my psychologist

Luck has favored me, but not everyone.

After Fan Dongfang and I arrived in Xindu City, we had dinner with the person in charge of Haotian Real Estate. As soon as we lay down on the hotel bed, Fan Dongfang's cell phone rang quickly.

The ringtone for the incoming call was specially set by Fan Dongfang for his family. I immediately shut up and waited quietly for him to answer the phone.

Fan Dongfang smiled and rubbed the top of my head, and said, "It's not necessary."

I pointed to the mobile phone to signal him to answer the phone and leave me alone.

Fan Dongfang answered the call with a smile. However, after the call was connected, he sat up straight after saying a few words, and his face changed: "I'll fly to Yandu right away."

I grabbed Fan Dongfang who jumped off the bed and quickly changed his clothes: "What happened?"

Fan Dongfang slowed down a bit, I could see that he tried his best to give me a peaceful expression, but he couldn't do it: "A Cheng had a car accident on the way back to Yandu, and he was dying."

With a buzzing sound in my head, I let go of my hand subconsciously, followed him and jumped out of bed, and began to change clothes: "I'll go with you."

Fan Dongfang hesitated for a moment, then nodded: "Okay. I'll give Brant a call, and you can check the flight."

I shook my head, and while I was getting dressed, I called my uncle, who lives in Xincheng, to borrow his private jet.Then he asked Fan Dongfang: "Which hospital is Mr. Dongfang in for emergency treatment?"

Fan Dongfang wiped his face, and his voice was a little hoarse: "Yandu Metropolitan Ninth Courtyard."

The medical level of the No. [-] Hospital of Yandu City is not very good. If it is in Guancheng, I can ask the family's private medical team to intervene quickly to help, but he is far from being able to quench his thirst in Yandu, but it is not impossible.I hesitated for a moment, and asked Fan Dongfang: "Do you need help? I mean, do you need to consult relevant experts at the Ninth Hospital?"

Fan Dongfang smiled wryly: "Uncle is the dean of the No. [-] Municipal Hospital of Yandu City, and also a well-known cardiology expert."

I understood, hugged him hard, and drove to the General Aviation Airport in the western suburbs without even thinking about getting out of the room.Originally, it was very difficult to pass the application of Feiyundu. Fortunately, my uncle is an advanced entrepreneur, because the business relationship often requires Feiyundu. He knew that I was anxious and specially asked someone to clear it up. When we arrived at the Xijiao Airport, The plane is ready.

35 minutes later, the plane landed at the General Aviation Airport in the northern suburbs of Yandu. The person in charge of the office of my uncle's company in Yandu drove us all the way to the No. [-] Hospital of Yandu City. I have something to look for him.

We arrived with Dean Fan and his wife one after another. When we got off the bus, they also got off the taxi. Fan Dongfang gave me a hand. I nodded to my elder brother who acted as a driver for us, and left. Two steps followed.

I have met Dean Fan many times, and it was the first time I saw him without the usual gentle smile on his face, and he looked extraordinarily serious.As for Mrs. Fan, I have only heard her voice but never seen her. In my imagination, she should be a gentle and intellectual woman, at least she should have long hair and shawls. She is a heroic and capable woman with short hair and neutral, but her red and swollen eyes add a touch of fragility to her.

However, at a distance of more than 100 meters, I took a look at the dean and his wife without any trace. It was not the first time we met, but I was inexplicably guilty and nervous. In the final analysis, it was because I climbed into the bed of their beloved son.

Dean Fan seemed a little surprised when he saw me, he glanced at me and said to Fan Dongfang, "Let's go in and talk about it."

Fan Dongfang grabbed Mrs. Fan's shoulders and followed, and he didn't forget to grab my wrist with his backhand. I took a peek at the back of Dean Fan who was walking in front, and silently broke away from Fan Dongfang's hand.

