Chunichi disease

Doctors and nurses came in and out of the ward, and there was a lot of battle.In order not to get in the way, the two of them pulled Cheng Xue to stand in the hall at the other end of the corridor. Cheng Huan had already slowed down, and floated to the window to smoke half a cigarette—choked, coughed for a long time, and pinched the rest up.

Chu Ye fanned him: "It smells like smoke."

Cheng Huan didn't answer, when he heard Liu Chunhong sticking his head out from the door next to her, she seemed not energetic, and said to the three people: "Grandma is awake."

The old lady was lying on the hospital bed, wearing a ventilator, an ECG monitor, and medicine... a bunch of wires were connected, which looked scary.She said she was awake, but she didn't know if she could see or not. Her eyes were slightly opened slightly, and she looked haggard all of a sudden.

Cheng Huan never realized that grandma was so old.

Seeing her grandchildren coming in, the old lady smiled—it should have been a smile, and suddenly a large area of ​​fog appeared on the breathing mask.

Cheng Huan lost the ability to clean up his mood, but he still pretended to be very good.Bending down and dragging a small stool from under the hospital bed, sitting beside the old lady’s bed, playing with her hands, as if she was looking at some weird little thing—there are needles left on it, and I just took a few tubes of medicine to go here .

"Would it hurt if you stuck it in?" He was smiling, and the old lady couldn't hear clearly, so he leaned over and asked again.

Cheng Huan defines himself as a "clown". He knows he is unhappy, but he will try his best to pretend to be happy to amuse others.

Even if the tears are about to fall.

"..." The old lady's hand shook with difficulty, and the range was so small that it could almost be ignored.Only Cheng Huan saw it, and she probably wanted to say "it doesn't hurt".

"Then if you don't have the strength, don't talk about it. We can talk and you just listen. The doctor will check you later, so you can't sleep."

Cheng Huan took out a tissue while talking, and wiped the slightly solidified liquid secreted from the corners of the old lady's eyes: "Oh, fortunately, we haven't walked far, otherwise I don't know how Cheng Xue is going to move you. I keep calling you to move more , lose weight, look at you!"

The old lady laughed again, but could not speak.

Cheng Huan's nose was sore, and he told jokes that weren't funny.

Chu Ye really felt distressed, especially when he saw his forced smile.

He knew that Cheng Huan's usual toughness and forbearance were all pretended, so he could see that he was pretending now, and he was not a fool, so his performance this time was exceptionally bad.

Chu Ye couldn't stand the atmosphere in the ward, so he turned around and left.

When I went out, I saw Cheng Huan's parents came back after going through a lot of formalities, and Liu Chunhong stopped to take a look at Chu Ye.She still remembered this kid. She saw Cheng Huan twice when she went back to find him. Last time, she said that this kid was his boyfriend.

Believe he has ghosts.

Liu Chunhong seemed to be quite polite, although Chu Ye had seen her swearing, and heard all kinds of dissatisfaction with Liu Chunhong from Cheng Huan.Chu Ye doesn't like her, very one-sided dislike.

"Young man, did you send my mother here?"

"Yeah." Chu Ye didn't explain too much.

"Thank you. I heard from Cheng Xue that you helped save thousands of dollars for medical expenses just now. I'll transfer it to you now."

Chu Ye didn't refuse at all, and asked her to scan the Alipay payment code when she opened it. After scanning, she nodded and went into the ward or left.

Chu Ye smoked two at the place Cheng Huan was standing smoking just now.He didn't feel much about this kind of thing, he didn't have grandparents, grandparents, Shi Wenxiu didn't have a good relationship with his parents, he broke up with his parents hundreds of years ago, and he came out to set up his own family, grandparents were still in Chuye It was gone when he was a child, and he had no memory of it at all.

Their family is not a sentimental and nostalgic type, and no one asked or mentioned it, and no one told him about it.Chu Ye was not curious about these things either, and only listened to Chu Laifeng during the routine tomb-sweeping every Qingming Festival, but he just got something to talk about.In addition, the impression of grandparents is the two small portraits on the tombstone.

So he couldn't understand how sad Cheng Huan was, but it must be sad, right?Chu Ye remembered that Cheng Huan had told him several times that his grandma was the one closest to him in the whole family.

Cheng Huan played tricks in front of the old lady, made her laugh, and changed his expression the moment he came out of the ward.The light in the ward was not good, and the old lady was not energetic, so she probably didn't notice that she looked bad.Several doctors and nurses began to come in and out again, and took her for a checkup. Cheng Huan couldn't stay any longer, and discussed with Cheng Xue, Liu Chunhong and the others about nursing shifts.

He came whenever he was free. Cheng Xue could stay all day when she had nothing to do during the holidays. Anyway, she could play with her mobile phone wherever she sat. Liu Chunhong and the others only came on weekends.It was Grandpa who kept watch at night, this was exchanged with Cheng Xue's mother.

After talking with the doctor, Liu Chunhong came back to explain the old lady's dietary problems. There was basically no one at home, so she could only order food from the fast food restaurant in front of the hospital, so she had to be careful.

After Cheng Huan heard a lot of mess, everyone came out in a daze.

July and August are the hottest months in summer, and the wind at night is not cool enough to wake him up.

"Are you... all right?"

"It's all right."

Believe this person is a ghost!

"Why don't you go to work during this time and ask for leave."

"Then if I don't go there, I won't have a job. I've been looking for it for a long time." Cheng Huan was finally able to speak a long sentence. Chu Ye felt that his state was very familiar, but it was different from the outbreak during the New Year.Chu Ye knew that he was going to take on the responsibility, so he insisted on it.

