The Man Who Picked the Stars

Jin Zaizhong sent the man away and returned to the ward.The sky was gloomy, and it was already raining, which suited the atmosphere in the room.Just as Jin Zaizhong sat on the side of the bed, the clinical woman just came out with a urine bag and smiled at him.Lying on the bed was her husband, who was diagnosed with muscular dystrophy just a year after they got married. This disease will gradually incapacitate people.After all, they are newlyweds, and the woman is also rushing in and out to greet her husband, without any impatience.But the man's condition continued to worsen day by day, and he couldn't even move his fingers in recent days.

Jin lay down on the bed and closed his eyes sleepily.

When one sense is turned off, the other senses become extra sensitive. After a while, the woman came back from the outside, and Jin Zaizhong felt the woman's bright red gauze skirt brushing against his toes, and he shrank his feet involuntarily.Women always wear bright clothes. I don’t know if they have always been like this or they have only recently. Every day the faint morning light comes in from the window, bathed in the soft white light, and the women in bright dresses are a part of the scenery in this ward.Opening his eyes every morning to let the bright color blend into his eyes, accompanied by the sound of a woman cleaning and changing her husband's body, Jin Zaizhong occasionally feels that such a day is not difficult.

The woman closed the curtain beside the bed, and the pull ring made a harsh sound.Jin Zaizhong shrank under the quilt.The woman lowered her body, helped the man change a new urine bag, got up and sat on the edge of the bed, making a creaking sound.The woman began to converse with the man in a low voice, the voice was extremely low, but the room was silent, and the conversation was clearly poured into Jin Zaizhong's ears.

"Auntie and the others will come to see you tomorrow, I told you to rest in the morning, so let them come in the afternoon..."

"don't want. 』The man's tone was extremely cold.

"Why not?Auntie and the others came so far away..."

"I said no! 』The man's emotions began to agitate.

"Don't worry," the woman urged in a low voice, "They also care about you..."

"Am I a monkey in a zoo! The man no longer concealed his impatience, and shouted at the woman, "It's not enough for you to watch me die every day!"Do you want a few more? 』

There was no movement on the woman's side, and after a while, there was a trembling gasp.A woman's slightly nasal voice sounded, her voice was no longer as clear as usual, but something settled down, and along the way, Jin Zaizhong's heart sank.

"I know you've been in a bad mood recently," the woman said quietly, "but don't give up hope..."

"What do you know! The man suddenly shouted as if venting, "Do you understand how I feel!"You know what it's like to lie motionless in bed all day!Every day I just know that I love me, I love me, I love me, I have to do my best, I have to do my best, I have to do my best, for you, that is true love, and for me, it is hell on earth!Is this how you watch me suffer and die slowly every day, and then smile at the side and say come on? 』

"Don't be like this, I know you're not feeling well..." The woman finally couldn't take it anymore and began to sob in a low voice. Jin Jaejoong could imagine her covering her mouth with tears falling down but desperately trying to suppress her sadness.

"I beg you to go, go!Don't stay here, I look upset! 』The tearing roar echoed in the ward, and the rest was the woman's weeping more and more clearly.The woman stood up and opened the curtain and went out. Jin Zaizhong struggled to get rid of the quilt, and finally a bright red skirt came into view.

The sound in the ward resumed in an instant, as if someone had pressed the pause button as a prank.People scattered in all directions, those who watered the flowers, those who fed the food, only the faint crying sounds from the other side of the corridor reminded Jin Zaizhong that what happened just now was not his hallucination.Jin Zaizhong turned his head, just in time to see the man's Adam's apple shaking violently.A tear slipped from the corner of his pale eye, shining faintly under the lamp.

It was approaching midnight, but Kim Jaejoong couldn't sleep.In the past, at this time, he would mostly hang out in the neon-lit streets and alleys, wasting time with his so-called friends, and if he had some money, he would go to bars and nightclubs to hang out for a night, and days without substance are always Very good pass.But now, the dark night has never been so hard to bear, and under the torment in his heart, he even misses the life of feasting and feasting in the past.Close your eyes, but there is boundless darkness, but in this thick darkness, the man's face gradually emerges.

Jin Zaizhong didn't understand why the image of a man suddenly popped up in his mind at this moment, maybe he was the only person Jin Zaizhong could think of at the moment, family, he didn't have it, friends, they left early.

Men don't like to talk, and in their few conversations, men always play the role of listener.But he is also very careful. When delivering the meal, he found that Jin Zaizhong was frowning at a certain food. Next time, this dish will not appear in the lunch box. He smiled and tolerated Jin Zaizhong's occasional tantrums and awkwardness.

