Make a big death without sticking to small details

His father died when he was seven years old. Before his death, his father brought back a child who was eight years older than him and asked him to call him brother.Seeing his mother's ugly face, he instinctively told him that he shouldn't be called brother, otherwise his mother would be very angry, but he was even more afraid of his father's eyes. If he didn't speak, he might be beaten up by his father the next moment.

"Brother." He finally spoke, although the voice was very low and soft, but it was heard clearly in everyone's ears in this place where the atmosphere was frozen and a needle could be heard.The brother he had just met was so close that he took his hand and called his brother affectionately, but he didn't see any warmth from those father-like eyes.

Although his elder brother was smiling all the time, he felt that it was scary and wanted to stay away unconsciously.

That day he hid in the room, faceless to face his mother's eyes, he didn't dare to sleep, so he could only keep his eyes open and stare at the ceiling, studying the beautiful crystal lamp.

It was very quiet at midnight, so the slightest sound from outside could be clearly heard in his ears. He heard his mother's crying and his father's scolding.

He covered himself with the quilt and didn't want to hear it, but those voices seemed to have eyes and wanted to get into his ears.He has heard this kind of sound too many times. From the time he can remember, on the nights his parents want to see, he will always hear these cries, the sound of broken glass, the sound of heavy objects falling, ping-pong-pong, louder than muffled thunder. scary.

He hid in the room and shivered, but he was still very worried about his mother's safety. This time the quarrel was longer and more intense than the previous ones, and he was very scared.

He took the courage to open the door, and walked barefoot to the room where the sound came from. It was the mother's bedroom, and the door was ajar. Shattered into shards of glass.

His father's scolding and his mother's cries were even harsher. He saw his father grabbing his mother's hair and throwing her against the wall. With a knife in his hand, his mother scratched his father's thigh so hard.

He desperately covered his mouth to prevent himself from crying, because his father once found out that he saw a fight scene and beat him up severely.He could only run and knock on his brother's door, hoping that his brother could persuade them.

The elder brother rubbed his sleepy eyes and opened the door, looked coldly at the younger brother who was out of breath from crying, and only said one thing to take care of yourself, don't disturb my sleep.He slammed the door shut.He looked at the door blankly, never thinking that the door could really isolate the two worlds.

So he had no choice but to go back to his room, lock the door, close all the windows, wrap up in a blanket and curl up in a corner, hugging the stuffed bear his parents gave him when he was five years old, trembling with fear, but could no longer bleed a tear.

He suffered from severe autism that year, and his father died suddenly that winter. His mother, who was busy with work, didn't notice his terrible condition, and let him live with his terrifying brother in a dark villa, leaving a cold heart around him. Servants take care.

When he was nine years old, he felt the light, that young man named Meng Yu, with such a bright smile, suddenly came to his messy life like a savior, breaking the thin ice on the dark tide.

He said, "I will protect you from now on."

The innocent and foolish young master took it seriously.

He unfolded the barbs all over his body, revealing his soft chest and abdomen. He wanted to give Meng Yu the best, because he was the best person in this world except his mother, and he would never hesitate to ask for anything Meng Yu wanted. Gotta go get it for him.

The original love was originally spread from little things, the original love was pure and beautiful.If there were no so many right and wrong, it would be great if Meng Yu liked him as much as he does.

There is no end to liking. If the trapped person lets himself go, then liking will become bigger and bigger like a snowball until he can't hold it in his heart.And all of this is originally my brother's evil taste, a specially arranged script, Meng Yu participated in the performance for the sake of his future, and he was just in collusion with him.

Things based on interests are too easy to break, no matter how careful the person holding them is, and no matter how hard they are, they still have to see what should be seen clearly.

Knowing all this, his mother set a few questions for Meng Yu, but Meng Yu failed to answer any of them correctly, and no one with an IQ of 160+ could make excuses for him.

He's just a fool, blinded his eyes, covered his ears, and pedantic, even if he wants to hit the south wall, nine cows will not be able to pull back.

Sweet talk hurts more than a sword.

The elder brother made up the script, and finally the clowns played freely.

Meng Yu felt that although the young master was a bit stupid compared to the young master, he was more in control and had a better future. He began to want to betray him, and his elder brother saw all this. No matter how much he tosses, it is still under his control. A word or two of his can bring Meng Yu back to his original form.

He didn't know the dirty thoughts between these people, or maybe he knew it but he didn't want to reveal it.As long as Meng Yu starts to really get close to him, it will be fine. Meng Yu takes him to the playground, to the secret base, to the endless sea, to watch movies, and to and from school together.

That time was the happiest time of his life.Although his new friend Kitty always told him Meng Yu was uneasy and kind, but he just couldn't understand what Kitty said.

