don't force me

After New Year's Day, Liu Zheng discovered that Du Xuan's schedule had changed. In the past, he would only come back from the study room at 10:30, but now he was lying in bed chatting on WeChat at 09:30.At first Liu Zheng also said that Du Xuan was in a relationship, but within two days he found that Du Xuan had been answering his brother's questions.

Liu Zheng said, "You can start a live broadcast. I'll help you find students. You can earn a lot during the winter vacation."

Du Xuan: "Where do I have that spare time?"

Liu Zheng: "The second place, how many high school seniors flock to this advertisement? Think about it."

Du Xuan snorted: "You think this job is easy to do, you will know how hard it is if you have a younger brother who is in the third year of high school."

Liu Zheng rolled his eyes: "I don't know how hard it is to have a younger brother who is in the third year of high school. I just know that if I have a brother who takes the No. 2 exam in the city, I will suffer to death."

Du Xuan knew that Liu Zheng's words were correct. In the past, Zhou Man said every day: "Why do you take the second place in the exam, and whoever you see will take the first place" or "What's the matter if you take the first place? You can see who is so-and-so in the math test." ".For a long time, as soon as he recalled his middle school career, he heard the phrase "look at others", which could easily make him fly into a rage whenever it appeared.But people are probably forgetful. I don’t know when it started. When I recall my middle school career, there is always a figure jumping up and down, and those pairs of eye-catching running shoes have successfully squeezed out [-] points of so-and-so.

Warm, happy, full of surprises and expectations.

Du Xuan lay down on the bed and wrote a physics problem step by step, then took a photo and sent it to Lin Tingan.

Lin Tingan applied for a video chat, and Du Xuan pulled the earphones out from under the pillow to connect to the video.

Lin Tingan said, "Have you brought headphones?"

Du Xuan: "I brought it."

"Which day do you have a holiday? My No. 16 has finished the final exam, and then I have two weeks of classes before the Spring Festival holiday. How did you arrange the holiday? Can you come and accompany me? I miss you so much."

Du Xuan: "Well, I have already agreed with Brother Ding to look after the store for him. He is going to Australia with Mr. Yang."

Lin Tingan gritted his teeth and said, "Damn it, show your love and bully the senior dog."

Du Xuan: "Then you come to the store after class, and I will take you back after I close the store at 08:30."

Lin Tingan: "Can you make dessert?"

"No, Brother Ding has found a supplier who will deliver some cold meals every morning. They will be sold during the winter vacation. Anyway, the Spring Festival will be in two days."

"How much did he pay you?"

Du Xuan laughed: "I thought you would pay more attention to what else is delicious in the store."

"He can't tell you to work in vain," Lin Tingan said while lowering his head and writing physics, wearing a headset.

Du Xuan: "200 a day, from 08 am to 30:[-] pm, you can eat whatever you want in the store, how about it?"

Lin Tingan made the final calculation: "It's okay, but fortunately, I won't be too busy."

Du Xuan: "Have you finished writing? Is there anything else you can't?"

Lin Tingan looked up at the phone: "I haven't finished writing, I will do the rest. What's the matter? Annoyed?"

"Not annoying." Du Xuan said with a smile, "Hurry up and write."

Lin Tingan put his mobile phone on the table with a small shelf, like a mirror. When he lowered his head to do his homework, Du Xuan could see his smooth forehead and beautiful line of jaw. steady.Du Xuan likes to watch Lin Tingan do his homework, because he looks very down-to-earth at this moment.Du Xuan narrowed the video window to the upper right corner of the screen, and then pulled out the anatomy papers on the phone to read. Lin Tingan could see Du Xuan looking at the phone quietly, with warm eyebrows and eyes, making the old Northwest screaming outside the window. The wind has become the whispering April willow wind.

Lin Tingan made a face at the screen, but Du Xuan didn't respond, probably because he was fascinated by something.So he got up, leaned in front of the phone screen and gently kissed the corner of Du Xuan's lips.

