not lonely

When I saw Gu Zeyang, he was in the police station staring at the ceiling in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking.

"Zeyang..." After getting off the plane, Du Mingcan almost ran all the way to the police station, "What's going on?"

"Why are you so slow? Don't ask questions, pay the money and leave, I don't want to stay here for another second."

Du Mingcan gave him a helpless look, then turned around to go through bail procedures.

It was only after asking the police that Gu Zeyang had stolen an oil painting that was being exhibited in a gallery.

"What's wrong with you, Gu Zeyang, you want to buy a painting, and you still need to steal it?" Du Mingcan never dreamed that Gu Zeyang, the rich second generation around him, would use "steal" one day. Buying it from a gallery is not a matter of moving your fingers.

"The old lady froze my card, and I'm penniless now..." Gu Zeyang walked out, and stretched out his hand to pull Du Mingcan. "I haven't eaten for a day, let's go, invite me to dinner."

The two came to a local western restaurant, the one they used to go to together.I ordered a few meals that I used to eat, and waited quietly for the food to be served.

"Tell me, what's going on? You're not such an elegant person, why are you so interested in a painting?"

"That painting..." Gu Zeyang kept his head down, and after a while, he raised his eyes and glanced at Du Mingcan, "It's called Sophia."

Du Mingcan felt himself frozen in place.

Sophia, in Greek, represents beauty and wisdom.

But for Du Mingcan, the only meaning is mother.

"The owner of the gallery said that someone had already bought it, and he refused to sell it to me. I said I paid a high price, but when I swiped the card, I found out that the credit card was frozen. In a hurry, why did I think so much, and took the painting Just run away."

The painting named Sophia was drawn by Du Mingcan when he was just in his freshman year, relying on the bits and pieces of memory in his mind, relying on the longing that he has not said for many years.

In the picture, is his mother who passed away for a long time.

At that time, Du Mingcan's father had reorganized the family, and he met his stepmother and his sister.The stepmother was distressed that he lost his mother's love since he was very young, and always regarded him as her own.The elder sister also treats him like a younger brother, making him feel the warmth he hasn't felt for a long time.That painting was also on the way of moving again and again, and I don't know where it was forgotten.

It seemed that somehow, the whole world wanted to push his mother away from his life.

However, the relationship of flesh and blood, blood thicker than water, cannot be completely wiped out with the loss of the picture scroll.

Du Mingcan knew that he missed her very much.When alone, it is extremely strong.

"Du Mingcan, are you stupid? Can you say something?"

The pleasant piano music echoed quietly in the restaurant, and an elegant gentleman walked slowly by with a graceful girl on his arm.Du Mingcan just stared quietly, not knowing where to go, and passed by for a while without saying a word.

"Zeyang..." After a long time, Gu Zeyang heard Du Mingcan's deep and slightly hoarse voice again, "Take me to see...where is that gallery...? Take me to have a look."

When I arrived at the gallery, the painting was no longer on the wall.Since Gu Zeyang had met the owner of the gallery before, Du Mingcan went to the owner to ask the whereabouts of the painting, and only then did he know that the painting had really been bought.

Seeing Du Mingcan's disappointed expression, Gu Zeyang resented himself a little in his heart, and shouldn't have caused Du Mingcan's past scars so hastily.Unexpectedly, in the end, the bamboo basket fetched water in vain and got nothing. Instead, it aroused Du Mingcan's sadness.

"I'm sorry, Mingcan, I didn't expect...the painting was still not found in the end."

"Forget it, maybe... this is my mother telling me not to think of her anymore." Du Mingcan shook his head, "To be honest, I'm really fast, I can't remember her appearance."

Gu Zeyang felt sad after hearing this, and stepped forward to hug the man who was taller than him.

"I'm leaving, Xiaoyi is still waiting for me." Du Mingcan took out a card from his wallet, "This card is reserved for you, there is not much money in it, but it is enough for you to spend for a while. Listen to your mother and be careful." Get a job and stop messing with her."

Gu Zeyang didn't answer.

"Take it, don't starve to death on the street." Du Mingcan took the card and stuffed it into Gu Zeyang's hand.

"Mingcan...do you know why I fell out with my mother?" Gu Zeyang lowered his head and rubbed the card in his hand. After a while, he raised his head and said, "Two days ago, my mother arranged a blind date for me, the daughter of a chaebol. I didn't agree." , Offended the rich daughter. Then his father got stuck with a few big orders from my family, and my mother turned against me. Later, we quarreled anxiously, and I spoke my mind."

Du Mingcan was stunned.

He knew what Zeyang's so-called "heart-to-heart" was referring to.He knew even more what kind of uproar would be caused if the words in his heart were spoken out.

When parting from those airports, Gu Zeyang warned himself that his words hadn't had any effect so far, and he still couldn't be as free and easy as he said casually.

"And then I had a falling out with her,"

Du Mingcan stared at Gu Zeyang's shining eyes, and immediately didn't know what to say.

