not lonely

What is more punctual than the end of the holiday is the footsteps of brokers.

The plane landed at [-] o'clock in the morning, and I rushed to the company without stopping to start research.The acquisition case here is not over yet, and the brokerages are asking questions over there.Zhong Qianyi felt that dividing himself into two halves was not enough at all.The department is basically full of female employees, and it's really not safe to go back too late. Usually, just after nine o'clock, he sends everyone home.So basically, he was busy until midnight this week.

It just so happened that Du Mingcan took the production department to Guangzhou on a business trip to investigate the problem of sub-brand fabric reserves.With no one to accompany him, the huge office area looked gloomy and deserted.

Just finished a form and clicked to save, and saw Shen Lu who pushed the door straight in, holding a box in his hand.

"Director Zhong still working overtime?" He didn't sit properly, and sat on Zhong Qianyi's desk with his legs lifted.

"It's already eleven o'clock, why haven't you left yet?" Probably because it's been spinning for too long, Zhong Qianyi has suffered from an old problem since the afternoon, and started to have a low-grade fever. Now that he has persisted until now, he feels that his internal organs seem to have been moved. The location, not a single place is comfortable.

"Just...to accompany you..." Shen Lu put the box on the table, "Look at it when you're done with your work, I brought it back from Hong Kong. You should be busy, I'll go buy some supper and come back."

"Hey, Master Shen..." Zhong Qianyi quickly stopped him, "It's getting late, you should go home quickly. I'll leave after a while..."

In the past days, Zhong Qianyi begged Shen Lu to buy food, but today he didn't want any benefits delivered to his door, so Shen Lu was confused by Zhong Qianyi.

Actually nothing.It's just that Zhong Qianyi is caught in a dilemma and doesn't know how to deal with herself.On the one hand, the reality kept pushing him away from Shen Lu's side, on the other hand, the obsession in his heart stubbornly shortened the distance between the two.

Just like an indestructible rubber band, it loses its toughness after years of sun exposure, and then after being pulled and torn, I don’t know if one day, it will suddenly "snap" and fall apart without a trace. can be found.

"Then I'll wait for you for a while, and we'll go out to eat when you're done." Shen Lu turned around and entered the room again.

"I'm not hungry, I don't want to eat." Zhong Qianyi raised his head from a pile of documents, looked at Shen Lu for a while, then sniffed and said sullenly, "Master Shen, why don't you sit with me for a while, alone , It’s really quite deserted.”

Shen Lu obediently pulled up a chair and sat down.

Zhong Qianyi buried her head in her work again, clacking on the keyboard with her hands, looking up from time to time to Shen Lu who was staring blankly at her, as if returning to the time not long ago, when neither of them had any grievances, they suddenly felt mixed feelings.

Some things seem to have changed, but also seem to remain the same.

"Is Hong Kong fun?" Zhong Qianyi sneaked up at Shen Lu and asked.

"Ah..." Shen Lu recovered from his dazed state, "That's it, the main reason is that the little nephew is arguing to go to Disneyland. The old lady is very high on shopping. I'm fine, I'll be the driver for the whole journey."

Zhong Qianyi let out an "oh", trying to let herself ignore the gossip news on the headlines of the entertainment section this morning.

Zhong Qianyi didn't really pay much attention to entertainment news, but as soon as she entered the office on her first day at work, she heard the chattering voices of the women in the room.He couldn't help sighing in his heart, women are really troublesome animals.But by coincidence, Shen Lu's name reached his ears.

"It seems that the matter between our Director Shen Lu and Song Daxing is real... You took it by looking at the photo..."

"Is that still fake? The way the two of them stand side by side is short of holding hands, okay?"

Zhong Qianyi suddenly lost his smile, and went straight into the office pretending to be nonchalant. After sitting down, he immediately took out his laptop and put it on the desk.

Turn on the phone, open the browser, Baidu, and enter "Shen Lu, Song Haichuan."

So the photos and texts on the screen almost blinded his eyes.

