add to the chaos

1.

When the two arrived at Li Tian's house, he was already packing up. The house that he saw last time was so full that it was now empty. The things on the coffee table on the TV cabinet that represented the owner's hobbies were all put into cardboard boxes, and the pieces were cruelly white. The cloth covered it, as if covered with a layer of tranced white smoke.

There are several large cardboard boxes in the center of the living room, and a pile of sundries are scattered in them.

Li Tian was carrying the mainframe of a desktop computer out, the keyboard was buckled on the mainframe at an angle, and a bunch of messy wires were hanging on the protruding corner of the keyboard with difficulty, precariously.

When he looked up, he saw Qiu Cen standing at the door, looking around the empty living room, and Lin Jian standing behind Qiu Cen looking around.

"...Hi." Lin Jian raised his hand in greeting.

"Here we come," Li Tian nodded, "Hu Dawei is in the bedroom, please move the bedside table and wardrobe."

"Success." Qiu Cen murmured, not embarrassed to ask where to move.

Unexpectedly, Li Tian's house looked small, and there were a lot of things. The pots and pans in the kitchen alone had to be moved three times. Plastic basin with a lot of salt in it, while really doubting whether Li Tian is cooking at home.

Busy until one o'clock, four boys and a little girl finally cleaned up the room.

The empty room still smelled of dust, and there seemed to be a lively atmosphere in the air, but Li Tian knew that after locking the door, everything was gone.

Including the hardest days he spent alone.

Unfortunately, such days have been, and will be in the future.

......

A few people randomly entered a restaurant at noon, thinking about finishing a good meal in the afternoon, but as soon as they sat down at the dinner table, they called Qiu Lin away with a phone call.

——Brother Fat got into a fight.

Even though Qiu Cen questioned whether Fat Brother's lump of flesh has the ability to lift his arms and legs, and whether his cowardly physique can support him to stand upright in the face of evil forces, he still greeted Li Tian and pulled Lin Jian back. left school.

On the way, the master driver used his skills of driving a taxi all year round to see that everyone wanted to chat, but Qiu Lin and the two were not in the mood. After the master said a few words, his skills cooled down, and he shut up embarrassingly.

After getting out of the car, the two rushed to the cafeteria, which was empty, with a few eating places here and there, and a few aunts cleaning up the mess.

Lin Jian suddenly called out: "Li Yi!"

Li Yi... Yi...y...

The voice echoed in the cafeteria, and the boy who was washing his hands by the running water in the distance turned his head and looked towards them.

This person is at the opposite door of 219, and he also smashed his roommate's things on the door to express his dissatisfaction on the day of the new year's welcome, and he also called Qiu Cen just now.

Qiu Cen ran over quickly, and asked as he ran: "I can't tell you clearly on the phone, what's the matter, have you been beaten?"

Li Yi wiped his wet hands casually on his body and said he was fine.

"Huh?" Lin Jian wondered.

"Brother Fat is having dinner with that Japanese student. A few students from the sports school will fight without saying a word, and the words are not very nice. Brother Fat is in a hurry and secretly told me to call you." Li Yi said.

Qiu Cen asked: "Sports school?"

Come to set up big?Isn't that life-threatening?

"Who knows, it seems that there is something wrong with the girl. Those idiots act like they haven't seen the girl every day, and they don't fight."

Qiu Cen's heart that has been hanging has finally landed: "Okay, I'll go back to the dormitory to see him."

Facts have proved that Fat Brother can really tolerate anything except losing his temper at computer games and big eyes.

When Qiu Cen returned to the dormitory, Fat Brother was snoring wrapped in a quilt and beating to climax.

"...What the hell is this called?" Qiu Cen said.

"Shall we still go to Li Tian's place?" Lin Jian asked.

Oh, I don't know where Li Tian moved.

Qiu Cen realized later, took out his phone and called Li Tian, ​​but the other side said that he was almost busy, let's have dinner together tonight.

Qiu Cen thought for a while, but couldn't speak.

2.

In the blink of an eye, half of the winter has passed, and the first half semester of the sophomore year has come to an end. The four of them in 219 also seized the end of the semester and went to the library to hold their feet for a few days, to review their studies that would be useless even if they went back half a year.

