Confessions of soul and flesh

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Wu Shan had a bad dream.

Gu Weinan in the dream didn't play his violin anymore, he sat on the window sill behind the blackout curtains and smoked, he had never seen Gu Weinan smoking, nor had he seen him like this...naked.

In his dream, his skin was white enough to be transparent, but his ears and shoulders soaked in the sun were light pink, and even the two spots on his chest were an attractive light red.He saw himself, turned his head happily, and opened his arms, as if he wanted to hold him down.

Gu Weinan was very light, as light as a feather or a white cloud, his slender arms embraced him, and there was a scent of flowers around his neck.He hugged him, spinning, they were lying on the dark blue sofa in the living room, Gu Weinan lay on his chest and asked:

"You know I like men?"

Wu Shan would keep swallowing when he was nervous, he looked at him and nodded,

"Do you like me?"

Gu Weinan slowly approached him, with a sense of sweet oppression, his beautiful eyes were gently closed, his eyelashes fluttered, and his red lips were slightly parted.

beep beep beep beep...

The alarm clock dragged him back to the bed in the dormitory at a critical moment. Wu Shan opened his eyes and panted heavily, wet sweat sticking to his body, he sat up abruptly, his lower abdomen was so hard that it hurt, he needed to take a bath.

Wu Shan, a straight steel man who has been single for 25 years by his ability, for the first time in his life, thinks of another man masturbating in the bathroom.The transparent white liquid splashed on the tiles and was dispersed by the water sprinkled from the nozzle. He didn't know which of his behavior and finding out that Gu Weinan was gay broke him down more.

And the man who broke him down in various senses got up at 6 o'clock in the morning and was busy counting, sorting, taking pictures and putting the newly arrived boxes on the shelves.It took less than three hours to finish everything, Gu Weinan bit an egg sandwich and thought, maybe he is an excellent employee.

It was almost nine o'clock, and I was still a little nervous. I wondered what Wu Shan would say to him when he came, whether he should explain it a little bit, or whether it would become darker and darker.As a result, no one knocked on the door for 10 minutes after nine o'clock, Gu Weinan was a little disappointed, didn't he agree to see you today, there will be no accidents, right?

A few social news about traffic accidents caused by the courier's illegal driving flashed through his mind. He grabbed his mobile phone and dialed Wushan's number.

"Hello, brother?"

"Well, it's me, you... come over today?"

"Oh! I'm sorry, I have an urgent item here. It has just been delivered and it will be at your place soon."

"Well, good, you pay attention to safety, I'll hang up first, see you later."

"See you later!"

Ten minutes later, Wushan arrived. The two people's eyes briefly met and they immediately moved away. One looked at the ceiling and the other looked at the floor. The background music was the fourth movement of Beethoven's Ninth Symphony, Ode to Joy.

"I have a lot of goods today, and I'm going to cook."

"it is good."

"Spaghetti, do you want some with you?"

"Well, thank you brother."

Gu Weinan hid in the kitchen to wash the vegetables, thinking, if he could agree to have dinner together, then what happened yesterday... should be over.Wu Shan sighed while packing the suitcases, people like men but they may not be interested in you, don't be too sentimental, where can you find the errands that pay the money, Wu Shan, you can't forget your roots!

When the smell of tomato and mushroom pasta sauce wafted into the living room, Wu Shan had already packed all the goods for today. He put the remaining packing materials on the balcony, and followed the invisible aroma in the cartoon of cat and mouse. After following to the kitchen, Gu Weinan was wearing an apron with his back facing him, holding a small spoon to put the red sauce into his mouth,

Like a newly married wife, Wu Shan thought,

"It smells so good."

Gu Weinan turned around and saw that he was still a little embarrassed, so he handed over the spoon in his hand,

"Try it?"

Just like how his mother fed him when he was a child, Wu Shan habitually stretched out his head to hold the spoon in his mouth, licked the sauce inside into his mouth, and slowly covered the marks he had just licked when his lips pulled away. My heart is about to explode.

dong dong dong.

The sound of knocking on the door broke the wonderful atmosphere between the two of them. Gu Weinan put down his spoon and ran to open the door, while Wu Shan poked at the kitchen door blankly, feeling that he was really ashamed.

Gu Weinan opened the door, Teacher Wang stood politely at the door, seeing how happy he was at home,

"Mr. Wang, why are you here?"

"Little Gu, I sneaked out today, and my wife didn't find out."

Gu Weinan invited Mr. Wang in. He put on his shoe covers outside the door before stepping in. Seeing Wu Shan, he froze for a moment.

"Xiao Gu, who is this?"

"Let me introduce. This is Teacher Wang. I told you, a retired professor from the Conservatory of Music. I am a regular visitor here. Teacher Wang, this is Wushan, my...friend."

"Hello, Mr. Wang."

