ma'am i want to be quiet

With the warmth in his hands and longing for happiness on the one hand, and anxiety and fear of the unknown on the other, Feng Tiantian weighed it up and felt that he had to accept the reality, even if the reality was cruel and bloody, because life must be real, and the real is the real.The most serious thing is that Shu Fan is going to get married, she knows about it, thinking about it like this, nothing can defeat her.

"Tiantian, I love you, I really love you. I, I can't wait to be with you every day and grow old with you. But, I can't hold your hand and walk down, I can't stand with you, I can't even let you Accept everyone's blessings, because I can't marry you." Shu Fan let go of Feng Tiantian's hand while talking.Even though she was prepared in her heart, she was still unwilling to accept the pain of Feng Tiantian letting go of her hand, so she took the initiative to let go.

"Why?" Hearing Shu Fan's confession that he likes her, Feng Tiantian's heart blossomed with joy, but Ketian saw the despair in Shu Fan's eyes, Feng Tiantian's anxiety intensified, she grabbed Shu Fan's hand in a panic asked.

"Because, I am a woman, just like you. I am a woman. I love you, and I am willing to marry you, but are you willing to marry me like this?" Shu Fan said, gritting his teeth, and held Feng Tiantian's hand. Put your hands on your chest.Promise you a white first promise, do you dare to hold my hand?

"You, you, you, you lied to me?!" The tenderness of the tentacles and the relief in Shu Fan's eyes made Feng Tiantian desperately know that the tenderness under her hand was real, and she knew what it meant!But, how could Shu Fan be a woman, how could she be a woman?She likes him, she likes him so much!Feng Tiantian even thought that when she really couldn't let go, even if Shu Fan married a wife, she couldn't bear the lovesickness and had to be forced to be a concubine. But why is Shu Fan a woman?Why?This is much more serious than Shu Fan's upcoming marriage, which directly cut off the possibility of the two of them holding hands, and cut off all her hopes.All in all, no matter what she thinks, how hard she tries, all desires will no longer exist.

"You lied to me?" Feng Tiantian suddenly broke away from Shu Fan's palm, and looked at her in panic.

"Yes, I lied to you. I didn't explain my manhood. I lied to you that I was going to get married. I just hoped that you would leave me. I hope you can have a normal life, and I hope you can be happy, because these I can't even give it to you, right?" Shu Fan knew what the result would be when he looked at Feng Tiantian's fearful eyes, his body, which was struggling to support, fell down on the bed in frustration.I should have known it earlier. In the open age of the previous life, many countries were not publicly blessed. In such a feudal and conservative age, how could anyone accept it?I should have given up a long time ago, but I can't let go of the thought in my heart, the thought of possible success.The result of the final effort tells myself that the fantasy will eventually come to nothing.

"You were so gentle and kind to me, and allowed me to grow old forever, but you turned out to be a woman. So you rejected all the girls in Feng County, and rejected all marriage proposals. Is this the root cause?" Feng Tiantian smiled wryly. Looking at Shu Fan calmly, the despair in his heart could not be suppressed no matter what.

"Yes, I can't harm them." Shu Fan shook his head and smiled bitterly, she didn't want to explain too much.The root cause of her rejection of everyone is that she can't open up, doesn't want to take responsibility, doesn't want to be restrained, and wants to be free.When I decide to reach out, when I desperately hand over the thread that binds me, the immediate reality is being rejected.Perhaps, I knew that there would be such a result, so I isolated everyone.The only person who wants to walk into his heart is rejecting himself at this moment.

"But, why did you say these things to me? Have you ever said these things to the girl you rejected before?" Feng Tiantian sat slumped on the chair, not daring to look at Shu Fan. s face.

"Because I don't want to deceive you, I want you to know the real me, the real Shu Fan. I, Shu Fan, as a woman, she likes you, she wants to go to the first white date with you, and wants to hold hands with you for a lifetime If you are willing, then in this life, she will be loyal to you, love you, protect you, and make you happy all your life. Tiantian, are you willing to spend your whole life with a woman?" Shu Fan didn't want Feng Tiantian to be entangled On the matter of deceiving her.Now that she has decided to let go of everything, she has decided to let go of all her burdens, and she has made the determination to die and survive. She must ask Feng Tiantian for an answer, no matter whether it is good or bad, a clear answer.

"You lied to me, you lied to me? You were so good to me, so good and you lied to me? I hate you, I hate you!" Feng Tiantian didn't answer Shu Fan's question at all, just ran away crying and shouting.

I promise you a white-headed covenant, just to miss you.The outstretched hand finally fell through.

Vanilla expressed that she had a headache, Feng Tiantian opened the door and ran away crying without even looking at her, as if the sky had fallen.

