Come as scheduled

Hear.

Maybe he will call himself in a while, but he didn't bring his mobile phone with him.

Xu Ningyi was in the starting position.

What if I missed his call?What if he... doesn't call himself?

The start was a beat slower than others, and the group was third.

Too bad!Xu Ningyi fell to his knees at the finish line, as if all the strength in his body had been lost on the track, and he could no longer lift his head.

His heart was beating so fast, never before, that he had the illusion of vomiting.

"Xu Ningyi——" Seeing that something was wrong with him, Zhou Shu rushed in to help him aside.

He Xuanyu...

"what happened to you?"

Xu Ningyi took the water he handed over, took a sip, and shook his head.

"Run too badly."

Zhou Shu frowned, he knew him too well, definitely not for this reason.Rather, it is because the state is too bad that it runs poorly.He suddenly widened his eyes,

"It's not because of He Xuan—"

"No!" Xu Ningyi interrupted him suddenly, for some reason, he didn't want to hear He Xuanyu's name from anyone else right now.

I don't want to hear them mention that person in a more familiar tone than myself.

Zhou Shu was frightened by his voice.

The stomach started to hurt again, obviously there is nothing wrong with the stomach.

"Sorry." Xu Ningyi covered his head with one hand, "I want to sit by myself for a while."

"...Okay, you...in fact, you didn't run very badly."

Zhou Shu didn't know what the situation was, and he didn't have the confidence to speak.

Xu Ningyi didn't make it to the finals, and he wasn't in the mood to care about the finals. As soon as school was over at noon, he rushed home.

There was no one at home, and there were no missed calls on my phone.

He put down his cell phone and stared blankly at the two picture books on the table, feeling his eyes hurting from being stabbed.

Where did that person go?Did you really leave?Why did you leave without saying goodbye?Why……

He also wants him to listen to the sound of himself playing the piano, wants to cook with him again, and takes No.1 by his side...

Xu Ningyi's vision was a little blurry.

"Ding--"

Xu Ningyi almost tremblingly picked up the text message on the phone and took a look.

Not He Xuanyu.His mother asked him to eat out at noon and go to his grandmother's house in the evening.

Have lunch outside.Xu Ningyi lay on the bed and didn't think about lunch at all. Today was too exhausting, as if a year had suddenly happened in one day.He turned over and slept for a while, then for a while.

He didn't expect to sleep until four o'clock in the afternoon.

Dazed when I woke up.It's four o'clock!When he remembered what happened to He Xuanyu, he immediately got up and ran to school.

"You're finally here! I kept it from you."

Seeing him coming, Zhou Shu breathed a sigh of relief.

"Thank you, is He Xuanyu here?"

"Ah? No..."

Xu Ningyi's eyes suddenly passed him and fixed on one place.

Just now he saw He Xuanyu passing by holding a stack of books.

"Take a vacation for me!"

Before Zhou Shu could answer, he rushed out.

"Hey--"

There was no one there anymore, Xu Ningyi was confused for a few seconds, and then immediately ran to the classroom. He Xuanyu's seat was still placed there, but the desk was already empty.

There should still be books in the morning.

You just read it right!

Where would he be now?

Xu Ningyi looked all over the campus, but he didn't see that person again.

By the way, go to his house!

Xu Ningyi pretended to go out to buy logistical items, and sneaked out of the school.

He Xuanyu's home is not far from the school, but it's not too close to walk.Xu Ningyi was impatient and almost ran all the way.The air in his lungs was slowly squeezed out. He had always hated long-distance running because he hated the feeling of suffocation.

"He Xuanyu—"

Panting, he knocked on the man's door, but there was no response.

"He Xuanyu!"

Xu Ningyi will not give up, he feels that this person is still there, so he will knock until he opens the door.

are you leaving

Why don't you answer me a word!

At least say goodbye to me...

Xu Ningyi took out his mobile phone and called him.

Unable to connect.

