The Man Who Picked the Stars

The curtains floated in dim yellow, fragmentedly projected on the boy curled up in a corner of the sofa, the room was quiet, all the still life and the boy were silently waiting for the night to come.

Jin Zaizhong bit his lip tightly, trying his best to hold back the sourness rolling in his nose.He kept blinking, his face was on fire.

Although deep in his heart he had accepted the fact that he had failed the interview, when he thought of all his hard work being in vain in the end, Kim Jaejoong's heart ached as if someone had pinched him.He didn't care what others thought of him, but the man's disappointed face kept flashing in his mind.The boy bit his lip unwillingly.

The afterglow of the setting sun slanted into the room, coating the boy's body with a light layer of gold.Suddenly there was a soft sound from behind, which woke up the young man who was immersed in his melancholy mood.The young man rubbed his painful eyeballs from staring at the void for too long, turned his head slowly, and saw the vinyl records scattered on the ground.

Jin Zaizhong sighed softly and slid off the sofa.He approached the shelf, crouched down, and tried to put the fallen record back in its place.The boy picked up a record casually, and a few photos slipped out of the plastic cover he picked up.

Holding the age-old photo in his hand, Kim Jaejoong stared blankly at Zheng Yunhao who was wearing a red racing suit and smiling vigorously in the photo, and murmured: "So you look like this when you wear it..."

His fingertips gently slid across the man's fuzzy smiling face, revealing a faint smile.The young man stared at it for a while, then moved his eyes to the next one.He flipped through them one by one, enjoying the youthful silhouette of his older lover.Until the last page was turned, the boy's pupils shrank violently, and the copper-yellow gramophone beside him reflected his face mixed with horror, surprise, and deep confusion. That face became more and more blurred. Engulfed by shadows that engulfed the room.

When Zheng Yunhao opened the door, the room was still dark.He was slightly surprised, and stepped into the silent living room.

"Did you go out again? 』Zheng Yunhao held the corner of his mouth helplessly, and began to climb the stairs slowly.But when he climbed the stairs, the black figure standing beside the CD shelf made the smile on his mouth disappear.

The room was filled with an unfamiliar atmosphere, Zheng Yunhao collected himself, and tried to shout to the shadow: "Jezhong? 』

No one answered, the man frowned and pressed the switch with a snap.Bright light instantly filled every corner of the room, and also illuminated the boy who turned his back like a sculpture.

Zheng Yunhao breathed a sigh of relief, stepped forward slowly, and said with a smile, "Why don't you turn on the light?"I was taken aback and thought a stranger had come into the room. 』

But before his hand touched the boy's shoulder, Kim Jaejoong turned around.At that moment, the blood in Zheng Yunhao's whole body was frozen, because he not only saw the sad and angry expression of the young man, but also the bright smiling face with Zheng Yunhao in the old photos in his hand.

The face that had shown him a happy smile countless times, but now it was buried forever.

That face that he could touch wantonly in the past, but now he is out of reach.

That face is very similar to Kim Jaejoong.

Zheng Yunhao was at a loss for words.

"Are you kidding me? 』The smile on Jin Zaizhong's face was paler than crying, his face was as white as reed flowers falling outside the window.

"Jung Yunho, you've always had fun playing with me, right? 』

He weakly held the photos that carried Zheng Yunhao's sweet and sad memories, and when he let go, the photos fell to the ground one after another, lying between the two of them like broken puzzle pieces.

"In the middle..." The man tremblingly moved his crutch lightly, intending to step forward.

"do not come!Don't come here!I tell you - no, yes, pass, come! 』The young man roared in dismay, and fell down on the CD rack behind him in despair. The thick vinyl records fell down one after another, at least at Nian's feet.

Jin Zaizhong stepped on it viciously as if venting, and continuous cracking sounds came from under his feet.The young man let out a desolate laugh, stepped on it more and more recklessly, and the sound of discs cracking could be heard endlessly, which was especially clear in the dead silence of the room.

"I thought... I thought... it was all my wishful thinking in the end! ’The feet kept rising and falling, and the old disc let out a hoarse wail under the boy’s feet, ‘Jung Yunho, is it interesting to look at a face similar to him all day and all night, huh?Do you imagine that you still have him, cry to you, smile to you, and say that you like you foolishly! 』

The man looked at him with pity, his uncle's secret comfort, his son's pale face...it wasn't him, it didn't belong to him from the beginning to the end!From the beginning to the end, he didn't even have the qualifications to participate in it!

With red eyes, the boy swept all the CDs on the stand to the ground, and stepped on them without hesitation.

"Wouldn't it be interesting to see me being coaxed around by you? It's nice to hear that I like you. It's very proud of a double who thinks of you wholeheartedly and sees you in his heart." Jin Jaejoong's shoulders were trembling, "I'm really curious, yes What made you bear it until now, what made you bear it until now and you still can't fuck me! 』

Zheng Yunhao stepped forward and grabbed Jin Jaejoong's struggling arm, "Jajoong, calm down, you are not him!" 』

There was another cracking sound, and the boy closed his eyes in pain.

"Of course I'm not him!I am not as capable as him!He's not as good as he is for you to look up to! Jin Zaizhong raised his head, the sorrow and sarcasm in his eyes made Zheng Yunhao relax, "Otherwise you would have me in your pocket long ago, but it is a pity that I am not him after all, so you can't talk about it, right?" 』

"Gold is in the middle! ” Zheng Yunhao growled with an ugly face, “Don’t say that! 』

"yes!I'm not qualified to say that, I'm not him!How can I be so great! With the pleasure of destruction on his face, Jin Zaizhong said unrelentingly, "Everything I have done is worth a life!"And you, didn't you trade his precious life for it?But why would you rather be a down and out cripple, spending time in that dead man's cave all day long! ! 』

Zheng Yunhao's face turned pale when he heard the words, he stared blankly at the boy, and the hand holding the boy's arm slipped down feebly.

"Is this how you've seen me all this time? 』

Feeling the sadness and fragility in the man's voice, the boy's face trembled twice.He turned his head away from looking at the man's face, and said in a trembling voice, "Then Zheng Yunhao, tell me, tell me that you never looked at my face and thought of him, and never saved me because I looked a little bit like him." Forget me, I have nothing to do with him from beginning to end!You tell me, is that so! ’ Please, please, just one word.As long as you say it, I will believe you... The young man begged desperately, he met the man's gaze, and the trembling all over his body made him look vulnerable.

Zheng Yunhao opened his mouth in panic, and finally, he closed his eyes in pain, and a weak sentence came out of his mouth: "Zaizhong, you are not him..."

Jin Zaizhong lowered his head silently, hearing the slow and rhythmic beating of the heart in his chest.After a while, he suddenly smiled miserably.Ha, it turns out that if you have a heart, it will still hurt.The boy became a dilapidated doll, leaning lifelessly on the CD rack, and the fragmented discs under his feet formed a strange and desperate scene.

"In..."

"You're fucking dirty, don't touch me! 』The young man shook his hand and broke away from the man's touch.He looked up, and the man's blank and fragile face instantly hit his pupils.The moment the man's cold lips touched him, the boy suddenly regained his senses and pushed Zheng Yunhao away.Zheng Yunhao fell to the ground like a stiff puppet, making a thud.

The man struggled to get up, but the sudden sharp pain in his leg made him fall back heavily.

"In! ’ The man’s anxious cry came from behind.

But Jin opened the door without looking back, and quickly disappeared into the dark night.