Mu Zhiqiu

No.17 Chapter skin

Ziqiu stayed in the studio until very late before returning to the dormitory.As soon as I got back to the dormitory, I started to rummage through the cabinets. I finally found a bottle of chili peppers. I was so happy that I giggled.She opened a bag of instant noodles and put them in a bowl, and then habitually went to get the water bottle. The moment she lifted the water bottle, her heart felt cold.Unwillingly, she shook it vigorously a few times, but there was no movement at all.

Well, eat dry!One bite of crispy noodles, one bite of spicy pepper, a perfect match, she was so satisfied that the corners of her mouth were sweating, and her tongue was smoking.Then after washing under the tap, I fell asleep!

This sleep was solid enough to sleep until the next afternoon.Woke up only to realize I missed graduation.This is not the time to make up for sleep!When she rushed to the auditorium in a hurry, she realized that everyone had left and only a few aunts were cleaning.If you miss it, miss it, then look for a house!Ziqiu ran non-stop to the alleys near the school to find a cheap and affordable nest.Today is the last day, she made up her mind, she can't find a house, and she won't return at night.

Walk the streets and alleys, inquire everywhere, and don't miss any piece of paper posted on the wall.The phone calls made her heart ache as the bills drifted away with the air, invisible, intangible, and silently becoming poor.

Finally, I found a self-built loft on the top floor at night, 200 yuan a month.There is also a kitchen and bathroom. Although simple, the scenery is very good, and it has the momentum of overlooking all the mountains.Moreover, the roof is wide and the space inside is not small. She can arrange it freely. Growing flowers is her favorite thing to do.Maybe you can plant a few grapes and build a shelf.Thinking that she might be able to open her mouth to eat grapes lying on the ground in the future, the more she thought about it, the more proud she became.Although it is an old-fashioned house on the top tenth floor without an elevator, after all, I found a place where I can lie down and dream.

The landlord's aunt is a kind woman in her 50s.With short curly hair and simple and elegant clothes, he is a very enthusiastic person.Ziqiu was very satisfied with his results, and smiled and took his aunt's hand to say goodbye.

She dragged her sore legs and walked down the tenth floor tremblingly.By the time he sneaked back to the bedroom at night, he was already exhausted.

She threw herself on the bed, closed her eyes, and instantly relaxed her whole body.At this moment, she didn't want to move, even if she raised her eyelids or moved her fingers, she felt that she would die.I have to make up for the exhausted vitality, make up for it.She really fell asleep as if dead.

The hunger in her stomach exceeded the warning line, and she was awakened by hunger.She squinted her eyes and looked at the slightly bright ground.

Before dawn, she looked up at the shadow of the sycamore tree outside the window, which had already been engraved on the pale wall by the bright moonlight, and even a tiny fork was so clearly printed.She marveled at the magic of nature.

The sound of gurgling and gurgling came out clearly from the intestines.Let's get up and find something to eat to fill our stomachs.Instant noodles, instant noodles again.Suddenly she hated instant noodles so much that she didn't want to eat them when she heard the name, but she used to like them the most.

It's better than starving to death. In order to live in one breath, you still have to eat.She got up, stretched her limbs, bent over.Pulled out a box from under the bed, took out a bag of instant noodles, and looked at it hesitantly.

how to eat?dry eat!Still eat dry!Can only be eaten dry!What a pity there is no hot water.Why!Try soaking it in cold water, she suddenly had this idea.So, strong curiosity drove her to soak in a bowl of cold water facing the faucet.

She sat by the bed, looking forward to the deserted bowl of noodles on the table.Should it be covered?There doesn't seem to be a difference with or without the cover.

She watched the noodles rise little by little, but luckily the seasoning hadn't been put down yet.What kind of scene would it be if the oil bag was put down, she couldn't imagine the greasy picture that didn't melt.Seeing that half of the bowl of water was sucked dry by the noodles, Ziqiu poured the chili into it and stirred it.