"Popular celebrity love has added new evidence. The rumored object Shen Lu traveled to Hong Kong with his family, and Song Haichuan accompanied him all the way."

Zhong Qianyi, who had just learned the news at that time, closed the notebook abruptly, feeling lost, sad and angry, but at this moment, hearing Shen Lu's brief introduction, she was full of relief.

He really wanted to ask him for an explanation, but he knew that he didn't have the identity, Shen Lu, and there was no need for an explanation.

He is not his lover, and he was deprived of the right to be his lover early on, so he has no right to question; but he still can't do it as a friend, purely caring, staying out of the matter, and analyzing it from the perspective of a bystander. pros and cons.

The reality is difficult, but he knows that he needs to take this step and stop being stuck in the awkward zone between friends and lovers.Since you can't move forward, simply retreat.

"Master Shen," Zhong Qianyi looked up at Shen Lu, "I'm finishing up, let's go."

The two went to the underground garage together. Just as Shen Lu was about to drive, Zhong Qianyi took his hand holding the key.

"Master Shen, are you sleepy? Can you go somewhere with me?"

"Aren't you tired? Working so late?"

Zhong Qianyi pursed her lips and shook her head with a smile, dimples flickering,

Shen Lu didn't understand that Zhong Qianyi was just saying goodbye to him in his own way.Even though his secret love in those years made him cry and hurt, he also laughed and was sweet.He was always the one who most wanted Shen Lu to be happy, even if happiness had nothing to do with him.

Zhong Qianyi and Shen Lu drove for an hour to the old house where they lived for five years.The old house was demolished a few years ago, and Shen Lu's family took the demolition funds and bought another house for the old lady elsewhere. At first, Shen Lu stayed with the old man, but after he saved some money, he bought another house with a mortgage Small apartment, go out and live alone.

Shen Lu really hasn't been here for a long time in this old street.

The original low-rise buildings have been replaced by tall buildings.The once-crowded vegetable market has also been planned in an orderly manner by the neat green belt, and several small shops that were frequented in the past have also been replaced by neat shops.In short, there is no trace of the old days.

Shen Lu really didn't understand why Zhong Qianyi came here at night.

Zhong Qianyi brought Shen Lu to the back of the high-rise building, and a rockery was hidden by the night, revealing its figure.

After the old house was demolished, the rockery was preserved in a strange way.But after several years of changes, it is really out of tune with the surrounding scenery, so it will be moved to another place soon.

In the long river of time, except for memories that can stay and be sealed, many others are forced or voluntarily follow the passage of time, imperceptibly, or change rapidly.

It is sad that things are not people, but it is even more tragic that things are not people.

"Master Shen, do you remember that we went to Yangzhou for a business trip that year?"

How could he not remember.

At that time, the two of them were not directors. Shen Lu was just a small operation supervisor in the marketing department, responsible for collecting payment from the platform, and Zhong Qianyi was just a small accountant in the finance department.They went to Yangzhou to collect an account receivable that was in arrears for nearly a year.Originally, Zhong Qianyi was not needed for this trip, but the reputation of the other party's company was not very good recently, and they often used payment loopholes in different ways. Zhong Qianyi was afraid that Shen Lu would suffer a dark loss by himself, so he volunteered to accompany him.

It is said that the company was somewhat shady, and several sums of money from overseas had passed through the personal account of their general manager, and then went out again. It was probably a purse company used to launder money on the bright side.

"What are you worried about? In the worst case, I'll sit with him at the door of his office with a knife, and we'll settle all the food, drink, and mess there. Grandpa, I don't believe he won't obediently hand over the money."

"It's just you with thin arms and legs. Before you could sit there, people tied you up and threw you out." Zhong Qianyi laughed at him.

There are many gardens in Yangzhou, and the office of the company I went to is in an elegant and chic garden.The promenades, pavilions, pools, and rockery, although artificially repaired, are also very elegant and beautiful.

"Having the money to buy such a nice garden with such a beautiful decoration, but not having the money to pay for it, isn't that unintentional." Shen Lu shook his head and said, the anger in his heart soared.

