I'm not from the same world as you

The next morning, when Qi Wei woke up, he found that the clothes that were pillowed under his head last night had been kicked to the bed by him. I found myself...a stiff neck.

Qi Wei got off the bed with a stiff neck, picked up the clothes on the floor and threw them back on the bed, moved a little, and his neck was sore and painful. In the early morning, Qi Wei woke up from the pain.Thinking that his behavior was completely caused by Wang Meng, an unconscionable person, Qi Wei didn't get angry.

Usually, he and Wang Meng are good friends, but unexpectedly this boy seized the opportunity to punish him. If he did not take revenge, he would not be a gentleman. Qi Wei walked to Wang Meng's bed full of murderous intent. Wang Meng was still awake, and Qi Wei found that his pillow was still under Wang Meng's feet. Does this kid never change his position when he sleeps at night?My own pillow was probably smoked by Wang Meng's feet all night.

Qi Wei thought about it for a while, and was so disgusted that he could even vomit out the overnight meal.

Qi Wei pulled his pillow over. Although the pillow had no smell but was a little wrinkled, Qi Wei always felt that his pillow was full of Wang Meng's foot odor.

Qi Wei looked more and more angry, supported his neck with one hand, held his own pillow with the other, and waved the pillow towards Wang Meng who was still sleeping with all his strength.

With a "snap", the pillow pointed at Wang Meng and directly greeted Wang Meng's face. Although the pillow was soft, it woke Wang Meng up. Wang Meng's eyes were half open, looking at Qi Wei as if he was going to eat someone. Standing beside his bed, he immediately woke up from the fright.

Sitting on the bed, Wang Meng flinched, and yelled at Qi Wei while touching his reddened face, "Damn it, are you crazy?!"

Qi Wei pointed at Wang Meng with a pillow, "Come down and see if I don't deal with you!"

Only then did Wang Meng recall what happened last night. He didn't expect that Qi Wei would still remember this after he fell asleep, and he really came to clean him up with a pillow.

Wang Meng looked at Qi Wei's furious look, and suddenly found that Qi Wei's posture was a bit strange, his neck was stuck and motionless, Wang Meng immediately understood, and asked cautiously, "You...you have a stiff neck? "

It’s okay not to say this, but when he said this, Qi Wei’s anger rushed directly to his head, "You fucking have the nerve to say it? Come down for me! Come down!"

Duan He is already up, and Qi Wei Sapo followed him to watch the play. Since the beginning of the school year, he has not seen Wang Meng and Qi Wei pinch each other. This morning's good play made him relish it.But Duan He soon discovered that Qi Wei was standing next to Wang Meng's bed, just blocking Xu Cen who was on the lower bunk, and Xu Cen was sitting on the bed watching a play. On the bed, looking at Duan He, I don't know what to do.

Duan He noticed Xu Cen's embarrassing situation, after thinking about it, he gave up the opportunity to watch the show, walked over and tugged Qi Wei's arm, "It's almost done, pack up quickly and get together."

Qi Wei was in a fit of rage when someone pulled his arm suddenly. With a wave of his hand, he turned around aggressively, but when he saw Duan He's face, he immediately calmed down, "I..."

"Okay, don't make trouble in the morning." Wang Meng on the bed was happy to see that Duan He had come out to fight. He should be fine, but what Duan He said next made Wang Meng vomit blood. Duan He Said, "Find an empty place and clean up as much as you want."

Qi Wei thought about it seriously for a while, and finally nodded meaningfully to Duan He. Wang Meng looked at all this, and his heart fell to the bottom, "Is there any humanity left?!"

Qi Wei and Duan He turned their heads and said to Wang Meng in a tacit understanding, "No."

"Oh my God!!!" Wang Meng lay down on the bed in despair and roared.

Qi Wei reached out and threw the pillow in his hand towards Wang Meng, "Shut up." Then he pulled Wang Meng's pillow over, "I'm using your pillow, you can sleep on your beriberi!"

Wang Meng caught the pillow, "Hey!"