She was a little curious, but also a little disgusted, picked up a noodle and tried to put it in her mouth.The ice was sliding on the tip of her tongue, and she picked up another chili and put it in her mouth, it was the icing on the cake!It feels a little cold, not bad!She felt that her IQ had made a qualitative leap, so she smiled with pride.

She straightened her body, as if she was solemnly starting to do a big and meaningful event.She held the bowl with one hand, picked up the chopsticks with the other, and ate big mouthfuls, looking at the bottom of the bowl after a while.Then again, she was lucky, if it was winter, she couldn't believe how she could swallow this bowl of cold noodles.

When he was full, Ziqiu stared at the little soup at the bottom of the bowl in a daze.Ziqiu doesn't like soup when eating noodles, but Duo'er likes soup best.There is no more buds, no one drinks the soup, I am not used to it.In the past, Duo'er always drank the soup first, ate half of the noodles along the way, and then waited for Ziqiu to beat her.And now, I miss her so much, even though it's only been a month since I left.

The sky is getting brighter, and there are layers of red halos in the sky.After Ziqiu finished eating, he lay down on the bed to rest for a while, stretched his waist, then shook his neck, stretched his muscles and bones and began to pack his luggage.

She bent down, lowered her head, and pulled out several cardboard boxes from under the bed with great effort.Why are there so many, I don’t remember anything!No random buying, no random storage.But facing these four cardboard boxes, she was a little dumbfounded.Calm down!Ziqiu took a deep breath.It's okay, the most are books and picture albums.

When she was arranging the picture album, a picture slipped and fell to the ground.That familiar face came into view, this was the first time she drew his head portrait.Every picture since then has never been drawn more like him.

Yanmu, the pervasive Xu Yanmu!Why is that all you!The passion for packing up was overwhelmed in an instant, she sat on the ground, staring blankly at the faces that looked like but didn't look like.Feeling vaguely sad in my heart, I said I would forget it, and I said I would never miss it again!

Xu Yanmu!Ziqiu shouted silently in his heart.The name engraved in her youth has already been integrated into her life.Tears slid from her sad eyes onto the drawing paper and dripped on the corner of his mouth.

Ziqiu trembled, staring at the glistening teardrops dripping on his mouth, slowly being swallowed up.

Xu Yanmu!Do you know what tears taste like?She covered her face with her hands and kept sobbing.

Yeah, I can't let you see me cry.So ugly, so sad!

Xu Yanmu, I am Ziqiu, Ziqiu who was born in the golden autumn, have you forgotten?Still never took it to heart.

After a while, she lowered her head, picked up the painting drenched in tears, and held it tightly in her hand.Close your eyes, be cruel, and take a deep breath!

"Crack" divided into two!Tears, like sea water breaking a bank, washed over that pale face overwhelmingly.

She frantically tore the pieces of paper, once and again. . . . . . , accompanied by her heart-wrenching cry, seemed to tear them to ashes, and disappeared without a trace.

When the sunlight outside the window fell on her blushing face due to excitement, she suddenly stopped crying.

She raised her head, squinted her eyes with tears in her eyes, and looked up at the bright and dazzling white light. The more she saw, the more blurred and dazzling she became, until she couldn't open her eyes due to the pain. She closed her eyes, There was a vast expanse of whiteness and emptiness in front of my eyes.

She was tired and limp on the ground.It was like a skin that had been drained of blood and had already dried up.

At this moment, for Ziqiu, time is still or has disappeared.She suspends herself in a place that no one can touch.

I don't know how long it took, but there was a chill down my spine.She thought she was dead, but she was still alive.It's like a long dream.Eyes don't lie, and she can see dim light.

She tried to get up, but her numb legs kept moving, being pulled hard by the cold ground.She gritted her teeth, and with her movable arm, supported her upper body and sat up, leaning against the table foot.

A gust of wind blew in, swayed the white shirt, and lifted the white paper on the ground.What are they?She suddenly lowered her head and carefully looked at the scraps of paper on the ground.What's wrong?What happened?My mind went blank for a moment, short-circuited.