Qiu Cen had basically given up, playing games on 4G, causing Fat Brother to drop the book he didn't know where to read, and joined the battle.The remaining two were even more unwilling to lag behind, saying "fuck it" one after another, and started a joyous struggle.

Passing the last exam at the end of the semester without any pain, the college students finished their studies, went home and went out to play, the weekdays were full of couples who pressed the road and those who got up late and went to class without image The students disappeared without a trace as if they had never appeared before.

After sending Lin Jian away, Qiu Cen returned to Xiangda, the wind was howling, the leaves were whirling and bumping against the road, he suddenly felt lonely for no reason.

He sighed and went home.

In order to take care of the students who are still living in the school during the winter vacation, Xiangda University will also remain open during the holidays to provide convenience for students who are working part-time and do not want to go home.

After returning to the dormitory, Fat Brother Big Eyed had already left. Qiu Cen's family was in this city, so he took a few sets of clothes and shoes, and left most of his things in the dormitory in case he was annoyed to death by Queen Song so he could have a place to live.

When he got home, there was no one at home. Qiu Cen didn't tell him in advance that he was going home. Even if he told him that his father would go on a business trip, and the middle school his mother was in didn't have winter vacation at this time.

He locked the door, put away his things, took a comfortable hot bath and went to bed.

During the whole process, except for Qiu Cen's voice, the room was silent, which made people feel stuffy.

Queen Song came home from get off work at seven o'clock, and when she saw the NB on the shoe cabinet at the door, she knew her son was back, so she was overjoyed, and turned to the vegetable market to buy a bunch of Qiu Cen's favorite dishes.

Qiu Cen woke up in the smell of rice, and at the same time he heard the sound of "gurgling" coming from his stomach.

The kitchen door was closed and the light was on.

Qiu Cen pushed open the kitchen door, and Ms. Song was deflated the pressure cooker for the stew. When she heard the door, she turned her head and smiled: "God, it's a holiday, how are you doing in the exam?"

Qiu Cen yawned: "I can pass."

"Oh, not bad, my son," Queen Song patted her son's shoulder with her oily dirty hands, "wash your hands quickly, it's time to eat."

Qiu Cen tilted his head to look at the rhubarb handprint on the white cloth on his shoulder, not knowing whether to laugh or cry.

On the second day of the holiday, due to insomnia caused by sleeping too much the day before, he finally fell asleep and was woken up by his mother, Qiu Cen collapsed.

"Goudaner, you remember to deliver the box of slimming tea on the table to Xiaodan today. I will deliver it yesterday, but there is no one at home after knocking for a long time..." Queen Song's voice gradually weakened, and Qiu Cen was drowsy, but was shocked by the "bang" of the door closing.

Qiu Cen sat up from the bed, stayed for a while with his eyes blindfolded, and thought for a long time with his delirious mind that Xiaodan didn't think of anyone, so he simply fell back again.

He also had a dream this time. In the dream, he brought home a little girl. The two of them were sitting in front of the desk. On the back of the hand, dark red blood flowed from the wrist all the way to the elbow, and gathered on the ground drop by drop, forming a dark red pool.

Waking up again, five o'clock in the afternoon.

He only felt tightness in his chest, weakness in his limbs, and his stomach growled again.

It should be too much sleep.

——Ah, the drunken and dreamy life.

He ate some leftovers from last night, and after he was full, he remembered that sending the Queen seemed to have told him something.

When he turned his head, he happened to see a big green bag on the coffee table, which was very delicately packaged and exuded a healthy atmosphere.

Oh.

He washed his face, carried a healthy plastic bag, and climbed up without waiting for the elevator.

The door of Li Xiaodan's house was closed, and a red floor mat was placed at the door, with the words "everything will be fine".

He knocked on the door with his hands that didn't lift anything, and after a while, he heard the sound of footsteps pulling slippers from the door.

The doorknob was angled downward and opened from the inside.

"..."

After seeing the people inside the door clearly, Qiu Cen suspected that he really didn't wake up, or it was still a dream.

