The world's number one girl attack [Rebirth]

Xue Shu's voice was very clear, hitting Xia Zhiyan's heart, making him stunned for a moment.

It took me a long time to come back to my senses.

"Why would I think so?" Xia Zhiyan said, feeling heavy in his shoulders, sore in his throat, and uncomfortable in his chest, he said word by word: "I never thought about it that way."

Xue Shu stared at him silently, but his face softened.

Xia Zhiyan suddenly remembered what he did when he left. Xue Shu fell asleep. He tied Xue Shu to the head of the bed and smashed down the lamp.

Thinking about it now, it is still very clear. He still remembers Xue Shu's eyes very clearly at that time, unbelievable and painful.Like a brand, it was reborn with Xia Zhiyan.

At that time, Xue Shu thought that the worst case would be that Xia Zhiyan hated him, loathed him, and even hated him, but he never thought that he would be cruel, so Xue Shu was defenseless while the two of them were sleeping together. when……

No wonder Xue Shu felt that he wanted to kill him.

No wonder Xue Shu thought so.

——It turns out that I have not only thought about it, but also done it.

Xia Zhiyan was suddenly at a loss for words, his whole body was cold, he didn't know how to explain, and after a while he whispered: "I'm sorry."

Xue Shu's complexion was not very good, his face was frosty, and he was more dangerous than before: "You have nothing to do to me."

Xia Zhiyan's mind was in a mess, did he really have nothing to do to Xue Shu?Xue Shu locked him up as his private property, and he repaid Xue Shu once for stabbing him with a knife, which was barely a settlement. Then after his death, Xue Shu avenged him, so what about the debt?He has never dared to face Xue Shu from his previous life, because they have too many entanglements, and they can't figure it out no matter what.

When Xue Shu didn't show up, he could still deceive himself and forget about those things.

But now as soon as Xue Shu from the previous life appeared, those pasts came back.

Even if he doesn't face it, he has to face it.

Xia Zhiyan's back was as stiff as a board, and he even felt cold. He said, "I thought you released those scandals on purpose, so...why didn't you explain?"

Xue Shu didn't speak.

Xia Zhiyan felt that the air was suffocating, and stared at the table silently.

After a while Xue Shu still didn't say a word.

Xia Zhiyan couldn't help but looked up at him, only to find that the other's face was as sharp as a knife's edge, but his eyes were faintly red.

Xia Zhiyan: "... What's wrong with you?"

Xue Shu raised his eyes and glanced at him, there was mist on his eyelashes that couldn't be concealed: "I explained it."

Xia Zhiyan was stunned, he had no impression of this.

"Then what did I say?" Xia Zhiyan asked.

Xue Shu looked at him steadfastly, and said, "Go away."

Xia Zhiyan: "..."

Xia Zhiyan licked his dry lips, but had no memory of this, and asked, "When?"

Xue Shu calmed down instead, and said, "On the night we almost went to bed."

Xia Zhiyan remembered, and his heart skipped a beat.During that time, Xia Xingzhu had just passed away on his front foot, and his back foot was hacked on the Internet. He was under too much pressure and couldn't sleep at night. swallowed.So Xue Shu was very resistant to what the other party said, and he didn't take what the other party said to his heart at all, so he let people get out.At that time, he was also going crazy, and he was hostile to Xue Shu from the very beginning, thinking that it wasn't him who did it, but who else could do it.Xia Zhiyan debuted for many years, and he was not very popular, nor did he have any enemies, nor did he think about Chen Chen.

And that day, Xue Shu was coaxed by him to drink a little wine, Xue Shu fainted very quickly, and almost took advantage of the alcohol to kill him.He never thought that he could fall in love with a man, and he was extremely repulsed by this matter. At that time, when he was pressed down by a man, he was suddenly stunned, angry and anxious, and kicked Xue Shu away.But even if Xue Shu was drunk, he couldn't easily kick him.

After Xue Shu woke up afterwards, he said something to him, but no matter what Xue Shu said at that time, he would not listen.

"I was not clear-headed at that time." Xia Zhiyan said with a wry smile.

Xue Shu had no expression on his face, as if recalling the past, he couldn't feel the knife in his heart.

Seeing him like this, Xia Zhiyan's mind was buzzing.

Xue Shudao: "I told you that it was Chen Chen who did it, and I'm trying to find a way to suppress it, so that you can stay calm."

Xia Zhiyan's throat moved: "...Then what did I say?"

Xue Shu didn't start, with bitterness on his face: "You let me go, don't insult your friend."

Xia Zhiyan: "..." He didn't know how to speak for a long time.

At that time, for him, it was very clear which was more important between Chen Chen and Xue Shu, which was closer and which was farther.He would naturally choose to believe the former.In other words, since Xue Shu confessed his love to him, he subconsciously hated him, not to mention trust and understanding.

But now that he thinks with his toes, he can understand Xue Shu's mood at that time.