Qi Wei ignored Wang Meng, turned around and changed clothes to wash up, Xu Cen had a chance to get out of bed at this time, seeing Duan He mouthing "thank you", Duan He smiled and didn't say anything.

Duan He and Xu Cen practiced during the day and went to work part-time at night. Sometimes Duan He went to dinner with Xu Cen and went back to the dormitory with Xu Cen at night. Although Wang Meng and Qi Wei were strange, why didn't Duan say it, and Xu Cen didn't know him well , so even if the two have doubts, they can only hold it in their hearts.

Just seeing Duan He and Xu Cen's relationship seem to be getting better and better, Qi Wei felt uncomfortable. He really didn't like Xu Cen from the bottom of his heart. He counted the things he and Xu Cen said with ten fingers after so many days It is clear that usually in the dormitory, the two are basically in a state of being disgusted with each other.

So Qi Wei felt strange when he saw Duan He and Xu Cen walking together. One was his brother and the other was someone he hated. Qi Wei found it strange no matter how he looked at it.

Wang Meng didn't have such a big prejudice against Xu Cen, he just felt that Xu Cen was a little dumb, unwilling to take the initiative to contact people, and had a high defense against anyone, so he was only curious about the relationship between Duan He and Xu Cen , I still don't understand how the relationship between these two people eased.

And Wang Meng always felt that Xu Cen looked at Duan He differently than usual, not so cold, nor so resistant, and his whole person seemed much softer.

Duan didn't know about Wang Meng and Qi Wei's careful thinking. In fact, he also wanted Wang Meng and Qi Wei to know more about Xu Cen. Maybe it would be good for Xu Cen. There are disadvantages but no advantages.

But Xu Cen has his own attitude and choice, so Duan He can only say nothing at the moment, and for the time being believes that once the boat arrives at the bridge, it will be straight.

Xu Cen has been working in the coffee shop for nearly 20 days. Except for the discomfort on the first day, Xu Cen has completely mastered this job. It's uncomfortable, but this is reality and cannot be changed.

Xu Cen has already received a lot of salary. Xu Cen eats three meals at his mother-in-law's. Her mother-in-law's fee is low, and Xu Cen usually does not buy other things, so after 20 days, except for the daily expenses Yes, Xu Cen has already saved a lot of money.

The military training was about to end, and the National Day was the end of the military training. Everyone went home after the holiday, and Duan He would surely go home too, so Xu Cen wanted to pay back all the money owed to Duan He before the National Day.

Xu Cen took out a small notebook from under his pillow, in which he wrote in detail what date and time he owed Duan He for what.

He was not familiar with Duan He back then, and Xu Cen had always accepted Duan He's kindness with trepidation, so from the first time Duan He sent him to the hospital, Xu Cen wrote down all the money Duan He spent on him. I am willing to owe favors, so I always think about when to return the money to Duan He.

In addition to Xu Cen's medical expenses, the notebook also includes the porridge that Duan He brought to Xu Cen for the first time in the hospital, and the porridge that Duan He threw on Xu Cen's body at the end, and the food that Duan He brought back from his mother-in-law for the first time. The small snacks presented by the customers who apologized, and even the bus fare that they sometimes gave when they went to part-time jobs.

At the beginning, I remembered these things just because I didn't want to owe Duan He money, even if it was a cent, he didn't want to owe Duan He, and at that time Duan He was like a stranger to him, he resisted Duan He's approach.

But gradually, the relationship between them changed. Duan He said that they were friends, and Xu Cen not only became less and less resistant to Duan He's approach, but became more and more adaptable. Once it made him feel that he was not alone, Duan He's actions would inadvertently bring Xu Cen the warmth he had been longing for.

The later records slowly evolved into Xu Cen's record of this warmth, as if written on paper, this warmth is a certainty and cannot escape.

Every number in the notebook is Duan He's concern for Xu Cen. Xu Cen roughly added up these expenses, and there were hundreds of dollars, mainly because Duan He spent a lot of money on the medical expenses at the beginning.

Xu Cen took out his own money and counted it, and paid back Duan He's money, and he still had some left.

