don't force me

"Back...back to the south?" Lin Yi stuttered in surprise, "Why... remember to go back to the south?"

Ma Jing whispered, "I don't like it here."

Lin Yi heaved a sigh of relief and smiled: "I thought it was a big deal... Actually, I don't like this place either. Things at work are messy, but..."

"So let's go back." Ma Jing hurriedly interrupted her husband, "Let's go back, shall we? You see, I'm not used to this place, and you don't like your current company either. Du... Du Jiancheng," Ma Jing After a pause, he seemed unwilling to even mention the name, "Du Jiancheng is bothering you every day, why are we here?"

Lin Yi said: "It doesn't matter, I can control it well. Du Jiancheng is trying to pull me into the water. In the future, he will be in charge of the operation and I will be in charge of the technology. When changing suppliers, we will put some water in the quality inspection. The price difference in the middle can earn tens of thousands of dollars per order. But Do you think I might be that stupid? In our business, we have to go to court, maybe we have to go to a military court. I can't risk my life, so don't worry, nothing will happen."

Ma Jing shook her head: "We don't need to go to such a trouble, just go back to the south?"

Lin Yi smiled and said, "Haven't we discussed this issue? Although I don't like it here, but Xiaoan is going to take the college entrance examination next year. We managed to get the household registration with great difficulty. Let's bear with it for another year."

Ma Jing said eagerly: "We can find a school for Xiaoan in our hometown. Our schoolwork is much more difficult than here. It's no problem to come back to take the college entrance examination next year."

Lin Yi shook his head: "It's better to be still than to move. Xiao An finally got used to it. Now that he's going back at this juncture, he will have to get used to it for a long time."

"He has lived in the South for more than ten years, so he can't get used to it after four years of staying here."

Lin Yi patted his wife's hand, as if he was coaxing the child: "Okay, just persevere, you see, I am gritting my teeth and persevering."

Ma Jing insisted: "It is because of this that you should go back. You see that you are also very unhappy now. Working is nothing more than earning a living. The most important thing is to live a comfortable life. Why do you have to make things difficult for yourself?"

Lin Yi said earnestly: "It's rare that Xiao An is a bit ambitious, and the goal is quite high. We can't ruin the child. Besides, there is Du Xuan. Look, if it weren't for Du Xuan, how could Xiao An..."

"Don't mention Du Xuan!" Ma Jing suddenly screamed, her voice was high-pitched and sharp, and Lin Yi was startled.

"What... what's wrong? What's wrong with Xiaoxuan?"

Ma Jing shook her head desperately with distracted eyes, but murmured: "I want to go back to the south."

Ji Dong finally found out that something was wrong with his wife. He took Ma Jing's hand, pulled her into his arms and hugged her, and said slowly, "Is something wrong?"

Ma Jing rested her forehead on her husband's shoulder, gritted her teeth and shook her head, but an uncontrollable choked sob floated out.

"Xiao Jing!" Lin Yi was shocked, he supported Ma Jing's shoulder and pushed him away a little.

A layer of tears welled up in Ma Jing's beautiful big eyes, and soon fell down.

Ji Dong was terrified. He hurriedly grabbed a few tissues and covered his wife's face, and said in one voice, "Don't cry, don't cry, tell me what's the matter, don't cry."

Ma Jing shook her head, trying to suppress herself, but the more she suppressed, the more tears flowed down her face.She tried her best to control herself and said, "Let's... go downstairs... and talk."

"Oh, go downstairs." Lin Yi pulled his wife to stand up, "Take it easy, Xiao An is still reviewing her homework."

When the two walked out of the house gently, the door of Lin Tingan's room was closed tightly. He still has two final exams to take tomorrow.

The people walking downstairs had gradually dispersed, and the neighborhood was empty. Ma Jing led Lin Yi to the deepest part of the neighborhood, and finally couldn't help crying.

Ji Dong fumbled through his pockets, and was frustrated to find out that he had to go out in a hurry and didn't bring a tissue. In his desperation, he had to grab the hem of his T-shirt to wipe Ma Jing's tears.

Ma Jing cried bitterly, wiped her tears with Ji Dong's clothes, blew her nose, and said in a hoarse voice, "Husband, what should I do."

"What should I do? Who is mad at you?" Lin Yi was heartbroken by his wife's crying.