Even if he knew about that faint feeling, he could only pretend that he didn't know it.

"Zeyang..."

"Hey, okay, okay Du Mingcan, don't act like you've met your creditor, okay?" Gu Zeyang waved his hand impatiently, "Go back and find your Zhong Qianyi, he's waiting for you."

With that said, he bypassed Du Mingcan and walked forward.After walking two steps and looking back at him, "I'll take the card, Lord, I'm really short of money now."

Not only is he short of money, he is also short of love. Du Mingcan is full of love, but he is reluctant to give him any love.

In the end, Du Mingcan stared at Gu Zeyang who was drifting away, feeling empty and uncomfortable.At this moment, he just wanted to hear Zhong Qianyi's voice, as if his voice was the medicine to cure all ailments.

When his mobile phone just landed, because there was only one battery left, he turned off the mute to save power.Right now, there are a lot of missed calls, all from Zhong Qianyi.

Just about to call out, Zhong Qianyi called again.

"Mingcan, where are you?"

"Xiaoyi..." Du Mingcan's voice was full of sadness.

"It's me, Mingcan, where are you?"

"I'm in New York, Xiaoyi, I'm sorry, I haven't gone back yet..." Du Mingcan squatted on the stone steps outside the gallery door.

He told Zhong Qianyi a lot on the phone, from what kind of mood he had when he drew the painting to what kind of mood he was having now to see Gu Zeyang go further and further away;

From being stuck in the swamp of longing at that time and unable to extricate myself, to now being overwhelmed with guilt and self-blame;

From the past to the present, Du Mingcan almost choked up.

Zhong Qianyi didn't know how to comfort him. After a long time, he sighed softly and said to him:

Fool, turn back.

Although the island country they traveled to was only two hours away from the United States, they encountered difficult problems after all, and Zhong Qianyi couldn't stay in the hotel calmly and enjoy the holiday no matter what.So without hesitation, he bought the next plane and flew there.

But Zhong Qianyi, who has no clue about his destination, can only wander aimlessly on the streets of New York. He can't help complaining that he is so stupid.

If things go on like this, if you can't find Du Mingcan, let alone talk about it, you will lose yourself instead.

But Du Mingcan didn't answer his phone. Now that he was in a foreign country where he was unfamiliar, he really didn't know if he was going to live on the street.

In desperation, he called Gu Zeyang.

Since the last time they broke up at the airport, Zhong Qianyi called him to apologize.

This matter was related to the turmoil between him and Du Mingcan, and the innocent Gu Zeyang should not have been dragged into the water.He just gave his heart and acted as a substitute for no reason.Although Gu Zeyang didn't know how the two finally resolved it, he still sent his blessings freely.

"Speak!" Gu Zeyang's slightly deep voice came from the mobile phone, probably because he was in a bad mood, and his tone was not friendly.

That's right, judging by Du Mingcan's nervous look, it probably wasn't a trivial matter.

"Zeyang, I'm Zhong Qianyi...I heard from Mingcan that...something happened on your side, has the problem been solved?"

Gu Zeyang was taken aback.

In the past two days, he has received many calls from his mother or friends and relatives around him, all of which are nothing more than admonishing or warning him, telling him to go home obediently, and stop doing things that are inconsistent with his identity.He was tired of coping with too many calls, sometimes he didn't answer, sometimes he just hung up.But at this moment, there was no way to relieve his depressed mood, and it happened that the phone called again, and he picked it up without thinking, trying to find someone to take over the dirty words he was about to blurt out but didn't know who to say to.

Unexpectedly, it would be Zhong Qianyi who called him at this time, so he had to suffer from internal injuries again.

"Brother Xiaoyi? Why did you call me? Ah...it's okay,"

"Is the matter resolved?"

"Ah, it's all resolved. Actually, it's nothing serious. Don't worry."

"That's great." Zhong Qianyi was sincerely happy, and let out a long sigh of relief, "I'm relieved that you're fine."

Gu Zeyang was a little moved when he heard Zhong Qianyi's tone of relief.

"Zeyang," Zhong Qianyi suddenly stammered, "That... do you know where Mingcan... is?"

"Oh, we've separated. He should... be back today."

"It's like this...Zeyang...that...I'm in the United States, I seem to...lost..."

"Are you in America?"

"Ah, I don't worry about you two, so I flew over directly. But Du Mingcan didn't answer the phone, so I couldn't contact him, and I don't know where he is. Do you know where he is now?"

Is Zhong Qianyi a fool?Du Mingcan, why do you fall in love with such a silly person?

"Where are you? Are there any obvious buildings nearby?" Gu Zeyang scratched his head helplessly, "Shall I go find you?"

"No need for Zeyang, you must be exhausted these two days, go back and rest, but do you know where Mingcan might be? I'll take a taxi directly to find him."

"can you?"

"no problem."

"We have been separated for a while, I don't know if he is still there?"

"It's okay, I'll try my luck..."