The screen of the mobile phone was warm and as soft as Du Xuan's lips.

Lin Tingan was a little frustrated when he got his final grades. Du Xuan comforted him: "It's pretty good. You only got over 60 in the joint exam. This time you got 31."

"I didn't even enter the first examination room." Lin Tingan said listlessly, "Du Xuan, what do you think, I still won't be able to enter the first examination room in four months."

"In four months, you only need to improve by 11 places. This is not difficult to do."

"But that's just enough for Beihang University's promotion line, and the aircraft major needs a high score."

"Isn't there still four months left? Don't worry, with me, I guarantee you can go."

Lin Tingan shook his head: "You are too busy. I didn't know you were so busy before. You don't need to worry about me. I will try my best. If it doesn't work, I will ask you again."

Du Xuan kissed his forehead: "I'm busy, don't worry."

"No need." Lin Ting'an insisted, "You still have two exams, you should study hard and don't fail. If you get in second place in the city, you will fail in freshman year. You will lose the face of the students in the city. "

Du Xuan smiled: "Wow, then I'm under too much pressure."

Lin Tingan: "Auntie doesn't set a goal for you now, does she? You won't be required to get a first-class scholarship, will you?"

"That's not true. My mother...has changed a lot now. She hardly asks about my studies, but is rather curious about whether I have a girlfriend."

"What did you say?" Lin Tingan's eyes were shining, and he looked at him expectantly.

"I said no, what else can I say." Du Xuan sighed, "I'm really afraid that she will find out something and make trouble with you. Wait until you finish the exam, and I'll tell her after the exam."

Lin Tingan bit his lower lip: "Actually, it's fine if you don't say it."

"Ok?"

"I mean...you don't need to say it... anyway, as long as you don't find anyone else, I don't care how you tell your mother."

Du Xuan jokingly said, "I'll tell you, I have to share a name with you, right?"

Lin Tingan was not amused. He frowned and said, "Your relationship with Auntie has eased up a bit just now. You should be more careful, otherwise you will be unhappy."

Du Xuan's heart softened, and she hugged Lin Ting'an and sighed: "Fuck you so much, if you have time to see how good your Chinese and English are."

At the end of January, when Du Xuan passed the last exam, she was almost disabled. She had always heard that medical school was difficult to study, but now she realized that the term "difficult to study" was too gentle.Liu Zheng asked him, "How do you feel?"

Du Xuan thought for a while, then said slowly: "I came to Beijing Medical University once before I was in the third year of high school. I met a brother who told me that he would rather go back to study in the third year of high school for five years. At that time, I thought he was exaggerating. Doctors are really reserved."

Liu Zheng: "I'm convinced. Just those few top students from other places in our class, like growing up in the self-study room every day, I have hardly seen them in the dormitory building. As for them, they all said that when they saw the paper, they felt I went to fake Peking University. I don’t feel very good, maybe I will fail the freshman year.”

Du Xuan said, "Anyway, I can't score, let's play for a few days first."

On the day Du Xuan finished the exam, she tidied up her dormitory and took a taxi home.Zhou Man hadn't gotten off work yet, so he put his clothes into the room, and when he turned around, he found that the plane that Lin Tingan made for him had been moved, and the nose of the plane was facing the bookshelf instead of the window.He was a little unhappy, and carefully picked up the plane to look at it, for fear that it would be damaged by Zhou Man.

The plane is smooth to the touch and spotless.The plane is next to the window, and the wind is strong in winter. No matter how tightly the windows are closed, fine dust will come in through the window cracks, and there will always be a layer of soil on the table.But his room was clean, even the bookshelf partitions had been wiped clean.There are many welding points on the fuselage of that plane, and the corners are easy to accumulate dust, but I don't know what method Zhou Man used to wipe the corners spotlessly.

Du Xuan got off the plane and looked around the room. The piano that hadn't been touched for several months was wiped clean.He took off the piano jacket, opened the piano cover, and the moment he pressed the first key, the image in his memory rushed to his face, the boy, standing beside him, listening to himself playing "MYSOUL" with red eyes.

