[Gintama] Redemption

Xu also seemed to have had a very, very long dream.

In the dream, I seem to have returned to the moment when I just rushed out of the prison, with ragged clothes, disheveled hair, and the nails on my hands and feet have grown to a terrifying level.

He was walking barefoot on a long road.There were corpses piled up on both sides of the road, he didn't seem to see it at all, he just walked mechanically, and he didn't know how long he walked.

Someone behind him seemed to be calling him, not the nickname of the Heavenly Daoist, but his original name.Xu was confused for a moment, then turned around as if suddenly awakened, only to find that there was still no one behind him.

There were only countless corpses lying on the ground, staring at him with empty eyes.

Xu opened his eyes in panic.

The dead soldiers of the Heavenly Dao Congregation should be dealing with his body, but they didn't expect the dead man to get up suddenly.They surrounded him who was standing in the flames. They clearly had the upper hand, but they still couldn't stop the trembling in their hands.

He looked at the silver-haired man standing not far away, and he could clearly see the hope in the man's eyes.This kind of expression is very similar to that of a child who sees the candy in the adult's hand, it is obviously extremely obvious but wants to hide it carefully.

He raised the corner of his mouth slightly, "It's the first time we meet, my name is 'Xu'."

Hazy eyes finally dimmed bit by bit.

Xu returned to the place called "Hell" again.

When he first arrived, he was just looking for a way to die.After so many years, I still have nothing.

So much so that now he has to be bound to the pilasters, and calmly told the elders of the Heavenly Dao Congregation that as long as they can seek death, they can study this body whatever they want.Even if the blood is drained, he doesn't mind at all.

At that time, he was kneeling on the side, his eyes flickering, and he hesitated to speak for several times.

It is impossible to guess what the other party is thinking.Maybe it's regretting Songyang's death?Or are you sympathizing with what happened to you?

Either way, it's not what he needs.

Oboro once expressed his loyalty to Xu.

His first reaction was to stab at the other person's wound, "Even if you know that it was another me who saved you back then?"

At that time, the man knelt on the ground with his head down, as for the expression on his face, he couldn't see it at all.However, he could still smell how serious the atmosphere between the two was.

Xu didn't mean to be hurt on purpose, but he just didn't believe that the other party would love the house and the crow, let alone his extremely black crow.He hesitated for a moment, considering whether he should tell Hao that he was seriously injured, fearing that his life would not be long.

But in the end, like the person in front of him, he remained silent.

But Oboro never betrayed him, until the last moment of his death in battle.

Xu didn't understand what kind of bond could make that person make such a choice.

It's just that Tiandao has long since lost his mentor, and Oboro certainly doesn't want to come back here again, so he still ignores the fact that the man's body was brought back to Matsushita Village School.

Xu felt that if Songyang knew about the student's death, he would be very sad.After all, he is as numb as he is, and occasionally recalls the fragments of living with that silver-haired kid, not to mention another personality he personally taught.

It's a pity that at this moment, there is dead silence in my body.Like a stone thrown into a deep well, after sinking, there is no response.

In fact, I am somewhat envious that I finally don't have to endure the pain of being alive anymore.

The Arutana in his body is inexhaustible, so that he can live forever.The initial and ultimate purpose of joining the Heavenly Daoists is to destroy the earth, cause resource depletion, and promote their own death.

Xu had thought countless times how he would be destroyed.

Died by another personality who pointed the sword at himself?Died by the students trained by that person?Or take the planet to pieces?

None of this is impossible, but it is a pity that he is always a person who cannot predict and control his destiny.

Xu knew that the students of Songyang never gave up killing themselves.

I heard that those children had already parted ways because of what happened back then, but they reunited for the teacher later.

The two of them have different experiences, have different dispositions, and have different personalities.So he naturally understands this truth - whether it is obscurity or them, these people are born because of Songyang, and naturally they can die for Songyang.

Xu never believed in the so-called "salvation", but vaguely felt that he would indeed die at the hands of these children in the end.I don't know whether I know that person's belief too well, or trust my intuition too much.

So when the day actually came, he didn't panic as he imagined.

That battle was fought extremely fiercely, exhausted from dealing with the enemies killed from all directions, and the speed of recovery became slower and slower.

His once invincible instant kill seems to have no other purpose in these people except to increase fighting spirit.

Seeing the blood stains on the other party's face, Xu Xu also knew that at this moment, he must not be much better.The posture of Gintoki running towards him with a roar has not changed for so many years.

This kid must hate himself to the core.

Someone suddenly hugged him tightly from behind.

This feeling is so familiar that I have been ignoring the lurking crisis all the time, and suddenly lost the strength to resist at a certain moment.

— Another personality is still alive.

Xu was suddenly in a trance, not knowing whether the man wanted to redeem himself or occupy his body, so he appeared at this moment and restrained all his actions.

He felt fear like never before.

This kind of fear was even greater than when Songyang took possession of the body, as if at this moment, everything was doomed, but he was excluded and could only watch helplessly.

Several weapons were inserted into Xu's body.

In fact, extreme pain has long been commonplace for him, but compared with the ease of dying, it seems to be nothing at all.

At this moment, he suddenly remembered fighting with his elder brother when he was a child, but ended up being punched by his father together.At that time, my mother called her real name, coaxing this one and that one at a time.

At the same time, a group of children followed Songyang, chattering past his eyes.Some of the boys had big bags on their heads, and their expressions didn't look very good.

At that time, when the sun was setting, the breeze was blowing slowly from a distance, and the weeds on the side of the road nodded slightly, and accidentally touched the back of my feet.

"Xu," another personality said softly behind him, his tone was as gentle as ever, "Neither you nor I, from now on we don't have to experience the pain of continuous perpetual motion."

The moment he heard this sentence, he leaned back, as if he suddenly lost all his weight, and fell into the arms of the man.

——It's all over at last.

Xu slowly closed his eyes, and the corners of his mouth slowly turned up, as if he had learned the happiest thing in his long life.

"Really?" He heard his own voice, floating lightly into the air, "It's really... great."

The author has something to say:

I feel that the last chapter is a bit rough, and I can't sleep to revise it.

A few days ago, I saw a video of a girl with multiple personalities on Weibo, and my mood was very complicated.Generally, people with multiple personalities have experienced extremely painful things in childhood.

Undoubtedly, Xu is also, he has experienced the darkness of the world since he was a child and cannot break free, and it is really difficult not to be blackened when he grows up.But he still has a conscience in his heart, and this is how Songyang was born.

The world is not black and white or black and white, but darkness is often obvious and powerful.I don't want the orangutan to whitewash this role at all, because the world we live in is indeed not as beautiful as imagined, and it is not easy to live.

All Xu Yixin wanted was death, and in the end, he could get his wish. I think it is the best ending.