The heartbeat was too fast, so the body also flustered, everything was chaotic, flustered, and at a loss.

Did you miss it?Still that person didn't want to open the door.

I do not know how long it has been.

He leaned against the door, sat down slowly, covered his stomach with his hands, buried his head in his knees, and his heart became barren again.

Are they still "missing"?

One of us walks to the left, the other walks to the right, and we will never see each other again.

The author has something to say: How cruel! ∏_∏

☆、Need you now

I don't know from which day, yellow fallen leaves began to appear on the ground, on the trees, and on the shoulders.

Xu Ningyi sat alone in the room, looking at the red doll in his hand, his mind went blank.He Xuanyu left, taking a part of himself, and suddenly disappeared into the crowded crowd.Leaving his body alone, he searched and searched, at a loss.

He would still habitually talk to his deskmate, and the moment he turned around, he seemed to be able to see that person sitting beside him with a smile.But no.

After leaving like this, I didn't wait until midnight to say goodbye, so I could only comfort myself by disappearing.

He hugged the matryoshka in his hand tightly, almost unable to straighten his back.Can't stop thinking about that person.

"Baby, come and eat!"

Xu Ningyi opened his mouth in vain, he stood up, not knowing where to go.

"Why are you so lethargic?" His grandmother picked up a chicken leg for him. "There are so many unhappy people at such a young age."

Xu Ningyi shook his head, not knowing what to eat.

The sky in late autumn gradually became dark. On the way to school, Xu Ningyi raised his head and looked at the gentle clouds in the sky, bit by bit, covering up the last brightness.Riding on the wind, they scrambled to escape to the distance, even if they tried their best, they couldn't catch up to even one.

One spring rain, one warm, one autumn rain, one cold.

It was cold to the bone.

"Xiao Ningzi!" Because of an autumn rain, there was only a complete rest between classes, Zhou Shu told him to go out to the canteen.

"Who do you want to sit at the same table with?"

Zhou Shu talked all the way, but Xu Ningyi only heard this sentence, and he looked at him a little confused.

"Deskmate?"

"Didn't He Xuanyu leave? Do you want to sit with someone?"

Gone, there is no tablemate anymore, this realization made Xu Ningyi's breathing stagnate, and he was almost speechless.

"No, I'll sit alone."

Without He Xuanyu, there would be someone in their class who would not be at the same table.

"Alone?" Zhou Shu seemed hesitant to speak, "Why don't you... sit with me?"

Xu Ningyi glanced at him, Zhou Shu was a little strange this time.

"casual."

It doesn't matter to him, anyway, there is no difference between anyone.

After saying these two words, Xu Ningyi didn't want to speak or think anymore, and the scene in front of him began to distort again, just like he was sitting in front of that person's house that day.

During the mid-term exam in December, Xu Ningyi returned to his original level.

"Your English is terrible this time!"

Xu Ningyi stared at the paper, his mind was empty.

"Failed? What happened?"

The scores for gestalt and reading are almost unimaginable, as bad as the answers.

During the exam, Xu Ningyi couldn't concentrate on reading even one piece of reading. He Xuanyu and He Xuanyu did the most reading before, but now he saw these similar questions, and even had difficulty breathing.

"It won't happen next time, the state is not very good."

He heard himself say, the head teacher sighed, and didn't say much about him.

"It's about to take the senior high school entrance examination, so make adjustments."

Next time won't you...?

Xu Ningyi smiled wryly, and slowly walked back to his seat.

At the parent meeting after the midterm exam, his mother didn't come.

She and her father haven't appeared again for a long time, as if they disappeared.It disappeared again.

Xu Ningyi's life was muddled, dizzy and dizzy, and his insomnia became more and more serious, so day and night were turned upside down, and he even started to sleep on his stomach during class.Sitting next to him, Zhou Shu became more and more worried every day.

Final exams are approaching amidst the chaos.

One day in January, Xu Ningyi was suddenly pulled up.

"Mother?"