Sad or happy, I choose to be happy.

When Zhou Man came back from get off work, she stood outside the door for a long time and didn't dare to open it. She heard the sound of the piano.Since passing the ninth grade, Xiaoxuan has hardly touched the piano, and played it for Lin Tingan a few times.In the past, my favorite thing was to ask Xiaoxuan to play a piece of music when a guest came. The little boy sat in front of the grand piano with his back straight, and played a smooth piece of music in a serious manner.The compliments from the guests made her feel very proud, and she always felt that those compliments would prove Xiaoxuan's excellence.

……

Holding the key, Zhou Man stood in the corridor filled with cold wind, listening to Du Xuan playing one song after another.

When Du Xuan stopped, it was already dark outside the window. He stretched himself and opened the refrigerator door while making a phone call.

Zhou Man answered the phone in a hurry outside the door, and heard Du Xuan say: "Mom, why haven't you come back yet? I see that there are a lot of dishes in the refrigerator. Let's have hot pot tonight?"

Zhou Man blinked: "Okay, you can eat whatever you say, I'll be there soon, do you need to buy anything?"

"Buy some coriander from the fruit and vegetable store in the community, and buy two boxes of mutton slices."

Just as Zhou Man was about to hang up the phone, Du Xuan said, "Mom, go slowly when it's dark. I just saw nails being laid at the gate of the community. Be careful."

Zhou Man held back his breath and said "um" vaguely. After hanging up the phone, he felt a kind of joy and warmth from the bottom of his heart.

Du Xuan put down her phone and stared at the overcrowded refrigerator in a daze.There is only my mother in the house, but the refrigerator has all kinds of vegetables, fruits, cooked food and drinks, and he even dug out two bags of potato chips from the storage basket above the refrigerator.

Mother……

The winter vacation started at the end of January. Du Xuan went to Penumbra to open the store at [-]:[-] every morning, warmed up the coffee machine, and then picked up the goods from the cold chain truck at [-]:[-], and opened the store on time at [-]:[-].

Because of the holidays, the business in the store has become much quieter. Du Xuan is baking the electric heater every day, lying on the counter to read thick professional books. In those days, Du Xuan felt particularly superior.

Lin Tingan leaves school at 04:30 p.m., and can arrive at the store around [-]:[-]. Every time he sees Du Xuan drowsy, he gets angry.So he deliberately didn't wear gloves, and stuffed his cold paws into Du Xuan's collar.Du Xuan would drag him into the counter and kiss him under the cover of the counter, so that the top of his head was steaming.

Lin Ting'an gripped Du Xuan's wrist and complained: "Can you stop flirting with me? I still have three sets of papers in my schoolbag. Fuck me, now the teacher keeps homework."

Du Xuan then drove the person to the seat in the corner, turned around and brought out a sandwich from the counter: "Try it."

"You made it?" Lin Tingan's eyes widened in surprise. The bread dough was ready-made, the mustard sauce was squeezed too much, and the tuna sauce was not spread evenly. Sour, the water from the lettuce leaves was not dried and the bread dough was soaked soft, and the black olives were a bit astringent...but it was still delicious.

Lin Tingan pulled out a piece of ham from the sandwich, and said with disgust, "The emperor's mother."

"what?"

"Queen (thick)!"

Du Xuan couldn't help laughing: "Mum, do you want to eat? If you don't eat, let it go."

Lin Tingan happily ate a sandwich, then laid out a table of papers and buried himself in writing.

When there is no business, Du Xuan will sit opposite him, occupying a little corner to read his books, the small shop is quiet, time flies.

In a blink of an eye, the Spring Festival is here.

On New Year's Eve, Zhou Man and Du Xuan cooked a New Year's Eve dinner together.Zhou Man made pork ribs, braised fish and boiled shrimp, and Du Xuan fried broccoli and lettuce. Zhou Man said, "How can it be an odd number for Chinese New Year? Xiao Xuan, go and make another dish."