Xue Shu explained the truth to Xia Zhiyan, but the response he got was just to fuck off.Xue Shu knew that Xia Zhiyan was a straight man, so he must think that a man who likes a man is a pervert, but he still wanted to give it a try, expressed his intentions, and wanted to cultivate a relationship, but Xia Zhiyan didn't want to cultivate with him, so he kicked him away I just want to leave.

Xue Shu could only use coercive means to bring him back again and again.Later, if he wanted to explain that Xia Zhiyan's scandal was not caused by himself, it was already too late. The two of them had already reached such a stalemate, and he didn't believe anything Xia Zhiyan said.Besides, if you talk too much, it will become even more indisputable and annoying.

After Xia Zhiyan ran away, his heart was ashamed, and he was very angry. Holding the last hope, he thought he would play hard to get, otherwise Xia Zhiyan would miss some old feelings and come back on his own initiative.As a result, he played hard to get, and was taken advantage of, and Xia Zhiyan was killed.He regretted it so much, he didn't know how much he regretted it, and his heart was broken.

"I never thought that you hated me so much in the last life, but you will still like me in this life." Xue Shu said with the corners of his mouth twitching.

If he had known earlier, he would have skipped the previous life and reincarnated in this life.

Xia Zhiyan didn't know how to answer.

Xue Shu lowered his eyes, turned the cup in his hand, and said, "But I think, maybe you only like me in this life."

Xia Zhiyan weakly defended: "That's not the case."

Xue Shu looked up at him, but Xia Zhiyan couldn't make any extra noise.

His mind was full of thoughts, like a sea of ​​chaos.

It is undeniable that he and the young Xue Shu were very happy and happy together.He saw the pure and beautiful side of Xue Shu, so he liked him. He and Xue Shu stayed together day and night, and the water flowed long, so he liked him.

And there are many memories between him and Xue Shu in the previous life, but they are all embarrassing pasts.He sometimes doesn't want to recall, but it doesn't mean he can forget.

Then he only likes Xue Shu in this life, doesn't he like the previous life?

……no.They are clearly the same person.

For him and Xue Shu in the previous life, they were destined to be unable to get along well.He will not learn how to like Xue Shu, and Xue Shu will not learn how to let go of his paranoia.Only when the head is broken, can the two see each other calmly.

So he liked the young Xue Shu because of the existence of Xue Shu in the previous life.If he didn't have those memories from his previous life, maybe in this life, he still wouldn't like men.

He thought Xue Shu was cute and wanted to get to know him. He had feelings for him from the very beginning because of the things that happened between him and Xue Shu in his previous life.

Xia Zhiyan felt that there was no way to treat them as two people.

However, if there are not two people, what should we do in this situation?The young Xue Shu obviously didn't know the existence of this Xue Shu, so how should I explain it to him?It's obviously the same person, but Xia Zhiyan felt as if he was cheating, and his mood was so complicated that it made people crazy.

Xue Shu's eyes nailed Xia Zhiyan in place, unable to move. After a while, Xia Zhiyan asked with difficulty: "When did you find out that you came back?"

"The first time was three and a half years ago, and the time was very short, only half an hour."

Xia Zhiyan had a sore nose and asked, "Is the second time before the high school entrance examination?"

Xue Shu nodded, staring at Xia Zhiyan with dark eyes, the deep meaning in it was vivid but hard to distinguish: "You just want to ask me this?"

The voice was a bit cold, making it impossible to distinguish the emotions inside.

Xia Zhiyan was a little stiff, and asked again: "How can I come out?"

Xue Shu's eyes darkened suddenly, and he said, "I'm a second personality, and I won't come out easily, only when I'm stimulated."

Xia Zhiyan looked at him. If I remember correctly, during the high school entrance examination, Xue Shu had a fever and a cold, and it was the first time he kissed him.And this second time, after a car accident and a slight concussion, he was stimulated again.From this point of view, the condition for the emergence of the second personality should be both external stimulation and inner shock.

"Is there a big difference? Me and me." Xue Shu asked unexpectedly.

Xia Zhiyan's mouth was bitter, and he didn't know how to answer this question.He thought a lot - could the two personalities have always been able to coexist like this?So what should he do?His mind was buzzing, he had lived two lifetimes and never expected that he would encounter such a fucking problem.

The longer he was silent, the more Xue Shu's heart sank.

The disappointment in the dark eyes could hardly be hidden.

Just when he was trying to maintain his composure without any hope, Xia Zhiyan said with some difficulty: "People are always that person, no matter what time it is, it's you."

Xue Shu's throat moved suddenly, and he stared at him for a long time, as if caught off guard by a mouthful of candy, he was at a loss for a moment.

It took him a while to calm down.

"What about now?" Xue Shu asked suddenly.

Xia Zhiyan was stunned: "What now?"

Xue Shu clenched the cup tightly with his fingers, a little pale, but his face was expressionless, and he said a little stiffly: "Do you want me to exist, or do you want him to exist?"

Xia Zhiyan: "..."

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2008/05/19

Big Brother's Diary: If Xia Zhiyan said he wanted me to exist, I would have a hundred ways to kill me in this life.

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Xia Zhiyan: What can I do, I am also very desperate.