This must be the most sober moment for Xu Ningyi in the past few months, he was so frightened that he even forgot about He Xuanyu.

"What’s wrong with you?"

His mother didn't seem to listen to what he said, with red eyes and a fierce expression on her face, she pulled him away.

My head is a mess, there are so many questions, I don't know where to start.

"Where are you going?"

Picked the most urgent one.

"Go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to divorce your father."

His mother spoke in a very steady tone, almost without any intention of discussing.

However, Xu Ningyi felt a numbness in his back, goosebumps all over his body, and his legs went limp.

He'd been staggered out of school by his mother.

"What... what?"

divorce?Did you hear me wrong?

no respond.

Xu Ningyi shook his mother's hand away with all his strength, and threw himself forward, almost falling, but he couldn't care less.

"What did you say!"

"I said divorce your father!"

His mother yelled too.

His dad got out of the car and ran beside them.

Xu Ningyi stood stiffly, his eyes staring at his mother, until he was dragged into the back seat of the car, his gaze didn't move a centimeter.

divorce?

what happened that dayXu Ningyi was in a trance, his memory seemed to be violently disturbed by a long stick, he was in chaos from the inside out, he had no thoughts, and his logic was reversed.

A 15-year-old boy with a lot of strength struggled a lot and was dragged out of the car by his father. Did he yell?What about beating?

I just remember that there are many people going back and forth around me, and someone always asks him whether he is with his father or his mother.

What is there to ask?Xu Ningyi almost laughed, although his laughing was similar to crying.

He sat on the cold seat, staring at the cold wall, in a daze.

At this time, in this situation, what should you do?Should he think about He Xuanyu?Or should we cry?I don't want to cry when I think about it.He even felt that he might not like He Xuanyu that much, after all, it was really strange that he could still ask himself such a question.

But He Xuanyu's parents are also divorced, has he ever been here?Have you ever sat here?Have you ever watched everything happen like an audience like yourself?

It's a pity that that person has already left, otherwise I might have a chance to ask him.

What a clown!Xu Ningyi raised the corners of his lips.

The classmates must have been quite surprised when his mother suddenly dragged him out of the classroom just now. Zhou Shu looked at him very worried at the time. His parents knew his parents very well. Could it be that he already knew?

And Zhou Siqi.

Tsk, I am really slow, I am the last to know everything.

Xu Ningyi didn't know how long he sat there. He didn't feel cold, but he just felt sleepy, his thoughts were stagnant, and he couldn't even open his eyes. The ceiling was circling vigorously, but he wanted to run quickly and stay away from this place.

When he struggled to stand up, his legs went limp.

The ground was very cold, Xu Ningyi was shivering, but he didn't want to wake up immediately.

In a daze, he saw many people running towards him.

Hello!He just stayed in one position for too long and his legs became numb, just lie down for a while and he'll be fine, don't worry about it!real.

do not mind him.

It's a pity that Xu Ningyi no longer has the strength to speak out.

"...Why didn't you tell him in advance! He's only 15 years old..."

When Xu Ningyi opened his eyes, he had a splitting headache and a sore throat. He felt uncomfortable even without taking a breath.In a daze, I heard someone talking outside, it was so noisy...

"...I just saw that he was fifteen, so I thought he should-"

His mother and grandma stood at the door, seeing Xu Ningyi who suddenly came out, they fell silent for a while.

"I...cough," Xu Ningyi coughed twice, "Well, are you going to class today?"

"What class are you in, you should lie down first!"

Grandma drove him into the house.

"I want to go to school." Xu Ningyi blinked, and now he is much more awake, his memory is gradually coming back, but he feels even more uncomfortable.He poked his neck and didn't say anything more.

"...Go, let's go," several people stalemate for a while, and his mother first compromised, "Go in the afternoon after lunch."

"En." Xu Ningyi got the answer he wanted, turned around and entered the room, and ignored people.

When I arrived in the classroom in the afternoon, there were obviously more eyes on him.