Ma Jing closed her eyes: "Xiao An..."

"What did he do?" Ji Dong's voice became cold.It's okay to pamper and pamper her at ordinary times, but if the brat dares to be disrespectful to his mother, he really needs to clean it up.

Ma Jing tightly clutched her husband's skirt, tried twice but still didn't open her mouth.

Ji Dong was a little anxious: "What's the matter? What is this kid doing?"

"He...he..." Ma Jing took a deep breath and mustered up her courage to say, "He is... gay."

Ji Dong slowly opened his mouth and looked at his wife stupidly: "What are you talking about?"

"Xiao An... he's talking about friends, it's... a boy."

"Boy? He's dating a guy?"

"Du Xuan."

"Who? Du Xuan? He's dating Du Xuan?"

Ma Jing nodded with difficulty.

"Xiao Jing," Ji Dong said seriously, "Are you sure, or just guessing?"

"I... read his WeChat last night."

"..."

Ma Jing clenched her fists tightly, and punched her husband's chest hard twice as if venting: "What to do, tell me, what to do."

Ji Dong was a little dazed, his head was buzzing for a long time and he couldn't react.

Ma Jing choked up and said: "In the future... what will he do, he will be bullied, what will everyone think of him."

Ji Dong shook his head, and said slowly: "Before... I didn't find out."

"He never fell in love before." Ma Jing wiped away her tears and said fiercely, "If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have come here, so I should have stayed in my hometown honestly."

Lin Yi: "If you don't meet Du Xuan, you will meet other boys. He is such a person. What can you do?"

Ma Jing bit her lower lip: "It's also possible that Du Xuan provoked him."

Lin Yi: "Du Xuan...whether he provoked it or not, Xiao An has fallen into it."

Ma Jing said eagerly: "So we have to hurry up and stay away from him. After a long time, it will naturally fade away. The college entrance examination is very important. Can it be compared with this? If we fail the exam next year, we can take it again the next year. If we can't get into Beihang University, let's go to the second head office, it's better than being a... being a..."

Ji Dong: "Can you disconnect?"

"Yes! Why can't, if we don't see each other for a year or two, it will be broken naturally. Lao Lin, let's go back, I'm very scared, what will Xiao An do in the future?"

Ji Dong thought for a while: "Okay. Now that you've decided, don't delay. Xiaoan will finish the exam tomorrow, and they will make up lessons as soon as the school is on holiday. Should we let him finish the lessons before leaving or leave after the exam."

Ma Jing: "Leave as soon as the exam is over. I'll go back and book a plane ticket. If the people over there want to help find a school to borrow, just pay some sponsorship fees."

Lin Yi grabbed Ma Jing who was restless and wanted to go back and book a flight ticket: "Xiao Jing, I was thinking, if Xiao An is really this kind of person, what should I do?"

Ma Jing's face paled layer by layer.

Lin Yi said: "We can take him back to the south, or even ask him to break up with Du Xuan. Even if he disagrees, Du Xuan will agree. But what if Xiao An is this kind of person."

"Impossible!" Ma Jing almost screamed, "Xiao An is not that kind of person."

Ji Dong shook his head: "I don't know if he is, but we have to think, what if he is?"

Ma Jing's whole body trembled, and the tears that had just stopped flowed down again. She was completely speechless, but shook her head frantically.

Lin Yi held his wife's hand: "Don't worry, take him away suddenly now, I am worried that he will make more trouble. Such a big child is at the time of impulsive adolescence, let's not panic, take your time. I Would you like to talk to him, okay?"

"What to talk about, what is there to talk about."

Lin Yi sighed: "Even if you don't talk about anything, you still have to tell your children to protect themselves. Seventeen or eighteen-year-olds, be impulsive..."

"I'll take him away tomorrow, okay?" Ma Jing looked at her husband with pleading eyes.

Lin Yi sighed, and hugged him into his arms: "Don't panic, I'll talk to him tomorrow, don't worry, it will be resolved."

The next afternoon, Lin Tingan went home directly after the exam.While walking, he sent Du Xuan a WeChat message, complaining that his father issued a "mandatory order" when he got up in the morning, and he had to go home immediately after the exam.

Du Xuan replied: Go back and have a good rest, you can work hard in the last few days of the term.

