not lonely

After staying in China for four months, Gu Zeyang was going back home, and the reason was for his mother's birthday.

This is one reason, but perhaps not the only one.

Du Mingcan and Zhong Qianyi asked for leave to see him off at the airport, and bought him a lot of things in big and small bags, causing him to call Shen.

"I won't come back for a year or so. It's rare to come back once. I don't want to bring you something more. And..." Du Mingcan took out a red envelope from his arms, "My dad and I... Mom gave it to you, for the Chinese New Year Time is not easy to see, they said, this is the right to be a new year's money..."

Gu Zeyang was a little sad, sniffed awkwardly, and took the red envelope: "Thank you uncle and aunt for me..."

Du Mingcan felt uncomfortable seeing him like this, so he stretched out his hand and punched him: "You boy! Come back a few more times if you have nothing to do, and you will be free of food and lodging, okay?"

"Are you the master of financial power now?" Gu Zeyang teased him.

"You underestimate me, okay? I'm the number one at home..."

"Okay, I'm not in the mood to listen to you bragging here..." Gu Zeyang forced a smile to cover up the sadness and reluctance in his heart, "You only dare to brag about yourself here because Brother Xiao Yi went to the toilet , Show off your strength."

Du Mingcan restrained his cynical smile, opened his arms, and hugged him tightly for many years.Gu Zeyang knew what this hug represented, but he couldn't respond to him as openly as Du Mingcan.

Don't worry, for him at this time, it is a bit difficult for him.

After a while, when Zhong Qianyi came back from the bathroom, Gu Zeyang raised his head slightly at him, then turned to ask Du Mingcan.

"Can you... lend me your Xiaoyi for 10 minutes? Have a few words to say to him."

"What do you two have to talk about?" Du Mingcan put his arm on Zhong Qianyi's shoulder like a guard.

Zhong Qianyi smiled and put his arm down from his neck, and walked to Gu Zeyang's side in two steps, "Can't we talk to each other? You are not the only one who understands Chinese in this world... Coincidentally, I have something for Zeyang Positive…"

So after the two looked down on Du Mingcan with the same eyes, they walked away.

Du Mingcan smiled, watching Zhong Qianyi's familiar figure drift away, and turned his gaze to Gu Zeyang, who was a little taller but equally thin.

At that moment, Du Mingcan had mixed feelings in his heart.

The friendship between him and him over the years, he can see through Gu Zeyang's words and deeds directly to the bottom of his heart, guessing every detail of his delicate thoughts, of course he understands his feelings, and he is absolutely unwilling to let him be sad, perhaps leaving is the best pain relief medicine.

Gu Zeyang had 10 minutes, and Du Mingcan had 10 minutes without Du Mingcan.He wants to use this short 10 minutes to return the things that have been cherished in his heart for a long time.

Standing beside Gu Zeyang, Zhong Qianyi handed him the handbag she was carrying.

"What is this?" Gu Zeyang asked suspiciously, preparing to open the packaging bag by the way.

"It's not for you..." Zhong Qianyi reached out to stop him, "Isn't it my mother's birthday? A birthday present for her."

It is a pretty famous brand bracelet.

"I thank you on her behalf, Brother Xiaoyi..."

"Don't lose your temper with her when you go back," Zhong Qianyi smiled and shook her head, "By the way...do you need me?"

Gu Zeyang did not forget the purpose of looking for him alone, and took out a large picture album from his bag and gave it to him.

"this is for you."

"The paintings inside were all sketches drawn by Mingcan when he was in university. They have never been exhibited, and no one else has seen them... Later, for some time, he didn't know what happened, so he threw all his previous manuscripts downstairs. I Immediately went down to pick it up, and only managed to find some. Later, he didn't like and dissatisfied with the manuscripts, and I could keep them all here..." Gu Zeyang scratched his head, "I think, once Every stroke of ink is valuable to Mingcan, that's why I kept it until now... I used to think that I could keep it for him for a long time, but now...it seems...you are more suitable to own it than me..."