Du Xuan said: "Let's make do, let's make do, we believe in Marxist atheism, what is auspicious is not positive."

Zhou Man said seriously: "That's okay, don't make excuses for your laziness, hurry up and cook."

"Ah, why did I do it?" Du Xuan exclaimed, "It would be nice if I can fry those two."

"You figure it out yourself, I don't care." Zhou Man said, Shi Shiran took off his apron and went to the living room to watch TV.

Holding the spatula, Du Xuan felt that this scene looked very familiar. While cracking eggs, he thought, why?I didn't realize until I poured all the tomatoes into the pot. Isn't this the feeling of Lin Ting'an's family?

Du Xuan suddenly turned her head to look at the living room. Zhou Man leisurely held a cup of tea, and the smile on her lips reached her eyes.

When the dinner was served, Zhou Man brought out a large bowl of chicken soup from the casserole. Du Xuan pointed to the table and said, "Six dishes and one soup, seven, odd number."

Zhou Man's face froze for a moment, and he took out a plate of pickles and a bowl of fruit cubes from the refrigerator, squeezed salad dressing on it and said, "Nine, long and long, auspicious."

Du Xuan laughed, and Zhou Man also laughed. The sound of fireworks and firecrackers came from outside the window, and it was very lively.

After eating, Du Xuan slumped on the chair and said, "It's unlucky not to wash dishes on New Year's Eve."

Zhou Man smiled and glared at him: "I didn't ask you to wash the dishes, why are you in a hurry?"

Du Xuan said: "Forget it, mom, let's put it there, it's Chinese New Year, don't be so serious."

Zhou Man thought about it, and decided to go to the living room with Du Xuan to watch TV. Although the party was ugly, it was better than being lively, lively and happy, that's great.

At eight o'clock, the doorbell rang, and Zhou Man frowned immediately.

Du Xuan clicked his tongue: "What is he doing here?"

Zhou Man: "I don't know, go and open the door."

Du Xuan reluctantly climbed up from the soft sofa, with an impatient expression on her face when she opened the door.

At the door, Lin Tingan shouted: "Happy New Year!"

Du Xuan: "..."

"Are you surprised? Are you surprised?"

Du Xuan: "You..."

Ma Jing came from the stairs and pulled the silly son aside: "Go away, it's in the way. Hey, Xiaoxuan, happy new year, baby."

Du Xuan: "Ma, Ma, Aunt Ma?"

Lin Yi followed with a large fruit basket: "Xiaoxuan, happy Chinese New Year."

"Lin, Uncle Lin, ah, happy Chinese New Year." Du Xuan was so shocked that he froze,

Zhou Man hurriedly followed: "Come in, come in, hey, why are you here?"

Ma Jing changed her shoes at the door: "Isn't it just the new year? Anyway, I have nothing to do at home, so come to celebrate the new year."

Zhou Man's face was flushed, and he was so busy that he poured tea and served dried fruit, and called Du Xuan to cut the fruit.She stroked her temple hair, a little at a loss, and said embarrassedly: "Look...my house is a mess, and I haven't even washed the dishes."

"What kind of dishes are you washing?" Ma Jing waved her hand generously, "My house is even messier than this one. No one can enter Xiao An's house."

Lin Tingan didn't have time to let his mother expose his scandals, so he and Du Xuan huddled together in the kitchen to whisper.

Du Xuan: "Why are you here? You didn't say a word, you scared me."

"Surprise?"

Du Xuan stopped what she was doing, looked at Lin Ting'an seriously, and nodded, "I'm very happy."

Lin Tingan turned his head and glanced at the kitchen door. This door faced the porch, and the people in the living room couldn't see it at all.So he rushed over and squeezed Du Xuan by the sink, and kissed him hard: "I miss you."

Du Xuan smiled: "I just saw it the day before yesterday."

"That's what I want."

Du Xuan leaned over, pressed against his lips, pushed the tip of her tongue in, and quickly picked the tip of Lin Tingan's tongue, making Lin Tingan jump up and down.