The person standing inside the door was slender, wearing short sleeves and black jeans, with a flat head, and a deep light in his long and narrow eyes, which seemed to have a bright light.

In those calm eyes, Qiu Cen saw that he was staring stupidly, with his mouth open enough to stuff an egg.

Li Tian looked at him, and inexplicably raised the corners of his mouth, as if pulling out a tricky smile.

"haven't seen you for a long time."

"..."

Long time no see chicken.

Qiu Cen wanted to be quiet.

......

Li Tian poured the brewed fruit tea into a glass and pushed it to Qiu Cen.

"I did it myself, how does it feel."

Qiu Cen gave him a sideways look, pursed his lips and said nothing.

Li Tian also poured himself a glass and took a sip.

Then he seemed to know what Qiu Cen was thinking, and took the initiative to admit his mistake: "Li Xiaodan is my sister, I think we can see each other in the future anyway, so I didn't have to let you come over that day."

He looked at Qiu Cen with a smile hidden on his sharp-edged face.

"You...I'm leaving." Qiu Cen stood up suddenly, and was about to walk back after getting dressed.

"No," Li Tian stopped him, "Don't you welcome your new neighbors?"

Qiu Cen pushed him away and said, "Welcome, welcome, warmly welcome."

"that's it?"

"Then what's the matter, I'll ask Uncle Zhang upstairs and downstairs to hold an unprecedented welcome party for you?" Qiu Cen said.

One poor and two white are two dogs raised by Uncle Zhang, one is a Shar Pei and the other is a husky.

Li Tian smiled: "That can't be done, call me a house full of dogs and turn around and Li Xiaodan will break my legs."

Qiu Cen became a little annoyed, knocked off the arm that was blocking him, and left.

It wasn't until the moment he got home and closed the door that Qiu Cen breathed a sigh of relief.

He was a little happy when he found out that Li Tian lived upstairs.

It's not bad that he can run into Li Tian when he has nothing to do.

But after he was happy, he panicked again.

He didn't forget that Li Tian had a weak but subtle attraction to him.

- It's over.

His mind gradually cleared up, but Qiu Cen was still at a loss.

He bent down to take off his shoes, and suddenly froze.

The resistance on the right hand becomes more and more obvious with deliberate attention.

Qiu Cen turned his head mechanically, and what caught his eye was the green packaging bag, reminding him that it was very healthy.

--Hold.

2.

Today, there is no strong wind, no heavy snowfall, no smog, and the sun hanging in the sky like a pearl covered in dust emits a faint light. For the northern winter, it can be regarded as 9.5 points, and 0.5 points are afraid that it will be proud .

Qiu Cen was fully dressed and walked out of the community with Li Tian.

Today the two are going to a sacred place.

Not a church.

The place was in the outer suburbs, and it was an orphanage funded by the government. Some people from the society were invited to make donations, and it was open to volunteers to help the orphans live a healthy life.

Li Tian is a frequent visitor there, he is a volunteer, he often goes to help, and sometimes he will bring some food for the children.

Qiu Cen was surprised that Li Tian was so secretive when he first heard it. Who would have thought that the boss of the sports school who just wanted not to cause trouble and turned a blind eye to the teacher would have such a benevolent heart. With a hard face, I can't even think of coming here.

Being the acting boss of No. 8 is shocking enough, but now Qiu Cen has nothing to say.

So he could only agree to Li Tian's invitation, bought a small cart of fruit and followed.

After sitting in the car for more than two hours, the two arrived at the gate of the orphanage with big bags and small bags.

The security guard knew Li Tian very well, so he opened the door for them after saying hello.

From the chats along the way, Qiu Cen learned that most of the children in this orphanage had some physical health problems, so few of them were adopted.Due to the large number of children, the opportunity to go to school is even more precious. In order to save money and let each child learn knowledge, the dean and several nurses with some degrees personally teach them knowledge. Those children are more willing to learn, but some As soon as he became an adult, he went out to work, and most of the money he earned was given to the orphanage, leaving only a small part that he could spend on himself.

Qiu Cen felt a little uncomfortable when he heard it. Although he understood all these principles, he had never thought of contacting them before. Every time the school organized donations, he would donate a symbolic [-] cents. Things are too far away from him, and the truth has become false.