Zhong Qianyi was stunned in place, and didn't reach out to pick up the neatly organized sketch for a long time.

"Brother Xiaoyi? You take it..." Gu Zeyang pulled his hand on the fence of the French window, and put the album in his hand beside him.

Only then did Zhong Qianyi seem to have consciousness, looked up at Gu Zeyang, lowered his head and opened the album.

He doesn't know how to paint, but he can still be moved by the sometimes messy and sometimes clear brushstrokes after turning over page by page.

Still life, there are white and beautiful gardenias;

Characters, there is a pair of lovers kissing by the platform;

The scenery includes distant mountains, white clouds, nearby trees, and clear streams.

Realistically, there is an elderly woman who is helping a young child who accidentally fell to the ground;

Abstraction, like a random color puzzle made for splashing ink...

……

Every piece of drawing paper has more or less deep and shallow creases, as if it was ruthlessly rolled into balls by the owner and ready to be thrown away, and then gently smoothed out.

Zhong Qianyi can guess who wants to throw them away and who wants to calm them down.

Thinking of this, Zhong Qianyi couldn't help feeling bitter. He reached out and stroked the creases that were already very shallow, and gently apologized to Gu Zeyang.

"I'm sorry, Zeyang...I think these paintings...you should keep them for him, right?"

It's better to give everything related to that person to someone who has always loved and protected him and can love and protect him for a long time. It's better than myself who dare not even hope for tomorrow.How long can he stay for Du Mingcan?

Seeing his complexion, Gu Zeyang thought he was unhappy because of a misunderstanding, so he quickly explained: "Brother Xiaoyi, don't get me wrong. I have no other intentions, I just want... This is the result of Mingcan's journey all the way, I don't want him In case one day I think about it, these things are gone..."

"I understand, Zeyang...I know, you are doing it for Mingcan's sake..." Zhong Qianyi took his hand to comfort him.

Gu Zeyang nodded, "You know, Brother Xiaoyi, I'm giving these paintings to you, but I actually have my own selfish intentions... I can't let that guy Du Mingcan trap me anymore, since he has you, I want to withdraw , Don't miss him anymore, completely..."

Zhong Qianyi held his hand tightly again, her face was slightly distorted because she felt sorry for Zeyang, her heart was overwhelmed but she couldn't say a word.

Zhong Qianyi understands the pain in Gu Zeyang's heart better than anyone else, and understands how much courage it takes to let go of a relationship that is mixed with flesh and blood.

Zhong Qianyi could only nod her head, put the album back in her hand, caressed it slowly, and muttered to herself: "I just don't know how long I can keep it for him..."

Gu Zeyang frowned unconsciously when he heard him talking to himself.

Zhong Qianyi is easy-going and sincere, and Gu Zeyang likes him very much.But if one compares him with Du Mingcan, he still prefers Du Mingcan more or less.In his opinion, in this relationship, Du Mingcan has always been the firm giver. He can see how much Du Mingcan likes Zhong Qianyi, how much he cherishes and loves him. In order to be with him well, he gave Too much hard work, with all the sincerity.However, Zhong Qianyi, probably because of being favored, always feels a little bit confident, saying that he likes it, but always feels indifferent, dispensable, saying that he doesn't like it, but he is obviously very fond of Du Mingcan's matter. Heart.

Gu Zeyang didn't know if it was because Zhong Qianyi was born with a dull temperament, or because the relationship was not deep enough, or because he didn't like this relationship at all.

"Brother Xiaoyi, why are you always so pessimistic? Do you have no confidence in Mingcan?" Gu Zeyang asked puzzled.

Zhong Qianyi looked up at him in surprise, she didn't expect her anxiety to be so obvious that even Gu Zeyang could see through it at a glance.

"How come...you think too much, Zeyang..."

"Brother Xiaoyi, I actually know that I don't have the position to tell you this, but I really hope that you...you don't let Mingcan down, he has never, like you, treated another person..."