Lin Ting'an: I'm going to surf the beach, you promised me.

Du Xuan: Lang Lang Lang Lang, which sea do you want to go to?Go closer to Yantai, and farther to Hainan.

Lin Tingan: Yantai, save money.

Du Xuan: I'm pretty good at living.

Lin Tingan put away his phone with a smile and pushed open the door.

Lin Yi asked, "How did you do in the exam?"

"It feels better than the midterm exam." Lin Tingan said happily.

"I've been studying very hard lately." Lin Yi patted the sofa, beckoning Lin Tingan to sit down, "Come on, Dad asks you something."

"What's the matter? Is there a reward?" Lin Tingan sat down with a smile, and opened a can of Coke.

"Have you fallen in love recently?" Lin Yi dropped a bomb calmly, and the curvature of the corner of his mouth did not change at all.

As soon as Lin Tingan brought the Coke to his mouth, he was frightened. The cold mist slowly poured into his face, and his whole heart was frozen, but his face seemed to have been splashed with a spoonful of hot oil. There is even a feeling of pain.

"How long have we been talking?" Lin Yi didn't wait for Lin Tingan to answer "yes" or "no", and asked the second question directly.

Lin Tingan opened his mouth, his mind froze, leaving nothing but a blank.

"Does the other party's parents know?" Ji Dong asked the third question again, which was more terrible than the first two, as if a heavy hammer had been smashed into his head, finally waking him up.

"Father?" Lin Tingan swallowed and asked tremblingly, "You...why..."

"Do you want to talk to Dad?"

Lin Tingan wanted to shake his head subconsciously, but soon after he realized that this matter cannot be avoided by shaking his head, so he gritted his teeth and nodded.But what to say?Lin Tingan was not sure how much his father knew, and the most critical issue was not clear, so he didn't know what to talk about and how far to talk.

He opened his mouth with difficulty, with a thousand thoughts in his mind, as if everything he said was stepping on a thunderbolt, and the result was that his body would be smashed to pieces.

Lin Yi sighed: "Then tell me, Dad."

Lin Tingan's hands were shaking so much that he couldn't hold the things, so he had to put the Coke back on the table.

"It's normal for you to fall in love with someone at your age. You also know that Mom and Dad are classmates in middle school, so we can understand."

Lin Tingan clenched his fists and waited for the "but" behind without daring to breathe.

"However, liking someone is a very important thing. If you like the right person, you will be happy in your life. If you like the wrong person, then..."

Lin Tingan looked up at Ji Dong in a panic.

Lin Yi said: "Mom and Dad want to know who you dated with, how long have you been dating, what do you like about him, have you thought about it?"

Lin Tingan has never done such a difficult problem in his life.

The last three questions are very easy to answer, the answer has long been deeply engraved in my heart, but the first question...

Lin Tingan struggled and said, "I... didn't..."

Lin Yi shook his head: "Xiao'an, you are about to die in two months. You should be considered an adult both physically and mentally. This is the first time Dad talked about this topic with you. I hope you can take it seriously. You don't have to say it, but don't lie."

Lin Tingan gritted his teeth fiercely. He remembered that he had deliberately brought up Du Xuan in front of his mother, and asked Du Xuan to video New Year's greetings with the whole family on New Year's Eve... In fact, he knew that sooner or later the window paper would be punctured, so he made preparations , I just didn't expect it to be so fast.

Lin Tingan took a deep breath: "I've known him for... four years, and we've talked for three years. In the future... I think about it, go to university together, and then find a job."

Ji Dong's face was neither shocked nor angry, and Lin Tingan's heart was even more uncertain. The sense of panic that he had nowhere to go made him even have a feeling of simply "recruiting" and forgetting that he would die early and feel at ease.

Lin Yi asked, "Do his parents know?"

Lin Tingan shook his head.

Lin Yi: "What if your mother and I firmly oppose it?"

Lin Ting'an raised his head in panic. He heard another meaning from his father's words. As a couple who have been in love since middle school, what position can he have to "resolutely" oppose it?

Lin Tingan's T-shirt was already soaked with sweat, and the sweat dripped down his temples. He looked at his father with a pale face, and his eyes were more pleading than fear.

Ji Dong was very sad, whether it was the panicked and begging Xiao An in front of him, or Lin Tingan who would face more questioning and sarcastic remarks in the future, his heart ached like a knife.

