After I was kicked out by the benefactor

Although Xu Shuming has been with Zhong Wentian for two years, his understanding of Zhong Wentian is limited to his preferences in food, clothing, housing and transportation. As for what Zhong Wentian is actually thinking, he can roughly guess and vaguely grasp what Zhong Wentian is actually thinking. To a little door.But at this moment, Zhong Wentian suddenly confessed to him his past self, Xu Shuming felt that this was a very dangerous behavior.

What did Zhong Wentian analyze the past with him?

That relationship was actually insignificant to Zhong Wentian, and he didn't bother to think about it, it was over when it was over, there was nothing worth nostalgic about.

If he really wants to recall the past relationship, Zhong Wentian can go and tell Yuan Chuchuan that that is the object of his serious memories.

To be honest, Xu Shuming has a much deeper understanding of the imprint their relationship left on each other.

At that time, Xu Shuming was standing at a fork in his life. On one side was the unpredictable future after returning to China, and on the other side was the tangible temptation Zhong Wentian gave him.

And his situation really didn't give him the courage to choose. Hong Kong Island has been westernized for nearly a century, but inside it is very conservative. He doesn't think his parents will accept a son who likes the same sex.

During the time abroad, he was running around for living expenses, so he didn't even have time to try to find a boyfriend.

Moreover, Zhong Wentian is also good-looking, he is a gentleman, and his various methods make people feel pampered.

Who doesn't want to be pampered?

Because he encountered a difficult customer, he had to wait until the bus was out of service. When he was walking alone on the night road wearing a big scarf and looking at the bright night sky, he couldn't help but fantasized that someone could get him out of the lingering hole in his nasal cavity. The taste of the restaurant is pulled out.

This person must spend a lot of money, and will not let him take the bus on the side of the road for a long time. This person will take him to the top of the mountain to watch shooting stars at night, or when it rains, the two of them will do nothing. Open, head to head, hugging each other in the heavy rain and watching purple lightning bolts fall from the gloomy sky.

Cowardly, Xu Shuming thought to himself, being a married man's lover is enough without bottom line, and then forcing his wife to make way for him, it turns out that this is the perfect lover in Zhong Wentian's heart.

Many emotions flooded Xu Shuming's heart at once. He looked at Zhong Wentian, this man, the man he was grateful for in the past because he pulled himself out of the predicament, the man who was really happy because he liked him, because he A man who is willing to treasure the romance in his own memory for the romance he created...

Xu Shuming stared at Zhong Wentian motionlessly for a long time, as if he had never looked at this man seriously, the strength of his struggle slowly relaxed, and after a long while, he opened his mouth and said softly:

"I can not do it."

How can it be done?What grudge does Mrs. Zhong have against him?He used to feel ashamed to see her, and now he has no reason to embarrass a woman.

Zhong Wentian's choice was right, there are many people in this world who are willing to act for his ideas, he doesn't have to force Xu Shuming to do it.

He was never the only one.

But Zhong Wentian was satisfied with Xu Shuming's docile response, he took a step forward and pulled Xu Shuming into his arms completely.

This time, Xu Shuming didn't struggle, but let Zhong Wentian's powerful arms wrap around his waist, he leaned his face on Zhong Wentian's shoulder, and let himself close his eyes slowly.

Zhong Wentian felt that the body in his arms no longer resisted, gradually softened, and hugged Xu Shuming tighter.He lowered his head, leaned against Xu Shuming's ear, pressed his lips against the thin pinna, and said in an almost whispering voice:

"I know you can't do it, and you don't have to. I never force you to do something you don't like."

Xu Shuming didn't move after hearing his words, but opened his eyes slightly, staring at the front without focus, not knowing what he thought of.

Zhong Wentian didn't get Xu Shuming's response, so he moved away a little bit, still looking at Xu Shuming's face very closely.

Xu Shuming's face is undoubtedly very beautiful. Looking at it from this angle, Xu Shuming's lines from forehead to nose bridge, lips, and jaw are carefully carved like a meticulous painting, and every inch is just right.At this moment, his eyelashes were drooping densely, and clusters of them covered his eyelids. Under the refraction of the light, he cast a small piece of quiet blue shadow.

Zhong Wentian suddenly wanted to take a look, so Xu Shuming raised his eyes to look at him, but before he could actually do so, Xu Shuming's long eyelashes trembled, and then his eyes turned around, looking into his eyes.