An obvious misfortune has happened to a person. As most people who don't know the specific incident, they can only whisper and discuss privately, but they are limited to relationships and cannot ask the person concerned.

Xu Ningyi had already heard some "discussions", but he was not in the mood to care.

Zhou Shu was a person who knew the details, so he was very entangled. Xu Ningyi was silent for the whole afternoon, and he could only keep silent.

What should I do next?This time Xu Ningyi was really confused, with a painful confusion.

If only He Xuanyu was here, he buried his head in his arms, as if someone patted him on the shoulder in a comforting way, is it that person?

Xu Ningyi smiled, feeling like a fool.

After school in the evening, Xu Ningyi went home directly, and only called his mother when he got home.

I don't want to see familiar people, and I don't want to do homework.Xu Ningyi lay on the bed, closed his eyes, and slowly felt the rotation of the world.

Just want to be alone.

Xu Ningyi turned on the phone, looked at the familiar name, and after a long, long time, made a last call to that person.

Can't get through, no one gets through.

He Xuanyu.

Xu Ningyi put on the earphones, and wrapped herself tightly in the quilt.can not breath.

If I ever cross your mind?

You, will you still remember me?

Why... my stomach hurts again.

The next day, Xu Ningyi didn't wake up.His cold got worse, until in the afternoon, when his mother received a call from the teacher in charge, she ran home in a hurry, and immediately took him to the hospital in fright.

The cold came on fiercely and dragged on for a long time.Xu Ningyi lay in the hospital for almost ten days, and his whole body was thinner and thinner. When he came out, it looked like he had undergone weight loss surgery.The baby fat is all gone.

The only good thing is that he passed the final exam.

In the year when the summer is extremely hot, the winter can also be terribly cold.

The moment Xu Ningyi walked out of the hospital, he almost flinched.so cold!

"Are you hungry? What do you want to eat?"

His mother was beside him, asking very carefully.These days, she was really frightened by this child, and she blamed herself more, but she didn't regret it.

"casual."

Xu Ningyi spit out a mouthful of white mist, and buried his head into the collar of his sweater.He is not hungry.

"Don't eat too much and eat something that doesn't grow tall!"

Xu Ningyi couldn't help but reach out and touch his head, isn't it tall?He Xuanyu said before that he has grown taller. Has he grown taller now?He doesn't know, no one has measured it for him.

"Let's eat, whatever you want."

"it is good."

It doesn't often snow in winter in the south, and the coldness penetrates into the bones. Xu Ningyi raised his head and looked at the gray sky outside the hospital that he hadn't seen for a long time, as if it had been a lifetime ago.My heart was empty, but it became heavier.He closed his eyes wearily.

We walked through spring and summer together, but finally missed it in autumn and winter.

The winter vacation started with gray like this.

The author has something to say: It’s been a long time since I wrote this chapter...I stumbled and didn’t know what to say...>_<…

needyounow is very suitable for the mood of Xu Ningyi's little friend!

☆, helpless

Zhou Shu asked Xu Ningyi to go out to play during the winter vacation, but Xu Ningyi's mother didn't stop him, she just told him to go home for dinner on time.

"Have you recovered from your cold?"

Zhou Shu was startled when he saw him for the first time, after all Xu Ningyi suddenly lost weight.

"Almost." Xu Ningyi sniffed, the damp and cold air entered the nasal cavity, and the cold entered the lungs.He buried his face in the scarf, only showing a pair of beautiful black eyes, "Where are you going?"

"I thought you didn't ask!" Zhou Shu glanced at him, this man looked stupid, Zhou Shu was not used to it, "Go to school first, Zhou Siqi is there to help the teacher fill out the form."

Zhou Siqi's handwriting is good, and she is also the party secretary. She is often arrested by their head teacher to do coolies, but at this time it seems more honorable.

"And Qian Jue seems to be playing basketball at school."

"Qian Sui?"

Didn't that person say he has a girlfriend?

