keep the clouds open and see the stars

Are you born?Only you are distressed, am I so cold-blooded?I'm not... not for this family?If this gets out, what will others say about us?Xingming is gone, he is not afraid of others saying, what about Yangyang?At that time, the neighbors around will know that he has a gay younger brother, so how can he get married and have children. "My mother, who has always been strong, has become so weeping at this moment.

Yeah, I've been thinking about myself and I've forgotten about my family.Forget how much they care about me, and how much I miss them...

"Mom, I don't want Xiaoxing to hide himself until he dies because I let him. He has hidden himself for long enough. Let's not let him die with this identity, okay?"

"You...well, you are all right, I was wrong, okay? Blame me, if I could...accept him earlier, I wouldn't have reached this point...I would rather he lived... "

"Mom...it's not your fault, it's not anyone's fault. No one expected it." As I said that, my brother hugged my parents tightly, watching the three of them weeping.I really want... I really want to go over and hug them again... I haven't had time to say goodbye to them yet... I haven't let them go yet... Why didn't I notice it before?What have I done?

Suddenly Mu Yunkai knelt down in front of them

"It's not your fault, it's all my fault. It was my half-heartedness that caused him to run away in the middle of the night. If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't have encountered that truck. If it wasn't for me, none of this would have happened. Sorry. ..This is all my fault, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He kowtowed three times thinking about my parents.

"What did you say?" My mother's tone was full of unbelievable and suppressed anger, "You made him run away in the middle of the night, ah!? It was you!? Why did you do that!? Didn't you say you loved him? Give me back my son...give me back...you murderer..." The tears that had just stopped bursting again, my mother punched Yunkai's face like crazy She hit her, but my dad and brother tried their best to stop her.The people around gathered together curiously

"Hurry up, you don't think the trouble is big enough." My brother's tone was also full of anger.But my dad didn't even look at him, just closed his eyes and helped my mother who was hoarse and slumped on the ground.

"I just want to...give this thing to him." Yun Kai looked at the small box in his hand, and at my urn in the distance, his face no longer had the look I was familiar with.

"You!" My brother wanted to say something, but was stopped by my father.

"You go, and then hurry up."

Yun Kai glanced at my dad gratefully, but my dad turned his head away and refused to look at him.

Watching him slowly walk into my altar, but I don't care what he wants to do anymore.I bent over and stayed with my family.Embracing each of them as hard as possible, my mother opened her eyes in a daze.

"Xiao Xing...Xiao Xing! It's my mother who made a mistake, please come back, my mother will never force you again."

I shook my head, I thought I must cry

"It's not your fault, don't blame yourself. Tell my dad and brother that I'm sorry for not seeing you often and that I really, really love you..."

The vision in front of me began to blur, I only saw my mother lying in my father's arms tired from crying, and my brother was beside them.I feel like I've really let go and I think I'm ready to go to the next place.

5)

What does heaven look like?What is hell like?I have thought about these two questions many times.But when the answer is in front of you, it's not so scary.

There is a golden rice field in front of me, and there is an asphalt road in the middle of the rice field, and I sit on a white wooden bench beside the road, looking at the endless golden ocean.I stood up and felt the wind blowing under my arms, and I dare say that if I wanted to, I would definitely be able to fly here.

Pausing for a moment, I am going to set off, there must be somewhere I want to go at the end of this road.My heart tells me so.

But I seem to have something to do, and there is one person I haven't had time to say goodbye to.The wind invites me to ride him, and he will lead me where I want to go.

"Not yet, give me some more time..."

The surrounding scenery changed, and I returned to that old but nostalgic sofa.Back to the place in my heart that I think is home.

I looked at the calendar and there was a big heart drawn on it today, which I drew.Looks like I've been away for a month.

He sat next to me with an empty wine bottle in his hand.The videos I recorded in the past played over and over again on the TV.

In the picture, he and I are both so young, and our eyes are full of pure love when we look at each other.But now, neither he nor I should look at each other with that kind of eyes again.

I came to him and stroked his cheek with my hand. Not taking care of him for a month made him look a lot older.

The TV stopped, he got up and wanted to grab the remote control on the coffee table and put it aside, but he accidentally fell off the sofa.

I watched and wanted to lend a helping hand, but as before I couldn't even touch.

Although his back was facing me, I knew he was crying, but he was crying very softly, maybe he couldn't cry anymore.

I can't do anything, I can only stand aside and watch him quietly.This kind of quiet company is already all I can do now.

