Canary [Rebirth]

An Zhizhou's dormitory is half a school away from the laboratory, and it rained heavily all the way. Zheng Xia looked at An Zhizhou, who was half a head shorter than herself, with his feet in the water, "An An, are you Not very good at holding an umbrella?"

An Zhizhou was taken aback, his wrist was very thin, and when he grasped the handle of the umbrella, blue veins appeared from his white skin. He looked thin and weak. He said, "Did you get caught in the rain? I didn't support others. Pass the umbrella."

He paused, a little embarrassed, and even lowered his voice a little, "Probably not holding up well."

Since he was a child, he had no friends or relatives, and neither had anyone held an umbrella for him, nor had he ever held an umbrella for others, so the experience of precepts and deeds and his own practice were blank, and it was inevitable that he was lacking in how to take care of others.

Zheng Xia smiled, grabbed An Zhizhou's thin white wrist with one hand, and took control of the umbrella handle, "It doesn't matter, there are two of us, as long as one can hold an umbrella, isn't it enough?"

Zheng Xia is tall and has a strong hand. He grasped the handle of the umbrella firmly. Unfortunately, his technique of holding the umbrella seems to be poor. , but he didn't even cover his shoulders.

Only then did An Zhizhou realize why he was rushing to hold the umbrella, asked a few questions, and then pushed to the other side.

Zheng Xia is good at hiding, but there is only such a small area under the umbrella, and she can't escape by hiding from left to right, so she pulled An Zhizhou into her arms, and said seriously, "Anyway, I'm covered all over my body. It's all drenched, and I don't feel a little bit more."

They messed around like this for quite a while, but fortunately there was no one on the road, and it was rare that they passed by one in a hurry and didn't know how to observe carefully, so Zheng Xia escaped unharmed.An Zhizhou had nothing to do with him.

He never had anything to do with Zheng Xia.

The journey was not too long, and we soon arrived at the dormitory in Anzhizhou.He is a graduate student now, living in a two-person dormitory. The other person in the dormitory is a local and has a girlfriend. He usually falls in love or goes home when he is free. It is rare to catch him in the dormitory.However, for the sake of conservatism, An Zhizhou sent a message in advance and took Zheng Xia back after receiving a safe reply.

An Zhizhou opened the door, turned on the light, turned sideways to Zheng Xia outside and said, "Come in."

The two sides of the dormitory are symmetrically placed with desks, wardrobes, storage rooms and beds. The furniture on one side is clean, without any sense of private life.The other side is similar, everything is neat and tidy, if there are not a few books and unfinished notes on the desk, it seems to be no different.

An Zhizhou pulled out the chair, not at all disgusted that Zheng Xia was covered in rainwater, and opened the closet to look through it again, "You go take a shower first, put on, put on first, can my clothes be okay?"

Speaking of this, An Zhizhou blushed a little.

Zheng Xia was drying off the water stains on his hands, and carefully flipped through a few pages of An Zhizhou's book, which was full of the other party's neat and beautiful notes. Hearing this, he was taken aback, and smiled again, "Okay, put on An'an's first."

The rain slapped coldly on the glass window loudly, the bathroom door was closed, and An Zhizhou could no longer see Zheng Xia.His heart was empty, as if he was at a loss, and felt that everything just now seemed to be fake, a dream made in the laboratory.

About a few years ago, An Zhizhou would stay up all night thinking about Zheng Xia, half asleep and half awake, and saw Zheng Xia many times, as if it was real, but it turned into a dream when he woke up.

After a period of time later, he would no longer dream. He just thought about it once in a while.Perhaps because of this, An Zhizhou didn't know what to do or say.

An Zhizhou stood for a while, then took a few steps back, sat on the chair, and held onto the armrest tightly.His trousers were very wet, and because of standing still for a long time, they left a puddle of water on the ground.

Along with the heavy rain, there was lightning and thunder outside, and there seemed to be problems with the circuit in the old dormitory. The originally bright lights also flickered, shaking in front of An Zhizhou's eyes, like the last moment before waking up from a dream.

When Zheng Xia came out of the bathroom, the pool of water had already spread, and half of Anzhizhou was vaguely reflected on it.

He hasn't moved for a long time.

Zheng Xia washed it quickly, and he was wearing the largest T-shirt in Anzhizhou, and he looked tight. His whole figure was completely exposed, and the shape of his abdominal muscles could be clearly reflected in his abdomen.

An Zhizhou only glanced at it and stopped looking.

Zheng Xia walked over, he rubbed An Zhizhou's head, lowered his head, his movements were light and gentle, "An An, I have something to tell you."

An Zhizhou's ears moved, and he responded.

From Zheng Xia's words in the laboratory, An Zhizhou didn't seem to have any doubts at all, and the gap that hadn't been seen in the past few years didn't exist. That thing from years ago.

Because he is afraid.

Zheng Xia smiled helplessly, swallowed back her sigh, with deep wrinkles engraved between her brows, "I am the one who is sorry for you."

He is sorry for An Zhizhou, since the confession seven years ago, he has pushed An Zhizhou to a road of no return.