Zhou Shu shrugged, saying that he didn't know what was going on.

They just walked to the basketball court when they saw Zhou Siqi standing under the basketball hoop, staring at the court closely, her face was flushed red from the cold.

The two looked at each other and ran towards her.

"You guys are here!" Zhou Siqi glanced at her brother, and fixed her eyes on Xu Ningyi, "Are you... have you recovered from your cold?"

With the same question as Zhou Shu, Xu Ningyi smiled, "Almost."

"Hi!" Qian Jue ran to several people, saw Xu Ningyi obviously stunned for a moment, and immediately greeted them with a smile, "Leaving?"

"Yes."

"Then goodbye!"

"OK Bye Bye."

After the three of them walked out of the school, Zhou Shu couldn't help asking Zhou Siqi.

"You still like him? Doesn't he have a girlfriend?"

Zhou Siqi rolled his eyes at him.

"That's not his girlfriend, it's a distant relative or something. I've asked him."

"So... everything is back to the original point? You continue to chase him?"

"No," Zhou Siqi shook her head, her expression a little lonely, "I can't be with him, at most we can be friends."

"You confessed again?" Zhou Shu asked in surprise.

"What do you mean again!" Zhou Siqi gave him a kick, "It's not a confession, I just don't know how to tell him what I like, and then... Oh, it's impossible anyway, I'm with him!"

"He has someone he likes?"

"I don't know, it has nothing to do with this."

Zhou Shu shook his head, expressing that he did not understand.

"where to?"

Xu Ningyi finally interrupted.

"Hmm..." The three of them fell silent suddenly, and the two boys looked at Zhou Siqi, "Why don't you... go to Zhou Shu's house! He's been doing a jigsaw puzzle recently, so let's do it together?"

Xu Ningyi had no objection, and Zhou Shu didn't care.

Zhou Shu's mother was at home, but they were no strangers to each other. His mother warmly poured tea for the three of them.

Zhou Shu's jigsaw puzzle was very abstract, Xu Ningyi couldn't help but twitch his mouth when he saw it, it was so abstract that he couldn't tell what it was.

"Don't look for letters!" Zhou Shu sat down on the floor, very rascal, "Spell it directly, or you will fail!"

"Row."

The three of them fought for a third of the time, and they couldn't find their eyesight. At night, Zhou Shu's mother wanted to keep the two of them for dinner, so she called the parents on both sides.

"Is your mother okay?"

Zhou Shu's mother picked up a piece of pork ribs for Xu Ningyi.

"Fortunately."

Xu Ningyi watched the news on TV.

"Oh, it's not easy for me to call and ask. I didn't expect your parents to still..."

Zhou Shu glanced at his mother, Xu Ningyi smiled and shook his head, "My mother hasn't changed much from before."

News from various places was broadcast on the TV, Xu Ningyi's eyes were almost fixed on the TV.

Is there even a chance to see He Xuanyu on TV news?He couldn't help thinking.

Where is He Xuanyu?Is it possible for him to see himself?

Near the end of the new year, there are a few pieces of snow in the sky, and every household is lively. You may hear the sound of firecrackers when you stay at home. From this winter vacation, Xu Ningyi suddenly fell in love with TV news. Looking at the camera from the reporter in this place The reporter who turned to that place, looked at all kinds of people behind the reporter, but never saw the one he wanted to see.

"Why don't you go to your grandma's place to celebrate the New Year this year?"

Thirty years ago, his mother asked him.The house is deserted, like a gray winter sky.

"it is good."

Xu Ningyi has grown taller. Although no one pays attention to him anymore, when he stood up, he could already get the summer school uniform hidden on the top shelf of the cabinet.

"Baby, do you want to go out and set off firecrackers?"

On New Year's Eve, my mother went to sleep in the next room at eleven o'clock, leaving only him and his grandmother to watch the party.

"No."

Xu Ningyi nestled next to the grill.For some reason, he felt that he was more afraid of the cold than before.

"Last year you went out to release it."