The unique and precious love was given to Zhong Qianyi every bit. Such a Du Mingcan deserves Zhong Qianyi to give him more, more love.

The time has been far more than 10 minutes, Gu Zeyang is about to board the plane, Zhong Qianyi knows what he should say, at least so that Gu Zeyang, who is on his way home, can leave with peace of mind.But he is not confident enough, has more than enough heart, but not enough strength.

"I'm leaving. Brother Xiaoyi...you and Mingcan, you two...must be happy..." Gu Zeyang pulled up the suitcase and waved goodbye to Zhong Qianyi.

"Zeyang..." Zhong Qianyi suddenly pulled him back, "If Mingcan and I break up, can you not leave?"

The words that come out of the mouth, how sincere, how false, how helpless, how forced, no one can see, no one can hear.

"What did you say?" Gu Zeyang asked in surprise.

"Zeyang, don't leave him because of me, the only one who can stay with him in the end is you...you are the one who knows him best, loves him the most, loves him the most..."

"Zhong Qianyi, do you know what you are talking about?" Gu Zeyang sneered, frowned and shook his head, "Now you are his other half, you tell me that you love him the most, know him best, and should be with you the most His person, is it me?"

"The two of us...it was a mistake at all..." Zhong Qianyi closed his eyes in pain, then opened them, frowning tightly. If you look closely, you will see tears in his eyes.

However, Gu Zeyang didn't see it, nor did Du Mingcan, who secretly followed Zhong Qianyi out of curiosity, and no one saw that heart-wrenching executioner, while killing life with the sharpest blade, the knife in his hand It turned into a double-edged sword, and his hand was stabbed bloody.

Du Mingcan's heart was numb by Zhong Qianyi's words, and he was forced to stop when he was about to step forward.

a mistake, a mistake...

He thought that he would beat all the demons and goblins along the way, and finally achieve enlightenment and immortality, and realize his long-cherished wish. Unexpectedly, it was a mistake in that person's eyes...

He thought he was a hero, but in fact, he was just a joke...

Seeing Du Mingcan's painful expression behind Zhong Qianyi, Gu Zeyang could no longer suppress the soaring anger in his heart. He took two quick steps and punched Zhong Qianyi, knocking Zhong Qianyi down to the ground who had not responded. Pulled Du Mingcan, whose soul was out of his body, back to reality.

In the bloody reality, he didn't want to come back, but he still couldn't bear it, couldn't bear Zhong Qianyi to suffer a little pain.

"Zeyang, what are you doing!" Du Mingcan quickly stepped forward to hug him and stop him, "Don't hit him, don't hit him..."

Zhong Qianyi was a little stunned by the punch, and managed to regain his energy when he saw Du Mingcan.

He didn't know how much Du Mingcan had heard, but he must have known the last sentence.

He supported his body, pressed the swollen and bleeding corner of his mouth, and smiled wryly, "I really should be beaten, Mingcan, let him do it..."

However, this sentence undoubtedly added fuel to the fire for the three people at this time.

"Zhong Qianyi, you fucking rely on Du Mingcan to like you."

"Zeyang, don't talk about it, this is a matter between the two of us, I will solve it..." Mingcan hugged him from behind and approached him and said.

"You have been arrogant over and over again, to sharpen your bright heart, to challenge his tolerance, to ignore everything and everything he has done for you." Gu Zeyang ignored him, still staring at Zhong Qian Art said angrily.

"Zeyang, I'll take you to the plane, stop talking, please..." Du Mingcan's voice seemed to tremble a little, perhaps in Gu Zeyang's words, secretly aggrieved for himself.

"Break the heart, hurt the heart of a person who loves you, is that satisfying?"

"Zhong Qianyi, you will regret it..."

Du Mingcan had no choice but to drag Gu Zeyang who was running away violently, carried his luggage, and drove him into the boarding room. He had no time to worry about Zhong Qianyi who was standing by the side at a loss, and he had no time to worry about that person who was already in tears.

He needs to be calm, and calmly look back at the way he has gone. In the end, at which step he started, he was wrong.