He wants to be a fool more than a smart person.

Maybe only seeing with his own eyes can make him give up, maybe only hearing Meng Yu's thoughts with his own ears will he wake up, so when he bumps into Meng Yu who has started to stay away from him, hugging other girls and doing intimate and ambiguous things, the first time The reaction was to want to hide and then to forget the images from my mind.

God opened his eyes and didn't give him a chance to escape. Meng Yu saw him and said a lot of hurtful things. He couldn't remember the specific words. His own defense mechanism automatically isolated these corrosive poisons. The only impression is that it hurts and hurts.

He remembers one sentence very clearly. Meng Yu said: "She knows what I want, and she can love me and give me pleasure. What can you do? Wake up!"

He was crazy thinking that he could do it, no matter what Meng Yu asked him to do, he could do it, he didn't want to be alone anymore, he wanted to hold on to this feeling so much, even if his hands were bloody, he didn't want to let go .

He shamelessly climbed onto a man's bed, wanting to use his body to please that man, he felt at a loss, shame was tossing him over and over again, but he just couldn't let go, couldn't stop thinking about it, what if So Meng Yu is really willing to come back to him?

In the end, reality slapped him hard, which was more painful than his father's. When Meng Yu entered the door and saw him, he scolded him for a long time. .In the end, Meng Yu cursed dryly, took a quilt to cover his naked body, and slammed the door out angrily. After several days, Meng Yu never came back.

He felt so hopeless, as if he was in the boundless darkness, and he couldn't see a ray of light even when he opened and closed his eyes.How can people be so desperate?

He was ashamed to stay at home anymore, and it was rare for his brother to be a caring brother, asking him how he felt, comforting his scarred heart, and his brother said to him: "Go out and relax, I will pay you every month , you have fun."

He knew that his brother was uneasy and kind, but this attention was really good, and he wanted to avoid it.

When he was leaving, my brother said intentionally or unintentionally: "You said you are so tired from life, why don't you get rid of it?"

He still doesn't understand what this sentence means, a young man who is not yet an adult, his life has not yet begun, and he doesn't know what the hidden meaning of Liberation is.

He sent a text message to his mother, and blocked everyone, leaving only the contact information of three people.He thought that his mother might not give him money in order to force him to go back, and he didn't think that his brother would be as good as he said, anyway, let's take a step out first, and then slowly figure out a way.

Young people are always reckless.

He has been to many places and seen many scenery this year, but none of them is as beautiful as the place where Meng Yu stood. He found it too difficult to get out of this hopeless relationship, and his condition was getting worse and worse. The more serious it became, and the savings decreased day by day, he rented a small room and locked himself in it, without saying a word.

Meng Yu hasn't called him for so long.He couldn't bear it any longer and called him, but the other party hung up immediately, he called again, but the other party still hung up, he called again, and still hung up, and repeated many times like this, as if someone broke the rules first Who will lose.

Until the other party turned off the phone, he continued to call over and over again, after listening to the cold female voice on the other side, he continued to call.

Every time he hit it, it was like cutting his beating heart with a sharp knife, and the invisible blood stained the ground, and he actually felt pleasure and satisfaction from the sharp pain.

This is another sickness.

He can no longer tell why he likes Meng Yu, and sometimes he wonders, is it because Meng Yu can give himself fatal pain, that's why he loves him like a moth to a flame?Because it hurts enough, I am sober in a daze, sober sober.

He himself felt that he was sick, terminally ill, and hopeless, even if Meng Yu's heart was in his hands, he couldn't save him.

Perhaps hell is where he belongs, the sun is too scorching, it doesn't matter if he doesn't take a bath.

When you are in a humid and dark environment for a long time, you will be afraid of touching the temperature of the light, choose to close your eyes and ears, don't see, hear, hear, don't want to, close all the windows from the inside, and hide in it. I can't get out either. - autism

That night, he suddenly understood what his brother said about the relief. It was a rare time for him to be smart, and he thought it was a good idea.

Only death can redeem those who are trapped in the mud. Embrace death and enjoy the grand ceremony of blood and tears, and hold this carnival feast.

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Thanks to the fourteen little angels who followed the article, if it weren't for you, I guess I wouldn't even have the motivation to go to chapter [-].

I have promised the first step in my writing career, and I will write a [-]-word essay

Next, I will step into the second goal, which is an article worth 30 yuan, maybe more

Now I have found that I have a lot of shortcomings, and I am no longer as proud as I was at the beginning. I think that even if it is for someone who reads my article carefully, I will not go to the end and abandon the pit, so thank you very much [Bow 】

The new article "My friends and I were stunned" can be seen in my column. As for when it will be updated... I have to calculate the almanac first.

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