"This year is different from last year."

His grandmother sighed softly, "Okay, then I'll go to sleep in the next room."

"Well," Xu Ningyi smiled slightly at the old lady, "Go to sleep, I'm not sleepy yet, I'll sleep when I get sleepy later."

The old wooden door made a "creaking" sound, and Xu Ningyi was the only one left in the room.

The sound of firecrackers outside the window kept ringing. Xu Ningyi walked to the window. Firecrackers are not allowed in the city, but this small town still follows the old habits, and there is no way to change it for a while.

happy New Year!

Xu Ningyi said silently.

The phone on the table vibrated suddenly, Xu Ningyi picked it up and took a look, Zhou Siqi's, Zhou Shu's, um... Xu Zilin?How did she know her cell phone number?Xu Ningyi couldn't laugh or cry, and blessed these people one by one, and saved Xu Zilin's phone number by the way.

With a slip of his hand, he saw the name engraved in his heart again.He Xuanyu.

[Happy New Year, He Xuanyu]

He couldn't help but want to send a message to that person. After thinking about it, he deleted the words one by one.After such a long time, I don’t know how I feel about that person anymore, I just know that I can’t forget him, and I start thinking about him unconsciously, recalling the past, cooking, playing the piano, writing English, chatting...they always talk so much It can be said that I don't know what to say, but my heart is extremely peaceful.

Calculated, the time they spent together was really not that long, only half a year, but to Xu Ningyi, it was so unforgettable.Feelings are really weird.

The clock struck twelve.Another year passed.

Xu Ningyi raised the corners of his lips, this year seemed to have passed a century.He took a deep breath,

"Happy New Year--"

After shouting, Xu Ningyi slammed the window shut, quickly turned off the lights and TV, jumped onto the bed, and tucked himself tightly into the quilt.

On the ninth day of the ninth day, the wind suddenly picked up.

There were news from other provinces on the TV, Xu Ningyi put the novel in his hands aside, there were still four days to start school, half of the homework for the holidays was left.

It's almost time to start work.

Xu Ningyi picked up the phone, since He Xuanyu said that he likes to send text messages, he hasn't opened QQ again, maybe rushing homework today is boring, he opened QQ again after a long absence, and clicked on the chat history between He Xuanyu and him.

Read each word carefully, as if you are still waiting for news from him.

Seeing Good Night, Xu Ningyi slid down another line, his face froze suddenly.There is another message below.

[The key to my house is in the outer pocket of your schoolbag, have you seen it? ]

He never used the small pocket on the outside of the schoolbag, because he thought it was too small and unsafe, so he regarded it as a decoration.

It wasn't until he saw his own face on the screen that Xu Ningyi suddenly jumped off the sofa as if he had been burned.

The key to He Xuanyu's house?

He frantically opened his schoolbag, and there was indeed a key lying inside.

The key to He Xuanyu's house!

Xu Ningyi looked at the key in his hand, his mind went blank, and he took a step back.

By the way, go to He Xuanyu's house!

Xu Ningyi went around the house twice, and took away a copy of "Go Left, Go Right" in the room.

It turned out that He Xuanyu had given him the keys to his house and his heart. No wonder he opened the door for him that afternoon and looked at him with such surprise and a little sadness. It turns out that they have been missing them all this time. It turns out...Xu Ningyi didn't know Why, I thought about a lot of things in an instant, felt my heart throbbing, and my eyes began to twist again.He ran to make his heart beat faster so it wouldn't hurt so much.

Their house was a little far away from He Xuanyu's house, but Xu Ningyi still ran over like this, without wearing a coat, and didn't feel cold.I even sweated a little at the end.

Will there be anyone inside?

Xu Ningyi's hands were trembling when he opened the door.

What if the key is useless?

Fortunately, this key can still open the door, Xu Ningyi heaved a sigh of relief, and carefully pushed the door open, almost devoutly.

No one is inside.There were no books either, it was empty and there was only dust left.