After explaining the purpose of coming, the other party really tried to evade in every possible way, saying that the leader is not there and can't make the decision, and saying that there is not enough funds in the account and it will take some time.Shen Lu didn't agree with this set, and when he disagreed with each other, he took out a stick from his bag and started to beat him.

Zhong Qianyi took the paring knife from his body, walked around to the general manager's office seven times and eight times, kicked open the door and put the knife on the general manager's neck.

"Write a check, now, or I will die with you today."

When the accountant wrote the check, Shen Lu snatched it over.His face was covered with stippling, and his arms were bruised and purple. Zhong Qianyi was furious when he saw it.

"Master Shen, take someone to deposit the check, I'm afraid they'll play tricks."

Shen Lu was worried about Zhong Qianyi, but he could only go and return quickly.When he deposited the check, Zhong Qianyi was whispering something next to the general manager's ear.

The general manager looked solemn, and after a while, he said helplessly to the subordinates who were waiting in line, "Let them go."

After the two of them got out of the gate of the garden and got into the car, Shen Lu let out a long sigh of relief, sweat had already stuck his hair to his forehead.

"I'll go, Zhong Qianyi, I thought I was bold enough, but I didn't expect you to be more ruthless than me, and you went straight to the knife." Shen Lu turned his head and stared at Zhong Qianyi and shook his head, "It's just money, I want you Don't put your life in it..."

In fact, Shen Lu was just impulsive, and the other party acted like I won't pay you what you can do to me, and every look in his eyes stimulated his nerves that were already out of anger, as if he had planned two delicate skins and tender flesh, and milk still The unbroken brat didn't dare to do anything out of the ordinary. Although what he said were all rhetoric that could be put on the table, his tone was extremely arrogant.

But they underestimated Shen Lu after all.Although he has a pretty face and looks like a little girl with smooth skin, but he has the rough heart of a pure northern man in his bones, how can he bear this bullying face, so on impulse, the guy directly took it up.

Unexpectedly, he, Zhong Qianyi, was even more fierce. He moved the knife and was ready to capture the thief first and the king first.

"You still have the nerve to say, if it weren't for you, would I have made such a bad plan?" Zhong Qianyi was also covered in cold sweat, and she was terrified, "You copied the guy and prepared to fight ten against one, just the two of us, It is estimated that they will be beaten to death by them, can I not do it? Look at you like this..."

Zhong Qianyi stared at Shen Lu's injured face distressedly, and gently held it to him to brag about, "My elder brother Shen's pretty face has been ruined just like that. I really regret not opening that guy's scoop."

Shen Lu waved his hands, sniffed to cover up his blushing face, then tossed his hair and pretended to be smart, "This kind of injury is a fart, you, Brother Shen, and I have never cried out that it hurts when we fight... But the words Come back, what did you tell the old man? Can he let us go so easily?"

In fact, Zhong Qianyi was not sure either.It was just a coincidence that I saw a copy of a foreign exchange certificate on the table, but Zhong Qianyi clearly remembered that this company had no foreign business dealings. Thinking of the rumors in the industry, Zhong Qianyi decided to take a gamble.

A leather bag company that focuses on whitewashing definitely does not want things to become a big deal.Compared with the amount on the foreign exchange certificate, the payment they owed could be included in the two decimal places and ignored.He guessed that these arrears of payment might be done secretly by their general manager without telling their superiors in order to enrich their own pockets.

So Zhong Qianyi just told him that he and Shen Lu had made an agreement with the leader when they came out, and if they couldn't go back, with the influence of their company, things would definitely cause big trouble.

Just as the two of them were in shock, Shen Lu suddenly grabbed Zhong Qianyi's hand, "Next time in such a situation, you fucking hide from me, don't act like a hero like me, and still hold a knife, after you do it like this Saying that they are all desperadoes, you dare to wave a knife at them to kill you..."

"At that time, you were in a fierce fight with them. I didn't think about it so much. I just thought that you can't have an accident anyway, and I can't let you have an accident if I try my best."

