Jun Yong Mosheng

As autumn and winter come, Xu Mosheng puts his mind to it and hasn't been out of Xu's mansion for half a year. He studies and practices the piano on time all day long. Xu Yuanzhi also keeps a close eye on her, personally guiding and teaching everything. Unheard stories about the past in the court and the way of being an official.

In the twelfth lunar month of winter, and at the end of the new year, the first snow fell, but it was not as fierce as last year. It was more like the snow in the south of the Yangtze River.

In the early morning of this day, a guest came to Xu's residence. The man was wearing a white cloak, his black hair was pulled up and a silver hairpin was inserted obliquely, looking elegant and elegant.

"How is uncle recently?" She entered the main hall of Xu's residence, greeted Xu Yuanzhi and took a seat.

"Okay, okay, Jun Lan hasn't seen you for a while," Xu Yuanzhi looked at the woman in front of him, "You've lost some weight again, aren't you used to it in the academy?" He asked with concern.

"Thank you uncle for your concern. I'm still used to it. Maybe it's because I haven't seen you for a long time that you think Jun Lan has lost weight." She smiled and replied, how could she not lose weight? Day and night are not troubled by sleep and food.

"Hello Uncle, don't worry, otherwise I'm afraid I'll be ashamed, brother Shen. Will you go back to Neichuan this year for the Chinese New Year?" Xu Yuanzhi asked.

"No more." She replied softly.

"Not coming back?" Xu Yuanzhi frowned upon hearing this.

"Well, let Jun Yi go back, it's good to have him with parents." Shen Junlan explained.

"Hey, you still won't forgive them? It's been five years since you left home and came to seek refuge in Wangshan." He stroked his beard, thinking that this child was really stubborn.

"Uncle misunderstood, Jun Lan blamed her parents in her heart, but she had already put it down, it was not their fault, it's just..." She paused, "I'm afraid of causing trouble when I go back."

Xu Yuanzhi understood what she said, and he sighed, "It's hard for you, the child, I can't go back home."

Shen Junlan smiled and shook her head. Her sensibility made Xu Yuanzhi feel distressed as an elder. There was only such a girl in the Shen family. She was once held in the palm of her hand and treated like a jewel in the palm of her hand, but now she is living independently in a different place. "Come to the mansion to celebrate the New Year this year, Madam and the others miss you a lot." Xu's family has long regarded her as their own family.

"No, Uncle," Shen Junlan declined, "Thank you for your care for many years. I came here today to visit you. It's New Year's greetings. I made an agreement with Su Gong that I will spend this year in the academy."

"Why don't you say thank you, that kid Mo Sheng has caused you a lot of trouble, we should thank you." Xu Yuanzhi replied.

Half a year later, after hearing that person's name, Shen Junlan still felt a little ups and downs in her heart, "Is she alright?" she asked unconsciously.

"It's a closed book review. She has decided to take the imperial examination next year." Xu Yuanzhi explained Mo Sheng's situation to her.

Shen Junlan listened, nodded and replied, "Oh, that's fine too, the masters in Taixue are more skilled, don't waste her." She felt a little sad, it turns out that this person is going to leave here next year, and he is going to beg someone else She has become a teacher, and she has only known these things until now, and she feels a little bit lost in her heart.

"I don't know when she will catch up with you..." Xu Yuanzhi still has expectations for Xu Mosheng, but sometimes he is afraid that she will not live up to him.

Shen Junlan shook her head and smiled lightly, so what if her skills catch up with her, can this teacher-student relationship be terminated?Can you tell your heartfelt feelings without any scruples?

The two were still talking, and a person came from outside the hall, "Grandpa..." Before Xu Mosheng finished speaking, he met the eyes of Shen Junlan who turned back when he heard the sound in the hall.

Both of them were stunned for a moment, time seemed to stand still there, as if Shen Junlan was still a gentleman in the mansion a few years ago, Xu Mosheng looked at the lofty gentleman in ecstasy.

Shen Junlan recovered first, stood up and turned her back to Xu Yuanzhi, "Uncle, Junlan will take my leave first."

"Let's have a meal together before leaving." Xu Yuanzhi asked her to stay.

"Let's do it another day, there's something else to do in the academy." She declined again politely. She came to visit her uncle this time to show courtesy. She didn't expect to meet Mo Sheng, and she wasn't prepared how to face him.

Xu Yuanzhi nodded to express her understanding. Shen Junlan saluted and said goodbye. She turned around and walked out of the hall without looking at Xu Mosheng, but the man's eyes never moved away from her. Walking by as if she didn't exist at all.

The moment she passed by, Xu Mosheng reached out and grabbed Shen Junlan's wrist, and she stopped and stood there.

"Grandpa, I'll see you off." She reported to Xu Yuanzhi, and pulled Shen Junlan out of the main hall.

Xu Mosheng walked in front, holding Shen Junlan's wrist tightly, and she followed behind, trying to break free but was held tightly by the man, "Let go!" Shen Junlan ordered.

"Sir, don't go yet, I have something to tell you." Xu Mosheng didn't look back, but she was determined to say something to Shen Junlan, so she dragged her straight to the Lianzhu Garden.