The National Day is approaching, and the coffee shop owner is a foreigner. The National Day holiday closed the coffee shop and went back to his hometown, so Xu Cen and Duan He didn't go to the coffee shop to work tonight.

Duan He accompanied Xu Cen to eat her mother-in-law's nutritious and healthy meal for many days. No matter how green and healthy Duan He is, a carnivore can't stand it anymore. After the dissolution today, Duan He and Qi Wei Wang Meng made an appointment to eat barbecue. Duan He originally wanted to ask Xu Cen to go with him, but when he thought of Xu Cen's weak stomach, he forgot.

Duan He was alone when he came back in the evening, Xu Cen asked the other two people, Duan He said that Wang Meng and Qi Wei didn’t enjoy the barbecue, so he took a few classmates he met from military training to sing, and Duan He was also incomplete. Just go back to the bedroom first.

Xu Cen nodded and didn't ask any more questions. He reached out and took out the money he had prepared and handed it to Duan He, "This is the money I owe you. The total is 386. Here is 400. You can keep it."

Duan He frowned with doubts on his face, "When did you owe me money? Do you still remember so clearly?"

Duan He thought about it carefully, and the only money that Xu Cen "owed" him was the medical expenses he gave for Xu Cen. Hospital charges are lower.

Xu Cen lowered his head and didn't speak, but kept putting the money in front of Duan He, but Duan He didn't answer it, he couldn't figure out what else Xu Cen owed him.

Duan He asked again, "The medical expenses weren't so much back then, right?!"

Xu Cen looked up at Duan He, hesitated for a while and said to Duan He, "You take the money first."

Duan He glanced at Xu Cen, and then glanced to the side intentionally or unintentionally, just in time to glance at the small notebook on the table that Xu Cen hadn't had time to put away, Duan He reached out and took the notebook over.

"Hey!" Xu Cen saw it and wanted to stop it, but Duan He had already opened the notebook as soon as he yelled. The expression on Duan He's face changed from doubt to shock, to understanding, and then to disappointment. Xu Cen was stunned, and the expression on Duan He's face became colder and colder. Xu Cen had never seen that kind of expression on Duan He's face before.

There was deep disappointment in the sarcasm, Xu Cen didn't know where this feeling came from, but Duan He with a cold face scared him.

Xu Cen looked at Duan He cautiously, "What's wrong with you?"

Duan He opened the notebook and brought it in front of Xu Cen, his tone was no longer warm, "This is how you are friends? I thought we were already friends, but what is this? I remember every bit of it Make it clear, and then return the money to me, so clear, why, to draw a clear line?"

Xu Cen didn't know why Duan He thought this way, he wanted to explain, but Duan He didn't give him a chance to speak, "Xu Cen, do you not believe that someone will do anything for a friend, or do you not consider me a friend at all? What's going on in your mind? What are you made of? Iron or steel?! Don't you have any feelings at all? When will the defense in your heart be released?"

"Duan He, I..." Xu Cen wanted to refute, but found that he couldn't refute at all. What Duan He said was the truth, and he was always on guard. At the beginning, he did have the idea of ​​​​Duan He drawing a clear line , But now he doesn't think like this. He has put down a lot of guard against Duan He, and he just thinks that Duan He may need the money when he pays Duan He, and he doesn't like to owe others anything.

But in Duan He's eyes, all of this is just evidence to prove Xu Cen's cold heart.

"Duan He, I did think this way before, but believe it or not, I don't mean it at all now." Xu Cen's eyes were firm, he didn't want to lose Duan He as a friend because of such a trivial matter.

"Xu Cen, what are you resisting?"

Duan He looked straight at Xu Cen, trying to see something in his eyes, but unfortunately, after so long, he still couldn't understand Xu Cen. He could feel Xu Cen's emotional changes and knew The fear deep in Xu Cen's heart, but he still couldn't understand Xu Cen's eyes.Xu Cen has always resisted being in contact with people, but this is only a superficial phenomenon. What is the source of this resistance and what Xu Cen is really resisting, Xu Cen has never been willing to say, and he has always been unable to understand or guess.