I couldn't tell whether it was disappointment or what, but Xu Ningyi's mood sank again. He walked into the house, searching every corner of the house little by little, imagining the scene of He Xuanyu's life in it, the places he walked, and the places he walked through. He has also been through it before, and this knowledge makes him feel satisfied.

The sofa where the two sat together, the bedroom where the two slept, the dining table, the kitchen...

The dust flutters, and even every time you walk a certain distance, a cloud of dust will be raised.Xu Ningyi was like masochistic, walking around while coughing, feeling satisfied instead.

He walked again and again, not knowing how to stop.

Finally, in the room he had never entered before, he saw a Chinese book.

This room is very empty, and the floor is also thick with dust, the kind that leaves footprints every step of the way. There is only one table in the whole room, and it is hard to tell what it was used for before.Xu Ningyi walked over and picked up the Chinese book.

It still has the chat content of their class.Xu Ningyi couldn't help but smile.

Xu Ningyi started from the first page and turned back page by page, carefully reading each page.Because there is He Xuanyu's handwriting inside.The yellowed pages of the book, whether it was notes or annotations, the handwriting gave him the illusion that He Xuanyu was still by his side.

In the blank space of the last page, there is a paragraph of text.Xu Ningyi recognized He Xuanyu's handwriting at a glance, it was still such a beautiful, eloquent half-page paper.

It was written for myself.

"To Xu Ningyi..."

These words suddenly pierced his eyes, Xu Ningyi was taken aback, and closed his eyes.

Nothing to do, nothing to do!

Whether He Xuanyu's departure, or the divorce of his parents.

There is nothing to do.

The author has something to say: writing the next chapter

☆, beginning and end

"To Xu Ningyi:

I always knew that I was an irresponsible person. "

Xu Ningyi started to have a stomachache from then on.

I heard that when people have heartache, they will have stomach pain. I don't know if it is true, Xu Ningyi squatted down slowly, his eyes were on the paper, He Xuanyu's handwriting was row after row, but he couldn't understand what was written on it.

"I don't know if you can see this passage, I don't want to say goodbye to you, and this is not a farewell book for you. I hope to appear in your life and then disappear, naturally like a stranger. In this way, maybe you It will be better."

"Don't think about where I went, let alone look for me, just pretend that everything is over."

everything is over...

Xu Ningyi stumbled to his feet, as if fleeing from something, he could no longer stay in this house, this place has become a deep sea, without any air, suffocating him.

No matter what you encounter, get into No. [-] Middle School well, don't be like him.

This is what He Xuanyu wrote to him at the end.

He ran wildly on the street and met one after another pedestrian. He thought that he was not as sad as he imagined. He thought that this page would be revealed after a while, because he was a person who could turn a blind eye to pain.But at this moment, everyone seems to have become He Xuanyu, the front of the store, the zebra crossing, the newsstand, the window of the bus... the world suddenly becomes scary.

They looked at him indifferently, as if looking at a stranger.

Sadness was like the missing love before, which suddenly buried him... When he came back to his senses, Xu Ningyi stood in front of the bar again.The memory of the midsummer is now preserved until the cold winter.

improvise.

Xu Ningyi saw its name this time, and improvised, He Xuanyu had told him.

He opened the door and it was still deserted. The boss sat behind the bar and wiped the wine glasses.

"You are……"

Xu Ningyi moved violently, the boss looked up, and immediately stood up without wiping the wine glass.

"He Xuanyu is gone."

He walked to the bar step by step and sat down. Has He Xuanyu sat here before?Or his side?

"This is the kind of wine he orders most often." After an unknown amount of time, a glass of beautiful colored liquid appeared in front of his eyes, "Have a taste?"

Xu Ningyi's eyes moved, he raised his glass, and after taking a sip, he couldn't continue.

In the deserted bar, he suddenly fell off the high stool and leaned against the bar counter, weeping uncontrollably.