"Mr. Shu, what did you say to Miss?" Mr. Shu finally came to visit Mrs. Miss, she recovered from her illness after much difficulty, they finally found Mr. Shu, but after some conversation, Mrs. Shu ran away crying.Vanilla said it was a headache, the two of you couldn't calm down a bit, she was just a maid, why did she worry so much?

"It's okay, I've made it clear to the young lady that she will never think of me again, don't want to see me again, and don't want others to mention me again. In the future, try not to mention me in front of her, take good care of her, and protect her. She's in a bad mood right now, go and chase her, and don't let her have any accidents." Shu Fan said to Vanilla very flatly.Vanilla saw Shu Fan's calm expression, but her eyes were despairing and dull, she hurried to chase after her young lady, no matter what, the young lady is the most important thing.

If Feng Tiantian's heart is gloomy, Shu Fan's heart is desolate.He put his most important and fragile facts in front of Feng Tiantian, and honestly confessed everything, hoping to let that person see his sincerity.However, Feng Tiantian ran away crying and scared.Therefore, no matter where she is or how hard she tries, she is always alone.Alone, helpless, alone, forever lonely.

That's good, at least I put my sincerity in front of Feng Tiantian and made an effort. As long as Feng Tiantian accepts, Shu Fan feels that even if there is a mountain of swords and fire, she is willing to give and walk to Feng Tiantian's side.However, the man left, leaving in fear.Sure enough, people in the world cannot accept things that violate worldly morality, and the happiness they long for is a dream after all.

Shu Fan let herself collapse on the bed, let her thoughts wander, let her body sink into the abyss, and ignored it, because she knew that there was no one or anything worth caring about in this world.

"Miss, are you waiting for me? Why are you running so fast? What did Mr. Shu tell you, and let me take good care of you?" Vanilla ran after Feng Tiantian, completely unaware that her lady wanted to go where?

"Xiangcao, go back, I want to be alone." Feng Tiantian calmly said to Xiangcao.

"Miss, let's go home, your body is just right, you can't run around." Vanilla said worriedly.Feng Tiantian's body was covered because of Mr. Shu's illness, and it finally recovered after the relationship between the two eased. Now the conflict between the two seems to be more serious, and Xiangcai doesn't want Feng Tiantian's body to have any problems again.Because Mr. Shu seems to mean that he will never get in touch with each other until he dies, and there is also medicine for heart disease for Feng Tiantian to take.

"Don't worry, I won't make myself sad, I just want to think about some things quietly, give me some time, I need to filter the matter between me and Shu Fan." Feng Tiantian's eyes were so calm that Vanilla had to agree.

"Miss, what did Mr. Shu say to you? He even climbed over the wall to see you, he must really love you." Xiang Cao really didn't want Feng Tiantian to be sad anymore, thinking that it was Shu Fan who left just now With despair in his eyes, he decided to help matchmaking.In the past, Mr. Shu avoided the young lady, but now Mr. Shu approached him proactively. Why was Mr. Shu injured instead? Vanilla expressed his puzzlement.

"I know, I love him too, but I found that I can't love him anymore." Feng Tiantian said bitterly.When I touched it, I realized that my face was full of tears. It turned out that you can make me so sad.

"Miss, what's the matter, you can tell me if you have anything to do. Vanilla can go and tell Mr. Shu, you are such a good match, you can't separate because of a misunderstanding." In order to meet Shu Fan, they tried everything. They love each other so much, they can't separate because of misunderstanding.

"There is no misunderstanding, and I hope it is a misunderstanding, but it is true, it is really impossible." Feng Tiantian said with a sigh.Feng Tiantian has completely given up, the despair at this moment is more painful than when Shu Fan said she was going to get married.It's ridiculous to think of the idea of ​​wanting to marry Shu Fan as a concubine who has no self-esteem.Although it was wronged and humble, as long as she could be with Shu Fan, she was willing.Thinking about it now, such humbleness is an extravagant wish.

"Shu Gongzi overcame the wall for you, and was taken into prison by the master for you, what else is impossible." Vanilla didn't understand.Obviously Mr. Shu came to see the young lady, why did the young lady give up by herself.

"There are too many impossible things in the world, and too many wishes that cannot be fulfilled. Some things are really beyond our control. The reality is too cruel." Feng Tiantian said mockingly.Thinking about it, the wish I made to the God of the River back then really came to nothing.

"It's up to people, Miss, if you tell me, maybe Vanilla can help you find a way, but it's really impossible to let the master find a way. The master is a very powerful person, there is nothing he can't do." Vanilla knows it, and can protect Feng Tiantian What a powerful person Feng Chengzhou has been for so many years, and how superb his methods are.

The author has something to say:

Shu Fan: Why did you run away?Heart hurts!

Feng Tiantian: Nonsense, you have changed from a man to a woman, and you haven't given them time to change their minds?

Shu Fan: Then, how long will it take?

Feng Tiantian: Depends on your mood! (Tsundere face, come and coax me, come and coax me!)