Fan Dongfang glanced back at me, probably wanting to say something, but the surgical building close in front of him made him stop his thoughts, he greeted me, took Mrs. Fan and hurriedly followed Dean Fan into the elevator.

Dongfang Sheng was giving first aid in the operating room on the tenth floor. When we arrived, there were only two ladies waiting outside the door of the operating room: the older one looked about forty years old, dressed in fashion, with a little light brow The younger one was only 21 or [-] years old, wearing a princess dress, his eyes were like peaches from crying, and when he saw Mrs. Fan, he threw himself into Mrs. Fan's arms: "Auntie, woo-woo- —”

The crying was neither high nor low, muffled, and heartbroken. Mrs. Fan followed the little girl's back and asked the older lady: "How is the situation?"

The older lady seemed to be afraid of disturbing the sobbing little girl stuck in Mrs. Fan's arms, and said softly: "There are multiple fractures in the whole body, and the heart and lungs are injured. I'm afraid it's more or less auspicious."

The weak little girl in Mrs. Fan's arms suddenly shoved the older lady like a raging lion cub: "Don't curse my brother!"

The older lady staggered back and hit the wall, her face was gloomy for a moment, then she lowered her eyes and said word by word: "It's not a curse, it's what your father said, I'm just repeating it."

The little girl was about to step forward, but Fan Dongfang grabbed her shoulders, Madam Fan waved her hand to the older lady: "Go, don't be an eyesore here."

The lady shrugged, glanced at me inexplicably, raised her chin slightly as if holding all her self-esteem, and walked away slowly.

Mrs. Fan apologized to me: "Daxi, right? I made you laugh."

I shook my head: "Every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite, so I can't say that I can't see jokes. I just hope that Teacher Dongfang can turn the crisis into peace, otherwise I will have a bad conscience."

The little girl was like a little hedgehog with spikes standing up all over her body. Hearing what I said, she stared at her red and swollen eyes and asked me: "Why do you have a troubled conscience?"

I pursed my lower lip and said truthfully, "Teacher Dongfang went to Lecheng today to teach our school."

The little girl's tears that had just stopped came out again, and she struggled to rush over, but was held tightly in Fan Dongfang's arms: "Oh, you are that vixen Daxi! What are you doing here!"

Fan Dongfang frowned: "Dongfang Man, stop making trouble!"

Dongfangman raised her foot, and stepped on Fan Dongfang's instep with her thin heel: "I didn't make trouble! If it weren't for him, my brother wouldn't be giving lectures to others!"

Fan Dong didn't change his expression when he mentioned that the little girl pulled out her feet that were ground by the heels, and said in a low voice, "Don't talk nonsense!"

Dongfangman lowered her head and bit Fan Dongfang's wrist resentfully. She cried until the blood came out from the bite, "I'm not talking nonsense. My brother never gives lectures. If it's not because he likes him, I wouldn't agree to him."

Dongfang Sheng likes me?What a joke!I was a little confused by Dongfangman's words, and subconsciously looked at Fan Dongfang.

For the first time, Fan Dongfang avoided my sight, patted Dongfang Man on the back lightly, and said, "It's not what you think, I made Ah Cheng agree to teach classes at Daxi's school."

Dongfangman raised his eyes and glared at Fan Dongfang: "That's not true! My brother said that he likes Daxi himself! I don't want you to comfort me, you are not a good person either!" After speaking, Dongfangman stomped on Fan Dongfang again, and ran back to Mrs. Fan's side.

Dean Fan looked around Fan Dongfang and me, and reprimanded lightly: "Okay, we have to separate the occasions."

Dean Fan's look really made me feel cold and embarrassed. In my mind, Dongfang Man's accusation, Fan Dongfang's avoidance, Dean Fan's ulterior glance and worries about Dongfang Sheng got mixed up. It set off a brainstorm.

