Migratory bird

On the day of the end of the college entrance examination, Lin Ye rejected all the invitations to the carnival crawling party, and slept alone at home in the dark, Lin Shuangzhi asked him to get up for dinner several times, but Lin Ye didn't answer.

It's so cool.The moment he left the examination room, he felt that all the strings bound to his body had disappeared, and he was about to collapse without support. Lin Yiyue helped him up, and led Lin Ye around in a big circle on a motorcycle. After several red lights, when being chased by a police car, Lin Yiyue flipped back his middle finger smartly, and said loudly, "I'm happy that my younger brother has finished his college entrance examination! Stop chasing him and take a break!"

Lin Ye also imitated him and yelled loudly in the back seat. In fact, he couldn't hear any sound, he couldn't hear his own yelling, he couldn't hear the roar of the locomotive, and he couldn't hear the sound of waves hitting rocks.He felt that he was in the boundless wilderness, only the constant speeding up and pounding heartbeat nearly shattered his eardrum.

He breathed a sigh of relief, his eyes glistening with the setting sun.

From the second day of the holiday, Qin Zong came to see him more frequently, and looked out the window from time to time, not knowing what to look at.Lin Ye happened to be happy to have someone to accompany him, and after spending some time running to several banks to distribute the inheritance and the small treasury he saved, Bai Xi also called, talking about filling in volunteers and studying abroad.

Lin Ye wants to study Chinese, and plans to apply for J University. His score is terribly high if he guesses correctly. It may break the liberal arts record in S city in recent years. The total score is not low, and the top three in the city is more than enough.Bai Xi also talked about other people's achievements, some of them were familiar and some were unexpected.

The location of the study tour is set in Seattle, which will last for one month and depart in a few days.Liao Tiancheng packed his luggage early on and was looking at travel guides. He really didn't bring Yu Baolin with him, saying that he was going on a romantic trip with men.Lin Ye is also slowly packing up his things. He has a lot of things, and it's too obvious that he can't clean them up. He plans to send them directly to the school and ask Qin Zong's friends to help sign for them.

He left and never came back.

There were two elder brothers and Qin Zong who carried out this plan for him. Lin Yiyue surprisingly didn't jump, and silently helped Lin Ye clean up these things, and even spent money to buy some new ones for him.At first Lin Ye didn't want it, but Lin Yiyue said seriously: "If you go to a new place and start a new life, you have to use new things. This place is not suitable for you, so it's okay if you don't come back." , "You fucking come back to have a look during the holidays." Lin Ye couldn't laugh or cry, and it took a lot of promises for Lin Yiyue to calm down.

Lin Ye is also worried about how he can come out of the closet so that he doesn't look so shocking, but after much deliberation, he really can only leave a "confession" and hope that his aunt won't go all the way north to find him and beat him up .

Qin Zong wanted to take Lin Ye to the supermarket again, this was the third time this week, and he was going to fly to Seattle tomorrow night, so he was always afraid of missing something.Before going out, Luo Yan stuffed him another 100 yuan for fear that he would not have enough money, Lin Ye reluctantly followed downstairs, but Qin Zong stopped abruptly, and Lin Ye poked his head curiously.

It's Zhang Zhuo.

I haven't seen him for a long time. Zhang Zhuo has lost some weight. This slight change made the lines of his face sharper. There are thick dark circles under his eyes, and he is thin and haggard.

Before Lin Ye could express his subconscious concern, Zhang Zhuo asked, "Can we talk?"

"No." Qin Zong frowned and pulled Lin Ye aside, his expression dark and terrifying.

"You've been staring at me like a thief for the past few days," Zhang Zhuo hooked the corners of his mouth mockingly at Qin Zong, "Have you passed?" reason.

"Have you been here these days?" Lin Ye asked.Zhang Zhuo nodded slightly, he has been standing in the dark, like a taciturn and stubborn cypress.

"Then let's go." Lin Ye lightly brushed Qin Zong's hand away. They hadn't seen each other for a long time. If they didn't see each other today, they might not see each other again in the future.

The two walked together silently, and Zhang Jue bought two dozen wines when passing by the convenience store, just like the New Year a few years ago, when Chen Yushan would keep sending messages to Lin Ye, urging them to go back soon.The summer night was sticky and hot, and they just walked unsteadily, and no one opened their mouths.

The floor-to-ceiling windows of Zhang Jue’s house have always been the place with the best view in the school district. For example, on a clear night like tonight, they can clearly see the bustling night scene and landmarks in the city center. They sat on the ground with their legs curled up. His mouth circled around but still nothing came out.

He wanted to ask Lin Ye if he still liked him, if he could break up with Qin Zong, and which university he wanted to go to.

He didn't open his mouth, and Lin Ye didn't open his mouth, just drinking in silence, one can after another.He looks at the night scene, but never looks at those buildings that are lower than the current height, which will make his fear of heights produce a sense of weightlessness, and he will think that he is falling, and he will fall into the eyes of the people around him and cannot escape. .