After a long time, he stood up unsteadily, I think he was going to get the bar, but accidentally fell down again.

I wanted to hold him, but I still couldn't touch him.

He fell to the ground, staring blankly at the front, suddenly he seemed to understand something, ran to the kitchen, picked up a sharp kitchen knife and ran into the bathroom.

I suddenly had a bad premonition and rushed in.He was turning on the water, and the warm water vapor gradually filled the bathroom.

"At that time, you must have been there. Except you, no one would cook that kind of breakfast, and no one would know." The look in his eyes holding a kitchen knife scared me, and I was afraid that he would do something stupid.

"I'm here now, what are you going to do? Mu Yunkai, listen to me! Don't do this, don't do this!"

"In other words, there are souls in this world. I knew you couldn't let me go. Maybe you are here now."

"I'm letting go! I'm really letting go! You should let go of this relationship too!" I yelled at him.

"Even if I'm wrong, this world doesn't have you anyway. I don't intend to continue."

I don't know if it's because of my anxiety or my feelings for him, watching him gradually walk into the bathtub, my tears fell down without disappointment.

"Mu Yunkai, what are you doing? Are you dying for love? What right do you have to die for me! You heard clearly, you are not qualified, you are not qualified! So...quickly stop..."

I leaned next to him, watching him cut the artery with his own hands, but I was unable to stop it.

His blood gradually stained the entire bathtub, and he seemed to see me crying beside him.

"Xingming!" His weak tone was full of surprises, and he slowly raised a hand to touch my cheek, but just as I couldn't touch him, he couldn't touch me either.

"Great...I won the bet...you wait...I'll go right away..."

"Yun Kai! Yun Kai!" His raised hand slowly fell into the bright red bathtub.I shouted his name loudly trying to wake him up.

Just when I thought Pepsi was over, the doorbell suddenly rang.

I hurried to the door and wanted to call out for help, but I suddenly remembered that he couldn't hear me.

"Sir, please sign for your courier."

"If there is no one, I will leave!"

"No, there must be a way to let him in."

Suddenly I saw the remote control on the coffee table, and I remember the first video I recorded, it was in a haunted house.I tried my best to press the play button, but he still didn't move.

"Hurry up!!!"

6)

I went back to the golden rice field, I sat on the left side of the white bench, he sat on the right side.

I adjusted my smile and looked at him who was gradually waking up.

"Xingming! Xingming! Is it really you? I miss you so much, I miss you so much!" He hugged me tightly, and I didn't resist.

"So, am I dead? But it doesn't matter, it's good to have you here."

I didn't answer him, just smiled quietly.

"What's the matter, Xingming. Talk to me, I really want to hear your voice."

"What do you want to hear?" I replied in a flat tone

"Anything is fine, you say it, and I listen. It doesn't matter if you scold me, I know you must hate me very much. I'm also cruel to myself, but I promise you that from now on I will never make that kind of mistake again. "As he spoke, he hugged me even harder.

I took his shoulders and gently pushed him away

"I don't hate you, because those are things in the past. Just like my feelings for you, I have let go."

"Xingming, you must still hate me, otherwise why would you say such a thing. Or...or...you beat me up, or you also find a man or a woman. I don't care, As long as you're still by my side."

I looked at him tenderly, knowing that he must not let me miss me now.

"Yunkai, listen to me, there will always be regrets and parting in this world. You and I are already in two worlds, and you shouldn't be attached to me anymore."

"I can't, I can't. I'm so stupid that I didn't understand how much you meant to me until recently. Please, don't leave me again. I can't take it."

"But people always have to say goodbye, no one can stay with you all the time."

"But we are dead now, even if there is another world, if you tell me how to get there, I will definitely go with you."

Suppressing the grief in my heart, I pretended to be calm

"No. Listen, Yun Kai. I don't regret falling in love with you in this life. But if I have a choice, I will never be with you again."

"Xingming, I was wrong, don't say such things again. I know you still can't let me go, right? You tell me what to do before you forgive me. You tell me, I will definitely do it. "

I looked at his longing eyes, and his words gradually caused ripples in my heart

"If you really feel guilty about me, then you go back. Continue to live and continue your journey. If your feelings for me have not changed after everything is over, then I will never leave you again By your side, when the time comes, I will definitely not refuse you again."

Listening to my words, he shook his head, and then asked as if making up his mind

"Then will you wait for me here?"