I regret that I came here with Fan Dongfang impulsively, but obviously it’s not good to leave here, it’s too much like running away, and I still want to stay with Fan Dongfang—even though Fan Dongfang never said he and Dongfang Sheng However, it is not difficult to see that the relationship between them is extremely deep. Now that Dongfang Sheng's life and death are uncertain, the feeling in his heart is not going to be much better.

I calmed down my messed mood secretly, and said to Dongfang Man: "I have met with Teacher Dongfang for a limited number of times, but it does not hinder my appreciation for him. I believe Teacher Dongfang should appreciate me the same way, not because of you. I like it. Teacher Dongfang, I am very sorry and sorry that this happened, if there is anything that needs my help, just ask.”

Mrs. Fan stopped Dongfang Man's words at a glance, and said to me: "Manman and Ah Cheng have a good relationship. Now that this kind of thing happened to Ah Cheng, she couldn't help being emotional. I will tell you for her. Apologize."

Saying that, Mrs. Fan bowed slightly to me, and I hastily moved two steps to the side to avoid it: "Don't do this, I understand Manman's mood, I won't care about her, I still say the same thing , if there is a need, just tell me."

Fan Dongfang patted me on the shoulder: "Uncle is in the operating room and will definitely give Ah Cheng the most effective first aid. Now we can only wait."

The wait lasted for three hours. The moment the lights in the operating room went out, we all greeted the door at the same time, but what we waited for was not good news.

On October 10, at 24:53, Dongfang Sheng passed away at the age of 31.

Depressed wails and heart-piercing cries came and went one after another. Wordless grief permeated the corridor. My heart felt so stuffy. For those who have lost their loved ones, all words are useless. What I can do There is only silently leaving space for them to remember and bid farewell to their deceased relatives.

I was afraid that Fan Dongfang would look for me, so I didn't dare to go far, so I smoked in the stairwell of the emergency exit. When I smoked the third cigarette, Fan Dongfang came to find me.

He hugged me silently, the force on his arm made me a little breathless.

I pinched the half-burned cigarette, hugged his back, and patted him lightly, hoping to give him some comfort.

His always high head hangs down, his forehead rests on my shoulder, silent tears dripping down my thin coat and onto my shoulder.

Life is too impermanent. Who would have thought that the relatives and friends who were talking and laughing with you a few hours ago would be separated from you in the blink of an eye?

I can be said to be eloquent, and I try my best to become a person who uses language as the main means of my career. Suddenly, I feel that words are so lacking. I want to comfort him, but I have no words to use. I can only say dryly. He said, "I'm here, I'm still here."

"I still can't believe he is gone. I am a firm atheist, but I hope that he just went to another world and he will live well in that world. My aunt is not in good health, and Ah Cheng spent most of the time. They were all at my house, and when my aunt passed away, my mother took Ah Sheng and Man Man directly to my house, and we studied together, rebelled together, and determined the direction of life together..." Fan Dongfang slowed down, raised his head, and his eyes were reddish. Heartbroken, "Not only are we like-minded, we are even very similar in aesthetics, but I am luckier than him and met you first."

I raised my hand and stroked his brow with my fingertips: "I don't know how to comfort you, all words are too pale in front of my own grief, I can only say that Teacher Dongfang just changed his life in another dimension, and what's more, Fan Sir, when you are tired or sad, look back, I will always guard you in this dimension."

Fan Dongfang seemed to be holding me harder, hugged me for a while, and said in a low voice, "Thank you."

I slid my fingertips onto his eyes: "Thanks?"

Fan Dongfang grabbed my hand and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I mean I won't be able to return to Lecheng for a while. I'll book you a hotel and an air ticket for tomorrow."

I shook my head and refused: "Don't worry about me, I'll go to the hotel by myself in a while, call me if you have anything to do."

Fan Dongfang rubbed his face, and said in a muffled voice, "It's okay, I'm really powerless, please pay attention to safety, and let me know when you get to the hotel."

I hugged him: "Don't worry about me, I'm sorry."