Hearing this sentence, Xu Cen's eagerness to explain slowly calmed down. He unconsciously lowered his head slightly, and the corner of his mouth curled into a slight arc. Duan He didn't know what this expression meant.

From Xu Cen's expression, he felt ridicule, fear, inferiority complex and almost invisible sadness.

Xu Cen raised his head again, staring at Duan He's questioning eyes, "Don't you want to know what I'm resisting? Let me tell you..."

Xu Cen paused, Xu Cen was hesitating, Duan He suddenly didn't want to listen to the next words, he had an intuition, if he didn't listen to the next words, it might be the best for Xu Cen and him, because he is only now Realizing that he was forcing Xu Cen to expose his scar again.

Xu Cen's voice came, obviously very close, but he felt that he couldn't catch it, "I resist contact with people, I don't trust anyone, more than ten years ago because of my cheap trust, that person and his accomplice swaggered Entered my "home", punched and kicked, and took away my sister so violently. That day, my sister hid me, and she told me not to make a sound no matter what, but I really didn't make a sound , I watched my sister cry and get farther and farther away from me, and I haven't heard from her until now."

Xu Cen's voice was a little choked up, "My sister is only eight years old, she may have been sold, or sent to the countryside to become a child bride and childbirth tool, or maybe she was beaten and kicked, disabled and begging on the street, maybe... because she was disobedient... ...was directly killed..."

Xu Cen looked away and stared out of the window. In the blink of an eye, Duan He seemed to see the tears in Xu Cen's eyes, "I don't know how many nightmares I have had over the years. The dreams are full of sisters of all kinds. Such a tragic experience, she asked me to save her, but I didn't even know where she was."

"She is my only relative, and the only person in this world who truly cares about and takes care of me."

Xu Cen turned his head around and looked at Duan He again. Duan He's face was shocked and pitiful, but there was... distressed.

"Since then, I dare not trust anyone anymore. I am afraid that once I get close to someone, it will bring disaster to the people around me. This is my resistance, my fear, do you understand? Are you satisfied? "

When Xu Cen's scar was uncovered, it was shockingly bloody. Duan He suddenly felt a little regretful, why did he have to ask Xu Cen about the things that Xu Cen had been avoiding all this time, and he knew that Xu Cen would feel uncomfortable when he said these things, but he was forced to do so because of trivial matters. Xu Cen showed him the bloody wound.

Duan He just wanted to slap himself twice now, the expression on Xu Cen's face was very complicated, the tears in his eyes had disappeared, and he was forcefully forced back.

For so many years, Xu Cen was overwhelmed by these things. That day was his nightmare. In the dream, his sister's cries for help kept ringing in his ears. She said, "Xu Cen, help me, help me , Xu Cen, why didn't you save me? My whole life was completely ruined because of you! It's because you didn't save me!"

Xu Cen has been living in fear and guilt. His sister is the only light in his life, but he completely extinguished this light. Since then, he has been shrouded in darkness.

After holding it in his heart for more than ten years and feeling guilty for more than ten years, when he said it suddenly today, Xu Cen felt a moment of relaxation.

Duan He didn't expect Xu Cen to have such an experience. Xu Cen has an older sister. More than ten years ago, the siblings depended on each other. Xu Cen is still so young, where are Xu Cen's parents?

There are still unknown secrets about Xu Cen, but Duan He doesn't care anymore. If Xu Cen's pain is the price, then Duan He would rather not know those so-called secrets.

Xu Cen's shoulders were trembling slightly, Duan He knew that Xu Cen was holding back, so he couldn't help crying.Duan He couldn't help feeling sour because of Xu Cen's stubborn strength, such Xu Cen was particularly distressing.

Duan He walked over and gently hugged Xu Cen in his arms. Xu Cen was stunned for a moment, but it was gone in an instant, because Duan He's embrace was much wider and warmer than he imagined. He wanted to put his chin on Duan He's shoulder presumptuously, and then reached out to wrap his arms around Duan He's waist, but his reason told him that he couldn't.

Duan He patted Xu Cen on the back and whispered in Xu Cen's ear, "You can trust me in the future, and I will never disappoint your trust."