"I also don't want to... go to the ward to watch her all day, seeing her like that every day, it's uncomfortable."

I feel uncomfortable seeing you like this.Chu Yexin said.

"Then let me help you."

"Okay." Cheng Huan didn't refuse, that's what her boyfriend used.

When going to bed at night, Cheng Huan lay on the bed and listened to Chu Ye's breathing gradually calmed down, and fell asleep.

He couldn't sleep and didn't want to sleep.

I will definitely have a dream when I fall asleep. If I dream of the old lady, does it mean...

He lay down until his whole body was numb and aching, but he couldn't think of turning over, so he just got up, walked aimlessly around the room, stopped by the window, wanted to smoke a cigarette, but was afraid of the dog barking, and finally walked around to Over there in the medicine drawer.

The medicine inside hadn't been used for a long time, and he had the illusion that all of them were about to expire.

These medicines are very bad, although the short-term effect is good, it can make him emotionally stable, and his usual behavior looks like a "normal person".

But dependence on drugs is not just talk.

And there are a lot of hormones, and you will become a pig after eating it.

The brain will also be bad.

He took out all those hundreds of thousands of medicines and threw them away.

He even ran downstairs to empty the trash cans.

Chu Ye woke up early.Sleeping lightly with something on my mind, I heard a tinkling of bells in the room, and thought it was a thief.While complaining about being so poor, who would come to steal, I saw someone going out with a bag of garbage.

There was no one around but Cheng Huan.

When Cheng Huan came back, the light was on in the room, and Chu Ye sat by the bed and rubbed his eyes.

"Can't sleep?"

"Yeah." Cheng Huan kicked his shoes into the shoe cabinet, washed his hands and sat beside Chu Ye, scratching his hair.

Chu Ye saw his slightly raised hair and wanted to touch it.

Then he raised his hand and touched it.

Mmm, it's so nice to touch.

As a result, Cheng Huan fell down and lay on his lap.

Fuck, I seem to have rubbed against something terrible... Forget it.

"Sing to me, I can't sleep." Cheng Huan has always been unable to fall asleep because he listened to music, but he became addicted to wearing headphones to sleep. After more than half a month of headache and ear pain, he finally planned to quit.He's going to wean himself off his headphones like he's off a drug.

But listening to music can really calm him down, cut off all external objects, and create a private and quiet state of mind.

Chu Ye put him on the bed, then lay down next to him and hummed a song for him. There were no lyrics, and he made up a tune. Sing."

There was no response, and the person next to him was already asleep.

Cheng Huan slept until almost noon, had no appetite, was not hungry at all, so he just took his things and went to the store.

Several people looked at him with a bad face, and the boss yelled directly: "Jessy, put some powder on our handsome guy, he doesn't look very energetic!"

Jessy is the lady foreman.Although it was a joke, someone still cared enough to ask him what was wrong.Cheng Huan was not happy to talk, and others stopped talking too much.

The boss saw that he was really in a bad mood and asked him to leave work early.Cheng Huan really didn't know where to go, and he felt a little guilty for not doing a good job today.He was really out of shape, so he went straight home.

Received a text message on the phone——Chu Ye was afraid that he would not see him, so he sent a text message directly: There is porridge made in the morning in the refrigerator, I didn't ask you what flavor to drink, but it is sweet, you should like it.No one is urging you. You must not have breakfast or lunch. Eat something at night.I'm watching at the hospital, don't come here, I'll be back when the hospital lights out.

Cheng Huan watched it a few times and smiled a little.

"Why do you know me so well?"

But it turns out that even if he likes this porridge, he can't drink it.

He felt that he could eat air to fill him up.

He warmed up the porridge, hoping that he might eat it when he was hungry.

After staring at it for a long time, and even tasted it twice, he still had no desire to eat, then Cheng Huan took his clothes and went to take a shower.

The phone rang.

Chu Ye made a call, but it turned out that the voice of the old lady was on the other end of the phone.

He sounded extremely tired, with intermittent breathing.

Cheng Huan had a sore nose and almost didn't cry.

How the hell can you cry so much recently!Forget about digging out the eyeballs!

"……Hey?"

"Hey... Cheng Huan..."

The voice was very soft and breathless. He moved the receiver very close to hear it clearly.

"Hmm." He leaned against the bathroom door and looked at himself in the mirror. Smile and sadness appeared on one face at the same time, which was very strange.

"You...have you...have you eaten..." The old lady was still chatting with him about the housework, as usual.

Cheng Huan eats very unconsciously, the old lady often calls him to have dinner, or calls to monitor his dinner remotely.

Normally he would still be a little impatient, but today he just cried.

How many times can she ask herself this question?

"Eat, the porridge that Chu Ye cooked for me in the morning...it's sweet, you can't eat it, hee hee."

He was still laughing and playing tricks on the old lady, and his speech was nasal.

The old lady was in a bad mood, drowsy, and couldn't even hear him clearly: "Did you eat stir-fried vegetables? Then... eat some meat...you're so skinny."

Cheng Huan didn't speak, just laughed.

"Sleep when you're tired, talk less, and conserve energy."

"Okay..." There was a long silence and a breath, "Then I'm going to bed..."

"it is good."

Beep beep, call hang up.

Someone squatted there weeping.

For the first time since he left his childhood, he cried so heartily.

It was as if he wanted to wash away all the misery of his life.

He's scared.The only person who loves himself may be leaving soon. Since then, no one will love himself anymore, and no one wants him anymore.

What a great sadness.

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