Finally remembered, after she shook her head vigorously.Yes, she was also shocked by her previous actions.Really tore him apart!Just like that!His face was gone, out of sight!She panicked and couldn't see her anymore, not even a shadow like that!

No way, how can a person who can't even remember his appearance be said to have been liked by her!Isn't those ten years of time a lie!A lie that even oneself can be deceived!Where are his eyes?What about the mouth?What about the nose?And what about those gorgeous eyelashes?Where did you go?

Under the dim light, she frantically searched among the broken pieces of paper, big and small.Putting it together bit by bit, he gradually appeared.

But the wind continued to blow untimely, she hurriedly used her body to cover up, trying to block the troublesome wind.

By the way, tape, tape.She smiled and read in her mouth.When the wind stopped, she knelt on the ground and frantically searched for tapes all over the room.Pull the switch on each drawer.The feet of the beds crawled in and out.Finally, she found a roll of double-sided tape in the old paint box next to the laundry sink on the balcony.

She was so happy that she giggled loudly.With a trembling mouth, he bit the tape vigorously, carefully collaging the torn paintings bit by bit.As if mending her own shattered heart!

Four years ago, I just entered college.Ziqiu began to look for Xu Yanmu.She occasionally learns about him from a senior in a society.It turned out that he had already done an internship outside and was already engaged.

When she heard the news, she was practicing calligraphy in the classroom.At that moment, my mind went blank.The writing brush in his hand fell to the ground, staining the off-white canvas shoes.She hurriedly picked up the brush and wiped the ink on the shoes with her hands.She wiped the wet eye sockets with her ink-stained fingers, which made her eyes dark and her face smudged.

Cicadas were calling, the sycamore trees outside the window were getting thicker and thicker under the scorching sun, and there were bursts of cheers from the stadium in the distance.Ziqiu didn't hear anything.

At the end of last year, the school organized dinners for various clubs.In order to find out about him, Ziqiu signed up everywhere and joined several clubs, such as Taekwondo, calligraphy and painting clubs, literature clubs, and so on.She shuttles back and forth in the club every day, and she hopes to have a little chance to see him.

Countless nights of anticipation, the silly boy who counted the minutes and seconds, finally met Xu Yanmu who was returning to school from an internship at the party.Ziqiu stood there stupidly.

How long had it been since I saw him? She was so nervous that she couldn't remember how many years it had been, and the minutes and seconds written in the diary were all wiped out.

She stood motionless in the crowd, afraid that he would disappear in the blink of an eye.

The reality is, he's engaged.

I have thought thousands of times in my heart, if I see him again, I must tell him that I like him!But now, she just hoped to see him again and remember him as he is now, that's enough.

His hand has already picked up a beautiful girl, and that girl is Xiao Ruoran she knows.He's grown taller again, matured, and more confident.

Ziqiu was behind the crowd, raising his head with difficulty, standing on tiptoe to see him from the crowd.His charming smile, his eyes that made her unforgettable, was looking affectionately at the girl in his palm.

Ziqiu lowered her head silently, turned around and left, the noise in her ears gradually faded away, she wandered back and forth in the campus as if she had lost her soul.

For so many years, he didn't know.Ziqiu followed his shadow and ran hard in his youth, but he still couldn't catch the strange train of fate.

Who is smiling in your world, who is crying in your world.In the whole ten years of Ziqiu's pursuit, she seems to have forgotten herself.

Now, she must find herself.Reluctantly saying goodbye to this paragraph is just a small episode in his life for him!

Looking at the piece of drawing paper that was glued together, it still looked fragmented.She wiped the sweat from her forehead, and finally put the pasted pictures back into the box, organized them together with the two thick notebooks, and put them in the suitcase.

Just like that, she moved with her big and small bags!

The author has something to say:

"Memory"

in those times that can't go back

most fortunately

I can still remember your deep eyes

What brings me is not only the longing for youth

And hope for future struggles

there is still a place to rest

numerous dreams

your warm smile

will be indelible

only belong to me

The most precious memory