[Gintama] Redemption

The virtual image is like a long, long dream.

In fact, he seldom dreamed in the past, and even the times of rest were pitifully seldom.However, when sleepiness struck like a beast, he was still pulled into a huge black abyss.

In the dream, he saw another self.The man stood not far away, as if he had been waiting for a long time, and he showed a friendly and kind smile the first second he saw him.The face that looks very familiar seems very strange at this moment, only the smile on the corner of the mouth clearly shows that it is not the person.

Xu understood in an instant - this is probably another new personality born in his body.

Human beings are a kind of contradictory existence, pulling and tearing themselves all the time, and then on the verge of collapse, stepping into the other side from which there is no turning back.

Just like him who is immortal, he has tried to use countless splits to alleviate the pain in his heart for thousands of years.What is the experience and effect in it, only you can perceive it, and you can't tell or understand it.

Only this time it seems to be different.He seemed to be imprisoned in a dark and narrow place. He could only see a glimmer of light in front of him, but he couldn't find a way out anyway.

It was probably at this time that he suddenly understood why every personality was struggling desperately to occupy the body.

"You are the same as them, do you want to replace them?"

As if seeing another personality for the first time in thousands of years, Xu greeted him with words that he felt were going to be old fashioned.He originally thought that the other party would be agitated and excited, and then he rushed over and tore himself apart, trying to achieve the purpose of controlling his body.

However, the personality in front of him just kept smiling, and even tilted his head slightly: "So what if it is, so what if it's not?"

"Unfortunately, you will not succeed."

After hearing this, the other party didn't feel depressed at all, and even smiled brighter than before, "If you don't try, how do you know I won't succeed?"

This is a different personality - Xu is so defined.

Unlike other personalities, he doesn't seem to be overly ambitious, but just calm and freewheeling.Compared with the blood and hostility that covered his whole body, he was more like the only kindness and hope left in his heart.

Xu laughed at the thought.

To say that viciousness is his specialty, but kindness has long since disappeared.As early as a long time ago, that thing was thrown into a remote corner to rot and mold.I don't know why this personality was born, and it is far from the countless previous selves.

Even though he has always regarded himself as God, this is the first time he feels confused and at a loss for God's will.

Xu didn't know what kind of mentality he should have to look at this situation, in fact he could only watch helplessly, there was nothing he could do.

During that time, what Xu did the most was to compete with this personality for a body.Sometimes he wins, sometimes the opponent wins.Gradually, the number of times he competed for success became less and less, and the time became more and more limited to short nights.

Xu felt exhausted physically and mentally like never before.

As the main personality, he has no advantage in the struggle with the sub-personality.That feeling is very much like death after every rebirth, knowing that the ending is doomed to failure but having to fight desperately.

What will happen if this development continues, they both know each other well.

"What on earth do you want to do?" After this kind of thing happened too many times, Xu finally opened his mouth, "Now I can't kill you, and you can't kill me either. Why, do you want to die with me?"

"I just want to see, this society, this country, this planet, this universe."

It's strange that that personality actually thought for a long time before answering, "I want to know what it's like to be alive, what it's like to be yourself instead of being attached to you, that's all."

It was rare for him not to speak sarcasm, not because he was speechless, but because he suddenly remembered his original self.

I don't know why he exists in this world.

When he first arrived, he was a clean sheet of paper, full of curiosity and longing for everything around him.He has always worked hard to grow with such positive emotions, until one day the people around him discovered his abnormality.

The original innocence was instantly dyed black because of a stain, and it could never be restored to purity.

Immortal and immortal, he was regarded as a terrible monster by everyone.Even if they tried their best to explain, these people would not listen at all, they would just kill themselves with all possible methods, and then watched him resurrect again and again in extreme horror.

and then?

I don't know when, his blood slowly began to coagulate, and his heart gradually became cold.He broke free from the prison that people bound him, and pierced a stranger's chest with his nails that hadn't been trimmed for a long time.

Then again?

He became the leader of Tianzhaoyuan, and with this special physique of immortality, he was active on the battlefield full of corpses, completing wonderful instant kills time after time.And the Heavenly Daoists didn't seem to trust him at all, they were cautious but tried their best to restrain themselves.

They use each other, and have reached a delicate balance through this tacit relationship for thousands of years.

So what is it like to be alive? - To live is a pain.What kind of experience is eternal life like? ——All it can bring is endless torture.

Xu really wants to tell the other party the answer to this question with his own experience, but he clearly knows that this personality will not just believe it so easily.He just didn't expect that when he wanted to die, there was another self who wanted to live.

Xu suddenly felt at a loss, he could only look down at the blue blood vessels on his wrist.There is inexhaustible blood flowing in it, and at the same time, it also hides the secret of immortality.He had hated the blood once, and he still hated it now.

After watching it like this for a long time, at a certain moment, he suddenly lowered his hands and refused to speak anymore.