This was the first time he shed tears in several months. He didn't know why, but suddenly he was crying out of breath, painful and depressed, wishing he could die.

Beginning and end, like a stranger?

How can it be?

Xu Ningyi cried in pain, he had no image, he didn't care about his face, he only had the sound of gasping, but even the others were moved by it.

He fell into a vortex named He Xuanyu.

He just hoped he wouldn't leave without saying goodbye so he could see him again.

That irresponsible person.

That day, Xu Ningyi was almost drowned by his own tears, and even if he didn't want to cry, he still couldn't stop crying, and he couldn't stop sobbing, and finally he went to the sink to vomit before he gradually got better.

The discomfort accumulated over the past few months made him recover after eight o'clock in the evening.The bar on the ninth day of the ninth day is still empty even at night.

A stubborn kid who can endure and love.

Brother Ming, the bar owner, said so.

After crying and vomiting, Xu Ningyi became familiar with the boss.

"I just self-medicate."

Xu Ningyi retorted that he looked very embarrassed now, but his spirit was much better than before.

"Where do you know how to heal?" Brother Ming laughed, "It's just that you are more used to burying."

Xu Ningyi didn't understand.

"A person like you is the most prone to accidents," Brother Ming sighed, as if thinking of something, "everything is hidden in the deepest ground, and the surface is still rational, when the time comes when the underground bomb explodes, 'bang' !"

He made an explosive gesture, although his tone was ridiculed, there was obvious sadness.

Xu Ningyi didn't speak.

"He Xuanyu is a wanderer," the boss sighed, stopping occasionally, taking some things and leaving, he is that kind of person.

"Actually, He Xuanyu said goodbye to you before."

"what?"

"In this bar, on your birthday, that song."

Xu Ningyi closed his eyes, is it that early?Yes, so early, He Xuanyu had already said goodbye to himself.Are you too dull or just refusing to think?

"Do you have a cigarette?"

Brother Ming was taken aback for a moment, the child's thinking was jumping, he frowned slightly, and then smiled again.

"Yes, but He Xuanyu wouldn't want you to smoke, would he?"

Xu Ningyi looked up at him.

"He said you are a top student, isn't that a top student?"

"No...not a top student," Xu Ningyi curled his lips, but he didn't ask for another cigarette. He jumped off the high stool and said goodbye to him, "I'm going home first, it's past eight o'clock."

"Well, welcome to come often in the future."

On the second day, Xu Ningyi's unhealed cold recurred again. Although it was not as severe as the last time, it was enough for him to suffer.

[I traded picture books for your Chinese books]

[Goodbye, He Xuanyu]

The last semester of the third year of junior high school, the last semester of junior high school.There are four exams in the [-]th Middle School, two monthly exams, one midterm exam, and one senior high school exam, which constitute the basic framework of this semester.

Xu Ningyi's English became the subject that held him back again, and this time it was the kind that even he himself had given up on.

The timing of the first monthly exam is very delicate to Xu Ningyi, it's the last day of March.

The day you change seats.

Xu Ningyi was in a trance all day during the exam.

After the exam, I knew I was afraid that I was going to die.

When the report card came out, Xu Ningyi could only smile wryly, after the whole grade was [-].

Sure enough, it was another achievement that had never been done before, and 150 people were withdrawn.In fact, it's not bad in their class, but compared to Xu Ningyi before, this score is something he never thought of.

Now even their class teacher couldn't sit still.

"...Your future is your own. You were originally a student who could get into the key class of the No. [-] Middle School. Now that you are like this, you may not be able to get into the No. [-] Middle School."

Xu Ningyi was in a daze, thinking of He Xuanyu's words in the language document.

Study hard to get into No. [-] Middle School.

"Teacher, please do one thing." Xu Ningyi suddenly raised his head and looked at the old class with firm eyes, "Don't tell my mom about the results this time."

Lao Ban frowned.

"I will definitely return to normal next time. I don't want to make my mother feel bad."

"Oh, that's fine, anyway, next time