The difficult love of traffic niche

What is it like to fall in love with a traffic star? Is it thrilling, stormy, or slow?

For Wang Yuan, neither.

Wang Yuan knows that he has been a little anxious, and he has been with him since his debut.

He was exposed to the ups and downs of the world prematurely, and he was forced to grow up quickly and be sensible. He wanted to become a public figure with ease, even if it was acting.On the surface, he did a good job. He could still be polite and talkative amid criticisms. He was not as mature as he should be at this age. He seemed to have grown into the perfect look that everyone expected.

But only I know that under the shell of that idol, he hides a part of himself, his fear, his fragility, and his helplessness are all forcibly stored in a corner of his heart, only stubbornness, □ □Nakedly exposed, silently protecting another part of myself that does not blend in with the outside world.

He had many directions that he wanted to try, but they were ruthlessly strangled at the beginning; he was also full of curiosity about the world, but he could only taste a lot of things. He wanted to learn painting, travel around, and even design clothing brands. They all gave up quickly and reluctantly, with little struggle, because what stopped him was also his dream, due to some kind of irreversible causal loop, and it was also the price of fame.

Thinking of this, Wang Yuan couldn't help laughing at himself, retracted Piaoyuan's thoughts and started to work.He attaches great importance to the soundtrack of "Twilight Signal" this time, not only because of his rigorous attitude towards the first project after returning to China, but also because it is Wang Junkai's film.What's more important is his love for music, otherwise he wouldn't have dropped everything and went to Berkeley to study for so long. Music is the beginning of everything he has.

And creation is always lonely, more time is to advance with the feeling, experience, experience, emotion will be directly or indirectly reflected in the creation.

After receiving the soundtrack timeline and markers from Zhao Jun, he started to make a demo of the music composed during this period with musical instruments, tried to paste the temporary audio track of the film, turned on one computer to play the rough cut version of the film, and the other The computer plays the soundtrack, mixes the melody and lines, and then sits quietly on the workbench to check the preliminary soundtrack effect of the movie.

What is played on the screen is a small climax in the film. The scene where the male protagonist Le Yuan is abandoned by the female protagonist who has always trusted and admired is also the highlight of the male protagonist played by Wang Junkai. The psychological defense collapsed and turned completely black.

Watching his lover walk away, Le Yuan didn't catch up, and the expression on his face didn't change. He just leaned against the railing of the bridge, and took out the cigarette in his pocket as if he didn't care, and started smoking.

However, the lighter could not be turned on as if something had gone wrong. After repeated several times, Le Yuan finally stopped and slowly took out the cigarette in his mouth.The finger that had been in the close-up trembled slightly twice, and the unlit cigarette fell down inadvertently.

The camera turns back to Le Yuan's side face, no emotion can be seen in the eyes covered by long eyelashes.

For a moment, he turned his head, flashing an empty and silent expression.He loosened his clenched fist and slowly slid to the ground.

At this time, the soundtrack is inserted, and the sparse bass strumming and piano sound from light to heavy, the heavy atmosphere is heightened, and Le Yuan has been trapped for a long time, but he finally lost the mentality that could save him as the last straw. Show off every detail.And the drum beats cut in at the right time, beating the restless heart in an orderly manner, which indicates that after the character loses all thoughts, what awaits him is the irreversible loss and madness.

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Wang Yuan's mind flashed back to the day when Wang Junkai came back from filming. The man's expression was exactly the same as the perplexity of this scene: "...I think he is very similar to myself, he seems to be walking on the edge of a cliff at any time..."

He thought, Wang Junkai really put himself into the role completely.Some emotions are not staged, he is playing a certain part of himself, a living person who has suppressed himself for a long time.

The entertainment industry, Vanity Fair, and Baili Yangchang are all star-studded.People in this circle are generally open-minded, and the precepts and dogmas seem to no longer be bound by conventions. Here, following the rules has become a different kind.

However, Wang Yuan felt that he had always restrained himself very well.

He knew that many people laughed at him behind his back for being "honest" and "pretentious", but he didn't care. These shortcuts and indulgences of most people are not unattractive to him. He is also a normal person, but he always Has the strength not to admit defeat, unwilling to just compromise like this.

At least, that person didn't compromise.

As if there was a secret desire to compare with each other, Wang Yuan and Wang Junkai had a tacit understanding of not admitting defeat since they were young, and they followed each other for so many years with unclear reasons and feelings, and neither of them said anything about it.He watched Wang Junkai grow from a boy like a small potato into a dense tree, and felt a little bit sorry for the captain, who would always stand in front of the wind and sun, and really lived himself into the song "Reading the Tree" "shape.