Now that I am really on the scene, I think I will donate more money next time, after all, an extra dime is a dime.

As soon as he entered the orphanage, the children's innocuous laughter and noise came to Qiu Cen's ears.It sounds pretty good.

Some children already recognized Li Tian, ​​and kept calling "Brother, Brother" like a rooster crowing.

Qiu Cen looked sideways at Li Tian, ​​and found a smile on his face that couldn't be seen outside.

That's not a smile in the ordinary sense, it's a relaxed smile, a heartfelt smile that gets rid of all the complicated things in the world.

——If you smile alone, it is a genuine smile.

It's so fucking handsome.Qiu Cen thought.

The two put down their things and went to see the kind dean again. Li Tian took Qiu Cen to the backyard.

The backyard is very beautiful, with a frozen artificial river, a rockery, a flower garden, and a gazebo. Colorful birdcages are hung on the bare tree branches. Although the vegetation is withered, it is not difficult to imagine how beautiful it will be in early spring. beautiful.

It's not even conceivable that it's an orphanage at all.

There was a little girl wearing a pink down jacket, sitting alone on a bench, holding two dolls in her arms, and was playing with them.

Qiu Cen watched Li Tian walk over and called "Lele".

This little girl has congenital heart disease. She was wrapped tightly and placed at the gate of the orphanage not long after she was born. Now she is 8 years old, optimistic, cheerful, smart and generous. Only the shocking postoperative surgery on her chest Scars prove that she is different from other peers.

She has a very good relationship with Li Tian, ​​and every time Li Tian comes to play with her.

"Brother." The little girl raised her head and smiled sweetly at Li Tian.

"I will introduce you to a big brother who is not as handsome as me," Li Tian pointed to Qiu Cen, "he is also with us today."

Qiu Cen glared at him and approached the little girl.

"Hello, cutie, do you feel like I'm in love?"

The little girl giggled and yelled crisply, "Brother!"

"Last time I heard from the dean that Lele wanted to go out to play. I have already told the dean. Would you like to go to the amusement park today?" Li Tian asked.

Qiu Cen thought, this sentence is really long.

Ever since I knew him, he was able to respond to all his questions with "uh ah oh".

The little girl's eyes lit up and she jumped off the bench, saying, "Okay! I'll put Huanxixi back! Brothers are waiting for me at the door!"

After that, he ran upstairs in small steps.

Facing Li Tian, ​​Qiu Cen stretched out his hands and boldly pulled his face: "Li Tian, ​​are you really Li Tian? Aren't you really poor and white?"

Li Tian frowned and slapped his hand away: "Chew the shit out of your mouth before talking to me."

3. Li Tian's little episode

When Li Tian walked to the door, he heard the sound of the door closing from downstairs.

He shook his head helplessly and closed the door.

The fruit tea in the glass was still steaming, and there was still half a cup of pink tea left in it, and a layer of white water droplets adhered to the wall of the cup that was not soaked by the tea.

Based on the principle of not wasting, he disposed of the fruit tea left in the teapot, hesitated for a while, and drank the cooled tea left in Qiu Cen's cup.

After tidying up the coffee table, he turned on the TV and nestled on the sofa, feeling a little stuffed, his stomach was full of water.

Sure enough, within 5 minutes of watching, his bladder felt bursts of pressure.

After using the toilet and washing his hands, he supported the sink and looked at himself in the mirror.

The person in the mirror was exactly the same as him, except that he was paler than he imagined. His hair, which had been cut for a long time, had grown back, and the long strands were tied on the scalp. There were red bloodshot eyes that could only be seen when he looked carefully. The eyes were black and blue, and the lips were purple.

——This long-term insomnia patient is now like a terminally ill patient who is about to die at any moment.

A person suddenly appeared in my mind.

That person was wearing a vest, big pants, pants and slippers. He was so handsome that he had to spoil himself. He looked sloppy like a middle-aged uncle.This person seems to be smiling every time, optimistic and righteous.

That is the vitality that a young man should have.

Maybe being close to him would give him a little life.

It doesn't take a lot, let alone pull him out of hell, just let him have a glimmer of light in his life.

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