add to the chaos

Qiu Cen later went back to Li Tian's house.

Standing outside the door, his bony fingers lightly pressed against the closed door, stroking up and down gently.

He stood there silently for a while, the entire corridor was quiet, only the sound of other residents sliding when using the elevator could be heard.

Everything is in stark contrast to the unexpected scene just now.

— like a dream.

It's hard to believe that such a cold and unwilling person like Li Tian would suddenly rush up and hug him tightly, with such hot lips and such a comfortable embrace.

He almost forgot where he was.

I just want to immerse myself in the warmth and heat, and experience this subtle feeling carefully.

The lips and the palms of the hands seemed to still retain the touch just now, and there was still the feeling of being blocked by a foreign object in the lower abdomen.

Every touch reminds Qiu Cen that it really exists.

——Li Tian also has feelings for him.

The hands that were pressed against the door panel finally dropped limply, clenched fists on both sides of the body.

Now that he calmed down, Qiu Cen finally felt the weirdness.

At that time, Li Tian rejected him without hesitation, and the reasons he gave almost made him collapse.

Since he grew up, he has always done whatever he wants, doing whatever he wants, and he doesn't bother to care about the consequences.Of course, there have been uncomfortable things, but I am not willing to dig into the horns, just hide them and digest them as time goes by.Because the belief that being happy is more important than anything else, his parents seldom restrain him, and believe that he has his own ideas and knows what he wants to do.Even though he was mediocre, playful, and idle from time to time in his studies since he was a child, he was carefully cared for by his parents.Qiu Cen, who grew up like this, also hopes that the person he likes can feel more at ease, so he has never looked troubled in front of Li Tian, ​​and is even willing to deal with him, tease him to talk, carefully observe his expression, and never It is difficult to analyze his thoughts inside.

He knew that Li Tian was completely different from him.Whether it is family or friendship, he is much happier than Li Tian. He has no worries about food and clothing, and has many friends. He is willing to socialize with people and treat himself like an ordinary person. He is 21 years old. Although he looks a little crooked, Overall, I am still satisfied.

But Li Tian didn't.

He didn't seem to be struggling at all, just falling with life.

Not taking the initiative, it is even more difficult to accept when being passive, quietly shielding the goodwill of many outsiders, even he himself can't feel it.

He lacks a lot emotionally.

But he is still willing to give half of what he has to Li Tian.

Even give him love.

But he doesn't want to, he just wants to escape.

——I'm not gay, don't let me be.

Whenever he recalled this sentence, the faint pain in his heart made it difficult for him to breathe.

It took a few minutes to adjust his emotions, and he forced himself to think carefully about Li Tian's expression and tone when he said this.

He remembered his pale profile and slightly trembling shoulders.

At that time, the figure was like a green bamboo blown by a strong wind, swaying, as if it would fall if pushed.

Li Tian is hiding something from me.Qiu Cen thought.

But there are too many facts hidden in his heart, and he has never been willing to take the initiative to tell him.

If it weren't for his repeated begging and pestering, Li Tian would not have taken the initiative to tell him many things.

Qiu Cen didn't turn on the light, and lay on the bed in his own bedroom, curled up, forming a bow shape, with his hands involuntarily inserted into his hair, tightly pulling the soft hair.

He felt a burst of self-blame, blaming himself for being too complacent recently and not noticing Li Tian's changes.

Did something happen recently that made him uncomfortable?

He stared at the pitch-black roof, thoughtful.

An answer gradually came to mind.

Not long ago, when he mentioned Li Xiaodan's whereabouts, Li Tian's reaction was too strange.

It's like being pinched by a seven-inch snake, like being pinched by someone's weak point suddenly, pressing against that weak point, but unable to fight back, and can only shrink back and let others deal with it.

The person on the bed sat up abruptly, staring forward.

— Could it be that something happened to Li Xiaodan?

When Li Tian pushed the door and entered No. 8, he looked around with some purpose in his eyes, and when he didn't find the expected figure, he lowered his eyes in disappointment.

It has been four days.

Since he rejected Qiu Cen fiercely that day, he has not seen him for four days.

Obviously live in the same community, the same unit, and even the relationship between upstairs and downstairs.

Li Tian went to school and went home on the 8th, and then went out to buy vegetables and take out the garbage, but he never met him again.

He squeezed the cheese in silence, his thoughts had already flown to nowhere.

What I said to Qiu Cen at that time, now that I think about it, I feel sore and swollen pain in my heart.

Those words seemed to have trampled under the foot of the gentle person like sunshine.

Knowing how important this person is to him.

Faint distress filled the heart.

How sad that man is.

But if he did it all over again, he would still say that.

Compared with two people facing the unknown tortuous road ahead together, he is still willing to bear it alone.

That was his pain, why should Qiu Cen bear it with him?

At the same time, he really didn't dare, was afraid to say those two words - like.

Is this how they will be in the future?

Obviously he said it was up to him, but in the end he was reluctant.

Qiu Cen was the first person, unlike those who couldn't remember his face, he would not talk about him behind his back, he would not avoid him like a snake, and he was even willing to approach him carefully, understand him, and accommodate him.

He pushed him away with his own hands.

The part-time girl was sweeping the floor outside, and then asked him, "Why hasn't Qiu Cen come to work recently?"

"..."

The little girl pretended he didn't hear it, and repeated it again.

Li Tian was brought back to his thoughts, stopped his hands, and said calmly for a long while: "He's not coming."

Never again.

He will never see him again.