"I was very grateful to you." Xu Shuming's voice was a little low, so low that Zhong Wentian had to stick to Xu Shuming's mouth to hear his words clearly, only to hear Xu Shuming continue: "You don't know that at that time I was almost I can't make it through, the classmates who are in class with me have a way out, but I don't know where I am going, I don't want to go back to Hong Kong, and I don't want to stay in Europe, I have nowhere to go.

——Fortunately, I have you, you told me to go to the capital, and you helped me arrange everything. I have never had such a time when I don’t have to worry about my future. I can sleep peacefully every day, and I don’t have to worry about the future when I open my eyes. "

Zhong Wentian noticed that Xu Shuming's voice was a little nasal, so he stretched out his hand to gently stroke his hair, and said in an unbelievably gentle voice: "You don't have to leave, I always keep my word."

"Don't leave, will staying by your side hinder other people's eyes?" Xu Shuming smiled a little, and when he smiled, his whole face instantly became alive, and then he seemed to think of something, and his face turned pale again, "— —Besides, because of my greed, I have already paid a big enough price. Do you understand? It is impossible for me to have anything to do with you in the future. Mr. Zhong, when I think of my parents, I feel that this is right for me At the beginning, I should have completely rejected you, then returned to Hong Kong after graduation, and never had any contact with you or people like you for the rest of my life."

When he said this, he turned his eyes, stared at Zhong Wentian's face, and said word by word: "How grateful I was to you before, how much I hate you now."

"Shu Ming." Zhong Wentian frowned.

Seeing a layer of displeasure on his face, Xu Shuming blinked his eyelashes slightly, and his eyes softened again. He looked away, looked at the diamond pin on Zhong Wentian's collar and said, "I know, it's about my parents." It has nothing to do with you, but I can't help but think, if I hadn't met you, would I have given up my life a long time ago, to be an ordinary white-collar worker for the rest of my life, and my life is ordinary, but there will be times when I feel satisfied. You see , I'm just an embellishment in your life, it doesn't matter if you have me or not, so why did you let me meet you in the first place—"

"You are not dispensable." Zhong Wentian interrupted him suddenly and rudely.

He squeezed Xu Shuming's chin, forced him to look at him, and said firmly: "Listen clearly, if I have no selfish intentions, I don't like you at all. Do you think you can still appear in front of me again and again, and treat me greatly?" Shouting, pointing at your nose and cursing?"

Xu Shuming was taken aback by what he said. He opened his mouth, as if he wanted something, but it still didn't feel real, and his face was full of confusion.

Seeing his unbelievable expression, Zhong Wentian lowered his head with a smile, kissed his eyes, and said:

"I didn't intend to tell you so early, but you are too aggressive tonight, and you will irritate me. ——I have rarely lost my temper in recent years, but I can't hold back when I meet you."

Xu Shuming closed his eyes subconsciously, only to feel a warm touch from his eyes in the darkness, very light, accompanied by Zhong Wentian's vivid breathing, it hit his heart all at once.

"Then you and Yuan Chuchuan tonight..." Xu Shuming opened his eyes, as if he was embarrassed to look at him, and asked in a low voice with his head slightly lowered.

Zhong Wentian hugged him again, put his chin next to his ear, nodded and said: "He is very angry, I will take care of the matter between him and me."

After hearing his words, Xu Shuming was stunned for a moment, then as if he had made up his mind, he stretched out his hand to embrace Zhong Wentian's generous back, and said in a somewhat sour voice: "Is it okay, you and I..."

After hearing what he said, Zhong Wentian tilted his head, kissed his temple hair affectionately, and said, "Yes, I won't let you back down."

Hearing this, Xu Shuming finally closed his eyes and buried his face in Zhong Wentian's neck. He leaned very close, as if he wanted to absorb strength from Zhong Wentian.

Zhong Wentian also hugged him tightly, the two of them didn't speak for a moment, they just cuddled up intimately in the quiet room, as if the whole world had disappeared and they only had each other.

Zhong Wentian didn't know, if he lowered his head at this time, he could see that Xu Shuming's face was not as excited as he thought, or he was confused about their future. He stared intently at the texture of the carpet under their feet, as if a flower had bloomed on it, so that he was fascinated by it.