But Zheng Xia didn't understand this until a few years ago.

It starts with Zheng Xia's confession with An Zhizhou.

When Zheng Xia fell in love with An Zhizhou, An Zhizhou was not yet an adult, only 17 years old, young, but not small in ideas.Zheng Xia was dazzled by love. While he felt that An Zhizhou was too young to bear the burden of love, he couldn't help confessing.

Because it was the first time in my life that I met someone I liked so much, the taste of love was too wonderful, so I couldn't help it.

Before that snowy night, Zheng Xia thought a lot about his relationship with An Zhizhou, he even thought about how to expose his relationship and tell the world about his love.

Then, he was rejected.

Everything becomes empty.

This is impossible.An Zhizhou is young, and he has never revealed any inclination towards homosexuality.Zheng Xia thought bitterly, maybe he really just pretended to be affectionate, and An Zhizhou's feelings for him were only gratitude and friendship.

In addition, grandpa suddenly had an accident, and there was a problem at work at the same time. Zheng Xia was at a loss and had no choice.

He thought that he should respect An Zhizhou's choice.In this world, heterosexuality is much easier to live than homosexuality. Moreover, I am an actor with a sensitive identity. Once exposed, there will be an uproar, which is not good for me or An Zhizhou.

He found many reasons, but none of them were worth it, and that was that An Zhizhou didn't like him.

But he likes An Zhizhou, and he couldn't help watching his An An suffer, so he gave the tuition fees for the next few years with a shameless face.

After a while, Zheng Xia finally calmed down, he always felt that An Zhizhou should like him.

Love is like a cough, and no one can hide it.

But he didn't expect An Zhizhou to hide it abruptly.

Zheng Xia didn't dare to disturb An Zhizhou's life. He grew up so big and lived a hard life. He should live happily and have a bright future for most of his life, and he shouldn't be entangled by people he doesn't like.But he didn't give up, he didn't change the number, he kept waiting, waiting for An Zhizhou's call.

He waited, and waited, and waited for several years, but he didn't suspend the number until he couldn't escape an important foreign job.

When he was filming that movie abroad, he was very appreciated. He made appointments one after another, and he stayed for a long time before returning to China.When he returned to China, it was Grandpa Chen who was seriously ill and was bedridden, and he came back to accompany him in bed.

Grandpa asked him: "I have lived to such an old age, and I will die when I die. It's no big deal. The only wish now is that you can't find someone to be with you and be with you for the rest of your life."

Zheng Xia was feeding the medicine, and after hearing this, she was slightly taken aback, "Probably, it's because the fate didn't come."

Grandpa Chen coughed violently twice, his head was full of white hair, "I had such a wish before I died, wouldn't you feel at ease if you let me die?"

Zheng Xia was spoiled by him since he was a child, and he can be regarded as willful in front of his grandfather. He said bluntly, "But I can't spend my whole life with someone I don't like because of you."

"What do you like or not? If you are together, your whole life will pass."

Zheng Xia stopped talking.

Different.He couldn't forget about An Zhizhou, even if that little heartless guy didn't like him at all, for so many years, he didn't even send a message.

Maybe he was scared by himself.

Zheng Xia didn't think about it any more, and was busy running between work and grandpa, so busy that he was sick and hospitalized. The grandpa and grandson looked at each other silently, and finally smiled at each other.

At five o'clock in the morning, Zheng Xia got up from the bed before he recovered from his illness, and went to catch a publicity event in other places. Before leaving, he took a look at his grandfather.

Grandpa Chen didn't sleep, he struggled for a long time, and told Zheng Xia what happened before he died.

Including what he said to An Zhizhou, what he did, and even deliberately broke his leg in order to threaten the child.

Zheng Xiaku sat there overnight, talked to his manager, put off all the work for the next week, and flew back to Ningjin.

But he didn't find his An An.Anzhen passed away long ago, and Anzhizhou also moved out of his household registration after going to university. In addition to the renovation of the old city in Ningjin, this community was demolished some time ago, and the household registration information was mixed. Zheng Xia could not find the household registration information of Anzhizhou.

He went to the school in Anzhi Prefecture again. Unexpectedly, because of the renovation of the old city, this school merged with another school, and the files were sealed, and no information could be found.

The world is so big, if a person loses it, he loses it, and he can never find it again.

Knowing that he couldn't find any results, Zheng Xia still wore a mask and sunglasses in that summer, and wandered around the school and the original community for a week.

In the end, he didn't know how he got back, maybe he was tied back abruptly by his agent and assistant.

Speaking of this, Zheng Xia's tone was low. He raised his head, wanting to touch An Zhizhou's cheek, but stopped in mid-air again.

"I am such a useless adult. You are still so young, and my An'an is so young, so you tried your best to protect me. But I didn't think of anything. "

Zheng Xia once thought that she would become the light in An Zhizhou's life, but in the end she became his abyss.

An Zhizhou's long eyelashes trembled violently, like the first wings of a butterfly, weak and beautiful, and he solemnly refuted Zheng Xia's words.

"No, Brother Zheng, you are not."