Shen Junlan was still struggling to break free, but she was still dragged to follow the man's footsteps. She didn't want to hear anything. She vaguely knew what Mo Sheng wanted to tell her in her heart. She had been waiting for her decision, but she was also afraid of hearing that decision . "I don't want to listen to you," she said to her.

Xu Mosheng ignored her, and brought her into the Lianzhu Garden, turned around to face Shen Junlan, still holding her wrist.

Shen Junlan struggled to break free, she didn't look up at Xu Mosheng, she just stared at her hand, as soon as she let go, she immediately turned around and left.

Xu Mosheng saw that her husband insisted on refusing to stay and listen to her, and wanted to leave again. She felt that Shen Junlan at this time was very much like the naughty and timid self in the academy, and she was going to be caught by Shen Junyi in front of her husband.

Seeing that she couldn't comfort her husband, for some reason, she pulled her husband into her arms with the hand that was holding her, and wrapped her around her waist with the other hand.Shen Junlan, who fell into Xu Mosheng's arms, was instantly stunned, she did not dare to move in that man's arms.

The snowflakes are falling little by little, the pond is foggy, and some snowflakes have accumulated on the bamboo leaves. In this familiar place, so many days, the two of them have spent facing each other in this garden.This is the first time that Mo Sheng embraced her, the sudden body temperature, the familiar smell on his body, let everything stop at this moment, let the snow keep falling like this, and that person don't say anything.

But it didn't go as Shen Junlan thought, the man still said, "What is Mo Sheng worthy of Mr. love..."

Shen Junlan regained her composure, she pushed Mo Sheng away, broke free from her embrace, turned around and calmed down, and turned back to the cold and dusty Mr. Shen in the past. "Did I ever say I love you?" She asked coldly.

"No..." Xu Mosheng replied softly. She also felt that it was too abrupt for her to ask such a question. The husband didn't express anything to herself, and she only heard it from Shen Junyi and Yong'er.But she didn't feel comfortable in the past six months. She wanted to go back to the academy more than once to ask her husband to understand, but she still didn't have the courage.

Today, for some reason, seeing Shen Junlan again, she couldn't restrain herself at all. She missed her, but she also wanted to say something to her. "Mister doesn't tell me, Mo Sheng knows."

Shen Junlan didn't speak, and still left Mo Sheng with a back view.

"Since the master doesn't say it, the students will." Xu Mosheng still used the titles of the husband and the student to describe the relationship between the two. "Sir, Mo Sheng was at fault for this matter. I asked myself, I was indeed in love with him, and I was disrespectful to him, but I had Yong'er first, so, so Mo Sheng failed you..."

"Enough!" Before she finished speaking, Shen Junlan stopped her, "Stop talking!" She turned around, her eyes were red, suppressing her emotions, and said choked up, "Xu Mosheng, how can you talk so suddenly?" Tell me two things, while saying that you have feelings for me, and at the same time push me away." Shen Junlan was wronged to the extreme, is it all because of the order in which she and Yong'er appeared?Is it all because she is Mr.She didn't say anything, this person was about to reject herself.

Seeing that Shen Junlan was about to cry, Xu Mosheng suddenly panicked. She felt distressed when Mr. Pingri frowned. If she cried because of herself, Mo Sheng would like Shen Junlan to slap him a few more times.But how did she know how many tears Shen Junlan had secretly shed for her.

The two looked at each other without saying a word, Shen Junlan stabilized his emotions, and took back the swirling tears.

"Sir, you're not worth it for me..." Xu Mosheng opened his mouth first, and lowered his head, "I'm not worthy... If it's because I made you suffer, I wish I could kill myself." Her heart was like a knife twist.

"Jun Yi once asked me what I love about you, and I asked myself," Shen Junlan said quietly to her, "You and I have both played "Hua Shan Ji". The ancients revised its libretto many times, but there are four words It never changes."

Xu Mosheng raised his head and looked at Shen Junlan, "There is no reason to be happy." She said these four words.

Shen Junlan nodded, and sighed again, "Since you have made a choice, what else can I force, the scenery is about me, the vicissitudes are about me, whether it's good or not is just me, and it has nothing to do with you, Xu Mosheng." She said decisively .

"Sir..." Xu Mosheng didn't know what to say, but it didn't sound like he rejected his husband, but his husband rejected himself.She saw that some snowflakes had accumulated on Shen Junlan's shoulders, she wanted to reach out to wipe it off for her, but she didn't dare, she just pulled her into her arms, but now, the person opposite her was her husband now, she didn't dare touch her.

"If you do it all over again..." Xu Mosheng didn't choose what to say, she didn't know what she was talking about, there was no such thing as starting over again, she couldn't pretend that Yong'er didn't exist.

"If I could do it all over again, I would choose not to know you, not not to love you." After leaving these words, Shen Junlan threw off her cloak and hurried away, leaving Mosheng alone in the garden.

She has to go, if she doesn't go, her remaining arrogance will be disintegrated, she let her tears fall mixed with snowflakes, always like this, and she takes care of herself meticulously on weekdays, on the surface it is calm , but I don't know when, a word from that person may defeat him, and he is caught off guard.

Looking at Shen Junlan's leaving back, Mo Sheng sat on the ground paralyzed, neither crying nor laughing, "Finally, you are just my husband." She said to herself.

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There is still one last scene in Wangshan, and it's time to end the first half.