Collection of essays

"You are a girl, you have to be good, and you can't be mischievous like a little boy."

"You are a girl, you must be clean and hardworking, otherwise you will not be able to marry in the future."

"You're a girl. It doesn't matter if you study a lot or not. Anyway, you're going to get married in the future."

"You are a girl, you should dress yourself neatly, don't be sloppy all day long."

"You're a girl..."

This is what An Xiao hears every day.

Because she is a girl, she can only do what girls do, and other things are not allowed.

This is the concept that An Xiao's mother instilled in An Xiao every day.

But as she grew older and read more and more books, An Xiao began to understand that her mother's ideas were wrong, which was unfair to An Xiao herself.

In the book, this is called prejudice.

The book also says that prejudice cannot be eliminated, but you can block it.

But An Xiao didn't know how to block it.

And An Xiao found that as she grew older, her prejudices also increased.

Because she was restrained since she was a child, she yearned for a boy's life extremely.It was the summer vacation of the year when she was about to go to the first grade of junior high school. She had the courage to cut her hair into a square inch.

Then he went home, was held down by his mother, and was beaten severely.

She beat her, cried, and scolded: "Sin, sin! Why did you cut your hair so short! Are you crazy, An Xiao! You are a girl! How can you cut your hair so short! That barber shop cut it for you, you say! I smashed their house!"

"Why can't girls cut their hair so short! Why do girls have to be so restrained, but boys can be free!" An Xiao listened, and finally couldn't help it when she heard this, she opened her mother's mouth He stood up straight, looked down at his mother sitting on the ground, and asked angrily.

This is the first time she has spoken to her mother so loudly.

This is the first time she has shown her resistance to her mother.

The mother was visibly taken aback.She sat on the ground, looked up at An Xiao, and subconsciously replied, "Because you are a girl..."

When An Xiao heard her mother's words, she suddenly wanted to cry, feeling sore and uncomfortable.

Just because she's a girl?

Just such a ridiculous reason?

An Xiao rushed out the door.

Only then did her mother come back to her senses, yelling like crazy, scolding An Xiao for being insane, and said that An Xiao should not come back if she has the ability, or she will beat An Xiao to death.

She thought that An Xiao ran out because she was afraid of being beaten.

She obviously forgot how easy it was for An Xiao to resist just now.

An Xiao had allowed her to beat herself before, one reason was not being provoked, and the other was because she was her own mother.

But now she really disappointed An Xiao.

An Xiao kept running on the street, and everyone around her looked at her with various eyes, curious, contemptuous, doubtful...

But An Xiao didn't care.

An Xiao only felt that there was a dull breath in her chest, which made her almost suffocate.

Why can't girls?

why?

"An Xiao?" When she ran past a girl, the girl glanced at her inadvertently, and suddenly exclaimed.

An Xiao heard someone calling her, so she stopped, turned around, and looked at the girl.

She was a very good friend when she was in junior high school.

But now, what did she see in the eyes of her "good friend"?

Sizing up, wondering, laughing at...

But the girl still pretended to be concerned: "An Xiao, what's wrong with you? Did something happen at home? Why... cut your hair like this?"

"What's the matter, is there any problem with me like this?" An Xiao pretended not to see the look in her eyes, stroked her hair, and asked indifferently.

"You're a girl, what does a girl look like with an inch? Pfft, just like those brats, you're so ugly." The girl finally couldn't help laughing, as if she saw something very funny, I couldn't even stand up laughing.

An Xiao's expression was indifferent from the beginning to the end.She watched the girl's performance and accepted the girl's ridicule, but her eyes looked like watching a clown who was performing hard and exaggerating his behavior.

The girl obviously felt it too. She straightened up and glared at An Xiao: "An Xiao! What kind of eyes do you have!"

"Look at the crazy eyes." An Xiao said coldly, then turned and left, just like running out of the house, ignoring the image of the girl behind her, jumping and cursing, cursing her for not being able to marry in the future.

For girls of their age who have not escaped the brainwashing of their parents, not being able to marry in the future is something more terrifying than the end of the world.

An Xiao felt herself subconsciously frightened the moment she heard that sentence.

She suddenly felt that in her current self, consciousness and body were separated, and consciousness felt pity for herself, without arguing, but body felt that it was a matter of course.

Now, even because of being denied and fiercely rejected by her mother and friends, she has always been firm in her belief that she is not wrong, and she has begun to waver.

Am I really wrong?

Why on earth did I cut the board size?Is it just because of the unrestrained yearning for boys?

But I am a girl.

I can't grow straight, I should have long hair, my mother is right, because I am a girl, so I have to do what a girl should do.

But consciousness began to refute.

why?

Why, you're a girl, can't you do something else, something you like?

Although everyone is restraining you and denying you, they have no rope in their hands, they only have one mouth, they can only kidnap you with words, but they cannot really bind you and manipulate your body.

From beginning to end, you are you.

Prejudice has been handed down from ancient times, a specific human emotion that cannot be erased, especially for girls.

You can't change anything, but you can always change yourself.

An Xiao listened to his consciousness persuading his body earnestly, but felt that something had been sown in his heart.

Probably a seed.

Just apply proper water and sunlight, and then wait for a suitable opportunity to come, it will break through the ground and germinate, break through the sky with unforeseen power, and grow into a big tree in the sky.

Then, let the wind blow from southeast to northwest, and I stand still.

The author has something to say:

. . .No, I can’t write anymore, I don’t even know why I was so smart and powerful in my dream, I can’t push anything out when I wake up, I’m afraid I will be confused before I write again (I can’t laugh or cry.JPG)

By the way, no one saw the leave after five o'clock yesterday afternoon, right?It’s so embarrassing to see the wrong god, no wonder my mother laughed at me for being stupid→_→I feel sorry for myself

That being said, this article will definitely be written down! (make a fist)

ennnn. . .answer. .Should. .Bar?

Also, our class uniform has arrived, and I feel that I look good in it, hehehe.

Eighth today!Tomorrow is the ninth!back!sky!ten!Number!

so happy!expect!

……

It should... look forward to it.

Also... still scared.

Forget it.

good night.

Bless you every day, peace and joy, good luck and good luck.