love you and me

Qingyuan made dumplings stuffed with shrimp and chives at noon, and she made a double portion, and she will bring it to work later for dinner.The portion she prepared is sufficient, and she can give each of the other colleagues a few to taste.

It was a habit she was forced to form.

The place where she works now is a private hospital, which is not very big, but there are many patients.Most of the people who graduated from the same major as her chose to seek employment in public hospitals, but she chose this newly opened one.Because the treatment here is actually better.The specific place where she works is the Western Pharmacy.There is only one Zhou Wenjie who is the same age as her, and the other two or three are middle-aged local married women with children.When they are not busy, they will get together to chat, Qingyuan usually does not choose to take the initiative to intervene.

Once during the Dragon Boat Festival, an aunt made rice dumplings by herself and took them to the hospital. Qing Yuan and Zhou Wenjie were also assigned to them.Qingyuan was evasive at first, but his aunt seemed very enthusiastic. Qingyuan could only say thank you twice in a row, and took the zongzi, and didn't think too much about the rest.Then one day Qingyuan made dumplings by herself and took them to the hospital for lunch. At that time, she put the food box in the microwave to heat it up, then washed her hands, found a seat and sat down, and began to eat quietly.When she changed shifts that night, she said goodbye to her aunt who stayed on shift as usual, but she didn't get a response.Even a day later, when she greeted her in the morning, she didn't get the same polite response as usual.In the end, it was Zhou Wenjie who told her that the aunt probably cared about Qingyuan bringing dumplings that day but didn't invite her to taste it, so she felt uncomfortable because she had given Qingyuan a share when she brought dumplings.Qingyuan quickly made dumplings again, took them to the hospital, and specially invited the aunt to taste them, and everything returned to normal afterward.

If it's Qingyuan herself, if she takes the initiative to give something to the other party, it's usually just that she wants to give the other party something, and she won't think about whether the other party will give her something in the future.Expecting Qing Yuan to respond to her in the same way like my aunt, it is not necessarily because I care about those few dumplings, but because I am willful in the way she approves.Qingyuan herself would not expect that from others, and she thought her aunt would not.It turns out that Auntie is Auntie, not Qingyuan.

Qingyuan thought of her breakup with Mi Peng again.Mi Peng finally told her that his mother had arranged a blind date for him. The other party was younger than him, good-looking, and his family owned a large chain supermarket. In his mother's eyes, he was almost a perfect daughter-in-law, but he turned her down. , he thought that Qing Yuan would definitely marry him.When Qingyuan first proposed to break up, he felt guilty towards Mi Peng in his heart. After listening to him finish that paragraph, which seemed to express his regret for refusing the blind date, he suddenly felt a little relieved in his heart.Not to mention how to be responsible, if Mi Peng doesn't care about her very much, then she doesn't have to be very responsible for his broken love.At the same time, she never thought that Mi Peng would have such a vulgar side, and in the bottom of her heart, she would unconsciously favor secular habits in choosing a marriage partner.She used to think of him as a person who first pursued spiritual compatibility, so she saw him like that. She seemed to draw him in her own impression with a pen, and every detail was crowned with her. The artist's name.

It is also possible that Mi Peng said that out of anger.Qingyuan felt unwilling to think about it any longer.

In the past few days, Qingyuan received a chat message from Mi Peng. The content was very simple, just asking her how she was doing recently, and she answered well.Later, she wanted to ask about his recent situation, but found that the message could not be delivered, and she had been deleted from the friend list by Mi Peng.She thought that Mi Peng probably knew how to treat himself well, so she didn't need to worry too much.

At that time, she wanted to send a message to tell him that she liked him, but she didn't seem to want to spend her life with him.

If there is a chance to get a suitable lover to accompany each other for a lifetime, she first hopes that that person will be a woman.

That was her inner desire. If she ignored her again and again, after a long time, bigger problems would eventually arise between her and Mi Peng.She thinks that once a person starts letting go of his selfishness, he opens up the possibility of hurting others as well as himself.The established trajectory of her life, she can't use Mi Peng's tall figure as a cover, pretending that she can't see anything.Mi Peng gave her a place to escape from herself temporarily.But that place will become more and more oppressive the longer you stay there, gradually making the surroundings foggy and foggy, which will be of no benefit to anyone.

But if you decide to turn a corner, you have to face the fact that you are alone on the road, how lonely you are, and who can share it.

Qing Yuan felt that he and Mi Peng were both fools, blindly treating each other as he wanted to see, ignoring their own selfishness and weakness, and unable to avoid haggling, and finally broke up unhappy.

Qingyuan remembered the parting words given to her by her homeroom teacher when she graduated from high school, "May you always maintain Xiaocao's character, ordinary and down-to-earth, strong and unyielding."

Qingyuan actually doesn't want to be a grass, she likes the feeling of a strong tree.Qingyuan thinks that a small grass is actually very easy to be destroyed. Only a small grass in the whole plain can be "inexhaustible in the wild fire, and regenerate in the spring breeze."

Qingyuan decided it was time to find a trusted friend and come out.

☆、Woman in the rain