Foreign countries, unfamiliar streets, and people with different skin colors always give rise to a deep sense of alienation in my heart.

But because of you in this city, even the driver who drove me to find you seems to be covered with the light of an angel.

Zhong Qianyi got out of the car, and walked step by step to his lover, whose back was facing away. The phone in his hand was still on, and the man was still talking about the fetters that he hadn't participated in all these years.

He can empathize with the longing for his mother, the powerlessness of feelings, and every touch of his heart.

He said, fool Du Mingcan, turn around.

Du Mingcan hadn't taken the phone from his ears yet, staring at his lover who had only been separated for a day, everything was unreal as if he was wandering in an too illusory and beautiful dream.

Love spans half of the earth, flies across the distance of the ocean, blocks jet lag, ignores language, and connects two people together.

"Xiaoyi..." Du Mingcan murmured, softly as if talking to himself, "Zhong Qianyi..."

Zhong Qianyi approached and hung up the phone. Even though he couldn't hear what he said at all, just by looking at the shape of his mouth, he knew that he was calling his name.

"It's me, Mingcan." So he replied.

"You...why are you here?"

"I'm afraid you'll run away," Zhong Qianyi looked at the person who forgot to take the phone from his ear with a smile, and reached out to take it off for him, "If you can't refuse Zeyang's reckless feelings, why don't you let me go?" manage?"

"So? Are you here to investigate?" Du Mingcan understood his joke and continued to follow his words on purpose.

"No." Zhong Qianyi picked up Du Mingcan's phone, unlocked it, and opened WeChat, "I'm here to heal your injuries."

In WeChat, there was an unread message sent to him by Zhong Qianyi, which contained a photo, which was blurry and not very clear, and it was not even complete.But Du Mingcan could still see the contents of that photo at a glance.

In the lower right corner, there is a flying English word, which was written by Du Mingcan with all his strength, Sophia.

"Zeyang sent me the photo. He said he took it in a hurry when he was stealing the painting."

Du Mingcan's hand holding the phone trembled, and gently enlarged the photo.I don't know if this photo without any sense of art reminded him of his mother's appearance in his memory, or Gu Zeyang who did not hesitate to be imprisoned for the memory he had never spoken. Zhong Qianyi could only see that he was quietly red eye sockets.

He quietly stared at Du Mingcan's red eyes and Weizhong's mouth, and said slowly, "Mingcan, you love him."

Both Zhong Qianyi and Du Mingcan knew the single "he".

Du Mingcan felt desolate in his heart, thinking that Zhong Qianyi would be like before, telling himself at length that if he was really with Gu Zeyang, he would bless him and let him go. People are even more dispensable to him.

"Don't lie to yourself, Mingcan," Zhong Qianyi gently held his blushing face, "There is a part of your heart that belongs to Zeyang."

"But it doesn't matter, I will wait for you, and wait for you to forget him slowly..."

"Just like you used to wait for me..."

Did you hear me right?

Instead of pushing him away, she decided to guard him.No longer holding your own self-esteem high and ready to escape at any time, but using a pious heart to try to narrow the distance between each other, to express love bravely, to give love humbly, and to maintain love firmly.

Almost half of Du Mingcan floated out of the cliff, and was pulled back to the safe area by Zhong Qianyi's short words.

"So? You don't give me up to anyone anymore?" Du Mingcan asked with a choked voice.

I can't let it go, and I resolutely let it go.Let those open-minded and free-spirited go to hell, Zhong Qianyi in front of him has no strength to push him away.

"I can't let it go." He shook his head, "Mingcan, I'm too selfish, I only care about the present, I don't want to make life difficult for myself, I have to admit, I really... really can't let you go..."

At that moment, Du Mingcan finally felt that on this road, he was walking side by side with him in the same direction.

"Hey!" So he raised his hand and pinched Zhong Qianyi's face vigorously.

"Hey, what are you doing!" Zhong Qianyi backed away in pain, and raised her hand to touch her face.

"Are you my Xiaoyi? Why are you so nasty?" Du Mingcan suppressed a smile, staring at him with wide eyes on purpose.

Originally, my heart was covered with dark clouds, but because of the words of the person in front of me, the sky suddenly became clear, and my sad mood seemed to disappear.

In fact, he knew that Zhong Qianyi was the only one in his heart, and Zeyang was just a brother who relied on and supported each other along the way. There was an essential difference between the two.But looking at the affectionate, awkward and jealous look of his slow-warming and dull-witted lover, he also greedily wants to stay in the feeling of being cared for a little longer.

Rare love words, when he was serious, he never heard a single bit of them.

"Zhong Qianyi..."

"What?"

"Let's go back," Du Mingcan put his arms on his shoulders, "Go back and see our 'sky'."

I obviously miss it, I am obviously sad, but you are like the sun breaking through the layers of smog, breaking my sadness into pieces, and under the scorching sun, there is nowhere to hide.

You have given me the warmth and heat like the sun, and I am willing to give you firmness and eternity like the sky.