Even if you are lucky enough to meet them, you will walk past them without squinting like the strangers you pass by every day.

"I'm not coming anymore." The little girl lamented, she didn't notice the strangeness, she just thought that she would be too busy to touch the ground again, and she was very frustrated.

In the afternoon, Li Tian took the recruitment information and posted it on the glass outside the store.

There is only one piece of A4 paper with the word "recruitment" written on it with a black marker.

A look is from his own pen.

Very casual.

In the past, when the person was away, I didn’t think that No. 8 was very busy. Maybe it was because there were always a number of customers. After I got used to it, I didn’t feel busy. Also, there were two part-time girls at that time. It was very appropriate to take care of No. 8 in rotation. Even he himself can act as a shopkeeper.Later, I left one, but I didn't feel tired. In addition, that person came back to work as a freelance worker not long after, so the plan to recruit another part-time student was in vain.Now that he was gone, he and the little girl felt a little powerless, and the idea of ​​recruiting a second part-time job was put on the agenda.

Not long after the recruitment information was posted, two people came one after another.

Li Tian waited for another day, but no one came.

Seeing that it was coming to the weekend again, he wanted to solve this matter quickly, so he chose one of the little girls who could make desserts and stayed.

He knew in his heart that there was actually another reason.

——The little girl's eyes are a bit like that man's.

Putting the two applicants together, he knew the result uncontrollably.

Waiting any longer is nothing more than giving yourself a chance to repent.

He opened the door of the house alone again, facing the cold room.

Put the key on the shoe cabinet, lean on the wall with one hand, and change into the slippers.

Li Tian walked into the house silently, feeling a little hungry, and went to the kitchen to look. There were two buckets of instant noodles on top of the refrigerator, one bucket of braised in soy sauce and one bucket of Laotan sauerkraut.

After estimating how hungry he was now, he took down both buckets, put them on the coffee table in the living room, and started to boil water.

While the water was boiling, he opened both buckets of instant noodles, put the ingredients in, and sat on the sofa in a daze.

A few days ago, there were two people at home, chatting, eating and drinking tea.

Not now.

At this time of day, the thought that "life is getting boring" is especially strong.

Nothing to do, very boring.

He listened to the sound of the clock in the living room, the sound of boiling water in the kitchen, the planes flying by outside the window, the laughter of children downstairs with the windows open...

Li Tian suddenly closed his eyes.

That dangerous atmosphere swept over again.

There seemed to be sinister screams and inexplicable laughter in his ears, like a woman's long nails scratching his skin, and the slippery and cold body like snake skin slowly wrapped around him, surrounding him, constantly circling, approaching...

Li Tian curled himself up desperately, but couldn't move at all.It seemed that there was something binding him tightly in place, as long as he was a little heavier, his whole body would be entangled by that destructive force and turn into ashes.

"Dididi, Dididi..."

Suddenly, all the restraints on the whole body were pulled away, and the voice next to the ear finally let out a scream, and the stiff body collapsed in an instant, and then the tense muscles on the body slowly relaxed.

Li Tian sat blankly for a while, I don't know how long it took, and after he got used to it, he slowly opened his eyes and turned his head.

The water boiled.

He stood up slowly, and as soon as he took a step, his legs seemed to be his own, and his whole body was tilted to one side.

Fortunately, he quickly supported the coffee table so that he didn't fall down.

When the things in his eyes gradually became clear, he staggered to the kitchen and made noodles for himself.

After the meal, he went downstairs to take out the garbage, and on the way back he deliberately slowed down, much slower than usual.

Almost staggering home, after closing the door, he leaned back and smiled self-deprecatingly.

What are you waiting for.

Only him.

Slowly rot.

Then the cell phone placed on the coffee table in the living room rang.

The people who call tirelessly every day, besides Hu Dawei, are real estate agents.

Li Tian answered the phone and said before the intermediary was bombarded with bombardment, "I'm sorry, I can't afford it."

"..." The other side was stunned, remembered his purpose, and said in a business-like manner: "Hello, I am the Oak City Public Security Bureau, do you know Li Xiaodan, you are the first contact in her mobile phone. ..”

"I'm her younger brother," Li Tian quickly replied, his hand holding the phone turned pale, "What's wrong with her?"

The other side also realized his nervousness, and hurriedly comforted him: "Don't worry, she just got into a fight with a street gangster after she was drunk, and was reported to the police by a passerby, so now I need you to pick her up..."

"?" Li Tian was stunned for a moment, and then realized: "Is she okay now?"

...are you hurt?

The other side replied in a considerate manner: "She's fine, but there are some bruises. Please come here as soon as possible. Remember to bring your ID card and household registration book."

Li Tian hung up the phone.

Staring at the darkened phone screen in his hand, he couldn't laugh or cry.

Workaholic Li Xiaodan put down his job and all the handsome guys around him, ran to a southern city, had a drink, got into a fight, and then entered the police station?

If it weren't for the location and official certification displayed by the number, it would really look like a scam call.

Li Tian called Li Xiaodan again, and of course he was confiscated and the phone was turned off.

The burden in my heart was relieved a lot.

Li Xiaodan was missing during this period, he was tortured to the point of exhaustion, and now he was finally able to catch his breath.

——This inconsequential older sister's ability to make trouble is really getting better and better.

Li Tian threw himself on the sofa, raised his hand to cover his eyes, and after a long time, the corners of his mouth slightly curved.

——It’s been a long time.

The author has something to say: Find my sister in the next chapter!

Cen Cen and Brother Tian'er need to separate for a while.