why should I ask you to take care of me?"

"I'm your brother, so I have to take care of you. That's the decision. I'll start making up lessons tonight." After saying this, Si Yue left without looking back.

"?" I turned my head to look at my mother and Uncle Si who were sitting on the side, wanting to ask them for an explanation. Who knew that Uncle Si saw my gaze and immediately looked away, looking at the newspaper in his hand for who knows how long .

Uncle Si, how could you do this?Si Yue is your son, how can you be so cowardly?

"Hey, Yangyang, Mom thinks what Xiaoyue said makes sense, so you should learn from Xiaoyue."

I really want to cry but have no tears. I have no objection to studying, but why start from tonight?Isn't today the first day of summer vacation?Will my colorful summer vacation be buried in textbooks?

What else does it mean that you are my brother and must take care of me, aren't you just a month older than me?Pretending to be a mature adult?What about Gao Leng when we first met? Where did he go?

......

"Why are you in a daze? Hurry up and eat, and go to school after eating."

"Oh." Si Yue's words interrupted my painful memories. There was nothing wrong with it. Under Si Yue's high-pressure review, I was admitted to a key high school, and I was in the same school and class as Si Yue.

The real painful life is about to begin. In the past, I only saw this big devil at home, but from now on, I will see this big devil no matter at home or at school.What will my high school life be like?