"You came here again, you scared me last year." Du Xuan laughed softly, "But thank you very much."

"It's not me this time." Lin Tingan shook his hand, "It was my mother who said that we might be a family in the future, so it's better to move around more now."

Du Xuan couldn't help laughing.

Lin Tingan lowered his voice and said, "My mother is here to propose marriage."

Du Xuan: "Are you a bride price?"

Lin Tingan rolled his eyes: "Fuck!"

Du Xuan smiled, holding a bowl of fruit: "Go out."

In the living room, Zhou Man and Ma Jing chatted happily, Zhou Man was so excited that his face was red.The house hadn't been this lively for a long time, and I didn't expect that the old neighbor still missed her, and could come to see her on such a day.

Ma Jing looked at Du Xuan and said, "Xiao Xuan is such a good boy, really, if it wasn't for Xiao Xuan, my silly son... well, don't mention it."

Zhou Man glanced at his son proudly, straightened his waist, and said modestly: "As a brother, you should."

Lin Tingan pouted: Who is his brother!

Du Xuan thought, I have known him for almost six years, when did he call me "Brother"?

Ma Jing said: "Sometimes I think that Xiao An is very lucky to know Xiao Xuan. One needs such a role model in one's life, otherwise there will be no goals."

Zhou Man: "Xiao'an is also a good boy. I heard from Du Xuan that he is going to take the Beihang University entrance examination, and he will not be a special student to take the aircraft major. He is awesome, courageous and determined."

Lin Tingan tried to be modest, but unfortunately not very successful.

A certain emotion surged in Du Xuan's heart, and he couldn't suppress it. He said, "Mom, you two talk, we will go down and put flowers."

Zhou Man said: "It's okay, just pay attention to safety. Go and put the red earth hanging on it. It's auspicious. I wish Xiaoan a success in the college entrance examination."

Before Lin Tingan could say thank you, he was dragged out by Du Xuan: "Where are you going?"

"Follow me." Du Xuan dragged Lin Tingan and ran all the way out of the community. The main road on New Year's Eve was empty. Du Xuan used his mobile phone to call a special car at a high price, stuffed Lin Tingan in and went straight to Penumbra.

"Did you forget to lock the door?" Lin Tingan asked.

"Yeah." Du Xuan didn't dare to look at him, and kept looking out of the car window, Lin Tingan couldn't see his face clearly due to the flickering lights.

The strange stagnation in the car made Lin Tingan feel something, he moved his body uncomfortably, and looked at Du Xuan's profile in the rearview mirror.

The small carriage was filled with the sound of the heartbeats of the two of them.

There was no traffic jam, and we arrived at Penumbra in about [-] minutes. Lin Tingan watched in silence as Du Xuan took out the key and opened the iron rolling door of Penumbra. After getting in, he pressed the light on and lowered the rolling door.

It was very cold in the store, and all the blinds were tightly closed. Lin Tingan stepped forward and hugged Du Xuan from behind, and kissed Du Xuan's neck directly.Du Xuan stood still, took a breath and raised her head, exposing her neck to let Lin Tingan's tongue slip by.

"Du Xuan..." Lin Tingan muttered, "I..."

Du Xuan grabbed Lin Tingan's hand, pulled him to him and kissed him hard.There is a lounge at the back of the Penumbra store. It is not big, but it has a bed, and it seems that Yang Yiming often stays overnight. There is still a half bottle of lubricating oil in the drawer.

Du Xuan pushed and pushed Lin Tingan all the way, but his lips never left him. Lin Tingan's short down jacket had already been dropped by the door, and it was unclear whether it was picked by Du Xuan or he took it off by himself.When his heels touched the side of the bed and he leaned back, his jeans had fallen down to his thighs.

"Xiao An..."

Lin Tingan kicked his legs hard without making a sound, his jeans and long johns were wrapped around his legs, and he couldn't do it no matter what.

"Fuck! Du Xuan!" Lin Tingan yelled.