At that time, the garden buildings surrounded by lush flowers and trees and surrounded by mountains did not leave the slightest good impression on the two of them, but instead became a psychological shadow for them.But unexpectedly, a rockery was repaired near my home soon, and every time I passed by, that memory would come to my eyes again.

When I saw it for the first time, he said, how come this rockery is so similar to the one in Yangzhou...He said, hey, Mr. Shen, can you not mention Yangzhou and the rockery.

The second time I saw him, he said, can I learn from Yu Gong and move this mountain?I saw him awkward.He said, if you can't move it, you can't hide it, don't go here, let's make a detour.

After seeing more, he said, I am not afraid anymore, I am immune.He said, yes, we sacrificed our lives for the country, it is glorious and great, we are the heroes of the people.

Then they moved away, and came again before leaving, he said, if we don't see it in the future, will we forget that glorious time?He said, fortunately, the two of us are still together.

Now, a few years have passed, the old house has been demolished, and the rockery is about to be removed. Shen Lu withdraws from the past, touches the stone that is not clear in the dark night, and imagines the traces of moss on it, as if left by time. Tears, mottled, embedded in every grain of the stone.The details, like the roots of a tree, spread into my heart.

They used to think that that memory represented thrilling, escape from the dead, and a nightmare. growing up.

The process is certainly thrilling, but because of each other, the degree of thrilling has doubled.

He said in his heart that some memories, engraved in his heart, will never be forgotten.

He also said in his heart that some people are about to say goodbye eventually.

There's not even a need to raise your index finger and say a soft "shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" because no one will hear, no one will ever know.

"I'll take you home, Master Shen." After a long time, Zhong Qianyi said.

After sending Shen Lu off, Zhong Qianyi drove to the place where the three of them lived together when their parents were still there.I haven't been here for a long time, and the old house has added a lot of vicissitudes. Under the cover of tall buildings in the city center, it becomes more lonely and lonely.

But here are countless memories of his childhood.

He walked to an open space behind the house, started from the corner, and walked step by step, counting each step.

After walking about fifty steps, he squatted down and gently shoveled it up with the shovel he carried with him.

Inside is a square iron box with mottled rust.When they were opened, there were sheets of renminbi with small denominations, old and new, banknotes and coins.

It was not long before he was able to see the world, and he overheard Shen Lu mentioning that he wanted a set of limited edition Transformers, but was ruthlessly rejected by his parents because of the high price and the failed final exam. up.

At that time, Zhong Qianyi did not have the financial resources to be his Santa Claus, so he made up his mind that one day he would save enough money to buy it for him.But at that time, he had no income, and he needed Shen Lu's parents to take care of him on weekdays, and even Liao Tongxun later needed to help him. At that time, he had no ability to save such a large sum of money.

So he can only despise himself even more, save the corners and corners, and then behind the old house, start from the corner, count a hundred steps, and then bury his little wish.

Later, as I grew up, one hundred steps gradually became eighty steps, sixty steps, and fifty steps.When Zhong Qianyi really saved enough money, Shen Lu was no longer obsessed with that dispensable set of toys, but this place, like a secret, became his favorite in Zhong Qianyi's heart. passed his evidence.

But people change, Zhong Qianyi laughed at herself.

At that time, it was necessary to count a hundred steps, but now it only takes fifty steps.The old version of RMB at that time has now withdrawn from the circulation market.

And, Zhong Qianyi and Shen Lu, who only had each other at that time, had their lives and different people coming and going.

So I can only smile and say goodbye to the past, say goodbye to you, and say goodbye to me who loves you.

I cried?No, I just don't want to...

From then on, I can joke with you and talk to you about everything, but I am just my best friend.That heart that used to be full of you now needs to be emptied to make room for someone in the future.

But the secret love for so many years was deeply buried in my heart, and I never told him personally, would I regret it?

Yes, but who can fulfill me?Let me tell him thoroughly that I don't love him anymore?

He didn't expect his little regretful opportunity to come true in the end, and it came so unexpectedly that no one could recover from this sudden incident, and everything was different.