His proudest and most precious son, chose the most difficult path.

Lin Yi was cruel and asked, "Who is he? A junior high school classmate?"

Lin Tingan closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, he said in a bold tone, "Du Xuan."

Lin Yi's brows twitched fiercely, and he asked in a deep voice, "Who? Du Xuan?"

Everything is difficult at the beginning, once you say it for the first time, it will be a matter of course later.Lin Ting'an said: "I like Du Xuan, I chased him first, he...was too pestered by me, so I agreed."

Ji Dong sighed deeply, his heart sank to the bottom.If Lin Ting'an refused to tell the truth or lied, it could only mean that he didn't like Du Xuan very much, but his current attitude made it clear that "it must be him", even if it provoked the fury of his parents.Ji Dong was a little embarrassed by this kind of desperate situation.

Seeing that Lin Yi was silent, Lin Tingan boldly said, "I initiated this matter, don't go to Du Xuan."

Ji Dong: "Do you know what you are doing?"

Lin Tingan nodded: "I know, I will... be looked down upon, discriminated against, and my family will not support it. But Dad, I... like him."

Lin Yi asked, "Do you like him or... boys?"

Lin Tingan gritted his teeth and said, "Boy. But I like him the most among boys." Lin Tingan knew very well that only saying this is the best answer, and can make his parents completely give up.After all, compared to other boys, Du Xuan can be said to be the best choice.

Lin Yi said coldly: "Your mother and I have contacted the school in your hometown for you, and you will go back to study next school year."

In an instant, Lin Tingan's eyes were covered with a layer of water mist, and Lin Yi watched his son as if he had been sucked out of life, and quickly withered away at a speed visible to the naked eye.His always bright eyes were dimmed, his face was covered with gray in a tragic defeat, and his spine collapsed just now, as if he didn't even have the strength to lift his shoulders.

Ji Dong even felt that Lin Tingan's cervical spine could no longer support his head.

However, Lin Tingan just said quietly: "Okay."

Ji Dong frowned and looked at his son who was not crying or fussing, and asked in surprise, "You agree?"

Lin Tingan nodded.

Ji Dong: "Then you agree to separate from him?"

Lin Tingan took a breath and shook his head: "No separation." He forced a smile, but the corners of his mouth that had been moved just now fell down again, and only a bitter and astringent arc of speciousness was squeezed out.

Lin Tingan said: "My mother also said before that she wanted to go back to the south."

This Ji Dong remembered that his company was in a very embarrassing situation at that time, and it was indeed better to just leave.

Lin Tingan said: "I told Du Xuan that I didn't want to leave, and he said it's okay, even if we are not in the same city, we can still chat on WeChat or QQ, and we can also make phone calls, and then I can still take the exam, so we can still be together. "

"Do you think me and your mother will let you come back?"

"I... will grow up one day, and Du Xuan can also visit me in the city where I study." Lin Tingan looked at Lin Yi pleadingly, "Dad, we really think about the future, not fooling around, not impulsive .You should know that even if I'm in a hothead, Du Xuan won't, we are really serious about... talking, talking, talking about love."

Lin Yi looked at his son, not knowing whether he should be pleased that his son had grown up and finally learned to think about problems, or whether he should slap him angrily and blame him for being obsessed with not regretting.

Lin Yi said: "Xiao An, you should know that your mother and I have no opinion on homosexuality. They are just a small group of ordinary people. But if we stand in the position of parents, we cannot accept all this calmly."

Lin Tingan nodded, and a tear fell on the back of his hand and quickly slid down, leaving faint water marks.Lin Tingan stared at the water mark, feeling very scared: he was afraid that he would not see Du Xuan when he returned to the south, and that Du Xuan would meet new friends and have new suitors in a place he could not see; he was even more afraid of time and space The distance makes all the best things come to naught, leaving only a helpless sentence "I didn't know love when I was young".

"Father," Lin Tingan asked softly, "Can I see Du Xuan before I leave?"

"What did you see him for?"

"I want to tell him face to face, I'm afraid he will worry."

Ji Dong couldn't help but sneer in his heart: You should worry about yourself.

"Is it okay?" Lin Tingan asked again pitifully.

Ji Dong said slowly: "We'll talk about it after I discuss it with your mother."