Wu Shan shook hands with Teacher Wang very politely. The kind old man looked at him with a smile and his hand was very warm. He clapped his other hand on his arm,

"Hello, Mr. Wu, I have known Xiao Gu for several years, and I haven't seen him here as a friend for a long time. It's so boring to hang out with us old guys."

"No, I can learn a lot from chatting with you."

"As long as you can talk, if my son is half as good as you can make me happy, I wouldn't still be in music every day at my age!"

Gu Weinan accompanied Mr. Wang to the shelf in the living room to look at the newly arrived disks. The old man nodded while browsing, pointing to a few from time to time, asking him to keep them for himself, and come over to pick them up one by one when he has a chance.Wu Shan leaned against the hanger and watched them communicate, and felt that Gu Weinan might really be a better person than he imagined, and he shouldn't care too much about his orientation.

Teacher Wang put a few carefully selected CDs into the grocery bag he carried with him, took out money from his pocket and asked Gu Weinan to settle the accounts for him,

"120, 120, 280, 520 in total, just give me 500."

"That can't be done, that can't be done, you know mine, I never take advantage of the younger generation, just get as much as you want."

Teacher Wang counted out 500 yuan in full bills, found 20 yuan in change from his shirt pocket, folded them together and put them in Gu Weinan's hand.

"You take it, I will come next time."

"Okay, I'll keep the ones you want for you."

Teacher Wang did not forget to say hello to Wu Shan before leaving.

"It's a waste of time for you. Young people go out to play more, and when they get old, they have more time to listen to music at home. By the way, next week Schiff will perform at the Grand Theater. Let's go and listen together?"

"Okay, okay, definitely go, you go slowly."

Watching the old man leave contentedly, Gu Weinan stuffed the money into his pants pocket, washed his hands and prepared to cook the noodles,

"Brother, I'm going to the bathroom to wash my hands."

"Go...wait a while!!"

Turn on the light in the bathroom and confirm that you have put away all your personal belongings before letting people in.Gu Weinan scratched his head, he was so stupid.

When two large plates of delicious pasta were placed on the table, Wu Shan suddenly felt as hungry as if he hadn't eaten for three days, and before the noodles cooled down, he slurped them into his mouth.

"good to eat!"

"Slow down, no one will grab you."

Compared to the joy of cooking, maybe watching other people eat is the external source of Gu Weinan's satisfaction.Maybe it was because he ate a sandwich just now. He rolled the noodles with a fork and realized that he was not too hungry. He simply put it down and watched Wu Shan eat.

"My mother loves to watch her children eat, but when I was a child, I was even more picky eater than I am now. She would get angry when she saw me."

Wu Shan swallowed a mouthful of noodles, licked his mouth,

"Parents, you won't be really angry."

"She's really mad when she knows I like men."

The hand holding the fork obviously stopped. Wu Shan looked at him and continued to chew. The way he ate seemed to magnify the deliciousness of the food. Gu Weinan followed him and ate two more bites.

"She said she didn't have a son like me, and I shamed her, making her and my father unable to hold their heads up in the eyes of others."

"It's been a long time, and it's always acceptable."

"If she can really accept it, at least ask me? It's been five years, and I don't even miss her at all."

After Wu Shan finished his plate, he looked at Gu Weinan's remaining half of the plate, hesitantly, Gu Weinan pushed the plate over,

"I'm full, if you don't mind, just help me eat."

Wu Shan came over to eat in such a turmoil that he didn't even miss the diced mushrooms on the edge of the plate.Gu Weinan poured him a glass of lemonade, and made a strange temptation:

"As Teacher Wang said just now, can you accompany me to the performance next week?"

"What time?"

"Wednesday night at 07:30, I have already booked two tickets, now...just thank you for what happened yesterday, okay?"

Wu Shan stacked the two finished plates together, and took the drinking cup and tableware to the kitchen. Gu Weinan carefully followed behind him, waiting for an answer that would determine his own fate.

"Okay, do you need to dress formally?"

Gu Weinan looked very happy, with his hands behind his back and his toes up,

"No, no, it's fine as usual, I'll do the rest."

"Okay, then I'm leaving."

Wu Shan stood at the door with his good things in his hands, and did not turn around to leave for a long time. He looked at Gu Weinan seriously, his brows were as usual, his eyes were bright,

"My mother hasn't spoken to me in six years."

Gu Weinan was a little surprised that he still remembered this topic, he curled his hair hanging from his sideburns behind his ears, and waited for someone to continue talking,

"Veteran."

Although he didn't expect to feel empathy, the slight sadness still spread from Gu Weinan's talking eyes. He looked at Wu Shan without making a sound, his fingers intertwined, hesitated for half a second, and opened his arms to hug him. Hold Wushan.

It was a fleeting and polite hug, but Gu Weinan clearly felt that Wu Shan was hard.

TBC