From Wang Yuan's point of view, Wang Junkai seems to have adapted well to this circle, and becoming famous at a young age seems to have infinite glory, but in fact it is just a single cycle of life and work.He has hardly done any rebellious things, and when he is in a low mood, at most he shuts himself in the room and suffocates, igniting nothing.

They know that they came into being with the social age, and they took advantage of the fan economy to take advantage of the trend. Since their debut more than ten years ago, countless pairs of eager eyes and heavy pressure have never stopped.It looks like an idol admired by thousands of people and who calls the wind and rain, but actually lives like a celestial Buddha statue enshrined, not allowing himself to show the same emotions and desires as ordinary people, sometimes it is so cruel to think about it.Perhaps the term "restraint" is naturally contrary to human nature. As they grow up, this shackle hangs heavily around their necks, fundamentally dispelling almost all secret visions, and replacing them with boundless loneliness. To a future that runs counter to each other.

But probably in the depths of my heart, there are always some desires, some desires that are not allowed, or missed people and things that can no longer be turned back. Despite long-term suppression, those desires and anxiety factors will not disappear, but will only transfer to the body Somewhere, don't move.When one day breaks free from the shackles and truly lives for oneself, the long-suppressed emotions may be able to find an outlet to burst out, and they will intensify their efforts to get back the compensation for those missed years.

maybe now...

A brisk ringtone rang, and Wang Yuan quickly picked up the phone—it was Wang Junkai's call. When he quickly pressed the connect button, he couldn't help but smile on the corner of his mouth.

Wang Junkai: "What are you doing Yuaner——"

Should we tell the truth, Wang Yuan turned his head to look at the person on the computer screen in front of him, and said directly:

"thinking of you."

Hearing the microphone stunned for a moment, and then a series of low laughter came, Wang Yuan added: "Don't you just want to hear this sentence?

Wang Junkai was sitting alone in the nanny's car, holding his mobile phone and laughing, staggering to and fro without image, and after a while he said: "Yuanyuan, why are you so obedient... I have been thinking about you since the flight last night. "

"...Then you are awesome!"

While enjoying himself, Wang Junkai glanced out the car window to make sure there were no other people around, then moved to the corner of the back seat, changed a concealed posture, and said, "Hey, can we make a video, I want to see you. "

When Wang Yuan turned on the camera, what he saw was Wang Junkai who hadn't removed his makeup. Thinking of the greasy expression on the way to send that person to the airport last night, he silently lamented how scary it is for a Virgo to be clingy...

Wang Yuan asked, "Have you finished shooting the magazine?"

Wang Junkai said: "Yeah, I filmed for a day, and I wanted to call and talk to you two when I got the phone."

Wang Yuan saw that Wang Junkai in the camera was rarely wearing glasses, so he looked closely at the screen of the mobile phone, and said in a tone as if he was studying an antique: "Your gold glasses are good, you wear a beastly dress, you have potential. Ah boy smashed!"

I saw that man listened to this comment, and instantly forgot his expression management homework, his brows and eyes were all wrinkled into smiles like a cat, and the screen was shaking again. It really made one wonder about the stern man who shot a magazine blockbuster half an hour ago God and this person are one and the same.

"... Oh, I really want to hug you," Wang Junkai poked the screen with his fingers, as if he could touch the person's face through the screen.

"If only I had the ability to teleport, so that I can be with you all the time."

He remembered that there was a time in his youth, when the group had just become popular, he and Wang Yuan were together almost all year round, running announcements, filming movies, and traveling to various studios together.They have been inseparable year after year, stepped into this circle together, and walked through the overwhelmingly questioned time together.He tries hard to be a good big brother and captain, and he also knows that Wang Yuan is not only his younger brother, teammate, and close friend, but also his own selfishness and original dream.

Wang Junkai looked at Wang Yuan on the screen, and his eyes seemed to be filled with the tenderness of the setting sun: "...Wang Yuaner, tell me the truth, have you taken a fancy to me for a long time?"

Wang Yuan: "..."

Wang Junkai asked again: "Isn't it love at first sight?"

Wang Yuan rolled his eyes: "The first time I saw you you were only 11 years old and you haven't grown up yet, how could you fall in love at first sight..."

Wang Junkai paused, as if unwilling to say: "Then...then you have been in love for a long time?"

Wang Yuan was speechless, approached the camera, and said impatiently to the person on the screen: "Old Wang, why are you so long-winded..."

The missed years flashed before his eyes like a fast-forward movie, and the restraint and depression that followed for many years seemed to have disappeared, and he felt a warmth in his chest. Wang Yuan thought for a while and said: "I love you, I love you 1 years, do you understand now?"