The man is actually quite handsome, that handsome face does not leave many traces of years, but reveals a mature and introverted temperament. Kim Jaejoong is very fascinated by this quality of men, which he does not possess But dreamed of.The man has broad shoulders and long legs. If he wears a standard clothes rack, he won't know how many girls will be fascinated by him.He has a pair of beautiful hands, with slender fingertips and well-defined knuckles.The man also looks good when he smiles, his eyes are slightly narrowed, revealing a mouthful of white teeth, and the small mole on the corner of his mouth is also raised upwards.By the way, the man's name is also nice, it's called Zheng Yunhao.

Now that I think about it, Jin Zaizhong realizes that he observes men so meticulously.He could remember the way the man smiled, the way he turned his wrist with the spoon, and the way he stared at him seriously, with dark pupils and a cool water color...Jin Zaizhong's heart skipped a beat for no reason.

The clinical woman is still coaxing her husband to sleep.After crying, the woman went back to the room to wipe and change her husband's body.Tears have been shed, hearts have been broken, and life still has to go on.Jin Zaizhong stared sleepily at the silhouette reflected on the other side of the curtain, dazed.

"I'm sorry... You can leave anytime you want..." The man apologized inarticulately. He has this disease and can't speak fluently.

"It's okay, I love you too. 』The woman smiled lowly, the shadow bent down and merged with the man.

"What..." The man muttered softly, with shyness hidden in his hoarse voice.

The woman didn't answer, but after a while, she hummed a song in a low voice:

There is such a woman who loves you very much

There is such a woman who dare not say that she loves you

Just within reach of your hand

…………

The singing is soft and melodious, with a little naughty.Jin Zaizhong had heard this song before, and it was originally sung by a man. Apparently, the woman changed the lyrics, but it’s okay to sing it for her husband.

There is a woman who foolishly accepts this kind of love that doesn’t understand me

It's like how I, who don't know how to love, let go of you who are sad like a fool

I'm crying right now, but I'm very happy

because of you by my side

……

Following his wife's singing, the man hummed unconsciously.He sang the original version, and surprisingly, he sang it well. Maybe it was his good voice that won the woman's heart back then.The woman's singing gradually died down, and finally only the man hummed in a low voice, like a lullaby, gently swaying his wife's dream.

The ward fell into a deep sleep early.The grandma on the opposite bed was dozing off in front of the grandpa's bed, her head bit by bit under the dim light.Diagonally opposite, the mother held her daughter's hand, and the silky shimmer around her temples gradually turned into silver hair.The ward is shrouded in a soft halo, accompanied by the breathing of relatives, quietly falling into a dream.

Jin Zaijoong's eyes turned red unconsciously.

The boy closed his eyes tightly, but he still couldn't stop the tears from overflowing.Very natural, big teardrops fell down the cheeks, wet the pillow, and disappeared without a trace in an instant.

I am also crying at this moment, but I am very happy because you are by my side.

And where is this person who loves Kim Jaejoong wholeheartedly, who is very happy because he is by his side?

On this ordinary night, it was the first time that a young man felt so deeply lonely in his heart.

Jin Zaizhong tried his best to stop the surging tears, and he wiped his face carelessly.But the tears that just fell were like blood, dripping on his trembling heart with a scalding temperature.Jin Zaizhong tightly grasped the quilt, closed his eyes, and huddled into a ball with sobs.

Instead of complaining about the boredom of the long nights, he just begged for an early sleep.In the end, sleepiness wrapped him softly like a monstrous ocean wave, and the boy gradually lost his voice.

Sleep is a great way to escape reality.Along with death, it gives man the right to forget sorrow.

On this ordinary and lonely night, Kim Jaejoong spent his longest night in the hospital.

A week later.

Jin Zaizhong calmly looked at the man at the front desk who handled the discharge procedures for him, and then boredly looked at the people coming and going in the hall.The expressions on people's faces are different, some are distraught, some are ecstatic, some are disappointed, and some are calm and indifferent.An ordinary hospital includes the newborn room, maternity room, intensive care unit and the morgue on the bottom floor. The joys and sorrows, joys and pains of a person's life are all tasted one by one in this concentrated place.

However, these no longer have anything to do with me.The black and white eyes reflected the figure of the man walking towards him, and the young man followed the man's footsteps and stepped out of this place.

This is where a new life begins.

The author has something to say:

That song was "A Man" by Kim Jong Kook.