rainy night talk

Chen Zhen had imagined what William would look like when he was working, but it was by no means what Meryl said—there was an essential difference between being calm and being cold.

The more we got in touch, the more Chen Zhen knew how suitable that face was for a smile.He even remembered how the blond hair was so conspicuous in the crowd when he met William for the first time, and those blue eyes were like the endless sea under the sun...

"What are you thinking?"

Chen Zhen was startled, and the control panel fell out of his hand, twirled in the air, and then fell straight down.

When the control board was about to touch the ground closely, William quickly reached out and caught the board.

"Sorry, I scared you." William handed the control panel back to Chen Zhen.

The images in his mind coincided with the real characters, and Chen Zhen felt as if his heart missed a beat. He managed to find his voice, "You..."

"I?"

Chen Zhen wanted to accuse William of his behavior, but found that the other party had already apologized. When he was flustered, he found a topic casually.

"Meryl told me about your past."

"Oh, she said..." It sounded like William didn't care what Meryl said, "What do you think?"

"How do you feel?" Chen Zhen frowned, "I don't understand what you're talking about."

William moved closer to Chen Zhen, their arms were almost touching each other.

William asked, "You have no idea at all?"

Chen Zhen cleared his throat and said seriously, "Do you want me to analyze you?"

This proposal made William raise his eyebrows, and he made a "please" gesture.

Chen Zhen glanced at William, hoping that he would not regret his choice.

"Through Meryl's description, I found that there is a huge gap between your current image and the past. Rule out the possibility that you deliberately covered up..."

Seeing William slowly raised the corner of his mouth, Chen Zhen couldn't help but glared at him.

"I think only the stimuli caused by major events can cause such a change, mainly through the superposition and coverage of memories to reorganize the emotional cornerstone." Chen Zhen tilted his head slightly, his eyes moved from the ground to the shoulders that were leaning on each other, he said in confusion : "However, the shift is usually downward."

"Is this unusual?"

"No, I just think..." Chen Zhen looked at William with a calm face, and he thought about how to word it so as not to offend the other party, "I think it's more like the original overridden personality being reinvoked. I guess... Earlier, your cognition changed, you denied the current state, and gathered the extroverted emotional factors, and the suppressed state made you present another look."

Speaking of this, Chen Zhen was a little nervous. Usually, this kind of analysis is more like poking at people's pain points. Few people can still face him with a smile after he finishes speaking.But Chen Zhen thought about it, isn't this what he wanted?

So, he pretended not to see William's darkened eyes, and asked casually, "What have you been through? Did someone die?"

"Yes." William's answer was short but heavy.

Chen Zhen raised his heart, "Lover?"

William didn't answer, instead he asked, "Did I tell you that I grew up in an orphanage?"

Chen Zhen felt something pricked his heart, he shook his head stiffly and slowly.

"My parents were both soldiers. They died in a riot. After that, I lived in different relatives' homes." William looked down at Chen Zhen, and found that the other party was stunned for some reason. His expression showed a kind of Sad, but for some reason, he seemed a little dazed.William chuckled, "Are you worried about me?"

Chen Zhen said angrily, "Don't change the subject."

"Then let's talk about it somewhere else, shall we?"

As soon as the words fell, the commissioning officer who had finished his lunch break appeared behind the sliding door.

Chen Zhen didn't know why he followed William, and reason kept ringing the alarm, but soon, Chen Zhen couldn't hear it.

In the boundless universe, thousands of stars shine brightly, and a huge glass-like cover separates this place from the other.In the distance, the mecha under test draws an orange tail in the dark night, gorgeous and wonderful in this quiet space.

No matter how realistic the simulated space in the Astronomy Museum is, it is not as shocking as going to the top of the space station to see it with your own eyes.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" Chen Zhen sighed softly.

"Yes, it's beautiful."

William's deep voice exploded in his ears, and Chen Zhen looked away, only to find that he met a pair of eyes reflecting the stars.Chen Zhen heard the sound of his heart beating faster, pounding, echoing in his chest, and his face gradually became hot.

He said dryly, "You can go on."

As Chen Zhen expected, a lonely and helpless child who just wanted to attract the attention of adults turned into an annoying troublemaker, and was finally thrown into the orphanage by his unbearable relatives.

"I wish they would throw me back at my parents, like they used to do." William smiled self-deprecatingly. "Finally, I finally realized the reality. I no longer escaped from the orphanage and adjusted to life there. And became their heads." Speaking of this, William proudly showed his fist.

However, Chen Zhen was not infected by this humor, his lips were almost pursed into a line, showing a tense state.

William quickly said: "In fact, living there is not bad. I met a group of 'like-minded' people, and I no longer feel lonely." When you are scolded, you are no longer alone."

Chen Zhen felt as if his heart was pinched by something, which made him feel a tightness in his chest.He felt that he was not a good listener, because when William paused, he would just answer mechanically: "What happened next?"

"Later, a special child came to us. He was very quiet." William said: "It was introverted or withdrawn. He stayed in the corner like a wooden man every day, almost silently. I tried to make him speak out and get close to him. Or provocation, but they all failed. Finally, one time, I succeeded."

William looked at Chen Zhen, and didn't reveal the answer until he was sure that he saw the desire for knowledge in those dark eyes.

"I kissed him." William smirked, "and he slapped me."

Chen Zhen looked back with a look of reproach.

William explained: "You know, that was the first time he reacted to the outside world in nearly a month. After the dean knew about it, he let me live in his room in order to encourage me. After that, we became close stand up."

The tone at the end showed an almost complacent tone, but Chen Zhen, who had vaguely guessed the ending, couldn't hear it easily.He hesitated and asked, "What happened to that child in the end?"

"Most of the time, he still doesn't say a word, but slowly, you can read his thoughts from his eyes and actions. He is like another opposite of me. I think this feeling is very It’s amazing, we seem to be symbiotic..." William turned sideways, leaning his back against the railing, a shadow fell on his face, "One night, I was woken up by him. I was so happy, that was the first time I heard He spoke." The soft but stuttering pronunciation seemed to ring in his ears again, William was a little dazed, "He said he was going to be taken away and transformed into a monster, he was very scared... I found that he had a fever, But without realizing what that was, I just comforted him and said: I am the son of a hero, I will protect you, as long as I am by your side you will be fine."

William lowered his head, his pupils looked like an endless tumbling sea, suppressing even bigger waves in the depths.

"The next day he was delirious with a fever. He clung to me, but I just told him he needed to see a doctor." William's eyes moved to his fingers, and he stared there, as if a pair of small hands were still holding each other. Looking there, "I made a promise to him, but I couldn't keep it. I said I would be there for him, but I didn't."

Chen Zhen felt that he was enveloped by invisible pressure, and his heart was tangled up. He opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound, so he could only listen to William's continuation.

"People who thought they were omnipotent when they were young will find out how stupid they are later, and there is always a price to pay. This time, I paid a huge price."

"He failed to survive the awakening period."

"he died."