Qingfeng urged me to leave as soon as possible, but I still told him

"Well, I'll be here waiting for you. Until you change your mind."

He held my hand tightly and looked at me affectionately

"No, I promise."

I pointed to the end of the road on the right

"Go there, until the end is your world."

He hugged me tightly, it took a long time before he let go

"wait for me."

These are his words before leaving.

Looking at his back and making sure he was out of sight, I sat down on the chair weakly.Feelings of reluctance gradually came to my heart. I thought I had let go, but it was him who felt the most reluctance in my heart.

The wind did not come to urge me again, because he knew that I was not ready.I just sat on the white bench in the middle of the road, waiting for the day when he would fulfill his promise.

7) The perspective of Mu Yunkai outside the episode

Open your eyes, in front of you is the ceiling of the hospital.A nurse next to me saw that I had regained consciousness, and immediately called out.

"Dr. Li, Dr. Li. He's awake."

Based on what they told me, I also somewhat understood.It seems that when I committed suicide, my courier happened to be delivered, and the courier immediately sent me to the hospital after finding out.

"Is that just a dream?"

"What did you say that you were dreaming or not? Did you not have a good rest? Proper rest is also for your own sake. By the way, this is your courier. You were in a coma at the time, and that person just threw it to me."

I took the express box from Dr. Li and he left.Did not stop at all.

I looked at the courier and couldn't help but wonder what was inside.

"But let's wait until we get home."

Fifteen days later

I returned to that deserted home, opened the express box, and there was a disc inside.

I was a little curious about what was inside, so I put him into the TV.

As the screen shakes, the faces of the people I miss the most appear on it

"Hey, Yunyun. See where I am?" He stood in a golden wheat field, waving his hands at me.His sunny smile was a bit too dazzling for me at the moment.

Although I knew it was impossible for him to answer me, I still had a conversation with him sentence by sentence.

"where?"

"That's right, Dangdangdang. It's the place where the two of us met for the first time. Hihi, your car broke down here at the beginning, and then you used this as an excuse to hook up with the youthful and invincible me. To be honest, at that time I think you must be a villain with a plan, and I have a hammer ready."

"It's too much, I'm obviously so handsome."

In the picture, he smiled slyly at the picture

"Well, but because you are so handsome, I didn't shoot you. You should be grateful to Dade for this."

"Yes, yes, the villain will remember it in his heart"

"Yeah, too much gossip. Anyway, when I made this video, it happened to be my [-]th anniversary. That...well...don't they all talk about the seven-year itch or something? So, I want to test you. As long as I reach my eighth anniversary, this express delivery will be delivered. Of course, I can cancel it at any time. So if you really see this, then it is not a prank. "

I smiled and said to the star in the picture

"what are you going to do?"

In the meantime, blushing, he slowly took out a ring from behind him, then knelt on one knee and said

"Mu Yunkai, will you marry me?"

I was stunned, the express box in my hand suddenly became very heavy

"Okay, if you see this, it means you agree, then unpack the express box."

I opened the express box and there was a small white box in it.

Among them, there is this diamond ring with the same style as the one I chose.

I suppressed tears and put it on my ring finger.

"Okay, okay, put it on. Next, swear an oath with me."

"I'm Ye Xingming, of course you have to say your name."

"I shepherd the clouds"

"I am willing to marry Mu Yunkai forever, and share joys and sorrows."

"I am willing to marry Ye Xingming forever and share joys and sorrows."

"From now on, no matter what happens, I will always, always, always have only you in my heart"

"From now on...no matter...what happens...forever...forever...forever and ever in my heart you are the only one"

"Ahem, well done. I'm officially announcing now that we're legally married. It's too late to regret, ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. But it is a pity that there is no legal effect yet, let's say a year later It might be there.”

"Finally, Mu Yunkai. I love you."

When the movie was over, I looked at the ring on my left ring finger, and I didn't cry because now I know, he will always be there waiting for me.He must be looking at me now too.

side story

One day

Mu Yunkai received a text message from his mother

"Call that kid over for dinner next time during the Chinese New Year. I was too stubborn before, but that guy is pretty good. I sprained my foot before, and he immediately came over to take care of me for a month after he found out. I think he is better than those The impolite little girl is much better, I also thought about it, you can adopt one."

"...Mom, he's gone."

"...Let's go home for the Chinese New Year this year. We made your favorite dumplings at home. And that heart-shaped egg, right? Mom has learned it. Come back and see me, and let me see you too."