Du Xuan leaned down to cover Lin Tingan's mouth, touched it all the way with warm hands, grabbed Lin Tingan's waistband and pulled it down hard.

Lin Tingan was in a bit of pain from being scratched by the hard jeans, but the pain was nothing compared to the fire Du Xuan lit on him!

Outside the small window, a firework exploded, and Lin Ting'an saw Du Xuan's face in the brilliant firelight, with his dark eyebrows and eyelashes showing off the blurred fireworks in his eyes.There are fireworks in Du Xuan's eyes, which have never been extinguished for a long time.

Lin Tingan got up, grabbed Du Xuan's clothes and pulled them down. He couldn't control his strength, and almost used all his strength to turn over and press Du Xuan under him.The light was not turned on in the hut, but there were dim street lights and colorful fireworks through the gaps in the louvers. Lin Tingan looked at Du Xuan's fair body, slender and beautiful, fascinated.

"Xuan..." Lin Tingan stuck to Du Xuan in a daze. Du Xuan's neck was slender, and he could feel the pulsation when he passed the tip of his tongue; Thin chest muscles, you can feel the trembling of his body when the breath is sprayed, his lower abdomen is flat and soft...

Lin Tingan slid down, earnestly and hard-working to please him, he felt that he had never been so serious at the end of the exam.

Du Xuan grabbed his hair, gasped for breath, then pulled him up and kissed him fiercely, just as Du Xuan's hand slid across Lin Tingan's back, all the way down.He heard Lin Tingan say, "I...I...I want to..."

"What?" Du Xuan was impatient, his nerves were about to burn out, and he was afraid that if he delayed for a while, he would completely lose his mind and use all kinds of taekwondo uniforms to push down the boy on his body.

"I want you," Lin Tingan gasped, "Is it okay? Is it okay?"

Du Xuan's hand stroking Lin Tingan's back only paused for a second, then continued down without hesitation.

Lin Tingan struggled hard, but found that he couldn't use his strength at all. He twisted anxiously, in exchange for Du Xuan's rubbing harder.

"Du Xuan," Lin Ting'an said with a bit of tears, "I, I want you, okay? Please, brother... brother..."

Du Xuan stood up suddenly, and the "Brother" called into the deepest part of his heart.

It was as if Lin Tingan was still that duckling who could only quack.

It was the same idiot boy who was beaten with a 47-point Chinese test.

It's still the fool who fought with the National People's Congress for a word.

It's still the jealous jar who said aggrievedly, "I didn't go to dinner with other boys."

He has never called himself "brother", this is the first time, Du Xuan's heart softened suddenly.

This young man with a crying voice, he will agree with whatever he says. In this world, as long as he has it, he can ask for it.

Du Xuan hugged Lin Tingan and said softly, "Come here."

……

Blossoming fireworks exploded outside the window, and the bright fireworks became Du Xuan's back. Lin Tingan looked at Du Xuan, who was panting with his eyes closed, and finally calmed down a little bit in his head.

"Du Xuan? Du Xuan?" Lin Tingan held his face carefully and said, "Are you okay, does it hurt? I...I..."

Du Xuan opened his eyes and smiled: "Why are you crying, a Master?"

"Did I hurt you?"

Du Xuan shook her head: "From a medical student's point of view, your skills are terrible, but from a boyfriend's point of view...it's great."

Lin Ting'an wiped his eyes, pulled Renpa into his arms and hugged him: "I didn't expect it to be... like this."

"Didn't you say you came to propose marriage?"

Lin Tingan sniffled: "It's just a marriage proposal, who would have thought that he could go straight to the bridal chamber?"

"Is it not good?"

"it is good."

Du Xuan's hand slowly stroked Lin Tingan's waistline, and he said: "I just can't help it, especially I can't bear it, I thought at the time, I must hug you today, even if I come out on the spot."

Lin Tingan trembled and did not speak.

Du Xuan kissed his sweaty forehead, wrapped the quilt tighter, and said, "Xiao An, happy new year."