How long have they been gone?two months?Or three months?

At this moment, he enjoyed this kind of solitude very much, and was grateful that Zhang Hao didn't ask anything. He felt a little drunk, and fell asleep with his chin on his knee.

"Lin Ye," Zhang Zhuo finally said while staring at the moon in the sky, "Is he treating you well?"

Lin Ye was stunned for a while before realizing that Zhang Zhuo was referring to Qin Zong. He didn't want to explain, and his eyes slightly bent: "What answer do you want from me?" He licked the foam from the corner of his mouth, "Then I Let me ask you, do you think Liu Xu treats you well?"

Without waiting for Zhang Zhuo to answer, he continued on his own: "I think this girl treats you very well, so do you like her? From the heart, the kind that cannot be controlled."

"I don't think you have reached that level. That's how I feel about Qin Zong." He purposely said it vaguely.

Lin Ye lit a cigarette, and his voice floated in the night like the smoke: "Zhang Yu, I don't know what you are thinking a lot of the time, you have a lot of things that ordinary people may not be able to get in a lifetime, BMW fragrant cars, high-end apartments, say Traveling as soon as you go, a very smart mind and hundreds of millions of property that you are forced to inherit in case you fail to start a business or study, it is very likely that your ex-girlfriend list will include Bai Yueguang that others can’t ask for, but you still live. It's borderline, and I don't know what you want."

"You don't have that desire to struggle like hell."

"But I do, I long to be loved." Lin Ye breathed out, "Everyone longs to be loved, but I am special, and my desire may be a little bit more than ordinary people," he gestured drunkenly One range is the range of a sea of ​​lights between this building and that building, "If I don't have love, I will die."

"So Zhang Zhuo, what's the point of that question you asked?" Lin Ye frowned slightly, he looked like he was smiling, but it made people feel extremely sad and sad, "My heart is just as big as a fist , but the love I'm absorbing from the feeling is a thin layer that can't be thinner."

"There are also a lot of 'they' and 'others' who say they like me and love me, so how many of them are true?" Lin Ye sighed, "Zhang Zhuo, what ordinary people dare not think about, do you think I dare? ?Because I’m not just a man, I’m gay—what I want is love itself, longing, unbridled desire.”

"At least people like Qin Zong persisted for a while, and made me feel sincere. He can really like me, love me, and fuck me."

"Can you?"

Lin Ye laughed at himself: "So it's not a question of good or bad at all, it's..."

"I can." Zhang Zhuo looked at the shadow on Lin Ye's face and said.

Lin Ye was stunned for a long time, and finally hooked the corner of his mouth, picked up the beer bottle and touched the other's can: "Zhang Zhuo, you are drunk."

He was answered with an urgent and fierce kiss.

It wasn't kissing at all, it was biting and tearing indiscriminately. They knocked over many cans, and the bitter taste of beer filled the nostrils.Lin Ye felt wet under his body, completely submerged in the water, and his senses were blurred.

Suddenly, he felt a sharp pain from something stabbed into his lower body mixed with beer. He couldn't even breathe out the pain, and opened his mouth to scream silently.When it was not so difficult later, Lin Ye smelled the smell of blood in a trance, and then something bigger bumped in.

He felt a wedge gouged in, and he was torn from it.

Lin Ye pinched him and pinched him, scratching his back crazily. Zhang Zhuo would only hit harder when he felt the pain. Lin Ye felt that his internal organs were going to be mixed together.

Zhang Zhuo's eyes were red, and his hands brushed every inch of his skin carelessly, especially on the ribs. It was a large tattoo, and the border was the lines of the world map, but there was a long and hideous word in the middle, "the moon shines on it." Seeing Lin Ye's pale body almost reflecting light, he couldn't see clearly, he was so anxious that he grabbed the leg of the person under him, and exerted more force, Lin Ye was too tight, he couldn't goug him, just like his stubborn mouth , will not say "like" again.

Lin Ye was not hard from beginning to end.

He resisted violently at the beginning, hitting him and hammering him non-stop, throwing whatever he touched, bloodstains from Lin Ye's forehead were left on Zhang Zuo's forehead.But in the end, he just gritted his teeth and endured, without saying a word, just stared at the scenery outside the window, Zhang Zuo could only see the neon spots in his eyes, gray, ruined, and lifeless.

Zhang Zhuo withdrew from Lin Ye's body, seeing his mottled and chaotic buttocks suddenly at a loss, he was silent for a while, lowered his head and looked at him quietly, Lin Ye and his eyes were staggered, and his completely numb nerves did not know what to do After a long time of recovering slowly, something hot hit her shoulder.

Zhang Zuo cried.

Lin Ye, who didn't cry out a word of pain and didn't shed a single tear during the wild scene just now, his eyes were red.

He pushed Zhang Jue away, wiped his body indiscriminately, put on his crumpled clothes and went downstairs, where he finished smoking the remaining half pack of cigarettes downstairs.

This is sex?

Or between them, there can only be such sex.